he looked back at me and gave me a nasty look and he was gone."
i shot up in covered in a layer of sweat,i couldn't breath.i felt so icerlated from everyone,i felt unwanted and it hurt,it really did.
i was wrong i can't be though or brave i'm weak.
i looked at my phone to see the time was 2am i was now 17 but to be honest i didn't feel like thinking about it so i erased it fro my mind.i ran my shaking fingures through my hair in stress as i closed my eyes taking deep breaths,
i heard someone cough and i looked up to see jacob standing their in only is boxers.i looked at him and then moved my eyes to the coughed again so i looked at him "what did i do wrong now?"i asked expecting him to have a go at me, "nothing..i just wanted to sat happy birthday"he said looking around my room scratching his head.
i gave him a weak smile "my birthday is the last thing on my mind but thanks anyway"i mummbled he sat down on my bed next to me making my bed go down lower.
he pulled me into a bear hug and i felt my body crubble and i wrapped my arms aroud his back as i cried into his shoulder,jake tighten his arms around me and i let the tears drench his shoulder.
"why are you being nice to me when i was horrible to you?"i asked as tears spilled down my checks.
"because you're my little sister and i love you"he told me as if it was obvise "you shouldn't love me"i stated bitterly as i cried even more "But i do and i don't want to see you hurt,you mean so much to me and dad you're the most important girl in my life"he told me in a proud tone.
i cried even more when he told me this "i know you're inlove with paul and i know paul loves you but..."he couldn't think of a word so i finished the sentance for him,
"what you mean it you're inlove with paul but he don't love you in that way yeah i get it" jacob pulled away so he could see my face "no that's not what i ment. you know all about wolvesand imprinting"he corrected me.
"yeah well the imprint mus be wrong"i told his as i wiped my tears away "it's never wrong"he stated "and maybe you're right about leah"he admitted shly and i nodded my head.
"dad hates me"i asummed i traced the patten of my duevt "nnaa he's just pissed"jacob casualy said "jacob..he's never been that angry"i said as i raised an eye brow "yeah i know but he don't hate who could?"he asked as he grabbed my cheek.
"paul.."i mummbled under my breath,jacob sat up stright and looked at me "you have to let go of him carla"he paused "he...don't want what you want"the truely broke my heart when jacob said those words but i knew he was right.
"i can't..while i'm in la push"i pushed the folder towards him and watched his eyes scan over it,his eyes grew big "ENGLAND!"he yelled but i sshhed him so dad wouldn't wake up.
"no way are you going all the way to england"he whispered i shrugged my shoulders "i haven't decided yet...i donno yet"i told him honestly "okay..well i'm gonna go to bed i've got patrol in 2 hours"jacob whispered as he got off the bed letting it spring back into shape he walked to the door but stopped him "jake"i whispered and he turned around "i love you"i told him truthly he smiled and walked out of my i heard his bedroom door close i got into my bed and tried sleep but it was no use.
i tossed and turned but i just couldn't sleep,i gave up with trying to sleep so i open my blacony doors a little to let some fresh air i cralwed back into my bed wrappnig the covers around me hoping that would do the trick and luckly i fell into a deep sleep.
PAULS P.O.V.
i tried to sleep before i had patrol with jacob but i couldn't stop thinking about Carla,i felt like the biggest cunt on the earth but i did what i did for both of us.
i didn't feel as if i was ready and i wanted Carla to live her life before she was stuck with he forever,i know it will be painful but theirs no going back now.
It breaks my heart to know that she don't belive me when i tell her i love her because i do love her more than anything.
i came out of my own thoughts and chucked on my cut offs ready for patrol,i walked out of my house and down the road with my head down.i could of ran in wolf form but i chose to walk it instead.
when i reached the black's house i could smell Carla's sent,it smelt of sweet strawberrys,it my heart was telling me to go and see but my brain was telling me to call for jacob.
i let my brain tell me what to do like it usally did,i howled loudly and mintues later Jacob walked out the house in his black cut offs.i walked towards him and he walked towards me,
"you're early that anit like you"jacob mummbled out wuth a tired yawn "yeah well i couldn't sleep"i told him was my best mate theirs no need to lie,
"thinking about Carla?"jacob asked but it sounded more like a statment "..yeah.."i mummbled as i scratched my head "look Paul your my best mate and everything but Carla's my little can't play with her feelings because i will kill you litterly"he warned me,
"i'm staying away from her for a reason jacob i don't want to but i have to"i told him through gritted teeth starting to get angry,"whats your reason then paul! because no is stopping you from being with her!"he shouted and i knew i was starting to annoy him.
"we've been over this,i..i don't want to take her life away from her"he winned back at him as we walked through the forest in silance for a bit untill jacob spoke again "she's really hurting" i ran my fingures through my short hair in stress "that made me feel a whole lot better"i said sacrcastlicly jacob held his hands up in defence "i'm just saying.." he said incontly "yeah..well don't"i snapped back at him,before he could say a word back i phased in my wolf and took over quil and started to patrol.
Jacob's thoughts came into my mind as i patrolled with him,he was thinking about Carla he even showed me some of his memorie which made me feel like utter shit,i didn't want to let my thought go wild but now and then one or two would slip out and into jacobs mind.
patrol was really hated it wath a passion and i would inform sam on that one,i spent about 3 hours and a half patrolling before i couldn't take it anymore,i ran all the way to my back yard and phased back chucking on my cutoffs and runing inside and colapsed onto the sofa.i tried to stop thinking about carla for what felt like hours but i couldn't help myself,after what felt like hours i finally fell asleep.
CARLAS P.O.V.
i awoke from my sweet dreams of Paul and then realitey hit me and i felt like shit.I didn't want him to make my birthday shitty for me,thank god georgia had planned a day busy day giving me no time to think about him.
i rolled out of bed and walked out my room ready for dad to have a go at me but by my surprise no one was in the living room,i shrugged my shoulders and stummbled into the kitchen.i saw Dad,Jacob,Sue,Sam,Emily,Jared,Kim,Seth,Leah,Quil,Embry,Collin,Brady and Paul.
My eyes couldn't help but linger on him for a little but i ripped my eyes away from him.i saw dad smile at me but i knew tomorrow i would be in shit again but i wasn't bothered.
"happy birthday pricesess"dad grinned while wishing me a happy birthday and i smilied back at him,i was happy to see everyone was a table with loads of prestants wrapped in pink wrapping paper,i felt so poilt i had been a little bitch lately i didn't deserve all of this.
Sue came over to me hold a plate of pancackes shapped in love heart with starwberries just like my mum use to make me.i giggled"aaww thank you sue"i told her as i gave her a smile as she handed me tha plate,Sue kissed me on the cheek and let me sit down.i stuffed my pancakes.
they were amazing and i was stuffed i rubbed my belly in satifaction and Jacob laughed at me and i grinned at him."PRESANT TIME!"dad shouted and i laughed at his excitment,dad passed my presant after presant and they were all lovely. i got bath bombs,a new bag,a dimond neckless,a pair of heels,earings,a phone case with a picture of me and georgia on it,50 shades of grey movie and so much more.
the door swung over to reavile georgia hold a big full of presants and she was blaring out the song 'My Girl' she was singing along pouint to me which made me blush and then Jacob and Dad joined in and then everyone was sining but Paul and i couldn't help but go competlely red and put my face in my hands and i laughed.
When the song finished georgia gave me a massive hug ahe pulled away and shouted at the top of her lungs "HAPPY BIRTHDAY BITCH FACE!"and we both laughed but i swear i heard Paul growl.
"will do slapper"i told her as i litterly pushed the gift bag into my face.i put my had in the bag and pulled out a sex whip and on the end was a red love heart.
"this could come in handy"i stated as i whiped in on the plam of my hand and she laughed and so did i but everyone else looked shocked at our sense of i pulled out sexy sailor outfit,i held it up a "orlabord the sex boat"i yelled out as i went into a laughing fit ang georgia made it worse by saying "put yout anchore in my harbor" even Leah,Sue and Kim laughed.
After the laughing fit the girls had i put my hand back in the bag to pull out fluffy handcuffs and a chain and a black cat mask with leather boots,stocking and a mathcing corsets in the colours black,red,pink and blue.
"ooww very nice"Sue said and dad looked at her as if she had grown 2 heads "what!? i do still have sex"sue yelled and seth overed his ears and swore.
i was so shocked at my gifts georgia got me but i did love them all.
"promise me something"georgia said as she held my hand and i nodded my head "you have to use them"and i laughed "they will go to very good use G don't worry about that"i told her and then she spoke again "ow i got you other things which you will get later at"she looked at the clock on her phone and then carried on speaking "1pm"she told me with a twinkle in her eyes.
i knew what she had got me and o was so excited "YOU DIDNT! i yelled in excitment and she gave me as grin as i stood up in shock "I DID!" she shouted back and we both i threw my arms around her and jumped in excitment.
"OW ON FUCKING GOD!"i squalled "what she get you?"jacob asked "A NAKED BUTLER!"i screamed back at him and he laughed i knew he didn't like it really.
i saw paul storm out of the house and slam the door behind him.i felt sorry for him but i didn't show it.
"why can't all girls be like you two"collin asked and we both grinned "it not easy being classy but saucy at the same time"we said together.
"offers still on seth" georgia told him as she winked and i saw him swallow hard,"come on madem Carla you dad and jacob have one more prestant for you"sue said and i couldn't stop laughing at the madem bit.
dad looked at sue and she turned to him and spoke aloud "i'm sorry billy i just had to say it after what georgia got her"sue giggled Dad grabbed my hand and pulled my towards the frount door,i felt quil cover my eyes as i walked out side.
we stopped walking and quil moved his hand to reavile a white BMW 435i converiable.i don't think i ever screamed so loud as i jumped onto my dad plant kisses all over his face as he giggled.,i saw jacob walk out of the garage with the keys.
i looked at him and jumped off dad and jumped onto jake and kissed him on the cheek as his husky laugh filled the air, jumped of jake and looked at them both "thank you"i told them as i gave then a big hug each.
i couldn't belive they got me car! you should see gergoia's face right now her jaw is on the floor."common Georgia were go for a spin"i shouted at her and she squalled.
"you're still in your pjamas"Sam reminded me,i looked down at jacob over sized t-shirt that looked like s dress on my "who gives a fuck!"gerogia shouted and i agreed with her as i open the car and jump in the drivers seat.
Georgia's standing outside "what are you doing get in"i tell her but she had a reason like always "put the roof down i wanna do something" i give her a confused look but put the roof down anyway.
the roof was down,i was georgia step back a couple of steps and then all of a sudden she was running at my car! i screamed as i watched her jump into the car and land in the passanged seat next to me.
I couldn't stop laughing after that "that was not a good idea"she groaned but i carried on laughing "i thought it was fucking funny"i told her through laughs "i think i broke my ass!"she squalied as joined me in laughing.
i started up the car speed of down the road at 90 mph i think i heard someone shout "SLOW DOWN!" but i didn't listen.i felt the wind blow my hair around and it felt amazing.i could hear georgia laughing when ever i went faster,and that made me smile.
i go down a couple of motorways and then speed back home to find everyone's gone back inside,i turn the engin off and then look at georgia "so whats gonig to happen today?"i ask and insantly see her face lighten up.
"well you're gonna get dressed then were goning to go shopping for an outfit for you were gonna come back for lunch let you have your butler then chill and then get wastied tonight"she told me and i couldn't of been more happy.
"i'm so glad i have you"i told her honestly she patted my arm "ooww i got one for thing for you"she told me and i smiled as i watched her fish in her pocket.
she pulled out a pinl envolpe and place it into my plam "open it!"she told me i got so excited i ripped open the envople i looked in side and i saw some ticket and on the tickets it said "1st class flight to IBIZA!" my jaw fell and i saw georgia grin at me and i screamed sl loud evveryone ran outside.
i screamed again a jumped onto georgia's lap and squeed the shit out her litterly.i everyone standing their including pau, i look at them all as i scream "I'M GOING TO IBIZA BABY!"