My head was aching and pounding. The first thing I remember was that stupid devil's trap. Cas said he had made it unbreakable, well I guess he needs to revisit the handbook. I could hear a faint beeping and it was driving me crazy. My eyes wouldn't open at first but I was laying on something soft so we were either at Bobby's or a hospital. Please let it be Bobby's, I wished.
Then I heard Sam and Clara's voices. He had mumbled something and she had laughed. I wanted to open my eyes but for now I just listened. "Signs of a struggle." Sam was in the middle of saying. I didn't hear what Clara said until Sam asked "What happened?"
"Stupid me." she sighed. " The first place I go after..." She stopped. My eyes were opened enough to see she had looked at me then back at Sam. He sighed with a nod. "I didn't really know what to do after you drove off. So I went home. Thought maybe Aaron could help but it proved to be an awful idea. Running into an office space full of someone else's blood... never a good idea." She laughed a bit painfully. "I made it back to my place before I completely lost it." She sighed.
"Really?" Sam asked sounding almost guilty.
"Yeah I mean we had both just watched..." She stopped again. "and I was so mad. So anything within reach was thrown into the wall." She sighed. " First was the phone, then the vase, then the whole side table." She laughed.
"Oh my god." Sam laughed too.
"Oh it gets better." She stopped him. "After the table went the couch pillows, tv remote, bottle on the coffee table, the coffee table..." She sighed. "So yeah kinda looked like a struggle."
"Why are you throwing things?" I asked quietly and both their head whipped my way with shocked looks. I smiled my eyes still a bit closed. The both stood, Clara almost falling off the edge of the chair's arm.
"Dean?" Sam asked first. " You okay?" he asked.
"Yeah. What happened?" I asked looking around.
"Alistair he.." Sam started.
"Got free, beat you a little bit, then Sam saved you." Clara interrupted him. We both looked at her and she smiled. When I felt her hand on mine I smiled too. "Glad you decided to join us." she smiled.
"Seemed like a good idea." I said. My voice was raspy and shaky. I was really tired and they both looked it as well.
"I'm gonna go talk to the doctor I'll be right back." I smiled at both boys. I went to turn and pull away from Dean's grip on my hand but when I tried to walk away he wouldn't let go. I turned quickly. " Do you not wanna get out of here?" I asked with a laugh.
"Yes." he nodded. I could tell the painkillers had just taken effect.
"Well then I need my hand." I tried pulling away but he wouldn't let go. I smiled. " Dean, come on. I gotta go convince the doc to let you go. If Bobby thinks we are blowing him off he is gonna be pissed. " I said.
"But your prettier than Sam." He laughed.
I looked up at Sam and he shook his head and smiled. "I don't know about that." I narrowed my eyes. " I mean he does have better hair than me." I smiled down at Dean. I could tell the pain killers were setting in and I couldn't help but laugh at Dean. "Sam keep him company for a minute." I shook my head at both them. When I walked away I heard Dean sigh in disappointment. Half way out the door I had the biggest smile on my face.
I managed to talk the doctor into letting Dean go after two days. He didn't say all that much so Sam and I kept him entertained. Ever since Sam and I left him alone the first night he was acting strange. He practically made me and Sam go back to a hotel and get some sleep. He said we were no good to him burt out.
We didn't like it but we went. While I tried to sleep Sam seemed to sleep like a rock. I kept seeing Cas. He was sitting in the hospital room with Dean but he didn't say anything. I tried to call out but I guess in dream land I wasn't exactly there. I could only hear a few things they were saying. Dean was pissed at Cas and Cas well he looked guilty. He told Dean he should be more careful and Dean just shook his head. His lips moved but it was like I was only being allowed to hear one half of the conversation. The parts that were important.
"Is it true?" Dean asked. " Did I start all this?" he wouldn't even look away from Cas. I didn't hear Cas' answer but then Dean just sighed.
"You can fix it. We pulled you from hell to reverse the mistake you didn't know you had made. You are the one who can stop Lucifer from rising. But you have to be careful of who you surround yourself with." I couldn't help but think that was meant for Sam and Ruby.
"I guess neither of us are the man our father wanted us to be." Was the last thing I heard. When I woke up it was like someone had taken a knife to my chest. Just the pain and doubt in Dean's voice was heartbreaking.
Sam and I took turns driving the 7 hours to Bobby's. When we first arrived Bobby was alseep at his desk. Sam was helping a resistant Dean into the house when I walked over to Bobby. They had closed the door and I tapped him on the shoulder. "Bobby?" I whispered. Then in a blink of an eye Bobby jumped up pulling a gun from under the desk and aiming it for my head.
"Wooh Bobby!" Dean and Sam yelled making his eyes pop open. My hands were up in serenader and just staring at him. After all that I had been through a bullet in the head would have been a real downer. Bobby was breathing heavily.
"Jesus." I whispered out as Bobby lowered the gun quickly. " Bobby what the-" I was cut off by his arms pulling my into him painfully. He squeezed making my whole body shoot with pain. I hugged him back just before he pushed my away and held my shoulders and shook me a bit. "What the hell is wrong with you?" he asked. I closed my eyes quickly to hide and bite the pain down.
"Bobby easy." Dean said. He must have seen that. Bobby looked at him then back at me.
"What happened?" he asked not letting go.
"Just a job." Sam shrugged.
"That kept you three extra days, put him in the ER and you a bullet wound?" Bobby asked.
"How did..."
" I know everything. If you haven't figured that out by now you never will." Bobby rolled his eyes. "So what happened?" Bobby asked eyeing the boys like it was their fault already.
"I... I uh went after a demon and these two saved my ass." I said defending them. "Hey if you wanna blame someone, this is on me or the freaking angels." I said noticing Bobby's stare.
"Are you three alright?" Was all Bobby asked.
I smiled. " Yes." We all answered. "What did you need help with?" I asked and Bobby let go of my shoulders.
"It's late." Bobby said clearing his throat looking over at Dean. "In the morning Sam and I will go see whats what." Bobby nodded.
"You said you needed all our help." Dean asked pushing away from Sam who was helping holing him up.
"That was before you got yourself hospitalized and before you got shot." Bobby walked past the boys. Pointing to Dean then me. " Now just get some rest you three." He shook his head. " Try not to hurt yourself even more." He sighed disappearing into his room. I smiled at his concern and annoyance.
"Well I think we should all get some sleep." I smiled walking over to them.
"Sleep? I spent the last few days in the hospital... I-"
"Exactly Dean. You need to rest." I stopped him as I walked up the stairs first. "And Sam dose too." I added when we got to the top of the stairs.
"When did you get so bossy?" Dean asked and Sam smiled.
I didn't justify that with an answer. I just smiled at them. I looked up at Sam and kissed his cheek lightly and he smiled and walked away. I looked back at Dean and kissed his cheek the same and headed for my room. I would have thought he would follow me into my room but he didn't. He turned and headed to the other. I guess he was tired. I shrugged it off not thinking anything of it. I showered and headed for my bed. I laid down for about an hour before I knew I wasn't getting any sleep. I sighed and sat up.