Sam and Dean wanted to go back to Bobby's but I couldn't go back not knowing what happened. So it took come convincing but they agreed to come with me to the BAU. I didn't say much to anyone. I was tired, in a lot of pain and worried. Dean did however managed to get me new clothes. It felt better not being soaked in blood.
Walking into that building made me feel even worse than I did before. Dean had told me about his talk with Penelope how she thought I ran away from them. It made me feel ten times more guilty and I had no idea how they would react when they saw me.
The floor was quiet as they all stared at me. Every agent on the entire BAU floor just stared at me. I looked around and they tried to hide the confused looks but they sucked at it. The people I was looking for were no where to be found. I thought I could find them in the conference room so that's where I looked. No one was around and I sighed.
"What are we doing here?" Sam asked sighing as I looked at the empty room and walked in.
"I have to know what happened." They followed me in. "You know you shouldn't have come up here." I said turning around and looking at them.
"What are they gonna do? Arrest us?" Dean laughed.
"In any other circumstances I would have you both locked up." Aaron's voice came from behind them. We all jumped and there was the whole team. "Now shouldn't you be in the hospital?" He asked crossing his arms.
"Shouldn't you be dead?" Morgan corrected from behind the whole group. They all looked shocked and he just leaned up against the door with his arms closed.
"Look I'm so sorry..." I started with a sigh as Sam and Dean walked behind me. "I just..."
Before I could finish my sentence Spencer pushed away from the group and came quickly at me. His eyes were big and when he hugged me I felt the tears in my eyes start. "We are glad your alive." he laughed a bit as he squeezed tightly. Next was Penelope, she held on even longer, and then Rossi just laughed and hugged me quickly. "We missed you." Penelope smiled.
"You don't even know how much I missed you guys." I smiled. I looked up at Derek who had not said anything and stayed where he was. He just shook his head and walked away. Penelope sighed as she watched him walk away. "I'll be right back." I said letting go of Penelope's hand and following Derek.
He walked down the hall and into an office. He sat down at a desk that had his name on it. "Acting Unit Chief?" I asked looking at the title under his name plate. He said nothing. "I see your moving up." I smiled at him as I stood at the door.
"Yeah you miss a lot when your dead." he scoffed and pushed back in his chair playing with a pen.
"Okay I get your man at me but..."
"No you don't get it." He mocked me standing quickly. "You show up covered in blood, gash on your face gushing blood, you don't say anything and you don't let me help. You just walk into Hotch's office then we never see you again!" He yelled. "We search and we search but you never reappearer so we are all fooled to thinking a close member of our team... our family, is dead." He shook his head and sighed. I could tell just the way he looked at me he was angry.
"I know..." I sighed trying to step closer to him.
"No you don't." He walked around me and headed for the door.
"Morgan!" I yelled after him. He stopped in the hall and he didn't look back. "You think I don't know what it is like to lose someone and feel as helpless as you or anyone else did!" I was so tired of his disbelief in others that I just snapped. He turned quickly and I knew my voice had traveled and I saw the rest of the team come from the conference room. Sam and Dean were to the side listening as well. I looked at Dean and I knew exactly what to say to Derek. I looked him dead in the eye and made sure he and the others were listing. This was my apology. " I know exactly how it feels to think someone is dead, and I know how hard it is to move on and just forget." I sighed loudly. "But I also know what it feels like to get that person back. The questions, the anger and most of all the hurt." I sighed and he looked away. "Look I am sorry I left the way I did..." I sighed and looked at him and the others who listened. "But I ran to protect you all. There are so many things that are out of our control that no matter how hard you or anyone tried, not everything can be fixed Derek." I said and he looked up. "You know damn well how much easier it is to run from our problems then facing them." I said and the way he looked at me it looked like he agreed. "I wish I could take it back but I can't." I sighed.
"What was it?" Derek asked with a sigh. "What made you run?" He asked and everyone came closer except Sam and Dean. I looked past them and looked at the boys.
I smiled a bit but they looked like they felt guilty. "My family needed me." I nodded to them and their faces lit up.
"We needed you too." Penelope sighed.
I smiled at her. "Come on. You are literally 5 of the smartest people on the planet." I sighed. "Seems to me you did alright without me."
They smiled at me and for the first time I actually felt normal again. I looked over at Derek and he smiled to. He stepped forward and hugged me. I hugged back and when I did I looked over to Sam and he looked happy, Dean not so much.
The sun had already started to fade away and most of the agents in the BAU made their way onto cases or home. Soon it was just Sam, Dean, Penelope, Spencer, Derek, David, Hotch and I on the floor. I hadn't brought myself to ask about Haley or Jack because I was afraid of what I might have caused. That night was the first time I saw Sam smile so much. He, Penelope and David were getting along great and it made me feel better about myself. Dean seemed distant from me but I noticed him and Hotch talking and I smiled.
"OH my god!" Penelope stopped the conversation she was having with Sam and looked at me and Spencer.
"What?" I asked.
"There is still someone missing... and someone you haven't met yet." She smiled running to the phone. I didn't ask who it was but when she hung up the phone everyone else seemed to know what was going on. When she came over and sat next to me she smiled as she looked between Sam and Dean. "You know that picture doesn't do them justice." She said more out loud then anything.
"What picture?" Sam asked as Dean walked over.
"The one she used to keep on her desk 24/7." Penelope laughed walking over to my old desk and reaching in the drawer and pulling out the picture frame I never came back for.
She handed it over to Sam and him and Dean smiled instantly. "How is that even possible... this picture is how old?"
"Well judging by your hair... ten or eleven years." I laughed and Sam ran a hand through his long hair.
"It's kinda ridiculous how big you got." Dean laughed taking the frame from Sam.
"Shut up." Sam pushed Dean and everyone chuckled a bit.
I noticed as the conversations continued Dean never let go of that frame. He hadn't really spoken to me since the hospital and now he was holding on to old photos? I knew he would have a whole speech prepared for me later. I hadn't said anything but the conversations were just going on around me. I didn't even notice Dean walk up to me and hand me a bottle.
"What are these?" I asked as I read the label.
"Doctor said to take two when ever you're in pain." He answered.
"I'm not in pain." I argued.
"Sure." He seemed to roll his eyes. He walked back over to Sam who was talking to David. I was starting to think I had done something wrong.
"Finally." Penelope sighed standing when the she noticed the elevator door opening. I didn't pay attention to who it was because I noticed Hotch was alone just watching over everyone and I found my courage to ask about his family.
I walked over quickly and as I walked I started to realize I was in pain. My whole body was aching and it actually felt like I had just been shot again. I downed two pills before speaking. "Hotch?" I asked and he turned to me. "Look I'm sorry I didn't ask before but I was afraid of the answer but gotta know..." I said all in one breath before he cut me off.
"Clara, relax." he sighed. "Haley and Jack are fine." he smiled steadying me with his hands on my shoulders.
"Good... and Foyet?" I asked.
"Dead." He sighed with a smile. I let out a breath of relief and Hotch looked down at me. " You saved my family, so if there is ever anything you need... and I do me anything, just ask." He smiled.
"Hotch it's no big deal I just did my job." I sighed.
"No big deal... If you hadn't done what you did..."
"We wouldn't be alive." Haley's voice came from behind me and everything went quiet. I just looked at her. She looked tired and was holding Jack to her side. She let go of his hand and sprung forward hugging me tightly. "Thank you so much..." I could already hear her crying. When she squeezed I would be lying if I said my whole body didn't pound with pain but it was worth it. When she pulled away she looked at me then Jack. "Honey tell Clara what you told Mommy, about your hiding spot." She smiled down at her son.
"Clara told me that daddy needed help with the case... so that's what I did." He smiled rocking back and forth.
"He was hiding in Aaron's old office next to the desk. How did you know that's where he would go?" Haley asked.
"You told me a story when I first started here. I was being difficult as always and you told me about the times you would go home and bring your work with you and all Jack would want to do is help. So he would hide in the cupboard next to your desk with a flashlight and wait for you." I smiled up a Hotch. "You said without people like us he would have no one to look up to as a hero." I smiled.
"Hero?" Jack questioned and then pointed at me. I was shocked that he was calling me a hero. I looked around at my friends and they all had smiles on their faces. Jack took step forward and looked between his mom and I. "Thank you for saving us." he said putting both arms up. I bent over and hugged the boy tightly. He arms wrapped around my neck and I smiled through the tears.
Jack soon let go and ran to his father. Haley joined them and I looked at the safe and happy family and couldn't help but smile. It was brave kids like Jack that made me think maybe, just maybe a few years down the road after the apocalypse I could have a kid like him. Of course I have no idea how that would happen seeing as I knew damn well Dean was against having kids and bringing them up this way. That is something me and him never saw eye to eye on. And probably never will.
Penelope took my hand and dragged me over to the group and smiled. "As fairy God mother I get to introduce you to little Henry LaMontagne." She smiled brightly and when I saw the little bundle JJ had in her arms I sighed.
"Hi JJ." I smiled at her. She seemed a bit shocked to see me but her shock turned to happiness. She smiled and her eyes seemed to water a bit. I stepped closer and looked at the little guy in her arms. "He is adorable." I smiled.
"You wanna hold him?" She asked.
"I think I'll break him." I laughed and so did everyone else. JJ still handed me the baby and when he settled his eyes opened at bit. "Hi there Henry." I smiled down at him. He made a little noise and half smiled at me.
"Aw he likes you. Surprising." Sam laughed.
"Be nice Sammy." I shook my head at him. I heard Penelope giggle a bit and I knew that Sam was already growing on her. "How are you doing so far Mom?" I asked JJ and she laughed rolling her eyes.
"Sleep is something Henry doesn't get." She shook her head. "And when Baby doesn't sleep, mommy doesn't sleep." She sighed.
"Aw already a handful..." I laughed. "I bet they have already spoiled you rotten huh?" I asked as Henry wiggled.
"Hey that is Penelope's fault." Spencer laughed.
"As a fairy godmother It is my job to buy him things... plus sometimes it is hard to walk by baby clothes... they are just so small and cute." She scrunched her nose and smiled.
My phone started to ring and I looked at JJ and she took her son back. I walked away quickly from the group. "Hello?" I answered it.
"WOULD IT KILL YOU TO CALL!" Bobby yelled at me through the phone. "I MEAN HOW HARD IS IT TO PICK UP THE DAMN PHONE GIRL!" He yelled more. I turned quickly and noticed Sam and Dean heading my way. I waved them over and they hurried. As Bobby continued to yell I covered the microphone and looked at them.
"You didn't tell him did you?" I asked. We could all hear him yelling from the phone. The boys shook their heads. "Good... let's keep it that way okay?" I asked and they nodded. "Bobby!" I yelled to interrupt him. "Okay I'm sorry I haven't called I have been busy... you know tracking demon serial killers and what not." I rolled my eyes and I heard Sam laugh.
"Yeah well that ain't an excuse. You and those idjits get your asses back here as soon as possible. I think I found something on the whole end of the world business." He sighed.
"Yeah sure..." I smiled with a sigh. "Give us like a day... maybe two." I said when I noticed Sam looking back at the team and smiling.
"As soon as possible Clara." Bobby said.
"Yeah I heard you." I laughed a bit then hung up. The boys looked at me. " We should probably head back... Bobby says he found something." I sighed.
"What did he find?" Dean asked.
"If I knew would I not tell you?" I asked and he sighed rolling his eyes again. I walked past the boys and smiled at my team. "Hey you guys?" I asked and they all looked to me. " Look we have to get going..."
"Why?" Penelope was the first one to question me.
"Look, as much as I wanna stay here and fight crime with you guys I... we have something to take care of." I smiled. "But once it's all done I'll come back..." I sighed.
"We would feel better if you told us what you had to take care of." Spencer added.
"I know but trust me it has nothing to do with you guys and hopefully it will be over soon." I smiled. "But this time I'll make sure to call every once in a while to let you know I'm not dead." I joked and they all smiled sadly at me. "Just do me a favour and be careful." I said hugged Penelope.
Sam and Dean left before I did and waited by the Impala for me. I had to say goodbye first. I hugged everyone and they all made me swear to call. It felt awful leaving and not telling them what was really going on but I couldn't do that to them. Their worlds would be turned upside down or they would think I went crazy. When I finally left I took the stairs and made sure my tears were long gone before I rejoined Sam and Dean.