Rollins was pregnant? How did Olivia miss it? Or had she only been keeping her secret in the short term? How pregnant was she? And how the hell did Barba know about it before she did? The man was smart but he had significantly less contact with Rollins and as far as she knew they definitely weren't close enough for him to be her confidant?

"Barba, can I have a word with you?"

Barba nodded his head and rose from his seat, his expression showing that he had been expecting this conversation.

"Olivia?"

Barba had stood up and motioned to go off into a more private corner to chat with Olivia, but she hadn't moved and was blankly staring at the chairs of the hospital chairs in front of her.

Where was Amaro? Hell, even Carisi was there for Amanda.

Amaro had said he'd meet them at the hospital, but he was still nowhere to be found. What if he had gotten in a car crash and there was another emergency? With everything that had been happening with Amanda even prior to her incident after taking the stand, Olivia wasn't sure if the team could handle another hit to the team's morale. Amara had to have been fine, and he had to have a good reason for not being at the hospital yet.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I must have zoned out for a minute."

The two of them walked briskly away from Fin and Carisi who were still anxiously sitting in their chairs, watching Olivia and Barba curiously. What did they have to discuss that they couldn't hear? Was Liv going to harangue Barba for going too hard on Amanda at the stand?

"Barba, you know what I'm going to ask you."

"When I called Rollins to ask her to come back in to go over her testimony yesterday, she sounded very distressed over the phone. She was crying, hyperventilating. So I offered to send you over because I thought she'd be more comfortable with you, but she got even more upset when I suggested that, and I didn't know what else to do so I went over to her apartment."

"And did she tell you why she didn't want me to come over? And how long have you known that she's pregnant? It's not your responsibility to tell me that sort of thing but I'm trying to understand how you knew when I and seemingly no one else on the squad did."

"I didn't know until yesterday when I went over to apartment."

"And what happened there?"

"When I got there she was clearly very upset, and it wasn't just over Patton. She didn't want to talk at all at first, but eventually I got her to open up and she said that she had just found out she was pregnant. She knew she would have to tell you eventually, but Olivia, she had just found out and was panicking and I never would have known had I not been the one to call her first."

Olivia sighed, taking a moment to digest all the information that had just been poured into her brain. Rollins had only found out she was pregnant yesterday- right as she was in the midst of having to testify against her rapist. The poor woman couldn't catch a break.

"Did you end up going over her testimony yesterday?"

"Yes, and I can assure you I wouldn't have let her take the stand had she collapsed after we practiced yesterday."

"I assumed that much," Olivia muttered, "do you think she's alright?"

"I don't know anything about pregnancy, Benson, but it is Rollins. She'll be fine."

"And her baby?"

"She wasn't bleeding or in pain, so I don't think it was a miscarriage. But what do I know?"

"We should go back before Fin and Carisi follow us out here."

"I'm surprised they haven't already. By the way, do you have any idea where Amaro is?"

"None. He told me he'd meet us here and I keep checking my phone to see if he's called or texted me but nothing. I want to be pissed off at him for taking his sweet time when Amanda's health is possibly in danger, but I can't help but feel that something's off. It's no secret that Amaro is protective of Rollins, so why is not here harassing the doctors for not telling us anything yet?"

"I don't know, Olivia. I think the best we can do right now is give Nick the benefit of the doubt and try to focus on Amanda."

"You're right," she breathed "let's get back to them."

Unsurprisingly, Fin had something to say about the two of them sneaking off to have a private conversation and leaving him with Carisi.

"You guys know something that we should?"

"No, we don't know anything. I was just wondering if Amanda had said anything out of the ordinary to Barba when he was over at her apartment yesterday. And she didn't. Did a doctor come by while we were gone?"

"Nope, still nothing," Carisi sighed, "hey, where's Amaro? I was under the impression that the two of them were pretty close."

Olivia was about to answer that she had no idea where Nick was and that it was almost driving her crazier than waiting to hear about Amanda was, but a doctor came by and her attention was immediately averted.

"Are you all here for Amanda Rollins?"

"Yes," they all said anxiously, desperately wanting to know their colleague's condition.

"She's going to be fine. Her blood pressure was low, causing her to collapse. She passed out briefly in the ambulance but woke up again within her minutes. Her blood pressure is still a little on the low side, but other than that, her vitals are fine."

"So why was her blood pressure so low?" Fin asked, relieved that his partner was alright but concerned that there was more to her health scare than the stress of testifying against Patton.

"Most likely the physical ramifications of stress. She told us she hadn't been sleeping very well lately. Her labs all came back normal except for being mildly dehydrating. Lack of sleep and not being very well hydrated coupled with stress is enough to do it. Any questions?"

They had tested her blood, so they had to have known she was pregnant. But she also was not very far along so the doctor must have known that not all of her coworkers knew yet, and didn't want to spoil the surprise… if there was still a surprise. Olivia knew that she should play coy about Amanda's pregnancy until she was ready to tell her, but she also was anxious to know if the baby was alright.

"When can we see her?"

"She was actually asking for someone named Olivia?"

"That would be me," Olivia spoke up, standing and following the doctor's instructions back to Amanda's room. Why had Amanda asked to speak with her first? She was expecting her to request Fin or Nick before her. Maybe it was a good thing she hadn't asked for Nick. Maybe she wouldn't want his presence until he got to the hospital. Amanda didn't need to be worrying about anyone other than herself at the moment.

"Amanda? How are you feeling?"

She looked better than she had in court, but she still looked rather pale and week. She gave a nervous half smile, not completely meeting her boss's eye.

"Much better than I was about an hour ago. The doctor said I'll be good as new after a day or two of rest. I'm sorry for putting you all through that back there."

"You have nothing to be sorry for. I'm sorry that these past couple of days have been so stressful for you. I knew you had been sick, but if you were having that much trouble sleeping and calming down you could have told us. Maybe we could have helped you."

"Olivia, there's something else. I umm… I'm…" she trailed off, her courage waning as soon as it had come to her.

"Pregnant. I know. Barba had me tell the 911 operator."

"You know? Wait… does everyone else know? Does-

"As far as I know, no one heard me on the phone. I tried to be as quiet as possible. At this point in time I just think it's me and Barba."

"I know I should have told you before I told Barba, but I didn't even mean to tell him. I'm so sorry, Sergeant."

"Olivia. And you don't have to be sorry about that, either. You were in a rough spot and Barba just happened to be the one to contact you first. You were understandably under a lot of duress and I don't want you to feel guilty for reaching out for someone. I'm glad you told him."

"Thank you," Amanda mumbled quietly, avoiding eye contact with the other woman again as her hands played with the fabric of her hospital gown.

"Amanda, is the baby ok?"

"Yep, my recklessness did him or her no harm. I didn't know for sure until yesterday but I had a feeling and I knew I should have been taking better care of herself. I haven't even had the kid yet and I'm already being a terrible mother."

"Amanda, you're rapist forced himself back into your life out of nowhere and you had to testify against him. Coupled with just finding out you were pregnant, you were under distress that I can't even imagine. Don't beat yourself up about this. You and the baby are both going to be fine, so there's no use in antagonizing over it."

"I know, I know, but it's hard not to feel guilty."

"I understand that, but no one else is judging you, so why judge yourself?"

"I guess that makes sense."

"Do you know how far along you are?"

"Doctor's guess is about six weeks, so not very knocked up at all."

Olivia chuckled at how her detective chose to characterize it. She always did have respect for her sense of humor. Just as she was about to speak again, her phone went off in her pocket. She immediately reached for it, hoping that it was Nick or one of her other detectives alerting her that Nick had reached the hospital.

Seeing the caller ID flash the name Nick Amaro, she quickly excused herself from the room and stepped outside to answer his call, fuming.

"You have ten seconds to explain."

"Is Amanda ok?"

"That's not an explanation."

"Olivia-

"She's alright. Not enough sleep or enough food but she's going to be fine. Now where the hell are you?"

"With Cynthia at another hospital. I was heading over when she called me to say that Gil fell off the monkey bars at recess. He's fine minus a sprained wrist."

He was lying, but Olivia didn't know that. But he wasn't completely lying. Gil had sprained his wrist, but it had been over the weekend and with the stress of Patton, Nick hadn't mentioned it to the squad yet.

"I'm sorry I yelled at you and I'm glad that Gil's ok. I'll send Amanda your well wishes. The doctor told me she can be discharged soon, and I'm going to have her go home with me and stay over until at least tomorrow to make sure she's taken care of."

"So… everything is fine with her?"

"Yes, everything is fine."

Nick didn't want to give away that he heard Olivia tell the paramedics that Amanda was pregnant, but he also desperately wanted to know if the baby was alright. Sighing, he reasoned that Olivia's tone would be much different if Amanda had a miscarriage, and it also would have been much different if she knew that he was the father. Everything was fine.

"Alright, tell her that I hope she feels better… and that I'll stop by to see her sometime before she's back at it."

"Got it. See you tomorrow, Nick."

"Bye."

Taking a deep breath, Nick garnered the courage to knock on the door before him.

A few seconds later, a very confused looking John Munch opened the door.