Hiii Everyone! Here we are for a fast chapter this time !

So, I hope you'll be forgiving me, I haven't been able to correct this chapter. But I think I've made a good work, since I decided to stop translating from french.

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''There's a place downtown where the freaks all come around

It's a hole in the wall

It's a dirty free for all''

Skip.

''Hot and dangerous

If you're one of us then roll with us.

'Cause we make the hipster fall in love

When we got our hot pants on and up.''

Skip.

''Want u back, want u back want want u want u back''

Skip.

''I have a heart I swear I do...''

Skip.

''This is stupid, I'm not stupid

Don't talk to me''

Skip.

''TOUCH ME, TOUCH ME !

I WANNA FEEL YOUR BODY

YOUR HEART BEAT NEXT TO MINE''

I skipped again and again. It was early in the morning, I didn't sleep last night. I know I would be sleepless for the day, but I didn't care, I wasn't able to shut down my computer. My ears haven't yet got sick to hear her voice again and again. I knew all her songs by heart by dint of listening her tiredlessly. All her songs were talking about sex, parties and love, but I didn't care neither. I just wanted to hear her voice. Slowly, I turned my heard where Lila should normally be. But the bed was empty. Yesterday have been a long day. After Helga's kiss, I had not contact with my friends, excepted Sheena and Eugene who was still very kind with me, and Sid who's thinking I'm lucky as hell. I don't know if I should be lucky when everything around me is falling apart. I could feel Gerald's anger even from here.I really should have had a talk with him, ending up our relationship like this.. It would be so unfair. I don't want it to finish like that. I sighed, and then looked away from the computer, my tired eyeballs aching like hell. I got an headache from listening music all night. Her voice was... So wonderful, so powerful. I would hear it all the time. Then a weak smile came in my face. She asked me to see her tonight at her place. I wonder what she is thinking ? I can't let it pass. No one is going to stop me.

I stood up, and checked my texts on my phone.

One of Sid.

''Heyyyyy Arnold I'm watching a porn, wanna come ? Lol, the ol' joke.''

And one of Curly.

''TEXTING YOU TO WAKE YOU UP. .''

I sighed. This Curly guy... And then I shook my head and went in the kitchen for something to eat.

The appartment was quiet... So quiet since Lila left. Yesterday, she and two guys I didn't know came to pack her things and bring these to Pheobe's place. I rubbed my sleepless eyes and then watched a frame on my bedside table near my bed and grabbed the framed picture. It was Lila and me on a boat last summer. We were happy, we were smiling and lovely. I still have difficulties to realize that all of this is now over, and my love for Helga will be unrequited for a while. I suddenly felt depressed. Maybe what I did was wrong ? I was all confident back then, but did Helga really worth it ? All the pain that both Lila and me suffered... Was it really fine ? Maybe I was still in love with Lila, maybe I would just need some times...

And then I though about Helga Pataki. Her longs, sunny yellow hairs looked so fluffy,I would dream to pass my fingers through it softly. Her eyes, so blues, like the deepest ocean. Her nose, all curved and slightly too big, but it fitted on her so well. Her bigs heedful ears pierced of many metals. Her trashmouth always shooting insults and shits to anyone who dared to came too close of her, her pulpy lips that all guys would like to kiss passionately. Every move she makes, every blink she does, every word she says just give me the urge to make love to her like there is no tomorrow. Was it love ? Or just desires ?I thought I knew myself better than this. I feel kind of weird.

I looked myself in the mirror of my chamber. My hairs were a mess, my eyes were aching and bloodshot from the lack of sleep, my skin was pale and dirty. I should take a bath. These recent days was rough to handle. But tt's not done yet, I still had to deal with my bestfriend now, and to be honnest, I feared this day. I hated fighting or aguing with him. Our friendship was strong. I smiled weakly. I remembered all these times we passed in my chamber, telling horror stories... It was fun back then.

Whatever.

I went to shower and then dress up. I prepared myself mentally to the coming day. I would have to deal with my friends today. Why couldn't they understand that Lila sure is a pretty and nice girl, but that I wasn't in love with her anymore ? I mean, who can be living with the same person for the whole life ? Goddamnit...

I sighed, and then headed for school. As I expected, the whole gang was waiting for me in the backyard. I checked my watch; twenty minutes before the courses start. Shit.

''Hm... Hi.'' I said awkwardly.

''Arnold, I think we need explication. What was this thing yesterday ?'' Asked Pheobe, visibly a little upset that her bestfriend has been seen like this, in complete fury.

''Well, I don't really know, I... I just, came here, and Stinky told me...''

''It's not just that Arnold.'' Said Gerald with a frown. ''We told you this girl is mean, agressive, crual and dangerous. And now you leave Lila for her ? Are you stupid!''

I sighed. This day will be long.

''Look'' I said with an irritated tone in my harsh voice. ''It's like this. I know I barely know her. I know she is dangerous and really bad. I know she takes drugs and stuffs, and I know she is crual in her words. But I love her. And you guys can't change that. I thought you would be more friendly towards me. I love her, I love her but I haven't decided this, it's faith, you know.'' I spat, wondering if this little speech worked.

And then I saw the cute litte brown head of Sheena in the crowd, followed by Eugene who looked a little shy.

''Don't worry Arnold.'' Sheena spoke with a very sweet voice. ''We are with you. Love is something so beautiful, I'm sure you see something in this girl that we don't see. Am I right ?''

And then I smiled. Sheena has never been one of my closest friend, but she was really kind and smart.

''Yeah, I guess.''

Gerald rubbed his hairs and shook his head.

''Okay, fine Arnold. I could accept the fact you date her. But if you fall in the same dangerous world than her, then we couldn't be friend anymore. I don't want to face the same problems we faced with Sid.''

Sid looked uneasy, but I merely nodded with an emotionless face. I think I won this one.

Everybody left, but Sid stayed and wrapped my neck with his arm.

''Fuck Arnold, I don't believe she kissed you! You're fucking lucky ! How did you do ?''

'' I... I don't really know... I think she likes me.'' I said.

''Damn, I'm so jealous! Why is it always the good guys with the hottest girls ?'' He cried as he left.

I began to head to my class too before I get late. Well, it was way shorter than I thought. I didn't want to lost all my friends. I don't deserve that.

In my math class, while pairing up with Sid for a work, I could feel Helga's glaze in my back, giving me goosebumps and making my cheeks turns all red. Sid lowered towards me.

''So, do you really like her?''

''Yeah, I do like her. How to say it... She's like... Everything I've been missing all these years... Something I can't really put a finger on.'' I explained akwardly, not even sure of what I was saying myself.

''Don't fool me, you just like bad girls. But hey ! It's okay buddy, I like it too. Wild, sauvage. A beast in bed !'' He laught discreetly.

I blushed, and looked away. This Sid was a true pervert, he will never get a girlfriend, especially not Sheena.

''And don't worry about Gerald. He's just afraid the same thing happened with me could happen again, and this time hurt Pheobe. He's a cool guy, he will cool down. Take it easy buddy.

''I hope you're right. I'd like to my best friend to understand what I feel...''

I peeked behind me to see Helga smirking, and I hoped she haven't heard what I said. She winked seductively and I couldn't help myself but feel like a little shy boy. I watched in front of me, not strong enough to keep the face-to-face. Damn, she's playing so hard with me. I rubbed the back of my head when I felt something wet hitting me. I spinned my head to see Helga chewing something and then spit this at me.

A spitball.

I shot her a glaze meaning '' Seriously, Helga ? Still doing this at your age ?'' . But she only winced more. I shook my head, amuzed, and tried to ignore her as Sid was trying hide his laught.

I though the day would never end. Especially the course I had with Gerald. I could feel his stare at my back, and it made me uneasy.

But let's forget about all of this. Classes are now over. I would go for Helga's place, now. As I know her, she have left quickly, and even before the classes end.

I headed for her appartment, feeling excited and yet anxious.. I then remembered she wanted me to join her to the nearest alley, and then I curiously walked throught the darkness.

I could see three bodies leaning against a wall made of old faded red bricks. My senses quickly detected the smell of coke, or whatever it is, and it attacked my nostrils. I coughed, and then their heads turned fastly towards me. I recognized Helga, but she had a big black guy and a bald-headed men on her side. I couldn't help it but it reminded me a movie where a kind guy has been attacked in the darkness by a dangerous gang and has been killed. I gulped.

The two men to Helga's side began to walk harshly towards me, and I feel goosebumps attacking me like cold water.

One raised his hand and when he was about to touch me, Helga threw what she was smoking on the ground and finally came to help me.

''Hey, Football head. How have you been ? Cool down guys, it's a friend.''

The two gorillas then stepped backward, and I let out a sigh of relief, the sweat running on my back like water. She leaned her elbow on my shoulder with a devilish smirk on her face. She wore a black t-shirt with a torn jeans jacket and a pants with army color and a lot of chains and belts. She was damn hot.

''So Arnold, let me introduceto you two of my friends. Here is Jawbreaker, and Burn.

I raised an eyebrow, and then she explained.

''It's their fight name. You know, they are in my gang.''

This time, I had really difficulties to take back my breath. So she was really in a gang! And by the sound of it, she was the chief! Oh godammnit, in which shit did I put the foot on ?

I gulped. Hard. I've always been a kind of coward, and these guys looked really huge and I feel that they could break my body in two in less than 5 seconds.

''Don't worry. They won't hit you until I told them to do. Come on, come with us.''

I had no choice, but in my head, I was deceived. I though we would be alone, and maybe kiss or hug. But I don't feel like doing this in front of these two gorillas.

''Pataki, are you sure he can be a man of trust ?'' Asked Jawbreaker, the black one, looking in my soul as I watched the ground in fear.

''Yeah yeah, he's a good guy.'' She said, opening a can of beer, a cigaret on her ear.

I felt so awkward. They all had their eyes blooshot, Helga was drinking, the black one played with his knife, and the bald man was smoking something. And me... I was looking at them awkwardly and a little uneasy. Helga peeked at me and laugh devishly.

''Haha, where's my manners ? Wanna share my beer ?'' She asked seductively, her only unhidden eye staring at me.

I blushed, but before I could answer, she came to my side and forced me to finish her can. All happened quickly, and I cough as they laught in front of my weakness. I sighed. Did I really abandonned Lila for this ?

''I think I'll make my way home.''

''Already ? I don't think you'll be going anywhere.'' Spat Helga behind me.

I began to walk away, but Jawbreaker put a hand on my shoulder, his grip was like fire or poison on me.

''The lady said you're going anywhere, Cornflower.'' The black guy threatened menacingly.

Okay.. Okay, it's official. I'm scared now.

''Before you go'' Said Helga as she walked closer to me. '' You'll smoke one of this shit''.

She showed me something looking a little like a cigaret. Weed, I guess. But wait a minut, why should I do this ?

''If you want to kiss me, fuck me and hang with me then I'm sorry, but you'll have to do like me.''

It's true that I wanted to live like her to see the life the same way than she does, but still... Weed ?

''It's not that big of a deal, Poussin. Just smoke it.'' Burn spoke for the first time.

I watched the weed, and took a deep breath as I took the drug. My heart was racing fast, my head was on the edge to explode. It's just a little of weed, it never killed someone, right.. ?

Right ?

They all stepped backward to watch me more carefully. They were murmuring things I couldn't hear. I think they were laughing at me. I watched Helga who was glazing at me, and I decided to make a man of myself. With the lighter she sent to me, I lighted on the weed and with all my courage, I took a deep inhalation of the drug and it attacked my eyes, my nostril, my throat and my limbs. It was horrible, horrible and disgusting. I threw the weed on the floor and coughed. I wanted to look cool in Helga's eyes, but I think it's not for today. Helga took the weed I've thrown on the floor and looked at me angrily.

''Hey, do you know how much I pay for that kind of shit ? Crimeny, don't throw this you idiot !''

But then she smirked and put her hand between my legs at the RIGHT place. I jumped as her lips met mine. What the fuck is happening ?! I wondered as my face turned bright red. She broke the contact and laught.

''But it's not bad for a first time. You deserved a gif. Now I think you can make your way home. I'll make you one of us, Arnold.'' She promised me as her cold ocean blue eyes stared in my eyes like a open book.

I think I'm outta here.

1) Take it off - Kesha

2) We r who we r - Kesha

3) Want u back - Cher Lloyd

4) Cannibal - Kesha

5) Stupid in love - Rihanna

6) Touch me - Samantha Fox