Hello everyone!
Where I live, today is Happy Easter! I'm not entirely sure what it is religiously. Commercially, the bunny comes around and gives everyone baskets of candy and maybe some little toys to play with. Jacks and sidewalk chalk, and such. One year the easter bunny brought us t-shirts. Every house does it differently. For those that don't celebrate, Happy belated (although I think still going on) Passover, and for those of you who have a holiday I am completely unaware of , or don't have a holiday at all today, happy Sunday!
Squick factor is SUPER HIGH for this one. Marley actually gets the enema and I'm rather descriptive about it. Also mentions of blood, so if that makes your stomach turn, you might have a problem with this chapter.
There were a few of you who sent me a few 'try this' suggestions, and some who sent 'what about this' type scenarios, so thank you for that. They've sort of sparked something so I do appreciate it.
Also a lot of you have asked if this is going to end up Pezberry. I honestly don't know. Sometimes I feel like it should, and then I read it over and it doesn't work, so it remains to be seen, at this point still.
To the two guests who request I do more ageplay stories and to the one guest who gave me full creative control of the type of ageplay story you want, please know that I have read your suggestions and I'm not against them, I just want to focus on this story, before i start anything else. I have an idea of how the story is going to end, I just don't know how long it will take to get there.
As always, many thanks to NayaFan, UnholyUnderBoob, and Beaner008 for their support and encouragement.
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At quarter after one, Marley started freaking out. "Mommy," she pleaded, begging Santana to sit with her and hold her.
"I'm right here angel, and I promise you, this isn't going to be torturous," Santana said and sat down on the couch with Marley, pulling her into a cuddle. "You know what baby girl. You're allowed to cry and scream and tremble and shake and all those sad feelings. But I want you to know that it's Mommy who is with you, not Terri. I'm going to be holding you the whole time?" she said.
"How?" Marley asked, her voice trembling.
"Nanny Susan said that Mommy is going to lay on her back and you are going to lay on my belly. You know how we cuddle on the couch sometimes? It's going to be like that, except you're going to have no clothes from your hips down," Santana said honestly. Marley burst into tears just as Santana's phone buzzed with a text from Susan. "I'm not going to let go baby," Santana said gently, checking her phone.
"I'm on my way up now," Susan texted and Santana gave Marley repeated kisses while texting back that she would let her in and be waiting at the door.
"Alright baby girl, I'm not letting go, but Nanny Susan is here, so I have to let her in, do you want to come with me?" she asked. Marley whimpered and gripped tighter to Santana. She'd blinked, but in her position, Santana couldn't see it. "I can't see your beautiful face baby girl," she said so Marley reached her hand up a bit and tapped once on Santana's shoulder. "Alright sweetheart, let's stand up carefully and you can come with Mommy to answer the door," she told her kindly. They made their way to the door and Marley held tight to Santana, resting her head on her shoulder, and waiting for Susan to knock on the door. Once she did, Santana opened the door and Susan smiled.
"Hello Miss Santana, it's so nice to see you again and I assume that this is Marley," she told her.
"Yes it is. Marley baby, can you turn and say hi to Nanny Susan?" she asked gently and Susan held up her hand. She knew that Marley wouldn't be very receptive of her and she was okay with that.
"There's no reason to push Santana," Susan said kindly. "Marley is about to experience something that is terrifying her, I can see it, so I will not push. I want her to go slow and careful. No rushing things," she said. Santana nodded and Susan continued. "Where can I set up my things?" she asked.
"I told Marley that we were going to take care of things in the bedroom," Santana told her and Marley gripped her tighter. "I'm right here baby. I'm not leaving you and Nanny Susan will not do anything that she doesn't think you are ready for," Santana told her as Susan headed to the bedroom. "Nanny Susan is going to explain everything to you while you and Mommy cuddle up tight, and when it's all over, we'll have your yummy shakes, that Papa made you, and then we'll take a nap together, does that sound alright?" she asked. Marley simply cried, she was more afraid now than ever. "Alright baby girl, you're okay. Mommy's here and she's not leaving. We're just going to go into the bedroom okay?" she asked.
"Mommy, fi-ah pee," she whimpered softly.
"We can do that sweetheart, let's get teddy bear too, okay?" she asked soothingly and Marley simply cried. "I know baby, I know, I'm so sorry my love," she told her and gathered the nearest pacifier and Teddy Bear and then they went into the bedroom. "You are my very best girl Marley and we're just going to cuddle. We're going to lay down in bed and cuddle okay?" she said gently.
The two girls went into the bedroom and Santana carefully laid down pulling Marley on top of her and she simply rubbed her back and let her take her time in calming down. "You're my sweet baby girl Marley, and no one will ever hurt you again. I am so proud of you, because you are so brave and so strong, and Mommy knows how scared you are right now," Santana told her.
Marley nodded and turned her head to the side, so she could see the wall and not the doorway. She didn't want to know when Susan was coming into the room. She just wanted to hear Santana's heartbeat and have it all be over with. She heard Susan enter the room and speak kindly.
"Hi Santana," Susan smiled and she walked over to the bed. "Hi Marley, you can call me Nanny, no need to add my name. I know that S's are hard for you and I have two in my name, so right now, you can just stick to Nanny, but if your mouth hurts, you don't have to say anything at all okay?" she asked and Marley wiggled her hand to Santana's and tapped her finger once on Santana's palm.
"We talk through blinking and tapping sometimes. Marley tapped my finger once, which means yes. In this case, yes she understands," Satnana smiled. "However my darling, you cannot not be rude. It would be much better if you looked at Nanny Susan," Santana lectured.
"While you're Mommy makes a very good point, I understand how frightened you are Marely. Just keep in mind that Mommy is with you and that I will not hurt you," Susan said kindly and Marley wiggled her hand that was closer to Susan. She tapped once on Santana's shoulder and let out a soft whimper.
"That's wonderful," Susan smiled. "So Marley I'm going to explain a few things to you. You let your Mommy know if it's too much at any time and I will slow down if you need me to," she said and Marley started to cry harder, her entire body shaking.
"Shhh, I'm right here baby. I know you're scared, but it's going to be okay," Santana said wrapping her arms over Marley's back and squeezing her just a little bit tighter. She cooed softly and Susan waited a few moments. Marley's body was absolutely rigid and this was definitely going to hurt if she didn't relax a little.
Santana was torn between wanting to look at Susan, who was seated on the side of the bed and wanting to look at Marley, who had now grabbed Santana's hand so tightly, she could feel both their pulses. "Marley, can Nanny tell you about herself?" Susan asked and Marley tensed further but tapped Santana's hand once, so Santana nodded. "Thank you," Susan said. "Let's see, where should I start? I've known your Mommy for four years now. When I first met your Mommy I had two little boys who were age nine and I had just gone through a very messy divorce," Susan explained and Marley stopped looking away. Something didn't sound right, Susan was a mother? How could Susan be a mother and still work with Santana.
Marley turned and stared at Susan, her eyes so swollen, red, and so puffy from crying, that they were barely open. Her mouth opened and closed a few times and Susan waited. Clearly Marley had something to say that she didn't know how to communicate it properly. "Mommy?" she asked Susan.
"I'm right here love," Santana said rubbing Marley's back, in the long slow loving strokes that she always used when she was trying to calm and reassure her little girl.
"Mommy?" she asked again.
"Yes, Marley, I'm a Mommy. I have two little boys. Twins. Only now they are stinky teenage boys. They just turned fourteen," she told her.
"Man, I'm getting old," Santana laughed.
"And they are taller than your Mommy," Susan said and Santana groaned.
"Now, I'm really old," she laughed.
"Marley honey, I know you are scared, and understandably so. You can cry and scream, but if Nanny does her job right, then you won't be in pain any more, and Mommy was telling me that your body hurts a lot," she said and Marley nodded slightly. Susan watched her start to regress even further and so she matched her tone with Marley's mental age. "So Nanny brought some things to help you out, and Nanny sees a lot of little girls and boys who need this all the time. They get their tummies twisted up in knots, in pain, and Nanny has had to give many many enemas over the course of her life time to help them feel better. It's why your Mommy asked me to come see you today," she said.
Marley just let tears slowly roll down her cheeks. Her belly was killing her, but she didn't want this to happen, it was going to be so painful, she knew it, and she didn't understand why she had to go through all that again. "I'm right here baby girl, I'm not leaving you, I promise. It's just you and Mommy and Nanny Susan this afternoon. I would never let anything bad happen to you," Santana said gently, dropping little kisses to the top of her head every few words.
"Marley, your Mommy is going to hold you and I'm going to show you what I'm going to use on you. I'm not going to do anything just yet, I'm just going to show you what I'm going to use, that's all. Are you ready for that?' she asked. Marley blinked once and let more tears roll down her cheeks and sniffled. Susan had a small bag next to her feet that was out of Marley's vision. She smiled and reached down to pull out a small packet of tissues. "This is for you. I'm sorry you're so sad and so scared Marley, and I want you to know that you can cry and scream as much as you want," she told her. "Hopefully though, if Nanny does her job right, you're not going to scream at all," she said and as she spoke she opened up the pack of tissues and pulled one out, putting it in Marley's hand carefully, but Marley didn't budge, she was too scared. So Santana took the tissue and helped Marley dry her eyes and clean her face a bit.
"You're okay my baby girl, and I'm right here, I'm not leaving you sweetheart," she told her and went back to rubbing her back. "I love you my baby girl, I love you so much and you are being so brave," she told her. "Do you know that Mommy loves you and would never hurt you?" she asked and Marley nodded her agreement. "Thank you for trusting me baby girl," Santana said. "Let's see what else Nanny Susan has okay?"
"I'm going to pull out everything at once and then we're going to explain it all to you," Susan said and she pulled out a yellow hose, a clamp with a clear plastic part and she could see a red ball inside the little coil, a large red bag, and a small white tube that had many tiny little holes in it. "This is it Marley. These four things," she said and Marley watched in fear as Susan got a strange look on her face. "Oh no, I'm sorry, I forgot two things," she said and pulled out a large tube of KY Jelly and a big white fluffy towel. "That's better," she said. "Let's see, the first we're going to go over is the towel. "It's a big white fluffy towel. Do you know why Nanny has this?"
Marley didn't answer, or tap, or blink, mainly because Marley didn't care. She didn't want Susan there at all, if she was going to be honest. "Well I don't know, so I'd like the explanation please Nanny," Santana said and Susan smiled.
"See, in order for you to get an enema, you need to have no pants and no diaper and Nanny knows that sometimes when you have an enema, things leak, so we put the towel under you to catch any leaks," Susan explained. "I'd like to get you out of your clothes now while you cuddle with Mommy. Then Nanny will be sure to put a blanket over you to keep you warm, while Nanny explains the rest of these things," she said and Marley looked at her in confusion before turning to Santana.
"Mommy?" she asked.
"Yes my baby?" Santana asked brushing her fingers gently over Marley's cheeks and forehead, knowing it helped calm her.
"On?" she asked tugging at Santana's shirt.
"You want Mommy to take her shirt off?" she asked and Marley shook her head.
"No, Mine," she said.
"You want Mommy to take off your shirt? You'll be very cold sweetheart, are you sure?" she asked and Marley worried her lips between her teeth for a moment trying to figure out how to communicate what she meant.
"Day coh," she said. "ahder, ha," she said speaking slowly.
"One more time baby and then if I still don't understand I will get your blocks, this is important that we communicate correctly, I don't want you in the dark about any of this," Santana told her.
"Ahder," Marley said signing the word water.
"Yes water," Santana said.
"Owie?" she asked.
"Marley, can Nanny tell you about the water?" Susan asked and Marley nodded slowly. "See the water is going to come out of your bathroom, so it will not hurt and it won't have anything in it. It's just going to be very very warm. Do you know what your body temperature is supposed to be?" she asked her and Marley shook her head no. "A normal body temperature is supposed to be a little above ninety eight degrees, because of that, we make the water a little bit warmer than that. It's only slightly warmer than when you take a shower," she said.
"We actually give Marley a bath every night," Santana smiled, gently petting Marley's long brown hair, to help calm her.
"That's even better, because that means that she knows exactly how it feels on the outside, so all that warm water is going to go inside instead of outside this time," she explained.
"No baba Mommy," Marley cried and Santana took a deep breath.
"It's not a baba sweetheart. It's an enema, and it's not going to hurt you. All Nanny Susan wants to do right now is take off your sweatpants and your diaper, put a towel under you and a blanket over you. That's the first step, that's all we're doing," she told her and Marley just cried against her. "I'm going to tell Nanny to start sweetheart. Mommy's right here and nothing is bad is going to happen to you," she assured her.
"Mama," Marley cried.
"Mama's at work baby, but we can call her, if you really want to talk to her," Santana said.
"Mama pee," she cried.
"Alright, I will call Mama as soon as Nanny gets you undressed and covered up with a blanket," she told her. "My sweet baby girl, I love you so much," Santana told her and Marley held tight to her Mommy and just cried while Susan carefully stripped Marley of her sweatpants and her diaper. She slid the towel under the diaper, but didn't remove it. She'd take any extra absorption she could. Marley's muscle tone was stronger than it had first been, but she'd read the file and she didn't know if Marley'd body would hold on to any water, especially with all the impaction she had in her bowels.
Un-taping the diaper allowed Susan to see small traces of mucous and blood in the seat of it and she frowned. Santana caught it and gave her a curious look. Susan thought for a moment but shook her head no, she would discuss it later. It wasn't important at the moment. Susan covered Marley's lower half with the blanket but Santana reached over and pulled it up so Marley could see parts of it as well. It was six feet long and Malrey was scrunched in such a position that this was easily done, without disturbing anything. Then she reached for her phone. "Alright baby girl, let's call Mama," she said and it went straight to voicemail.
"Hey, it's Rachel, leave a message," Marley heard.
"Hi Mama," Marley said sadly and once she finished, Santana quickly took the phone back.
"Every thing is fine, you're just missed. Call us when you get this please," she said and put her phone away. "Okay, now shall we go over more information?' she asked her and Marley simply whimpered and held tight to Santana. "Alright baby, let's practice some colors and letters," she said and she picked up the KY tube. "Maybe Nanny Susan can help us," she said and Marley pushed her pacifier back in her mouth working to calm herself down, feeling her breath hitch in her lungs. "Okay baby girl, what letter is this?" she asked.
"Kuh," Marley said around her pacifier.
"Very good, and this one?" she asked her giving her a kiss.
"Eye," Marley said softly.
"You are one of the smartest little girls I've seen all week. I had three little girls at my job over the last two days and they didn't know any of their alphabet, and they're as old and as tall as you are," Susan praised her and Marley gave a genuine smile.
"Marley is very smart," Santana agreed.
"So you know this tube? This is KY jelly and that is lubrication, do you know what that means?" she asked and Marley shook her head no. Susan gently took the tube from Santana and opened the cap. She put it aside and then got in front of Marley. "See this?" she asked trying to make a little circle in between her thumb and index finger and it looked very difficult. "See sweetheart, when your skin is dry and you just push something on it, or try to push something into it, it hurts, so what we have to do is make it not so dry. That's what this is for," she said and squeezed a small amount of jelly onto her finger and Marley watched as the rubbing and circular motion became very easy. "I'm going to put some on Mommy's fingers so she can show you and then we're going to put some on your fingers, so you know what it feels like," Susan explained.
"That sounds nice," Santana smiled and gave her hand to Susan. She did the same thing to Santana that she had done for herself and Santana's smiled. "See baby? It doesn't hurt and it's very simple, let's try it on you now okay?" she asked. Marley nodded but tears rolled down her cheeks.
"You give me your hand whenever you're ready honey," Susan told her and Marley held tight to Santana, giving her hand very carefully to Susan, reaching it out from under the blanket. Susan put a small bit on her finger and Marley was shocked that it wasn't cold at all.
"Wahm'," Marley said softly around her pacifier.
"Yes, Nanny has a little heating pad in here to make sure things are kept warm. It is never a good idea to put cold gel like this on your skin. It could hurt you and I think if I hurt you, even by accident, your Mommy would have me sent to prison," Susan smiled and Marley looked to Santana for confirmation.
"I would. No one hurts my baby girl. Remember when I yelled at Mama because I thought she wasn't doing right by you?" she asked.
"You yelled at Rachel?" Susan asked.
"I did. We actually scared Marley and it was a big fiasco, but I thought Rachel wasn't doing right by Marley, so I protected her," Santana said.
"You have made up since yes?" she asked.
"Yes, we have," Santana smiled.
"See sweet girl, your Mommy loves you and I would never do anything to make her think I was hurting you, which is why we are explaining everything to you. Now, the gel on your finger. Nanny is going to put some on her finger and rub it over your little opening in your bottom. Technically it's called an anus, but you can call it whatever you want," Susan told her. "I'm not going to do that yet. First I'm going to finish explaining everything and then before I rub anything on your bottom, I'm going to rub it on your arm. I want you to feel it in a place that doesn't scare you. I also want you to know it's okay to be scared. The more you know, the more you relax, the more you let me help you, the less it will be uncomfortable for you, I promise okay?" Susan said and Marley sucked harder on her pacifier.
Santana rubbed her back and let her be for a moment before picking up the yellow hose and asking Susan what it was. "That is the hose. One end goes in this bag," she said showing it to Marley. "We put one end in the bag and the other end goes to this little pipe," she said holding it up. It's so the water passes through from the bag to the pipe and then into the body."
"Marley what color is the bag?" Santana asked her.
"Ed," Marley said slowly.
"Very good, and the hose?" she asked her.
"Eh-woah," she said. The pacifier wasn't going to leave her mouth and Santana and Susan weren't going to force the issue either.
"You are so smart Marley, I'm so impressed," Susan said. "I can see that Mommy works with you all the time. It must be very frustrating at times, but I saw a little boy yesterday, he can't say any other color than red," Susan said. She was trying her hardest to talk to Marley about younger things. She wanted to make sure Marley was in a head space where she was most comfortable and relaxed, it was crucial to getting this done with minimal hysterics.
"My baby girl is the best girl. Mommy loves her so much, even when she's naughty," Santana said kindly.
"What happens to baby Marley when she's naughty?" Susan asked simply.
"Tie ow," Marley said blushing a little bit.
"Yes, baby Marley gets a time out if she's naughty, but she's a very good girl most of the time, so time outs are very rare," Santana smiled. Then she picked up the hose and wiggled it a bit, showing Marley how flexible it was. "It's very small, does it deliver a lot of water?" Santana asked. She knew exactly how it worked, but she also knew that Marley wasn't going to ask any of the questions, so she helped out.
"No and this here, this is a clamp," Susan said holding up a clip of some kind.
"Marley baby, what's that?" Santana asked, pointing to a small red ball in the little plastic coil section.
"Bah," Marley answered.
"Look at Mommy. Say ball," she told her kindly enforcing the L sound.
"Bahhh," she tried. She hated L's and S's and T's, they still bothered her a great deal.
"Yes it is, you are so smart Marley," Susan praised. "That ball shows me how fast the water is going through the hose and the pipe and therefore into your body. Do you know that you should never let water go very quickly into you. It can hurt you and if you push it too fast it makes people feel sick," she said.
"Go oh?" Marley asked removing her pacifier and Santana said a silent thank you prayer. Marley may not say all the right words and she may not be able to communicate properly at times, but she was smart and she was starting to learn that the way Terri had done it was dangerous and painful.
"Yes baby, Nanny has to go very slow," Susan told her. "If I don't go slow, then you'll be in a lot of pain," Susan told her, "and I would not want that for such a sweet little girl who is in a lot of pain already," Susan told her. "So what we do, is Nanny goes into the bathroom and fills up this bag with nothing but warm water. The hose is going to go in one end and the other will go in this little pipe."
"Where does the pipe go?" Santana asked and she felt Marley tense. The pipe seemed huge to her but Susan smiled.
"I want you to hold this baby, can you hold the pipe for Nanny?" she asked and Santana smiled. It was that same quick shift that Rachel seemed to be able to do, as well as Kurt. She didn't know if she did it, even though Rachel and Kurt assured her that she did. It was the shift that went from talking to Big Girl Marley and changing her tone and her voice to talk to Baby Girl Marley. It was designed to make things simple, gain her trust, help her relax, and let her know it was safe to ask the questions in any form she chose.
Marley took it and then looked at Santana in confusion. "Off, Mommy" she said.
"Is it soft? Let Mommy feel baby," she said and Marley handed it over. It wasn't soft, but it was flexible. The semi hard rubber pipe was designed to work with Marley's body and bend if it needed to. They knew there was rectal damage and Susan didn't want to make anything worse by forcing what wouldn't go, so she chose a more flexible pipe. "It is very flexible yes, did you know that it's because Nanny Susan wants to be gentle with you?" she asked.
"Baba fo'h bad gahs," she said.
"That may be, but this is not a baba, what you're having is an enema, can you say that for Mommy?" Santana asked and Marley shook her head no. "Yes you can silly girl," Santana smiled and pressed two little kisses to the tip of Marley's nose eliciting a small giggle from the younger girl. Marley wiggled a bit and returned the same gesture to Santana. "Thank you baby. Will you try please?" she asked her.
"Eminem," Marley said.
"Very good Marley," Susan praised.
"No," Marley said sadly.
"No? Not very good? I thought you said it beautifully," Susan told her and Marley laid her ear to Santana's chest and cried. "Shhh, you're alright sweetheart, you did a good job and Nanny is very proud of you. I know this is scary for you, I know it's not easy, and I know you've been working very hard at getting better," Susan told her.
"Mommy," Marley said and she burst into heart breaking sobs, her entire body trembling as she laid on Santana and tried to grip tighter to her. There was now a lot of pressure on her belly and her body was trying hard to expel what it didn't want or need in side it any more, so that was adding to her pain and she was definitely humiliated. She hated that she had no control over her body.
"You know what? Nanny Susan can go get everything ready while you and I calm down. We'll be ready before Nanny even comes back, I know the bag takes a while to fill," Santana said.
"No, first I have to rub it on her arm," Susan said. "Marley honey, I know you're scared, but listen to Nanny please. I'm going to rub some of the gel on your arm. Just as I will on your bottom, I want you to feel it so you aren't surprised honey," she told her. Marley just sobbed, but gave her arm to Susan and turned her head away, not wanting to look. Susan rubbed it on her arm and Marley didn't budge. If she was honest, she barely felt it. She was so scared though, Susan was going to be surprised if Marley honestly felt anything at all.
"Shhh, Mommy's here baby, you're okay. I would never let anyone hurt you and I promise you that after this, you're going to feel a whole lot better," she assured her. Marley simply cried.
Susan did what she had to and then returned to the bedroom, wearing a rubber glove to be a little more sanitary about things. "I need her knees bent up next to your hips," she told Santana. Santana reached down and very gently pulled Marley's knees up one at a time. It was a position that Marley didn't like, because she thought something terrible was going to happen and she set to crying immediately. The only difference now was that, this time, her knees were bent to expose her bottom and Santana was holding her. When she was with Terri, her knees were bent to expose her bottom, a heavy bar was across her ribs, and Terri was being anything but gentle.
"I'm right here baby girl. Mommy's here and you are very safe," she assured her.
Susan watched with a sad smile and gave Marley some time to get used to the position and calm down some more. She put a ton of gel on her finger and using one hand, spread Marley's bottom cheeks apart, applying lots of gel to the sensitive area and Marley screamed, out of fear. She thought she knew what was going to happen, even though Susan was cooing at her, and speaking gently to her, explaining what was going to happen, as it happened, while Santana gave her lots of kisses.
"Alright Marley, Nanny is going to put the pipe inside baby. Not very far, just enough to get some water into you," she said and Marley shrieked in fear. Susan put the small pipe in very slowly and Marley held her breath, waiting for the shoving to begin, that was how this worked, she was sure of it. "Breathe for Nanny Marley, just keep breathing and this will all be over very soon," she told her and held the pipe in place, waiting for Marley to get used to it. After a full two minutes, she fixed the valve and the warm water started to flow into Marley, but she didn't even feel it.
It trickled into her slowly and within thirty seconds brown water started to leak back out into her diaper and Susan sighed. She'd been afraid of this. Marley was so impacted that she was going to have to start and stop and the poor girl was going to be a mess. "Santana my love, we have to move this to the bathroom," Susan said and Santana gave her a curious look. So Susan knelt next to the bed and began to explain.
"Marley honey, you don't need to look at Nanny, but I need to know you are listening sweetheart. Marley shook her head no held tight to Santana.
"Okay, tell me," Santana said, and she smiled when Susan began petting Santana's hair and speaking to Marley, even though Marley made it clear that she didn't want any part of this discussion.
"Alright, well we waited a little bit too long. That means there is a lot of stuff inside Marley's body and it's stuck. The water is helping, which is good, but she's going to have to sit on the toilet and I'm going to remove and insert the pipe a couple of times," Susan said and Marley burst into hysterical sobs. Susan was going to fuck her with the pipe just like Terri had and Santana was going to let it happen. Susan looked at Santana who looked ready to cry herself. "I've done this to you love, and I know she's scared, but if I don't do it this way, she's going to have to go to the hospital, she's getting sick from this," Susan explained.
"Mommy, done, aw done, no mo, Mommy," she wailed.
"Shhh, I know baby, I know you're scared and it's okay to be scared but if we don't do this, you're going to feel so much worse," Santana said. She very very carefully sat herself up once Susan removed the small pipe in Marley's bottom. Marley hadn't even felt it, she was so upset about what was happening. "And there's no way for me to hold her on the toilet right?" Santana asked.
"One time, I had a little boy sit on my lap. I was able to get the water in and out of him, while he held on to me, but he had to expel into the bucket that was underneath him. So yeah, it is possible, but she won't be on a toilet and I don't think that's a good idea right now," Susan said. With a heavy heart Santana agreed. Marley screamed as more water leaked out of her along with some waste and Santana recoiled slightly at the noise, but quickly regained her composure.
"I know baby, I'm so sorry. Mommy's right here and I know you're scared, but it's okay," she said and placing one hand under Marley's bottom, making sure that the towel was firmly in place, and wrapping her other arm around Marley's low back, she lifted her up and carried her to the bathroom. "Mommy's here, you're okay." She sat her down on the toilet and then looked to Susan. "What do I do Nanny?" Santana asked.
"Rub her belly. Gentle clockwise circles, just to help push out whatever is in there still," she said. A small stream of water came out and Susan waited for a few moments wondering if Marley was going to pass something else. When she didn't, Susan spoke kindly. "Marley baby, we need to do another round. Very gentle, just as we did before and Nanny is going to put more gel on you too so it won't hurt," Susan said and then she looked to Santana. "Have her back on your belly, it'll work the best," Susan said.
"Okay baby girl, come lay on Mommy," Santana said and she very carefully maneuvered them to the floor. Once they were lying down, Susan took her gloved hand, added more gel to Marley's bottom, the pipe, and very gently slipped it in.
Marley didn't scream, but she did cry out. 'I know sweetheart, I know, I'm so sorry," Susan told her honestly. She was used to whimpering little boys and girls, it came with her job and babies and little ones fussed, usually a great deal. The difference was, they had asked for everything to be done to them, because it turned them on. Marley didn't ask for any of this. She put her head on Santana's chest and started to mumble softly, her tears and sobs garbling her words.
"Shhh, what do you feel my sweet girl, tell Mommy what you feel, so I can help you," she told her.
"Owie, no owie, no bad, no mo, aw done," she cried.
"She's afraid Santana," Susan said and Santana nodded.
"Shhh, calm down baby girl, keep yourself calm and just breathe and then tell me what you really feel baby. Just calm down, breathe for Mommy," she said and then her cell phone went off. Susan ran to get it, handed it to Santana and Santana smiled when she looked at it. "Marley, look it's Mama," she smiled.
"Mama," Marley said softly, lifting her head up and looking pitifully at Santana.
"Hello?" Santana answered. "Yes, good luck," Santana said and she held the phone to Marley's ear.
"Hello my sweet baby girl," Rachel said.
"Mama," Marley cried.
"Oh no, what's the matter baby?" Rachel asked with great concern, her heart aching that Marley was so upset.
"Mama done," she pleaded.
"Mama's almost done with work baby girl and as soon as I am, I'll come home and be with you and Mommy and Papa," Rachel said.
"No, now, Mama now," she cried.
"Shhh, Marley calm down, tell Mama what's going on," she said kindly.
"Eminem," Marley cried.
"Thank god," Santana said to herself, happy that Marley had changed the word herself. She hoped it meant that they got through to her, that she understood this was different and only because she really needed it.
"I know, I remember that you were getting one today. I wanted to be with you, but I had to come to work. I bet you are being very brave though. I know that Nanny Susan is with you and Mommy, and that you're only getting this because your body needs it, so you don't end up back in the hospital," she said.
"Mama, pee done," she pleaded.
"I wish I were baby, but it's still going to be a few hours," she said and while the two of them talked, Susan continued to let the warm water flow into Marley's body. Marley wasn't even aware that it was still happening or that Susan was speaking softly to Santana who looked like she was ready to have a heart attack, based on Marley's pleading alone.
"You do know, she has no idea it's happening right? As soon as I help you get her back onto the toilet and she gets rid of all the water inside of her, she's going to feel so much better and look better," Susan told her kindly.
"And how do we stop this from having to happen again?" Santana asked.
"You just have to alter her diet a little bit, that's all. Add a little more fiber and a little more water and she should be fine," Susan said. "And when all is said and done, I have a little surprise for her," she said.
"Is it going to make her cry?" Santana asked protectively.
"No, you silly little girl," Susan laughed.
"Mama, home," Marley pleaded into the phone, truly not paying any attention to what was going on with her body.
"I promise baby girl as soon as I'm done with work, home is the first and only place I want to be," Rachel told her. "I have to get back to work baby. Will you be okay with Nanny Susan and Mommy?" she asked.
"Mama, pee home," she said sadly.
"Where are you baby?" she asked her and Marley whimpered. She just wanted Rachel to be home to hold her. "Mama pee" she begged pushing the phone to Santana, realizing she wasn't going to get her way.
"Hey," Santana said taking the phone back.
"Is she really okay? My heart is breaking for her."
"She is, she's just scared, but she's nearly done having it. All the water went in while she was talking to you, she wasn't even aware of it. I think she's waiting for something more to happen. Cruelty, or roughness perhaps, but you know that won't happen," Santana said.
"Give her kisses for me, and I'll try to get home as soon as possible," Rachel said and they both hung up.
"Marley honey, all the water is in, do you feel okay?" Susan asked and Marley just cried. She didn't know how she felt. She just knew she had more pressure in her stomach than she wanted to have.
"Mommy," she said looking at Santana.
"What baby?" Santana asked kindly petting Marley's face gently.
"Owie," she said and then she put her head back down on Santana's chest, trying to hear her heartbeat.
"Should we maybe try going potty?" Santana asked her gently.
"No done, aww done'," she cried pitifully.
"As soon as we get you on the toilet and you get rid of all that water, yes you will be all done, I promise," she assured her. They got Marley up on the toilet and she started to cry fresh tears.
"Shhh, you're okay baby, Mommy's right here, and we're almost done and then we'll go lay down and rest okay?" Santana soothed.
"Marley baby, I don't want you to push okay. Just let the water flow out on it's own and then if we have to rub your belly to help out the rest of the water we will okay?" Susan asked gently.
"Mama," Marley cried.
"Mommy's right here baby, she hasn't left," Susan said kindly.
"No, Mama!" Marley yelled crying harder and dropped her head, heart wrenching sobs wrecking her body.
"Marley Rose, there will be no yelling at Nanny Susan like that," Santana said seriously. "Apologize to Nanny," Santana told her sternly gently lifting her chin with her finger. "I know you're scared," Santana said slowly and kindly, "but you do not get to yell at anyone like that, you know much better," she said.
Susan looked to Santana with approval. There had been a little girl at the club two days prior, who hadn't been taught this lesson and proceeded to scream and yell at everyone, including Nicole, just for the simple sake of doing so.
"Aw-wy," Marley cried as a little bit of water leaked out of her and into the toilet.
"Mama is Rachel?" Susan asked.
"Rachel has been the only one to rub her belly so far, to relieve the pain," Santana explained.
"Shhh, okay baby, okay, calm down, look at Nanny sweetheart," she coaxed gently, not touching her, knowing it would make it much worse if she did. "Marley honey, thank you for your apology. I have something else to tell you though. Nanny knows how to rub bellies too. I can teach Mommy and we can let Mommy do it okay?" she asked and Marley just sobbed. Her tears came faster and harder as the water started to come out of her body followed by a lot of solid waste that had been stuck inside her and she cried in humiliation, pushing out what her body didn't want, something Susan had told her not to do. She also fell a bit forward, curling into herself, causing more pain in her back, and starting to hyperventilate slightly.
"Okay, okay, okay," Santana said and she got in front of Marley and forced her to focus and breathe. "Shhh, look at Mommy, you're okay," Santana soothed and as she did Susan left the room.
"Puh," Marley sobbed.
"It's okay, just don't push too hard, that's all honey and if Nanny has to teach me how to rub your belly that would be okay right?" she asked and Marley nodded. "Should Mommy go get Teddy Bear?" she asked.
"No, Mommy," Marley said and she leaned forward into Santana, wrapping her arms tightly around her. She just wanted her Mommy to hold her.
Marley stayed in the bathroom with Santana for thirty minutes before deciding she might be done and then she looked at Santana. "Mommy, no mo owie," she said.
"All done?" Santana asked with a kind smile. "Alright, sit there a minute, let me flush the toilet and then we can clean you up. Nice and gentle just like always," Santana promised and Marley nodded.
"Owie," Marley whimpered softly.
"Alright sweetheart, let me call Nanny Susan and ask her a question okay?" she asked gently cupping her face and rubbing it gently. "You're okay baby, I would never let you be in trouble and I know that the enema took a lot of energy out of you," she assured her. "Nanny Susan, can I have some help please?" she called and Susan showed up a moment later.
"Yes?' she asked.
"Marley thinks she might be done, should we get her ready to rest, or does something more need to be done?" Santana asked. She hadn't given an enema to any of her clients in a long time and she left before Miss Mercy finished her session the other day. She felt at a loss. The two insertions had been torture for Marley, even though, she wasn't complaining about having them done anymore.
"I'd like to try rubbing her belly before she goes to lay down," Susan said and Marley immediately whimpered. "Marley baby, can Nanny rub your tummy?" she asked and Marley let tears fall rapidly down her face and shook her head no. The no was the honest part, the tears were because she was afraid she'd disappointed her Mommy and all she wanted to do was be held now. She just wanted her Mommy to hold her, cuddle on the couch, and maybe suck on her pacifier. "Alright Marley, I won't touch. I'm just going to tell Mommy and Mommy can touch you," she assured her. "I'm going to do it on Mommy, okay? I won't touch you at all baby and I won't hurt Mommy either," she assured her.
Santana stood up and lifted her shirt and lowered her pants and underwear a bit, so that she was nearly as exposed as Marley was. "Alright Santana, it's always a clockwise motion and we start small, right above her belly button and just go gently and then make the circles bigger and bigger as you go, but always clockwise," Susan said and Santana nodded and grabbed some lotion.
"Okay baby girl, nice and slow, just like Nanny said, okay?" she said and Marley started to cry. "What's wrong sweetheart, you can tell Mommy anything you know that," Santana assured her.
"Nye nye, Mommy," she cried. "No owie, Wan' Mama pee," she cried and Santana's heart broke. Part of her was glad that she wanted Rachel and the other part of her hated that she wasn't the one to bring relief to her little girl.
"Alright baby girl, alright. First we have to make sure all the water is out of you, then Marley can go night night, that's okay," Santana assured her. "Mommy will rub your tummy, just to make sure you're okay, and then we'll go rest on the couch. You will drink your shake and rest with Mommy and as soon as Mama comes home, you can cuddle with her, okay?" Santana said gently.
Santana gently worked on Marley's belly and pushed out a lot more water and waste than she thought was possible and Marley was sweating by the time she finished. After ten minutes, they finished and Marley was whimpering softly. Her head was starting to hurt a lot more than she wanted and she didn't know why. "What's wrong sweetheart?" Santana asked her.
"Owie," Marley cried grabbing lightly at her head.
"Alright sweetheart, let's get you a quick shower and then we'll go lay down and cuddle like I promised. Would you like that baby?" she asked. Marley nodded and leaned forward holding tight to Santana. "I'm going to ask Nanny for help so I can hold you baby, is that okay?" she asked and Marley nodded. "You are my best girl Marley and Mommy loves you so much," Santana told her.
As they cleaned her up, Marley hung on tight to Santana. "Nye nye Mommy, pee," she begged.
"Yes baby, we're going to get you all cleaned up and into clean clothes and you can take a nap on the couch," Santana told her.
Marley was cleaned up, put into fresh clothes, and then Santana took her to the couch. Marley's ear immediately found it's way to her chest and she whimpered softly, her tears had stopped by this point, but she was still taking shuddering breaths, trying to calm down. "You're doing so well Marley, I am so proud of you my love," Santana told her.
Susan cleaned up the bathroom and the supplies and then went over to the couch. "You're all set to go lovelies," she smiled and she moved to sit on the coffee table with a little stuffed toy in her hand. "Marley baby, you did so well today and Nanny brought you a little something. This is for you my love. You did so well, and Nanny is very proud of you. This is yours now. Mommy told me that you liked your teddy bear, and I'm glad you do, but I thought that maybe your teddy bear would like a little friend, so I brought you a little panda bear," she said handing it to her. "You can do what you want with it, but I want you to know that this is a reward for your wonderful behavior, and your trust in Nanny today. I'm so proud of you," Susan told her. "Now, I'm going to head out, but I'm going to give Mommy a kiss before I leave," she said and Marley nodded, not getting tense at all as Susan leaned in and kissed Santana's cheek.
"Thank you," Santana told her sincerely. "Can you say thank you Marley?" she coached her kindly.
"Fayn koo," Marley whispered, staring at the panda bear's black rings around it's eyes and wondering why Susan had been so nice to her.
"You are very welcome love, can I give you a kiss too?" she asked her and Marley simply nodded yes. She felt Susan pet her hair, and then lean in, kissing her lightly on her temple. With a few more pets to her head, Susan left them alone.
"Mommy?" she asked after a few minutes of silence.
"What's up baby?" Santana asked as she lazily combed her fingers through Marley's soft hair.
"Hun'ree," Marley said softly.