i couldn't belive i was going to go i ibiza! i was so excited i really do have the best friend ever!
"I'M SO EXCITED!"i squeeled as i jump up an down,georgia had a smirk on her face and so did Jacob i heard Paul say one of his smart remarks "your fit in their with the rest of the sluts then"he told me with a grin but i had a comback ready "you've had a few sluts in your life so i'm sure their all know who you are"i told with a sweet smile.i heard Embry chuckle but stop as soon has Paul glared at him.
"included you yeah"he told me and that got my back up i was NOT one of his sluts! i was his imprint.i gusse the imprint was ment for us to be "friends" but i dodnt want to be friends with him,i want to love him and it hurt even more that he is nasty to me but i can't stop the love i feel for him.i don't show i love him but i do.
"no paul was NOT one of your sluts.i gusse I just USED you for something and you know what i used you paul fell into my trap"i todl him was a fake frown but really wanted to cry,i was paul fill with anger,he stood their shaking for a couple of mintues.
i looked into his eyes and i saw him look into mine.

i watched as he tore his eyes away from mine and stormed off with jacob right behind him followed but jared and sam,i shook it off and smiled at everyone but the awkard silance was thick in the air but luckly Georgia broek the tenshion "Right come on birthday bitch you need to get ready so we can go shopping!"
emily agreed with georgia and all the girls rushed me into the house as the men stayed outside for somereason.i went into my room and put on a denim skater dress with black wedge trainers because the weather was hot luckly.
i put on some make up and put lose curls in my long,brown hair,i looked at myself in the mirror and decided i looked fine.i sprayed some dior perfume.
i locked my balcony door as i looked out i saw paul walk back towards the house and i imeditly felt my heart beat faster and my hands statred to boy really did something to me i can't explain.
i saw him look into my room and i knew he saw me but i carried on locking the door with my shaking hands.i started to feel emoutions get the better of hands where shaking as i tried to lock the doors,i let a tear fall down my face but i wiped it away quickly and took a deep breath.
i didn't want to be upset,i took some more deep breaths and walked into the living roomi saw all the girls sitting down and i decided i wanted to tell them about england.
i opened my mouth and it all rushed out "I'm moving to england"i said to quickly i was hoping it was going to go more smoothly but it didn't.
they all looked at me as if i had grown another head "WHAT!"sue yelled "you can't go all that way on her own! your only 17 for god sakes!" i looked at georgia and for once in my life i saw her like she was lost,like she had no where to go.

i watched as georgia stood up and i saw a tear go down her face as she walked outside i instantly followed her called her name "georgia! come here i want to talk to you!"i yelled.i watched as she turned around slowly she opened her mouth "you can't do this to me! i already lost grace not you aswell"she shouted at me as tears spilled over her eyes i felt an awe feeling inside me and i'm pretty sure i showed it on my face "georgia,i want to go i need to go to a collage thier and" she cut me off "no you have to go! you have to get away from here beacuse i know deep down your dieing inside and you know it aswell but your to scared to show it.i know to too well carla black"she told me poiunt a fingure.
i was speachless she was right and i knew she was,she was spot on but i couldn't speak u just let a tears fall down my face."i know your hearting Carla please don't go"she begged "i need you"she told me with tears in her eyes.
i shook my head "I...I can't georgia. its killing me here.i can't think.i can'tlive.i can't even breath,i'm getting weaker everyday i can't live everyday wishing i could disapper"i told her truthly.
"but i need you! GRACE IS GONE AND NOW YOUR LEAVING!" she wipped her tears "your all i have left! my dads in a bad place at the moment becuse mum decided to leave us"
she told me "your thing that keeps me going at the moment" i walked up tp her and took her hands in mine "come with me?"i told her but i sounded more like a question.i saw tears spill from both out eyes.
georgia walk to her car and told me she had to go home to think but she would be back in about an hour i nodded my head.i could understand why she wanted to think so i wipped my tears away well..my birthday was fucked.

i didn't know the whole time we had an the men where standing their.i looked at dad who looked empty "your going?"dad asked me with upset in his eyes "y..yes"i told him as i looked at him square in the eye "i..i can't stay here dad. i can't stay somewhere were all i can feel is heartbreak and pain"i told him i saw tears go down dad cheek and dad never ever cried,jacob but his hand on dad shoulder.
"is this really what you want?"jacob asked me and i answered stright away "i have no choice" i saw jacob nod his head as he spoke "when you told me i thought you where just upset.i didn't know that you felt the way you do"he told me sadly.
i shrugged my shoulders "i don't want to live the rest of my life in this pain"i said as i looked at all the pack and then my eyes hooked on paul i watched as his chest rose and fell with every breath he took,i looked at his beautiful brown eyes.

i felt pauls eyes on my face and i saw surprized when he spoke "your my imprint i can't live without you,i need you like i need air" he chocked out i felt my heart split into two at his words but then i thought about all the pain he caused me.
"your have to live without air then"i told him stubornly i looked at him and watch as TEARS! fell out of Paul Lahots eyes! i was shocked but it caused tears even more tears on my eyes.
i watched as the sun lit up paul's face showing all his glory and i couldn't take it anylonger. "i'm going to beach i told dad as i ran up the path and all the way to the beach.

when i arrived at the beach it was empty which surprized me but then i remmbered everyone was probally at the new water park in folks.i was out of breath and i felt chocked up with tears.
i walked along the beach and sat down in my normal spot.i put my head in my lap and cried for a little about half an hour i stoped crying ans just watched the wave crash.
i decided to go into the sea so i took of my shoes and walked to the waves that crashed into the sand.i pulled my skater dress over my head and let it hit the floor,i looked at mt underwear and noticed i was wearing a pretty lace bra with matching least the underwear where pretty because right now i felt alone and ugly.

i stepped into the water and insatntl felt the warm water cover my skin and it felt amazing i walked deeper into the water untill it came jus under my bra.i closed my eyes and took a deep breath but a curtin voice scared my to death "i wouldn't go to deep it can be dangrous"i jumped and turned to see Paul he was shirtless in the water and i felt my hear skip a beat i noticed i was in my bra and shouted "don't look i'm in my bra!" but paul just giggled "i've already seen you naked i'm sure i can see you in a bra"he satated and i felt stupid.
"but i think you look beautiful"he told me as he walked closer to me.i turned back around so i was facing to ocean and ask "what do you want paul?"i asked with teard in my eyes.
"can't you see what you've already done to me and you want to make it worse?"i asked not giving him a chance to speak "too late paul it already got worse and right now i want to drown myself so let me die in peace"i told him as i shed a tear.
i heard his sigh and then he spoke "don't say things like that carla.i didn't mean to hurt you..its..its just i'm all over the place at the moment"he tired to explain#
but i was having none of it "that does not give you reason to be a cunt to me!"i scramed at him "i know i just need time.."he went to carry on but i cut in "i am not going to wait forever for you Paul,i'm already in love with you and it hurts to be away from you paul.i cant spend years like that wait for you to love me"i told him as i turned to face him as we both walked towards eachother.

"i already inlove with you carla" he whispered to me but i shook my head as i let a couple od tears whiped my tears away and spoke "i don't want to see you cry"he paused "can i have a hug?"he asked i instantly wrapped my arms around his neck,i felt him wraped his strong arms around my body and i felt at home at last.
i felt fireworks go off as our bare skin touched.i rested my head on his shouler.i felt something wet hit my cheek and i looked up to see paul crying.
"why are you crying?"i asked him and he told me truthly "your going to ..and its all my fault.i don't want to let you go"he told me as he cried.
i whipped his tears away and whispered in his ear "you want to fight the imprint and this will help"i felt teard on my cheeks now "i don't want to fight it anymore.i can't go on without you. your my everything carla"he told me and i looked down.
paul tiltee my chin up and asked me a question "do you forgive me?"he asked and i instantly said "yes,i could never say no to you"i told him as i traced his face.
"please don't go to england.i want to be with you forever"he looked into my eyes and i knew he ment every single word but all i could say back was "kiss me paul"

without hesatastion i felt his plump warm lips crash onto mine and i felt sparks picked me up and all i could do was tangle my fingures in his short hair,i kissed him with so much passion i could of exploded!
our tounges join together and i felt all the pain leave my body and replaced with broke the kiss "does that mean your stay?"he asked and i giggled "yes paul" and then he asked another question "so does that mean your my girlfriend"
i didn't even answer him i juat casahed my lips to his and asked "what do you think?"i felt him smile in the kiss and it made me smile "i take it as a yes"he whispered before me kissed my with passion.
i felt his hands go to my hair and i let my hands explore his abs as we kissed after what seemed for ever we broke apart both heaily breathing. "i'm never letting you go Carla"paul told me i couldn't help but make his promise so i did.
"do you promise paul? sware on my life?"i asked serisloy and he response was "i promise,Carla i swear on our unborn childrens lives"he told me and i laughed at him and he joined in after out laughed diecd down we looked into eachother eyes and shared more kisses full of passion.
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