My phone broke down and my laptop doesn't work so I had to sit a few moths without technology . Now and then I borrowed my sisters laptop for an half and hour . And when my phone got back I lost all my writing . Is wriiten like 4 chapters . I rewrite them and now they are better. And then it was exam but now I'm giving you as many from this story possible . I'm sorry . I'm really terrible .

Disclaimer : I do not own the hunger games.

Katniss pov

My plan is to get into the school , train and then find a way to contact with Panem . I have to go back , I have a family to feed and everybody will think I'm dead . What if my mom goes into that 'state' again what will prim do ? Last time I saw Prim it was before the hunger games . She was scared to death that I will die . I promised her I would try to win an I've accomplished. So it has been a few weeks after I decided on my plan . All I told the rest was that I will tell them soon ,when I think it's safe , because president Snow told me not to and I fear if he finds out he'll kill Prim or Peeta or even Gale .

So I became good friends with Paige , Madison , Jax , Jake and Christie . They're all very helpful. I learned more about Tracing . I expected I'll have nightmares , like every victor has I believe . But not only do I have nightmares I have flashbacks too . On random times of the day or if I see a knife or any weapon that is . Even when I see my knife marks or my clothes filled with blood or my bow and arrows or the mud cover backpack and anything related to any of this .

I miss my family I miss Gale. Of course I miss Peeta. I even miss Haymitch and Effie and of course Cinna ! The smell of the pine trees in the woods , there is nothing familiar to that here .I miss hunting with Gale with my own bow and arrow not with the one from the Capital. My friends want me to go see a therapist ; whatever that is.

So I'm sitting in my Natural Science class . So we 're learning about plants and stuff , but I know almost everything about that from the book my dad left. Rrrrrriiiiinnnnggg ! The bel rang signaling the end of the period for lunch . I am seen as a 'loser' but Christie is very popular so she makes sure everyone backs off . If only they knew , none of their lives are hard none of them has to hunt for food that your family doesn't starve non of them has to fight . Honestly I wish they can see the life in Panem . Then they will understand and learn to appreciate I even wish that for my friends , I hate to admit it but they can be brats.

When I went to our table I see that everybody is already there eating up a storm . I don't eat lunch at school . I only eat dinner for the following reasons 1) I'm used to it , I appreciate . 2) It feels wrong that I can eat while district 12 , my home , is starving. 3) It reminds me of the Capitol people , feasting and all the food we had in the capital . Oh and I forget to mention I go by Katniss Mellark and I wear my ring on the other hand . When I sat Jax , we are very close , asked me " hey kitty kat " I give him my million dollar glare but he just shrugs it off . " Why you not eatin " he says in a fake accent .
" I have my reasons " " ok... Well you guys must have seen , my parents scolded me and I can't stand for that ! I was innocent , I did not sell candy illegally at my summer camp ! It was 'cool drink' and it was not illegal . They just don't like sweet stuff thats why they're so sour. So to get back I egged their car . Ha it was classic ! I got grounded but I stood up for the voices of the under aged " he mad a dramatic pose with his right fist in the air . I couldn't help but smile . Cool drink ! Ya right ! More like alcohol " And why did you ' stand up for the under aged?" Christie mimics his voice .
" Because I'm awesome like that " "Well anywhoo " said Jake . " Did you see that movie last night !" They all began to laugh . " It was so funny I know its war and everything but it was sooo funny ! " Paige exclaimed .
" I know right ! That girl got stabbed with a knife and the other girls eyes looked like they would pop out of shock ! And then she was sad . Honestly that girl deserved to die ! "
I zoned out , I'm angry . How could they think that ? Then my mind goes to Rue . I must stay calm because I'm gonna have a flashback . Don't think , don't think . But I can't help it . That moment when she was killed and I killed Marvel . I killed Marvel . I killed somebody . And Rue on he flower bed . I Let out a strangled scream .

Christies pov

We all were still laughing when Katniss fell to the floor and screamed . She's holding her head sobbing and screaming stuff like No ! And I'm sorry ! The whole school is seeing this and I have to get her out of here. I tell Jake to pick her up and all of us run to my car . He sets her down and tries to calm her . She eventually opens her eyes and breaths hard and looks rapidly around .
" I'm fine " she says .
So we take her home and she takes a shower . While she showers all of us sit in the living room . " Guys what is that " Madison points to an envelope . Paige picks it up and reads ' Katniss Everdeen '
Who knows Katniss real name ?

Katniss pov

When I decent down the stairs everybody is staring at me. " I know I'm sorry for all the tr - " Jax cuts me off

" Katniss here is something for you " he gives me a envelope .

My heart beats faster . I take the letter and see my name in the carefull , fancy hand write of president Snow . I plop down on the couch an begin reading .

Miss Everdeen

I hope you are enjoying your stay . As I informed you , you will make an appearance on the victory tour to district 11 . We told your home district and the others that you and Peeta will not go home to district 12 before the tour . We said that we had to celebrate two victors. And that you will come home after the victory tour . So you will go to the nearest airport ,where a hovercraft will be waiting and you will be prepared on the craft . Then you will give your speech that your mentor or Effie wil give to you . And we will say that you had a heart attack on the train and passed away and then we will make the people believe that Peeta killed himself on the train , simply because he cannot live without you . Tragic death isn't it . The hovercraft will be there tomorrow

Good day President snow

Ah! Like the people will believe that they want to celebrate TWO victors . And that I died . They will think Snow killed me . Why hasn't he ? He probably wants me to suffer first . And if he plans to make the people think Peeta is dead ... Where is Peeta ? I stand up and let water run over the envelope . Watching as the paper becomes soggy and tears in little pieces going down the drain. Everybody stares at me and I tell them goodnight.