Peter's POV

When we get out of the morgue. El is there in the waiting room. I shake me head as we walk towards her. Tear started sliding down her cheek. I just hugged the two most important girls in my life.

We hug for a long while.

"El, can you take Mia me back to the house. I'll stay here had get Neal's belongs for evidence,"I say.

"Why can't I have Neal's stuff?" Mia asks me. Her make up running and her wiping away more tears.

"It's protocol. I will make sure they rush them and get them back to you as soon as possible.

She nodded and they left. I had to be strong for everyone, keeps us all together.

Another Doctor brings out a bin of Neal's things. He listed the contents "...and a tracking anklet." I took the bin and took out the tracking anklet. I sit on the bench.

"You're Free..." What he wanted most... I couldn't keep it together any more. I lost my best friend and he wasn't coming back.

Mia's POV

"Just take me back to Neal's place," I really just wanted to be alone.

"I think you should be with family right now," Elizabeth protested.

"Please, El."

"Fine."

I walked up the stairs but was stopped by June.

"Oh Dear, What wrong?"

"Neal, he got shoot and he...he didn't make it."

June shock her head tears filling her eyes now. "I'm sorry June, I know he loved you." I put my hand on her shoulder and continued up the stairs."

As soon as I walk through Neal's door I close it and turn. I see the table set for two. I slide down the wall. The rest of my strength and will power gone. I take out my phone and see all the missed calls and a voice mail from. Neal I needed to hear his voice.

All I can hear for the first few seconds is heavy breathing. "Mia... I don't know when you will get this it doesn't matter...I need to tell you that even though our time together wasn't long... It was the best a month and a half of my life... you are the best thing that ever happened to me... I wish we had more time together... but we live on burrowed time... It's pretty clear to me my time is up... I love you,Mia... Never forget that... I love you." Then it end. Those are the final words I'm going to hear from Neal. I save the voice mail.

I left Neal's apartment late that night. I'm guessing June was already asleep. I walked around the city at midnight which I know isn't the safest but I didn't care. I walked all the way back to the hospital where my care still was. I got in it and drove home. I left a message at work and told them I wouldn't be in for a few days.

I didn't talk to anyone for 2 days. I didn't return any of Peter phone calls. I heard the door open.

"Mia...Mia..." It's Peter. i roll my eyes and stay in bed. I wanted to be alone! Is that really to much to ask for?

Peter came in my room. Yanked the curtains opens and tossed the blankets off. "Get are still wearing the clothes you wore to the hospital." he pulls me off the bed. "I lost someone too, Neal was my best friend you don't move on over night but you still live. Now shower and get dressed and meet me out side."

"Someone is in the anger phase." I say angrily. But I do as I'm told. We go out to lunch with El and Peter tells me he arranged a memorial and service. I could look at the plans but all I had to do was show up. Peter was going to take care of canceling all of Neal's cards.

"Thanks Peter, for taking care of all this I don't know if I could handle it."

"It's no a problem. Mom and Dad called to check in, they said you haven't called in awhile. I told them up Neal and they are coming up."

"Peter, why would you do that?"

"I don't get what I did wrong. I sure it isn't about the Neal. They just want to see there family. Why are you so against seeing them?"

"They are just so judgmental and I know I'm never going to be the perfect daughter. they remind me of it everyday. I don't want to deal with that already."

"I'm sure they won't be here long," El says

"I hope not, I wish they would have waited till the baby was born so my failures aren't the highlight of their visit."

The subject was dropped and we enjoyed the rest of the meal with small talk.

I know now isolating myself was not the answer.