Dear readers,

I know you are all hoping this is an update but it is not but I ask that you please just read this as it is important. I have received a couple of reviews now asking if what I am writing is due to personal experiences and I felt like I have to address this…

Firstly, I have never been sexually or physically abused. Some of you may think it is therefore strange for me to write what I can only describe as a disturbing story and to this I want to say that this story was written during a very difficult point in my life where I was angry, hurt and disgusted by everything that was happening. This story is a combination of many things that I have exaggerated to fit the story:

Emotional turmoil: in the story you see Percy forced to wear clothes he is not comfortable, this section was taken from a point when I was younger when someone I held in a position of trust would put me on scales and then call me fat and who's parents would buy me the worst possible charity shop clothes that were always a little too tight and make me uncomfortable. Partly due to this I started overeating thinking 'well if I'm ugly and fat I might as well look more like it'. You must understand that by writing this story I have gotten rid of a lot of dark thoughts about myself and other people.Sexual abuse: Yes, I wasn't abused. My sister however was, she was sexually abused since she was 10 years old by the man who married my aunt, no she was not raped and no most of the things in this story did not happen to her and no I am not going to tell you which happened and which didn't as that is not something I can talk about. Why? You may ask am I then writing a story about things that are even more horrific because (even though you may not understand this) it helped…it helped to know that this didn't happen and that we stopped it in time, it also helped get rid of some pretty dark thoughts I was having that at one point lead to me being partly suicidal (I held the knife to my throat for a while whilst trying to think of reasons to live through the breakdown of my family and what I thought was the total destruction of my life…I love my sister and finding out that she was hurt in this way by someone I saw as family whom was then supported by most of my family in saying my sister was a liar was a nightmare that I did not want to live with, However I saw that my life had only just began and I wanted to see where it would go so I put the knife down and got on with it) it was a release to get rid of anger and hate.Warning others: when I started to write this story I did not intend for it to turn into the black hole it is, I was going to write a non-to-detailed story about what its like to be the family member of someone who goes through this and run the readers through the court process as I had experienced it, however the more I wrote the darker it got and I just didn't know how to stop it. I also want to make the point that this story will eventually have a very happy ending and a message that hopefully you will all heed. You may think 'sally should see the abuse that's happening' and 'why isn't anyone stopping this' but you must see that you don't see it, just as I didn't and my family didn't. I am not going to tell you all the things I may include as I am hoping that even with all of this you will keep reading. This story will eventually hopefully turn into something better.

So I haven't ever been abused but this story is a dark combination of many messed up things. Some of you will probably call me sick and disturbed etc but you may also notice that I haven't updated in months….this is because I can't write, I mean I actually can't write something this dark because I am in a great place in my life, even though we didn't get the verdict we wanted and my family hasn't been the same the relationship I have with my mother, sister, father, stepmother and our cousins (who have always believed and supported us) is stronger than ever. I have a close knit group of friends who I love and know better than anyone I have ever known. On some of my darker days yes I may add one sentence to a very slow chapter but it is never up to any quality so I delete it the following day.

I just want to say I hope this doesn't make you guys hate me and maybe understand why I wrote this…I am not nor will I be ashamed of this story as it helped me get over a lot of things. I hope you will keep reading If I manage to update…

I apologise for any confusions, I did what I believe most writers do and draw on strong emotions. Hope this cleared things up.

~ goodbye for now readers

Nicoforever97