Neal's POV

She was babbling. I could see how worried she been. She said she know I was going to leave one day. I might and she is right she deserves a goodbye if I go. I had always felt something but never wanted to ruin what we had.

"I promise," I say and I knew now was the moment I had to kiss her. I grabbed her face her face and kiss her lips. She didn't kiss back. I released her feeling kind of stung. I looked at her face not being able to read her expression. I open my mouth in the hopes that something comes out.

She headed for the the door fast. I called after her. I just stood there for awhile. I had been such a long day I should just get some rest and worry about fixing things with her tomorrow I walked over the bed and then just laid there until I drifted to sleep.

When I woke the first thing I did was call Mia. She didn't answer. I wasn't sure if I should be worried. I hope I didn't ruin everything I didn't want to lose her. I got up out of the bed no reason for moping. I get dressed. Maybe when I get to work Peter might know where she was.

Mia's POV

I wonder around the city for awhile just thinking. What did the kiss mean? I told myself if I wanted Neal in my life I was going to have to talk to him sooner or later. Maybe it was better to cut ties off now. I didn't know when but one day Neal was going to leave. But he still works with Peter so our paths will still cross. I know I have to talk to him but I was going to sort out my head first.

I went home but I hardly slept. My head spinning. I dosed in and out of sleep. At like 7 my phone buzzed and I looked it was Neal. I declined.

He called again a few hours laters. I declined and turned my phone off. I decided to drop by Peters house he was at work and El was in Washington. So i would have some quiet and I could just clill with Sagmo.

I open the door and and to my surprise El was there sitting on the couch. I jumped a little and so did she.

"Oh hi, I was just going to check on Sagmo. Your back to visit so soon."

"I'm actually back for good," El answered.

"Really? but you had such a great opportunity."

"If I tell you you can't tell Peter you know."

"Wait are you pregnant?"

"Yes."

"It's about time I become an aunt!" I said hugging her tight.

"So I heard Neal gave everyone quite a scare," El said. I looked away away. " Peter told me everything was fine and he was safe and said you were going to talk to him last night? What happened?"

I sighed, "I did wait for him and when he got home, I kinda walked out on him before we could talk about everything that happened."

"Why did you walk out? Peter said you were determined to see Neal."

"Well he kissed me before we could talk about what happened and I kinda of freaked and walked out."

"Wait what? I mean wow. Did you kiss back or just walk away?"

"I walked away. I mean I just freaked.I'm confused. I don't know what meant. I don't know when but this is Neal and he going to leave. I don't even know if i wanted him to mean it."

"Well you need to talk to him. If you don't you are going to continue to be confused."

I heard someone coming in the back. "Thanks El but I got to go please don't tell anyone I was here."

Neal's POV

It had been such a stressful day. i wet to Peter's for a beer. He told me El was pregnant I was very happy for him. He also told me he hadn't heard from Mia. He asked if everything was okay. I told him it was but i'm not sure he believed me and I left to go back to my house. Before Peter and I left the office I had tried calling her for the 5th time. I stood on the balcony thinking.

Mia's POV

I finally turned on my phone. It said I had 1 voicemail. It was from Neal. I sighed and clicked on it. I put it up my ear.

"Mia, I'm starting to get worried, you won't answer my calls, please get back to me we need to talk." It was a silence for a moment and It ended.

I really shouldn't put off talking to him longer. I should here him out before i decide what to think. i walked to his apartment. Walking would give me more time to prepare myself.

I open the door when I get there. I looked around Neal was out on the balcony looking at the sky line. Next to him.

"This view never seises to take my breathe away," I said. He turns his head to look at me. "Look, Neal..." I didn't know how to continue.

"Can I talk first?"

I nod.

"Can you please look at me while I'm saying this?" I turn towards him and looked in his eyes, bracing myself for anything he might say. "the Past 2 days were so rough for me, Some of it I didn't know what was going to happen. After all I've been through I realized we all lived on borrowed time. I don't want to sit here waiting around for the right moment anymore. I'm sorry if I freaked you out yesterday. But I've had feelings for you a long time, and I'm done wasting time. I grabbed the moment while I could. I'm sorry that it freaked you out. I don't want to lose you." He let out a breathe. It seemed he had waited a long time to say what he did. "Mia, Please say something."

I went on my tip toes and kissed him. He kissed me back. The kiss lasted a few minutes and then we pulled away catching our breathe. "I'm sorry for freaking out I should have stay."

"Well you are here now," Neal said grabbing my hand. We walked inside and sat on the couch.

"Do you want to talk about what happened the last few days?'

He told me about the Panthers and Rachel.

"Im sorry about Rachel, I'm glad you are okay but are you sure you want to take on something as big as the Panthers. I don't want to see you hurt."

"It's worth it for my freedom. Thanks for your concern but I have to do this. I'm glad you know what I'm doing but you can know much more than that. If you know to much you won't be safe." I knew he was right. I wish i could know more. We sat here a while. His arms around me a stroking my hair. It was getting late.

"i should get going." I stood up.

"No don't go," Neal say pulling me back to the couch.

"I have to." We got up and he walked me to the door. We kissed. "Good night Neal."

"Good night Mia."