HEY! Before we move on I just wanna point out this is a really long chapter. I had no idea where to end it off so I just let it flow. Hope that is cool! Make sure to tell me what you think :) Thanks!
We were only on the road for a few hours before I started falling asleep. The painkillers weren't exactly non-drowsy. Last I saw Dean was driving and the sun was still up. When I opened my eyes again the sun was gone and Sam was driving and they were both arguing.
"Work with Ruby or don't... I don't really give a rat's ass." Dean groaned and Sam shook his head.
"What's your problem?" Sam asked. I guess they didn't' know I was awake.
"Pamela didn't want anything to do with this. And we dragged her back in." Dean sighed keeping his eyes forward. "Same goes for Clara. I'm tired of chasing after shadows and losing people." He shook his head.
"Dean, Pamela knew the risks. Just as Clara did. It's not like they didn't know what they were doing." Sam defended me and Pamela. I had only met Pamela once, she was nice but she didn't exactly like hunters. "Pamela knew what was at stake."
"Oh yeah saving the world." Dean shook his head. "We're doing such a damn good job of it." Dean shook his head.
"Dean." Sam started.
"I'm tired of burying friends Sam." Dean snapped. I sat up slowly and listened.
"What happened to Pamela?" I asked and they both looked at me quickly like they didn't know I was there.
"Demon killed her." Sam looked back at the road and Dean just sighed still looking at me.
"Oh... I'm sorry." I offered.
"Yeah." I could tell Dean was put off by it and I know it sucked losing a friend but that's the job now a days.
"Look we catch a fresh trail..."
"And we follow it." Dean finished Sam's sentence. "I know. Like i said I'm just getting tired." He sighed looking out the window.
"Well get angry." Sam sounded defensive. I had to agree with Sam. The world was ending and the world needs both Winchesters to save it.
"Maybe we should pull over and get some rest." I added and Sam nodded. " We can get to Bobby's in the morning." Sam pulled off the highway and into a motel. I went to book a room and they got their stuff. I threw Sam the key and grabbed my bag walking in behind them.
"Home crappy home." Dean sighed.
"It isn't that bad Dean." I laughed from behind them. Sam smiled at me as he turned the lights on. I was behind Sam and didn't see anyone until I heard a voice.
"Winchester and Winchester." I knew that voice. I stepped from behind Sam and Uriel stared at them then smiled at me.
"Oh come on." Dean complained.
" Oh look you brought along your abomination of a pet." He hissed.
"What!" Sam jumped to defend me.
I laughed and shook my head at him. "Oh that's real funny Uriel." I stepped forward noticing Cas in the corner. "bet you won't have such a smug look when I try to ram you through with my own pointy stick." I smiled pulling a knife from my belt.
"wooh." Sam pulled be back as I was about to jump at him.
"May want to keep that on a leash." he said.
"Dick." I shook my head looking over to Cas who just stood in the corner.
"You are needed." Uriel said to the boys.
"Needed?" Dean questioned. "We got back from needed!" he yelled.
"You mind your tone with me." Uriel warned.
"No you mind your damn tone with us!" Dean warned right back stepping forward and guiding me behind him as to protect me and Sam.
"We just got back from Pamela's funeral among other things." Sam said looking to me.
"Ya you remember her? Cas you remember Pamela, you burned her eyes out. Remember that? Good times" Dean yelled. "She died stopping one of your precious seals." Dean shook his head. " So many you could stop pushing us around like chess pieces for FIVE FREAKING MINUTES!" Dean really yelled.
I'm not going to lie. When Dean gets protective and angry it's hot. I smiled when he yelled. But Uriel just smirked at them then back at Cas. Why hadn't Cas said anything yet.
"We raised you out of hell. For our purposes." Uriel said. Every time he talked I wanted to rip that smug smile off his face.
"Oh right." Dean smiled sarcastically.
"Dean, we know this is difficult to understand." Cas finally spoke from the corner.
"And we..." Uriel looked back at Cas. " Don't care." he looked back at them. Cas looked forward and just stood still. Like a solider awaiting orders. I squinted my eyes at him and couldn't help but wonder what was going on. "Now 7 angels have been murdered. All from our garrison. The last one was killed tonight." Uriel spoke.
I wanted to say something but I was trying harder not to kill Uriel right now. "Demons?" Dean asked still not happy. Uriel nodded. " How they doing it?"
"We don't know." Uriel said.
"I'm sorry but what do you want us to do?" Sam asked. "I mean a demon with the juice to ice angels must be out of our league. Right?" Sam asked.
"We can handle demons thank you very much."
"Obviously not." I smiled at Uriel as he glared at me. I notice Cas look over at me. He seemed to look guilty and awkward.
"You of all people should behave."
"Or what?" I shook my head at him.
"We just need to find who ever it is." Cas interrupted.
"So you need our help, hunting a demon?" Dean asked stepping between Uriel and I again.
"Not quiet." Cas said stepping forward. "We have Alistair."
Dean looked to me and I smiled. " Great can I stab him in the face?" I said kinda of glad. Cas looked over at me with guilt again.
"Why do you need our help. Just ask the son of a bitch and kill him." Dean said.
"He won't talk. His will is very strong and we have come to an impasse."
"No shit." I rolled my eyes.
"He's a black belt in torture. You guys are out of your league." Dean shook his head.
"That's why we've come to his student." Uriel eyed Dean. "You happen to be the most qualified interigator we've got."
Dean's eyed landed on me again. "Dean you're our best hope." Cas sighed.
I was even shocked at their requested. I looked up to Dean scared for him. "No." he said looking back at them.
"You can't ask that of someone." I said in his defence.
"You can't ask me to do this Cas. Not this." Dean repeated what I said. As much as I wanted Alistair dead it wasn't worth Dean falling into that torture trap again. When he told me about it he looked so scared and horrified he had done so many awful things to the souls in hell.
"Who said anything about asking?" Uriel walked up and just stared at Dean.
Dean looked down at me and then the three of them were gone. Sam and I stood alone. " Damn it!" We both seemed to yell. "Now what?" I asked. Sam started pacing. "Sam we can't let Dean do this. It's not going to be good for anyone."
" I know!" Sam yelled. I knew he wasn't yelling at me. "Look Ruby is going to be here in a few hours she can help." He nodded.
"Ruby?" I asked. "The demon who's been getting you to use your powers?" I asked. Sam nodded. "As long as he can find Dean and that is her only mission fine." I sighed walking over to a bed and sitting down.
"I'll be back. Just stay here." Sam said walking out.
"Sam don't..." He slammed the door before I could stop him. "Damn it." I sighed as I sat alone.
Only a half hour went by before I wasn't alone. I thought I was but the sound of wind gushing made me stand quickly. "Hello Clara." Cas nodded.
"Cas." I smiled. "I'm so glad your alright." I said noticing he didn't look hurt or anything. " Where's Dean." I asked.
"He's fine." Cas said.
"You're really going to make him do this aren't you?" I asked disappointed in him.
"I thought this would be a good this to you?" He asked squinting. " Alistair kept you hostage and tried to kill you. He was very close to succeeding."
"Be that as it may, that isn't a reason for Dean to torture him." I shook my head. "Cas one thing you don't get about humans, or Dean for that matter he doesn't want to be the reason for pain. He just wants things to be dealt with and over." I sighed.
"Angels are dying."
"I know and I'm sorry but..." I sighed. "But this isn't the way to stop it." I sighed sitting back down. "Please Cas..."
" I have my orders." he answered.
I laughed at him. "When did turn into a push over?" I asked standing up getting closer to him. I was mad at him now. " You know when Alistair first caught me at the motel he made me summon you. You know how much I tried to resist. Then when he used that spell do you know how guilty I felt?!" I yelled. " Alistair did a lot of things to me in that damn basement but all I worried about was if you were alright!" I yelled.
"I..." he started and looked down. " I'm sorry." he sighed.
"No you're not." I shook my head. "Cas you were supposed to be the good guy! You stopped Uriel from killing me and I know you did a lot of other good things. I know you are on Sam and Dean's side of this fight."
"Heaven's side." He corrected.
"No." I shook my head. "Sam and Dean's side. Heaven is just a place. They are the ones fighting to win and what are you and your angel buddies doing! Getting good people to torturer! How exactly is that in any way God's will?" Cas' eyes got wide and then he sighed. He looked at me then he was gone. "CAS!" I yelled out but he didn't come back.
Sam walked in about an hour later followed by a brunette. "Clara?" Sam asked and I looked over at he and the girl.
I stood up and the girl looked at me. "Just fine Dean." was all I said to him and who I assumed as Ruby.
I started for the door but she spoke. "I don't exactly take orders from regular humans." She laughed a bit looking at Sam.
My hand was on the door knob and I dropped it quickly. "Before you speak you should really watch who you are talking to." I warned looking at her.
"You think I'm afraid of a hunter?" She laughed.
"Ruby." Sam tried to stop her.
"What?" She asked with a laugh. " This is Clara..." He paused. " Clara Walsh." he seemed to sigh and Ruby took a step away from me.
"You gotta be kidding me." She seemed nervous. "Sam what the hell?" She asked.
"What is it?" I asked. "Thought you weren't scared of hunters?" I asked with a smile crossing my arms.
She back up and ran into Sam. " Okay enough." He said. " Ruby just find Dean." He said as he looked over at me. "We gotta talk." He said to me.
We headed outside as Ruby watched and sighed. Sam closed the door behind him as we stepped outside. "What is it Sam?" I asked.
"Look we are going to find Dean but you really need to stop threatening everyone." he said.
"Why!?" I asked. " Everyone seems to threaten me." I added.
"Look Clara you have been through a lot you really need some sleep... just leave this to me and Ruby."
"I'm sorry are you a doctor Sam?" I asked shaking my head. "I'm fine, and I'll be better when we find Dean." I said as I started to walk away. "And just so you know, I'm not judging or anything but working with a demon literally goes against everything I have done for the past four months. So she better fine a way to fix this."
"Or what?" Sam asked.
"I'm not saying or what." I said and Sam looked at me like he knew I was lying. " She steps out of line one time... I'll killer her." I said to Sam and he seemed hurt and annoyed. "I'm serious Sam. I'm not saying now, or tomorrow but one of these days she is going to do something wrong and I'll be there. Just letting you know." I nodded and Sam sighed.
"Where are you going!" he called after me.
I didn't answer him. I was just mad at everyone all at one. Mad at Cas for not acting like himself, mad at Sam for working with a demon, and just mad at myself i didn't kill Uriel or Alistair when I had the chance. As I walked around for the next few hours my mind was only on one thing.
"Cas!" I came to an empty street and called out. "I know you can hear me!" I called out. " I just want to talk." I said quietly.
"about what?" His voice came from behind me.
I turned and he looked tired and concerned. "You know what." I said.
"Look just a few more hours and we will have what we need and Dean..."
"Not that." I stopped him. "You." I sighed. "I want to know what happened." I sighed.
"I don't know what you mean." he said.
"Come on Cas. I'm not the easiest person to get along with but we managed two weeks working together. I kinda know you." I shrugged. " at least I thought I did." He just tilted his head and squinted. "I get you're an angel and there is a whole chain of command thing but you used to do what ever it took to save someone." I sighed again. "Cas I don't know about you but I consider you one of my friends. And I don't have many. So believe me when I say, I don't exactly give up on them." I smirked a bit. "So just tell me."
"I was getting to close." he sighed. "I was getting to close to the humans I was around. Mainly you and Dean." he said looking away.
"So what they demoted you?" I asked not really believing.
"Yes." He sighed. "That is why I could not come when you prayed." he sighed still looking away.
"You heard me?" I asked.
"Yes. Every angel hears prayers. Uriel and others were being to think I had gotten soft in a sense." He said finally looking up. "That's why it took me so long to get to you and when I did it was almost too late."
"Almost?" I asked.
"You did die Clara but with what power I had I brought you back. It was my fault you were in that situation so I was the one who needed to fixe it. After that Uriel was boss." He sighed.
"You saved my life and you got pushed under that dick?" I asked. I smiled at him.
"Why are you smiling?"
"Cas that is one of the nicest things anyone had ever done for me. Not to mention you brought me back from the dead." I smiled my eyes already filling with tears. He seemed to smile. " Thank you, and I'm sorry I cost you your position."
"Don't be." he nodded with a smile. "I too consider you and the Winchesters my friends." His smile got bigger.
It was quiet as I smiled at him and then I sighed. " Cas he's gonna get hurt."
"How?" Cas asked.
"You left him in a locked room with Alistair. He's gonna get hurt." I sighed.
"How could you know that?" he shrugged me off.
"Cas when you have known and loved someone for this long you just know when bad things are going to happen." I sighed. Cas just looked at me a little shocked then sighed.
Next thing I know we are in a warehouse. There were muffled cries of pain. "I assure you Dean is completely fine." Cas said as we both walked up to the door. I stepped in front of him to see what I feared.
"Cas get us in there now." I demanded once he saw what I did.
Alistair had Dean by the throat and his face was beaten in. Dean's eyes were slowly rolling back in his head when Cas snapped us inside. Alistair didn't know we were there until I picked up the demon knife and stabbed him in the back.
"Well finally!" Alistair smiled dropping Dean to the ground and facing me. "Oh look your recovering." he smiled. " How about we go back to you dying?" he laughed. He twisted his hands and I felt the stitches in my chest and back tear and open. I yelled out in pain as I fell to my knees.
"Either way you die." I managed to get out before he threw me at the wall. I rolled over quickly feeling the blood on my skin. Castiel was distracting Alistair at the moment as I made my way to Dean. He wasn't moving and he looked bad. I made it to his side and shook him over. He turned looking up at me. I grabbed his hand and before I could get him up he passed out. "Dean." I tried to shake him. Then there was a bright light coming from the corner. " Cas!" I yelled climbing to my feet and grabbing the knife from the ground. Alistair was trying to send him back to heaven. The more he cast teh spell the less energy I felt I had.
I was about to stab him in the back when he was thrown off Cas and to the wall. Cas fell to the ground and I fell with him. I made sure he was alright before I realized Sam had saved us. I looked up as his arm was extended and the cries of Alistair dying filled the room. Closed his eyes and balled his fists. Then I watched as Sam exorcised Alistair without lifting more than his arm. It was both astonishing and terrifying. I crawled over to Dean and away from Sam quickly. Dean was still passed out.
"Sam he's hurt pretty bad." I said and Sam rushed over. I looked over to Cas, his eyes wide he disappeared.
"Is he okay?" Sam asked rushing over helping me get him up.
"No, we gotta get him to a hospital."
"Are you sure?" Sam questioned as we carried Dean to the Impala.
"Sam he isn't breathing, so just drive okay." I ordered when Sam placed Dean in the back seat. I climbed in next to him and started to compress his chest. "Faster Sam." I said as he floored it to the nearest hospital. I continued CPR on Dean and finally got him breathing as we reached the ER. Sam rushed in to get help and when they came they lifted Dean onto a stretcher and rolled him away make me and Sam stay in the waiting room. I held Sam's arm as he held my hand close.
"Miss?" A doctor came out of no where.
"yeah?" I spun quickly still holding Sam's arm. He was young and looked concerned.
"Are you hurt?" he asked.
"No why?" I asked.
"Clara..." Sam pointed to my shirt full of blood.
"Damn... right..." I sighed. " Look can you just stitch me up and be done with it?" I asked.
"What happened?" he asked.
"I got shot a week ago and the stitches won't stay closed I guess." I sighed.
"I should probably get you in a room."
"No." I shook my head. "Stitch and we're done." I said and he looked scared. "Please."
The young doctor did as I asked. he took me around the desk and just stitched and placed bandages on them. "Miss I am afraid if they do rip again you may not last long you have lost a lot f blood." He said.
"Okay thanks." I left him there not even caring what he said. I couldn't leave Sam alone for too long. When I got back to Sam he was alone. His leg was bouncing up and down and his hands were folded over his knees. He looked so scared and I walked over and sat next to him.
"No one has said anything he said. "
"Well then we wait." I smiled placing a hand on his. His leg stopped bouncing and he looked over at me. "He's gonna be fine Sam." I smiled.
"Yeah." Sam sighed in relief.
Two hours later we were still waiting. Despite my constant asking no one would tell us anything.
Sam was starting to fear the worst and I couldn't blame him. We were almost about to just go find Dean ourselves when a doctor came up and spoke to us finally. Sam and I stood quickly. " Sam your brother is in a serious state of shock. His wounds are exponentiation and it's basically a waiting game until he wakes up."the doctor said.
"But he is going to okay right?" I asked.
"He should." Was all the doctor was able to say before Sam took off running down the hall. The doctor watched him take off then looked back to me. I smiled kindly at him before taking off after Sam.
Sam had already found Dean's room and was sitting next to his brother. I stood in the door and had the worst kind of Daja Vu. I had already been in the spot. Standing in the door of a hospital looking at Dean connected to every kind of machine there is, clinging to life. My arms wrapped around my stomach. Being in this god damn set again made me sick. It wasn't fair that I had already seen this happen. I looked down and Sam just stared at his brother.
I found my self not being able to walk in the room. I was just standing in the door way. Sam looked up at me confused and I just took off. I ran for the doors and when I got outside I sat on the sidewalk with my knees pulled to my chest. I shook my head as I stared up at the sky. I ran my hands through my hair and I sighed.
"Clara?" Sam's voice made me turn quickly. I stood and wiped the tear from my face. This crying thing was getting ridiculous. "You okay?" He asked.
"Yeah I guess. It's just the last time..." I sighed looking past him.
"I know." Sam nodded. "Well this isn't that." He said placing hands on my shoulders. Sam pulled me into his chest quickly and tightly. I smiled when he let me go. We walked back into the hospital together and when we got to Dean's room we both stopped. "You know he would just tell us to suck it up and cheer up." Sam laughed.
I laughed and we both walked in. I bit my lip and walked into with Sam. We both sat next to him but across from one another. "How the hell did this even happen." Sam shook his head.
"Don't know." I sighed. Sam looked up quickly and out of the corner of my eye I saw someone walk by. I looked back and Sam was already outside.
I could hear him arguing with someone, Cas I would assume and I ignored him. I looked back over at Dean and could only remember the last time I sat here and watched him hang in the balance. I shook my head. "You're doing a horrible job at staying alive." I laughed reaching for Dean's hand.
"What good is having an angel if he won't even heal." I heard Sam huff when he walked back in. I looked at him and he looked pissed. I stood quickly hoping to catch Cas before he flew off.
"Cas!" I almost shouted as I ran out the door. I turned and he was leaning on the wall with his face in his hands.
He looked up quickly at me. He seemed startled. "What?" he asked.
I smiled at him. Before I said anything I pulled him in and hugged him. He was stiff and awkward but he almost died back there saving Dean and I couldn't help it. "Thank you." I said.
"For what?" he asked patting my back lightly as I pulled away. His eyes were confused and seemed uncomfortable.
"Saving Dean." I smiled.
"He is in the hospital." He shook his head. " He is far from alright."
"I know but he'll pull through." I smiled. "He always dose. But you..." I sighed. " I saw the light coming from your eyes when Alistair started chanting. I have a feeling that wasn't some banishing spell?" I asked.
"No. If finished it would have sent me back to heaven." he sighed.
"Well I'm glad." I smiled.
"I do not understand your gladness and thanks." he shrugged shaking his head. "It was my fault. Dean had no business being in that room. I just followed orders and look where that got Dean." He still seemed so confused. "Beaten and if you had not begged me to let you in..."
"Well let's not focus on what would have happened if not for my stubbornness and nagging." I smiled. "Look Cas I know your one of the good guys. The boys know it to." Cas sighed. "They do." I laughed. "Trust me they know what is like to follow orders from a father who is absent-minded." Cas shot me a small look. I sighed and smiled. " All I'm saying is, don't ever think that you don't mean anything. I know you think your just a solider for God but your more than that to us down here." I smiled. "You're a friend." I nodded. Cas tilted his head then his eyes seemed to winded.
"That devil's trap... it shouldn't have broken." He said.
"What?" I asked before he flew off. I sighed when he was gone. Maybe he knew something I didn't? When I rejoined Sam I could hear a steady heart beat. "Hear that?" I asked walking over and sitting on the arm of Sam's chair putting and arm around him. He nodded as he stared at his brother. It would be a while until he actually woke up but a steady beat was always a good sigh. "You know it's amazing..." I started. I looked down and he looked up. "All the hunters I've met in the past year or so would have all run for the freaking hills if they ever heard about Angels and the apocalypse." I laughed.
"What?" Sam shook his head.
"I think you and Dean are the only two who can and actually will stop the end of days. Most people, like me would run and hide under the bed and wait for judgement day and pray we did enough good to get us to those pearly gates. but you two." I stopped and looked between them. "Bravest men I have ever known." I kissed the top of Sam's head and he held my hand.
"Well I don't think we are getting a ride to those fluffy clouds." Sam laughed.
"Why not?" I asked.
"Demon blood? Killing?" Sam said.
"Well you saved your brother. Look at me I tried and that just got me ripped at." I sighed. "You don't give yourself enough credit Sam." I smiled sighing.
I sat with Sam for less than an hour before we heard Dean started to stir. We called in a doctor and he removed the tubes. I waited with Sam as he held my hand tightly. Dean had not woken yet but we weren't going anywhere.
"What do you plan on telling your friends back at the FBI?" Sam asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked turning my head toward him.
"Well you believe me and Dean are going to stop the world from ending so, when we do..." he smiled. "and you go back to your team, what is your story gonna be?" He asked.
"That is a really good question." I laughed. "I guess the truth won't be the best right?" I asked and Sam laughed. "Elaborate story I guess." I shrugged not knowing what else to say.
"Agent Garcia said that when they went looking for you at your apartment there were signs of a struggle?" he asked.
"Oh right that..." I sighed. "Well the only struggle was the objects not avoiding my reach." I laughed.
"What happened?" Sam asked.