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''Lila, I'm breaking up with you.''

It was, without the shadow of a doubt, the most difficult thing I ever said. Lila was standing in front of me completely stunned, trembling. The spoon in her hand fell on her cereal bowl as her big green eyes stared at me. Her frightened eyes were hoping that everything was just a sick joke.

But I wasn't kidding at all.

I knew things would be tough now, and I'm not sure if I'm ready for this. This is gonna be an emotional week. Not a good thing.

When I left Helga's apartment yesterday, I decided to change my life. I don't know how much I can trust her, but she promised to make me see the "dark side of life", a mysterious and scary side I've been always curious, and yet afraid of.

I wanted to live like her. I wanted to know how she lives. I wanted to know more about her, what she likes, what she dislikes, her youthful romances, her youthful mistakes, her discoveries. I have never been so passionate about a girl since I got Lila. I've always thought that Lila was the girl of my life, that I would soon marry her and have kids with her. Nevertheless, something with her always bugged me.

She was annoying. I was kind of annoying myself, but since my sophomore year, I discovered a part of me I never knew before. A wild side of me I had keep locked inside for years. Lila didn't like this part of me, she told me once or twice when we made love. I was too wild even for myself, too adventurous, I reckon. Well, in short, this part of me was screaming to get out, and I felt like Helga was the only one who would understand this. With her, I could be who I am really.

My relationship with Lila was getting platonic and sticked-in-the-mud. Unlike her, I needed a change, and it was ever so bad, cause I like Lila a lot. I wanted us to remain friends. After all these years, throwing everything out of the window just like that would be a shame. But I know it won't happen. Lila is not going to like me anymore, not even as friends. Our relationship... is over.

By the way, Lila wouldn't be the hard part... Gerald would kill me for sure. I didn't want to lose my bestfriend. I felt my heart sank as I sighed. It was too late now.

Lila stood up from her chair, her big emerald eyes still fixed upon me. Tears was running across her cheeks, and I couldn't help it but to look down. I don't have the courage to look at her straight in the eye. I didn't wanted to cry. I wasn't sure neither if I was happy with the way things are turning out. I didn't want to make her cry.

''You're breaking up with me? Why, Arnold, why!? I thought we were happy together! Why?! Is it because of what happened last time? Oh Arnold, if it is, I'm ever so sorry, just forgive me!'' she cried as she drew closer, her fist on her chest, her teary eyes fixed at mine. ''Don't leave me, Arnold.''

''No, it's of because of this...'' I muttered, not as sure of myself compared to how I was this morning.

Thinking what would've happened if I haven't met Helga, this would have been just every ordinary day. Lila and me would have taken breakfast, and then we would have met Gerald and Pheobe, and we would have headed for school with them. All would have been like the usual... same day as usual.

Lila looked at me with the same sad eyes. And then she broke in tears.

''It's because of this girl, isn't it ?'' She suddenly spat.

Her words made me look up at her slowly. She can see right through me? I think so... But I didn't reply to her question, my silence doing all the talking for me. Lila fell on her knees, hands on her teary eyes. I felt so bad at this moment, I'd would like to die. I would like to go back in the past and reveal the whole thing in a other way.

Lila was now on her knees in front of me, crying and trembling even though she was smiling five minutes ago. I bit my lip. I was the worst. I hate to make a girl cry.

''Lila, I... I'm sorry... This relationship...I'm not into you anymore... I don't feel it like I used to do... I... the flame have faded long ago, and Helga has nothing to do with it.''

Saying that I didn't like this woman with all my heart would be a lie. When I was young, I though she was perfect. My only one. Even when I loved Ruth, Summer or that substitute teacher, I haven't think they were perfect. Lila was. Always friendly, helpful, sacrificing her time for friends well being, being funny and sophisticated. Back then I never found any fault with Lila. I then discovered she wasn't as perfect as I first thought she was when we started to live together. She wasn't perfect: she was lazy, manipulative, boring, didn't know how to cook anything edible, and what she SHE wanted, she does it no matter if I was okay with it or not. Of course, in public, it was another story.

She needed to be perfect in other's eyes. I didn't understand this obsession of hers.

''Arnold, you can't do this to me! What would our friends say? What would I do? And our apartment, have you thought about it? And the university! Arnold, I'm begging of you, tell me that's just a oh so stupid joke!'' She tried to convince me, a weak hoped smile brightening up her beautiful face a bit.

My nails rubbed the back of my neck until it was raw. I wasn't used to this kind of things, and I didn't want to be. I don't mean to hurt her, but I should say it straightforward, without lying. She would be more hurt if things would pop up in her face by themselves.

''We should start to look for a cheaper apartment since we can't afford this by ourselves.".

I noticed I wasn't hungry anymore now, and I didn't want to go to school. I wasn't in the mood.

Lila, still on her knees, put her fist on her knees. Her beautiful red locks hid her emerald irises. I bent down to console her, but when she looked up at me, and I shocked. She wasn't crying anymore, but her eyes were red. Her face was twisted in a hatred, or perhaps fury, and I feel goosebumps in my back. She stood up fiercely and pointed at on me.

''I can't believe it, Arnold.. After all these years, you'll leave me... for a little.. A little... crack whore!'' She spat out, her eyes filled with anger.

I frowned. Ok, maybe Helga was really a crack whore, but I didn't care. I would like to believe she had a good reason to act like this, and I'm sure that's the case. I crossed my arms. I'm not gonna let this new agressive Lila have the best of me.

''Don't call her that, Lila. Have some respect."

''Respect?! Wait, are you kidding me, Arnold ? She just stole my boyfriend and treated people like shit, and you're asking me to respect her ?''

I looked away from her. She has a point.

''At least, she is proud of what she is. She is being honest with herself, and to others.''

She frowned and shoved me off. She was seething, and Lila being angry was scary.

But I'm sure a mad Helga is way worse than this.

''Are you saying I'm not honest, Arnold? I'm perfect! I am supposed to be perfect. Except for you, everybody think I am! We are perfect together! This Pataki girl won't be able to give you the half I have given you to you, and I'm ready to give you more, Arnold ! I broke hearts for you, I accepted all your silly invitation when we were young even if I wasn't interested in you, I gave you good sex, I kept you safe when you wanted to make something dangerous and completely stupid. I AM PROTECTING YOU OF YOURSELF, ARNOLD!''

I was taken aback. Protecting me of myself? What does she mean?

''Protecting me of myself ? What's that? I can take care of myself!"

Lila punched the table with her tender fist. Severals strands of her red hair traveled covered her face, giving her a murderous look. This wasn't like her. Lila was a smart girl. She never lost her temper, no matter how angry she gets.

Lila shook her head furiously. Each word I say seemed to mean nothing to her, and it was getting on my nerves. Then, she said something that caught my atttention.

''I protect you from yourself, Arnold! You can't even take care of yourself! I know you, Arnold, I know you more than anyone, more than Gerald and Phoebe. You're so naive and easily influenced. Everybody can do whatever they want to you. And this girl is nothing but manipulative bitch, and when she's tired of you, she'll get rid of you! She's gonna break you heart!''

She drew closer. Her eyes weren't angry now. She was worried.

''She will make you believe anything she wanted. I know you, Arnold. A part of you wanted the adventure that I can't give. She knows there are some things that II could not give you, Arnold. She's going to take advantage of you, and make you hit rock bottom. You'll lose everyone around you. And the worst thing is that you know it, you are completely conscious of it! She'll break you ever so silly heart, as she had broke us apart!"

Then she frowned again.

''And I won't forgive her for this.''

With there words, she took her backpack and left the apartment, heading for school, I guess. Then I stayed here, speechless. I never saw Lila like this. A part of me was impressed, and the other part was scared. Lila was rarely wrong, and trust me when I say, it scared me to hell. I enjoyed thinking that Helga got the hots for me. Well, it's not like I'm unattractive... Am I? I mean, I take care of my body, I'm always kind and polite... Girls go for this kind of guy, don't they? I hope Lila is not the only one...

I sighed deeply. Lila should be heading for the university now, and once there, she will surely tell everyone about what happened, and I will find myself all alone. But in the meanwhile, I think they are so.. so... ungrateful to let me behind like this for a girl... I should talk to them about this later. I sighed again and again and then stood up to finish my breakfast. I'll go in class this afternoon, I haven't the guts to confront everybody's gaze.

While relaxing in front of the TV, I thought about Helga. What was she doing? What was she thinking at this mooent? With whom was she spending her time? Have Lila talked to her yet? I shook my head. Better is to think positively. Yeah, that's right! I smiled stupidly thinking about the fact Helga might be thinking about me. I was utterly soft on her. At first, I found in her something attractive and mysterious. But now I know there is something else inside of her, something dark and sad, but I wasn't able to put a finger on it. What can it be? I could see it in her eyes, this missing sparkle in her eyes that everbody should have. I can hear in her voice this weak depressive tone she takes when she talks about her, I can feel every desesperate moves she makes and...

Ok, maybe I was exaggerating a little... A lot. And maybe I was only imagining this. But I am hopeless romantic... Well, that's what Lila used to say.

I know Helga was a troublesome brat. I knew that being with her would bring me in deeper problem and make me live crazy adventures. I was going to do things I never did... Things completely against my principles. But I had a desire to get in her world and know how does she live... And who knows, maybe in the end I'll be able to help her to have a better life. She can't be happy with this kind of life, it's impossible...

Several minutes later, I received a text mesage from Gerald.

''We need to talk.''

Then Phoebe.

''I can't believe you did it!''

And Sid.

''You're a lucky man.''

And finally from Sheena.

''Eugene and me are with you no matter what.''

I sighed. I didn't understand why Gerald, my best friend, was so angry with me when Sid, Sheena and Eugene looked like they didn't gave a shit. I think I pissed him off hard... I waited for so many years to get him to accept with Lila. Come to think of it, her words came to mind. Protecting me of myself... What does it mean? Am I not old enough to know how to make my own decisions?

Nevertheless, she was right at one thing. I knew Helga was going to break my heart many times. I have no doubt about it. Helga was like that. But I just wanted to be with her, and be there for her.

Afternoon came. Lunch time is going to be over soon. I had to hurry. I took my backpack, quicky styled my hair and then headed for school, a bit afraid. I wasn't in the mood to answer the question of my friends.

On my way, I began to think about what I should say to them... Yeah, like I should explain why I was in love with another giirl. Everybody can change their mind, can't they? So why can't I? I sighed again, like I'm doing on a daily basis since I knew Helga. Once at school, I looked all around me, looking for Helga, but she should be inside. Then all of sudden, a hand touched my shoulder and with a heartbeat, I turned around and recognized easily the lanky silhouette of Stinky who was staring at me, breathless.

''What's wrong, Stinky ?'' I asked bitterly, waiting for him to ask me about Lila and me.

''It's about Lila, she...''

''Can we talk about it later ? I'm don't feel like...''

''No, wait, listen to me!'' The brown headed boy insisted, running his fingers through his hair. ''Lila is fighting against the ol' Pataki girl in the backyard!''

His words passed through my ears and reached my misty mind, I pushed Stinky away and ran as fast as I could to the backyard. I looked all around, only to find the spot where Helga and Lila were and then I saw students gathering around a blonde and redhead. I bit my lips and made my way through the crowd. What I saw took me aback. Helga was laughing hard as my ex-girlfriend was on the ground, on her knees. Hands in her pocket, Helga drew closer to her.

''Will you look at that, she fell trying to hit me, how cute.''

Lila's hands balled into fist as I stayed here like an idiot. Lila suddenly stood up with fiery eyes. She sent her fist flying towards Helga as I was breathless. Lila was all but not violent. Hands still in her pocket, Helga dodged her with ease.

''That's all you can do, cowgirl ?'' The delinquent blonde teased her, still laughing.

I looked at them as Lila was stil trying to hit the girl who was simply dodging left and right, laughing.

''C'mon, don't give up. You'll soon hit me. Oops! You missed, loser!'' Helga teased her, smirking to show how she appreciated humiliating her.

''Fuck you! I hate you, Helga! You stole my Arnold! You stole him from me! How could you! You whore!''

I'm stunned. It was the first time in my whole life I heard Lila talk like this... what a potty-mouth. Then I frowned. I didn't like it. Coming from Helga, it was exciting, but from Lila's... It was horrible.

''Oh, what a vulgar cowgirl. Have you ever realized that it was because you're such a pain in bed?"

All mouths opened up at the same time, and few 'houuuu'' had been heard in the crowd. I couldn't bear more. I pushed the people aside, and placed myself between them.

''Lila, Helga, stop right now! Lila, you're embarassing me a lot !'' I madly said. '' It's not her fault! It's my decision!"

''This with charmed you! You'll see! When she will break your heart, and you will come back running to me again! And then we could me ever be so happy again, together!" She screamed before starting to cry loudly, before being comforted by Phoebe who took her in her arms.

Helga sneered, and put a hand on her hips.

''This girl was your girlfriend, Arnold? Damn, not wonder why you want me that much. She is such a pain in the ass'' She laughed before grabbing me, and kissing me smoothly on the lips in front of everybody.

I felt like my head was going to pop up and explode, and then my heart would follow, and leap out of my chest. I could feel my reddish cheeks burn. Helga Pataki was kissing me. Helga Pataki was kissing me in front of everyone. I'm so screwed, I'll be in everyone's conversation in this university. I could also feel the sigh of Gerald in my back, and hear the cries of Lila at my side.

I'm so screwed.

Helga let go of me and winked.

''You'll need a real woman in your hands, Arnold-do, after living so long with this loser. Come to the alley to the right of my appartment tomorrow, babe."

''Oh god... I feel dizzy... I need to lie down..."

''Wonderful, I'll go with you.'' She laughed and walked away.

And then I stood here. In front of everybody. Staring at the nothing with a shocked look.

I was deeply in the shit now.