Thank you everyone! I love reading your guesses on who the stranger is. Anybody been watching the new Sailor Moon Crystal? I'd love to know what you guys think on that too. I think it's good and not all that much different from the original though its been awhile since I've watched the original, so maybe I'm wrong.
Please feel free to tell me what you think on this chapter, too! :) I can't believe we're at 250 reviews...it's unfathomable. So thank you all again for the umpteenth time for your untiring support. You don't know how much it means to me.
Dear Stranger,
Right now, I'm watching the drugs slowly drip, running through the IV tube inserted in the inside of my arm. I don't know what's in it. That fact alone makes me anxious and honestly, it makes me scared too.
There's been a lot of emotions running rampant inside me for days now, if you hadn't been able to tell from my last letter. Each day it gets harder to keep up my positive attitude. I thought that they'd have figured out what's wrong with me by now, after so many months, but I'm still here. There's no definitive diagnosis. They did another scan of me before they started the IV drip stuff and Amy told me that they're now worried that the tumor has metastasized, which means cancer spreading to other organs in my body. Just what I need, right?
Darien and I haven't really talked in the last week. It's easier and less humiliating this way so I don't mind. Although I miss our Friday nights more than ever...okay, so I do miss Darien. But I don't know what to do about it. So I'm going to do nothing about it.
Today's new Sailor V episode had her struggling against, hunting down, then facing off against a villain that had the power of invisibility. And...I just related to it so much. This cancer inside my head...I can't see it. I can't actively fight it. It's destroying me from the inside out and there's nothing I can do but sit here like a puppet for strangers to experiment on. I don't even feel like I'm human anymore. And even Dr. Meioh says she's now watching me for depression. That really hasn't been making me feel any better. I want my normal life back. I want friends I can depend on, a boyfriend that will support me. I want to wake up late for school and be yelled at for bad grades. I want shopping trips and amusement parks. I want exotic vacations and weekends at the beach. I want to go home.
The difference between me and Sailor V? She was able to vanquish her unseeable enemy, and I'm not so sure that I can vanquish mine.
*Spots of blood mar the paper.*