After this chapter there will be one more, then this story is done.
This chapter will see how Jim help Sam, he'll talk with Dean about what Sam said.
Jim needed to talk to Dean about what Sam said to him, he called Dean and Bobby in to have a talk. He was still holding Sam in his arms when they walk in, Dean could tell that Sam was sleeping by his breathing. Bobby help Jim lay Sam on the couch, so that the young man would be comfortable. Jim walk up to Dean and lead him to the Library, he needed to talk to him alone about Sam's insecurities. When they walk into the room Jim close the door, he motion Dean to sit on one of the chairs. Jim pulled the other chair up to Dean's to talk to him, he sat there for a moment thinking on what to say first.
"Dean how do you think Sam is handling on what happen to him." Jim needed to know what Dean is thinking.
"I know he thinks it's his fault for what happen to him, that he is having nightmares over what happen. He's been really quite for the last few days, I don't know how to talk to him to help him with this." Dean put his head in his hands, he feels like he is failing Sam somehow.
"Sam thinks that you don't love him anymore, he said that he feels dirty like a stain on the floor. I know that you love your brother very much Dean, he needs to know that you'll be there for him." Jim saw the shock in Dean's eyes.
"Jim I love Sammy very much and this doesn't change that, what happen to him isn't his fault. I'll always be there for Sammy no matter what, I was just giving him some space that I thought he wanted.. I want to comfort him in my arms, telling him it's going to be alright now. I-I just don't now how to deal with this Jim, I really have no words to say that would help him. I can't get that picture out of my mind, with Jack leaning over Sammy to…." Dean couldn't finish what he was going to say, he let the tears fall feeling ashamed with himself.
Jim sat there looking at Dean with wide eyes, he didn't even realize how Dean would react. He knew that Dean was the first one to go in, seeing Jack in that position with his brother knowing how close he came. Dean must be really punishing himself for letting it happen, even though it was out of both brothers hands.
"Dean it must have been really hard for you to see that, I can't even imagine what was going through your mind. I don't know why I would react to seeing Jack on Sam, knowing what they man could've done if you didn't stop him. You and Sam both need to get this out in the open, tell each other your feelings on what happen in the house." Jim knew they needed to talk to each other.
Before Dean could answer someone knock on the door, they both look when the door open it was Bobby.
"Sorry to interrupt yer talk guys, Sam is up looking for you Dean." Bobby hated to bother them knowing they needed this talk, Sam woke up scared and wanted his brother.
"That's ok Bobby we were just finishing our talk, you can go and check up on your brother and talk to him. You two need to talk things over and get them out in the open, so that the healing can begin between you to." Jim got up and walk out the door.
John went to see his friend Joe Bear walker to get the bullet out of his shoulder, he was in the next town over hunting a skin walker. He told John where the hotel was and gave him direction, when John got there he knock on the door. Joe let him in and started to give him the Miranda Rights, he was really upset with John's attitude towards Sam. He heard what he did to Sam and Dean after the wolf attack, he couldn't believe that John would say and do those things. He's friend needed his help and he never turn it down, he needed to tell John on what he thought about it. Joe told John to sit on the chair by the table, he had all the first aid supplies he needed out on the table. He gave John some whiskey to drink first to numb the pain, he put alcohol on the wound to sterilize it. He poured alcohol over the knife he was using, telling John to brace himself he started to get the bullet out. He could hear John hiss through the pain as he search, when he found the bullet using the tweezers to get the bullet out. He poured more alcohol over the wound to get it clean, grabbing a sterile bandage he covered the wound taping it in place.
When Joe was done cleaning the wound on his shoulder, John's face was covered in sweat from the pain. He took another drink of whiskey before he laid down, Joe wanted him to stay for a few days to make sure no infection sets in. This gave them some time to talk about what happen between him and Sam, he wanted to know why he thought Sam needed that kind of punishment.
"John why the hell did you treat your son like that, you knew he wouldn't be sleeping on a hunt. He would never let Dean get hurt on purpose, telling him to go to Bobby's to keep him away from Dean. What kind of father have you become John, I never for once think you would do that to Sam. On top of all that you hit him with a belt, do you know how many marks they found on his back. Then you get a child molester to grab your son, did you even think of checking him out before you've done that. Now you lost all your rights to Sam to be your son, you even lost Dean knowing that he would follow Sam anywhere. How does that make you feel John right now, that you just screwed yourself up big time with both of your sons." Joe look at John with very dark eyes.
"How do you think I feel loosing Sam like that, I feel like crap for all the things I did to him. Just because I was being selfish and my pride was hurt, I keep telling he needs to be in this battle for his mother death, Knowing that he has no memory of her since he was only six months old, telling him that she died in his room protecting him. I should've know that pushing him into this would make him feel that way, thinking that his mother hated him cause I never told him how much she loved him. Now I lost all my rights to my son whom I loved from day one, from the time he came home from the hospital and now. I've never told him how much I love him in a long time, so I can see why he thinks that Mary and I hate him so much." John could feel the tears in his eyes and wipe them away.
"This is something you need to tell your sons John, maybe when things die down call Bobby again. Ask him if you can see Sam on his terms not yours, let him know how sorry you're for what happen the last month. Never know Bobby might be able to talk Sam and Dean in seeing you, it might take a long time to regain their trust again. Tell Sam how you feel about him John before it's to late, he needs to know that you still love him very much. Yeah it's going to be an uphill battle to get him to see you, do it when Sam is ready to talk to you. It might take a month or a year for him to come around, do it when he is comfortable enough to be around you. You can stay here until I kill the skin walker then we've got to go, there is another hunt a state over with a black dog you can come with if you like." Joe said as he walk out the door.
Dean walk out of the Library to go talk to Sammy, he saw his brother sitting on the couch with his knees up to his chest. Dean sat down on the couch and look over at Sam, he could tell his brother was upset by the tear marks on his cheek. He took his hand and put it on Sam's shoulder, he saw how Sam leaned into his touch and look up. The look Dean saw in Sam's eyes almost made him cry, he just wanted to grab his brother and hug him. Dean wanted to say some comforting words to Sam, instead he did what Jim told him to do. He wanted until Sam started to talk to him, then he would tell his brother how he feels about what happen.
"Dean do you not like me anymore cause of what happen, you don't even look or talk to me." Sam said in such a low voice it was almost a whisper.
"Sammy of course I like you little brother I love you very much, I was just having a hard time with this to. If I was with you that day this would've never happen to you, I blame myself for what happen to you Sammy." Dean couldn't look at Sammy then.
"Dean this wasn't your fault for what happen to me, I should've been more alert to my surroundings. I was in a rush to see Joe and Robert before they left, I didn't really see the van until I was being pulled into it." Sam took Dean chin and lifted his head, so they could look into each others eyes.
"Sammy you shouldn't blame yourself either cause it wasn't your fault, the only person who is to blame is Dad. He is the one who sent Jack to come and get you, he should've check his back ground before he sent him." Dean was getting angry at his Dad again, he inhaled to calm him down to talk with Sammy.
"Dean I should've fought harder to get away from him, I'm just a weak person like Dad said…" That was all that Sam got out when Dean cut him off.
"Sammy you're not weak at all kiddo, I never want to hear you say that again. You fought him off long enough for us to get there, didn't you tell me that you grab and kick him in his family jewels. You tried to get away from him he was just to strong for you, he would've been to strong for me to kiddo to get away from him." Dean knew that wasn't true he could've taken the guy down.
"Dean you would've put him down on the ground with one hit, you're a lot stronger then me and a better fighter. I don't know how long I fought against him before you came, during that time he pin me against his chest or the table. He even got my pants and shirts off of me when he had me pin, he almost got my boxers off holding me down on the table. You would've never let that happen to you am I right, I mean you came in and got him pin on the floor in two seconds. I don't know why you want me as your brother right now, You should leave my sorry ass behind and walk out the door." Sam couldn't look at Dean anymore.
"Sammy I wouldn't want another brother I like the one I have now, I would never leave you behind or walk out on you. The day Mom put you in my arms for the first time, you grab my little finger and smile at me with those puppy dog eyes. I knew from then on you would have me wrap around your little finger, no matter what you did since then I was always behind you." Dean wanted Sam to know how much he really cares.
Sam look really good in Dean's eyes to see if he was telling the truth, he could always tell when Dean is lying by his eyes. He could see that every word he said was true and from the heart, he knew that Dean would always be there for him. He smile at his brother for the first time in three days, he could feel the tears in his eyes and wipe them away.
Dean could see that Sam finally realize that he loves him very much, no matter what happen in the house he doesn't see Sam as a disgrace. He smile at how Sammy was trying to hide his tears from him, he grab his brother into a hug and held him tight.
Jim and Bobby watch the boys from the kitchen giving them some privacy, they didn't want to intrude on the brothers talk. They both could tell that what ever Dean said to Sam calm him down, they could see how relax Sam was now after the talk. They both smile at both brothers as they hug each other, Bobby could feel the tears running down his cheeks.
"Bobby if I didn't know you I would say you became a big softy." Jim laugh at Bobby's look.
"Don't go and tell everyone ya damn idjit, I would lie about it if ya did." Bobby smile at Jim's expression when he called him an idjit.
"Is that way to talk to a man of the cloth Bobby, maybe you need to come and confess your sins." Jim look away from Bobby and back to the boys.
John thought about what Joe said to him yesterday about calling Bobby, he knew that he broke all trust with Sam and Dean. He really wanted to try to regain their trust again, he knew to that it would take a long time to do it. He's been looking at his phone all morning long, he had Bobby's number on his screen three times already. He lost his nerves when he went to hit the call button, he close his phone each time afraid of what he would hear. Finally he said to himself 'such it up Winchester and get it over with,' he scroll down to Bobby's number again and hit call. He was about to hang up the phone when Bobby answered, John was quite at first before he said anything.
"This is Singer what do ya want." Bobby's gruff voice boom over the speaker.
"Uhm Bobby this is John can we talk for a few minutes." John wasn't sure how Bobby would react.
When Bobby heard John's voice over the phone his anger started to boil, he wasn't sure why he would be calling him. He tried to hide his anger when he spoke to John, at least this time he was calling and not coming over.
"What do ya want now Johnny Boy." Bobby said with a tint of anger in his voice.
"Bobby I know you're still mad at me for what happen, you've got every right to be anger at me. I'm sorry for what I did to Sammy and Dean, I was stupid for doing all that and I'll never forgive myself. I know I've got no right to ask this from you, I would like to talk to Sammy on your terms if he wants to talk to me." John was getting nervous when there was no response to his request.
"Why do you want to talk to Sam about John, I've got ever reason to ask this question before I saw anything." Bobby wanted to know what was up John's sleeve.
"I want to tell him how sorry I am for what I've done to him, I shouldn't have taken my anger out on him. I shouldn't push him into hunting for something he doesn't know about, he has no memory of his mother like Dean and I. He really don't know the whole story of his mother's death, I want to tell him the truth about why she died. He has the right to know that about her, and how much she loved him very much." John was hoping that Bobby would say yes.
"Dean already told Sam how much his mother loved him, as for the other part I don't think he should know that. I don't think it's a good idea to tell him why she died in his room, they only thing he knows is that she loved him very much." Bobby didn't like that idea at all, especially now with him being so freak out.
"Bobby Sammy does have a right to know why his mom died, she died to protect him from the Demon. He needs to know this so he doesn't think she hates him, that is the furthest thing from the truth Bobby she loved him. Please let me talk with Sammy you and Dean can be there to, I won't do anything stupid again I promise I won't." John knew his promise isn't worth anything right now.
"Let me talk with Sam and Dean John, then I'll call you back to tell you what they said. Don't count on Sam coming to see you anytime soon, I'm not going to force him to into this at all. This will be up to Sam and Sam alone if he wants to, do you hear me on this John do something stupid you'll never see him." Bobby wanted John to know how serious he is about this.
"I understand Bobby what ever Sammy wants to do I'll deal with it, I promise I won't do anything stupid like before. I'll wait for your phone called to let me know, if he says no then I'll try later and see if he wants to talk." John was not going to ruin it this time with Sammy, what ever his decision is he'll deal with it.
"Just as long as I have your word you won't do something stupid, if you do you'll never seen Sam again. I'll take him someplace you'll never find him, you know that I would do this John so be careful." Bobby disconnect his called with John, he look up and saw Sam and Dean standing there.
"Bobby I don't ever want to see Dad again, please don't make me go see him. I want nothing to do with that man at all, please don't make me go to him Bobby." Sam was pleading with Bobby.
"Sam I told John that it was up to you tiger to talk with him, if you don't want to talk to him then I'll call him back. He said that he'll take what ever your decision you make, he promise me that he wouldn't do anything stupid this time." Bobby put his hand on Sam's shoulder to calm him down.
"How can you be sure he'll keep his promise, you told him before to stay away and he didn't. He kept coming after me ever time, each time he hurt him with his words or hands." Sam look at Bobby then at Dean.
"Sammy this time Dad will listen to Bobby, like he said if he doesn't we'll leave for good. Bobby and I will both take you someplace that Dad wouldn't fine you, we'll stay with you until he comes to his senses." Dean won't let his Dad get to Sammy this time.
"What happens if he doesn't Dean how long are we suppose to hide, Bobby does have a life besides us he has a job to. He can't just get up and leave it all behind him, I won't let him do that just for me it's not worth it." Sam really didn't want Bobby to do that, he knew deep down that is what Bobby would do.
"Sam lets come to that bridge when we cross it ok, let me call your daddy and tell him what you said. He said that he'll except your answered no matter what, lets see if he can keep his word and not come over here. By the way Sam if he does come to that for us to leave, yes I would leave everything behind to keep you safe." Bobby wanted Sam to know that he would do what ever it takes to keep him safe.
"My answered will be no Bobby, I do not want to see Dad at anytime. I don't want him to call you anymore to see how I'm doing, he is to need to leave us alone for good." Sam said in a very stern voice.
"Ok then lets call your daddy back and tell him Sam." Bobby said as he scroll down to John's name.
Dean watch as Bobby dial John's number to tell him what Sammy said, he knew by Sam's voice that he wasn't joking about it. His little brother wanted nothing to do with their dad anymore, Dean will back Sammy up on his decision. When it really comes down to it Dean felt the same, he didn't want anything to do with his Dad. After everything he put Sammy through in the last month was uncalled for, if he never sees his dad again he'll be happy. Just as long as Sammy and Bobby is there with him his happy, he was jerk out of his thoughts by Bobby talking with their dad.
"John this is Bobby calling back, Sam's answer is no." Bobby could hear a pin drop at the silence.
"Alright Bobby is that what Sam wants then I've got to take it, I'm not happy about the decision but I'll except it." John said with sadness in his voice, he has no one else to blame put himself.
"One other thing that Sam wants you to do, he wants you not to call me anymore to talk about him." Bobby could hear the disappointment in John's sigh.
"I got to do what Sammy wants then, this will be the last time we'll talk Bobby. Tell Sam that I'm sorry for everything, and that I love him and Dean very much." With that John hung up the phone, knowing that this is his last time talking with his friend.
"Your daddy said that he was sorry Sam, and that he loves you and Dean very much. I'm glad that he'll keep his promise to us, in some way I do feel sorry for John loosing his only two sons. Now it's gone and I'm glad that I've got to wonderful sons right here, I love you two very much and thanks for excepting me as a father figure." Bobby could see the looks in the boys eyes, knowing that this will come and bit him in the ass.
"Are you two ok with my decision on this with Dad, this is something I need to do for right now. Maybe later down the road I'll talk to him, right now I just can't be around him." Sam was hoping that they would except it.
"What ever you decided Sammy is fine by me, I'll be with you all the way little brother. We'll probably get on Bobby's nerves at some point, he will be on his toes with us hanging around right old man." Dean dodge Bobby hit with his hat.
"I'll show you who is old you damn idjit, one of these days Sam your brother will get a beating." Bobby smile at his sons.
That's it for this chapter, like I said the next one will be the last one.