Disclaimers: I don't own PLL.
This work includes: Violence, Mentions of Child Abuse, Murder, Suicidal Thoughts, Sex Scenes, Coarse Language. PTSD.
SMUT AHEAD.
Alison was lounging in Emily's bed trying to study, she was so far behind in school and had missed almost three years of course work, but she was determined to get her GED so she could follow Emily to college. Not that they'd talk about where that was going to be yet. The girls had all been given compensation for the horrors that have been inflicted on them and were all back on track to graduate with their peer group.
"How do you look so good studying?" Emily questioned from the doorway.
"When do I ever not look good?" Alison playfully quipped rolling onto her back. "I'm so over calculus, why can't I get credits for taking down psychotic murderers?"
Emily giggled slipping onto the bed next to Alison, her hand falling to the blonde's slightly exposed stomach, she trailed her nails over the smooth skin gently.
"Mmm," Ali hummed her eyes fluttering closed at the pleasant sensation.
"Maybe you just need a study break," Emily suggested her tone was low and seductive and sent shivers of anticipation up Ali's spine.
"What do you propose?" Alison asked, as the hand on her stomach trailed under her top.
Emily leant over her girlfriend, her hand creeping higher as Alison arched into it. Alison felt Emily's hot breath against her lips as the brunette responded.
"My parents aren't home," Emily whispered.
Alison's eyes shot open to search Emily's face for any signs that this was a joke, Ali was desperate and the lack of privacy in the Fields home as well as her respect for Emily's parents had kept Alison from initiating anything further than some heavy make out sessions.
"Don't toy with me, Fields," Alison grumbled half heartedly.
"I would never," Emily smirked, leaning down and kissing Alison's mouth sweetly.
Alison hummed into Emily's mouth as the brunette deepened their kiss, pressing herself more firmly into Alison. Alison curled her hands into Emily's hair pulling her closer, as the hand on her stomach skirted along the bottom of her bra. Emily lips trailed to Alison's neck and sucking against the skin of Ali's collarbone.
"Yes," Ali gasped desperately. "Please, Em, please."
Emily pulled away for a moment to study the blonde.
"Ali are you sure we don't have-"
Alison placed a finger over Emily's lips.
"I want you, if you're not ready though," Alison halted, what if Emily was feeling pressured. "Em we don't have to do this."
"Whoa hey no of course I want this, Ali," Emily soothed. "So much."
Alison pulled her down for another kiss, her tongue tangling with Emily's as the brunette's hand slipped under Alison's bra.
"Can we take it off?" Emily panted into Alison's mouth.
Ali nodded enthusiastically as they disentangled somewhat. Alison threw off her own shirt and struggled with her bra clasp for a moment before she finally got it off too.
"Yours too…all of it," Alison commanded breathlessly as Emily sat back on her knees straddling Alison.
The brunette smirked down at Ali and lifted her own shirt teasingly as she stripped herself Alison marvelled as more and more gorgeous skin was revealed.
"How are you even real?" Alison quivered.
Emily smiled a little embarrassed.
"Seriously, Em, you're like a goddess," Alison praised pressing up on her elbows.
Emily pulled off her bra and flung it across the room.
"A goddess huh?" Emily chuckled at Alison's enthusiastic nodding.
Alison settled her hands on Emily's warm waist and dug her fingers in a touch.
"You're definitely a goddess Em and goddesses have to be.." Alison coyly pulled herself up so she could kiss Emily's stomach, her tongue swiping along the flesh as Emily shivered in her lap. "Worshipped."
Emily's head fell back as Alison worked her tongue up to her mermaid's aching nipple.
"Ali," Emily whined fisting her hands into Alison's hair and pulling the blonde closer.
Alison moaned around Emily's nipple swirling it into her hot mouth as her hand skirted up Emily's ribs to settle on Emily's neglected breast. Emily groaned as Alison tweaked her nipple between two fingers, rolling and pulling as her mouth suckled at Emily's other breast.
"Fuck how did you get so good at that?" Emily gasped.
Alison smirked around Emily's breast, raking her teeth over the bud as Emily squealed at the sensation. Ali knew a lot about Emily's body, where to touch, how to touch, how much pressure, her dreams were seeming to be more and more accurate.
"Practise," Alison truthfully answered, switching breasts.
"Practise?" Emily questioned, grasping Alison's hair and pulling her away from her breast. "What like in… prison?"
Alison's lips were still puckered and it took her a second to realize what had happened as Emily stared down at her bewildered.
"Prison?" Alison questioned before it clicked. "What no, no, Em I haven't been with anybody but you."
"What about Holbrook?" Emily titled her head.
"I kissed him," Alison admitted. "But only to keep him interested in protecting me, he was fickle and easy to manipulate."
Emily shook her head sadly and started to climb off Alison.
"Wait Em," Alison grasped Emily's hand tightly. "I've only wanted you, I promise, I've only been with you no one else."
"I don't-"
"Here," Alison pressed Emily's hand to her chest. "You feel that, thats what you do to me Em only you."
Emily's palm flexed over her racing heart and Alison could see Emily was starting to believe her.
"I'm sorry," Emily whispered. "You just said practise and I…"
"Practise with you, Em, you're the only person I've ever actually been with," Alison admitted with a nervous head drop.
"What but, Cece said you thought you were pregnant with beach hottie?" Emily questioned.
"What?" Alison's head shot up, a shiver running unpleasantly up her spine at the mention of Beach Hottie. "I was never pregnant, I've only ever had sex with you, Em."
"But Cece-"
"Cece lied, she thought she was pregnant when we were at Cape May and Beach Hottie turned out to be a major creep but I never slept with him, mermaid," Alison soothed a hand over Emily's cheek.
Emily covered Alison's hand squeezing it gently.
"But that means that night in your room…"
"Was my first time," Alison found herself blushing.
"Ali you should have said, I would have," Emily frantically started, getting worked up.
"It was perfect, Em, you couldn't have made it any better," Alison smiled up at her love.
Emily turned her cheek into Alison's palm and pressed a deep kiss to Ali's skin.
"I'm sorry about what happened afterwards," Emily muttered.
"Ancient history," Alison smiled. "We're here now and I love you."
"I love you too, Ali," Emily leaned down kissing Alison gently. "I can't believe I was your first."
"Don't let it go to your head," Ali warned with a smile.
"Too late," Emily grinned, kissing Alison quickly before she slipped down the blonde's body and pulled off Alison's shorts. "Trust me your second time is gonna rock."
Alison giggled as Emily slipped off the blonde's panties too and settled her own naked body against Alison's warm one.
"Hi," Emily whispered when she was close enough.
Alison grasped her face and kissed her breathlessly.
"Hi," Alison echoed when Emily rested their foreheads together.
As their hot skin pressed together everywhere Alison felt herself shiver, her hands shaking desperately as she clutched to Emily's warm back, pressing the brunette down into her body. This was too much, it was all too much, to finally have this woman back in her arms, Alison felt tears roll down her cheeks and she squeezed her eyes shut trying to swallow the onslaught of emotion that threatened to choke her with its intensity. She tried to burrow into the sense Emily's skin created in her, the feeling only her mermaid could provide, of being completely helpless to her passion and in desperate need of her lover while simultaneously knowing there was no where she felt safer or more supported.
"Ali you're shaking," Emily whispered worriedly. "Are you ok?"
"Please," Ali begged, holding Emily tightly. "Please don't let me wake up if this is a dream, please."
Emily gently lifted herself up on her elbows and cupped Ali's jaw with one hand stroking Alison's cheek softly she pulled the blonde to meet her gaze.
"This is very real," Emily firmly stated. "I love you."
Alison gripped Emily to her, refusing to let go.
"You're really here," she breathed amazed. "You're alive and safe and here."
"I am," Emily whispered, her wide brown eyes imploring Ali to believe her.
Alison held her impossibly tighter. Tears streaming from her blue eyes.
"I almost lost you," Alison gasped through her sobs.
Emily pulled herself free enough to kiss Ali's cheeks gathering all her tears with soft pecks from those perfect lips.
"I love you," Emily whispered. "I love you so much, Ali. Always."
Alison shivered and nodded, trying to get her tears under control.
"I love you too, Em," Alison whispered through a sob.
Emily smiled gently and drew Ali closer, sliding her lips over the blonde's gently at first and then with building pressure as Alison surged up. Emily's tongue slid into Alison's mouth and massaged along Ali's own as the blonde clawed at Emily's back, their hips rocking together.
They moved against each other grinding slowly as they kissed, stealing and giving each other breath as they worked each other over. The delicious feeling of Emily's nipples rubbing against her own and the brunette's powerful body covering her had Alison spinning with pleasure. That talented tongue slid from Alison's mouth and trailed down her throat making the blonde arch as Emily's teeth scrapped along her sensitive neck.
"Em," Alison whined as Emily's hand grasped her breast and rolled her aching nipple, her mermaid's lips now sucking at her collarbone.
"Emily, please," Alison panted. "I need you."
Emily's lips curled into a grin against Ali's skin and the blonde shuddered as Emily kissed down her naked body. Alison's hands falling into Emily's hair as the brunette settled between Alison's spread thighs.
"You doing ok?" Emily asked looking up at Alison.
Alison nodded watching entranced as Emily maintained eye contact and licked along Ali's folds. The blonde gasped and rocked her hips seeking more friction as Emily surged forward twirling her tongue through the abundant wetness.
"God, Ali you're soaked," Emily mumbled as she pulled back a fraction, smacking her lips. "You taste amazing."
Alison's whole body lurked forwards as Emily surged back in hungrily. Alison gripped brunette locks for something to hold onto as Emily's tongue curled inside her.
"Em, Em, Em," Alison chanted rocking her hips against Emily's tongue, the brunette's nose bumping her clit every now and then sent the blonde reeling.
Emily withdrew again and moved further up repositioning herself as Alison whined in need. Emily's talented tongue circled Alison's clit and the blonde shifted desperately but Emily avoided the bundle of nerves playfully with a chuckle.
"You are evil," Alison gasped.
"Nah uh," Emily mumbled into Alison's warm flesh.
"Ya ahhhh," Alison trailed off into a moan as Emily pulled the blonde's clit into her hot, wet mouth, her tongue flicking it expertly as Alison writhed.
"Please don't stop," Alison begged yanking Emily's hair.
"Never," Emily assured her lover around her mouthful.
Alison arched as Emily continued to suck her clit and finally Emily worked a finger into Alison's folds, the blonde squealing in pleasure as Emily curled her finger and suckled her clit harder.
Sensors overloaded Alison wailed her pleasure as stars exploded behind her eyes, her emotional upheaval over the last few weeks, finally reconnecting with Emily, everything hit her all at once as she orgasmed and Alison promptly cried out her lovers name and then burst into tears.
"Ali," Emily whispered with concern as she pulled away from Alison's core and slid up the crying blonde's body. "Whats wrong?"
"I'm fine," Alison flapped her hands at her eyes trying to stop the tears. "Just really happy."
Emily chuckled at her lover.
"Don't laugh at me," Alison pouted. "I'm just really emotional lately."
Emily nodded solemnly trying to hide her grin as she curled up next to Alison waiting for the tears to subside.
"You sure you're ok?" Emily asked as Alison curled into her, trailing patterns across her chest.
Alison nodded as she wiped at her eyes with her free hand.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"
"Hey," Emily titled Alison's head up to meet her eyes. "You don't have anything to apologize for, I love you."
"I love you too," Alison promised, she sneaked a peek down Emily's impressive nude form. "Can I show you how much?"
Emily nodded wordlessly as Alison crawled on top of her, Alison kissed her hungrily tasting herself on Emily's tongue and she bit gently at Emily's bottom lip as she pulled back.
"How do you want me?" she coyly whispered against Emily's mouth.
"You've said that before," Emily mumbled.
Alison pulled back sharply studying Emily's confused face.
"What?" Alison questioned. "What do you mean, when?"
Emily face turned quizzical as she titled her head trying to remember.
"I don't know, I just know you have," Emily brow furrowed. "More than once."
"You do remember," Ali breathed in disbelief.
"Remember what?" Emily asked.
"The past, summer 2009 I was there," Alison sat up straddling Emily's hips.
"What? Ali what are you talking about?" Emily asked holding Alison's waist as the blonde rubbed at her face frustratedly.
"I fixed it, I fixed everything," Alison mumbled.
"Ali, just calm down," Emily soothed, rubbing her thumbs over Alison's hips. "I think you're dehydrated or something."
"I'm not," Ali stressed. "I'm not crazy, I'm not thirsty just, why can't you remember."
"Hey, look, lie down with me, Ali, please," Emily gently grasped Alison's wrists and pulled the blonde to lie beside her.
Immediately Alison curled herself around Emily resting her head on the brunette's chest.
"Now tell me what this is about?" Emily implored gently.
"I went back in time," Alison muttered into Emily's chest, knowing how crazy she sounded but Emily didn't make a sound. "I wanted to fix everything."
Alison looked up into Emily's eyes.
"I wanted to fix us," Ali confessed.
Emily nodded and ran a comforting hand through Ali's hair. Alison felt her tears gather again and tried to breath through it.
"Its ok Ali," Emily soothed. "You can let it all out."
"I tried so hard, Em, I did, I tried to fix it," Alison sobbed into the brunette's chest.
Emily held her tight rubbing soothing circles on her back.
"It can't be fixed Ali its the past we learn from it and we move on."
"You don't understand," Alison cried harder. "I was there at the start and I tried to fix everything to make it all better, but it didn't work."
Emily hummed and hugged Alison to her chest.
"You think I'm lying," Alison accused.
"No," Emily assured her lover. "I believe you believe you were there but Ali its just not possible."
"It happened I know it did," Alison breathed somewhat defeated.
"Ali," Emily titled Alison's head up so she could look into the blonde's eyes. "Even if you could travel back in time what we went through got us here, as terrible as the journey may have been I wouldn't be me without it and you wouldn't be you and I love you."
"I love you too, I just thought if I could change it. I could stop all the terrible things I made happen-"
"Alison you did terrible things, yes," Emily cut in. "But you're not the be all and end all of everyones problems. You're not some evil mastermind ruining everyones lives in Rosewood, you're a teenage girl."
Alison settled somewhat against Emily's chest again, letting her mermaid's words soak in, while Emily played with her hair.
"Tell me about your dream," Emily mumbled tiredly. "It sounds like you had quite the adventure."
"I don't know where to start," Alison mumbled sadly.
"Start with the funniest thing you remember," Emily prompted.
Alison cracked a smile at the thought.
"It was so weird, Toby liked you, like liked you," Alison giggled playing with Emily's fingers laying against the brunette's chest.
She felt safe and surrounded by her lover, even though Emily hadn't experienced her dream that didn't mean they couldn't share it.
"Yeah that happened." Emily laughed in her ear, that felt like another lifetime ago.
"And your mom kicked you out because we were together," Alison squeezed at the fingers laced with her own. "That wasn't really funny but I could never see her doing that."
"Thats not far from what happened with Maya actually. She really did grow a lot with the acceptance thing," Emily mused. "She even made you stay."
"She did," Alison agreed leaning up and pressing a kiss to Emily's smile.
"You didn't even want to admit you maybe liked girls," Alison laughed at the absurdity as she resettled.
"Again not far from what actually happened with Maya," Emily grinned kissing at Alison's forehead gently.
A memory suddenly came to Alison and though it made her blood boil for a second it was also kind of ridiculous now. She had to tell Emily.
"Ok this one was obviously me being a crazy bitch… Paige… oh my god it was so unreal I don't even know why or how I dreamt this up, she tried to drown you," Alison giggled.
Emily fell silent and stiffened. Alison's giggling trailed off as she took in Emily's solemn expression.
"That never happened though," Alison tried to catch Emily's eye. "Right, Em? She never did that?"
Emily looked away and sighed.
Alison started to sit up somewhat but Emily pulled her back down to the brunette's chest.
"She was scared and lashing out-"
"No. No. There is no excuse for that. I'm gonna kill that bitch," Alison fumed trying to sit up, Emily held her tighter.
"Ali, no," Emily tried to sooth the struggling blonde. "It was a long time ago we've all moved on."
Alison took deep breaths through her anger and then settled back into Emily's embrace. Emily placed a deep kiss to her forehead and Alison finally started to relax as a horrible memory came to her.
"Em?"
"Mm," Emily mumbled, her lips brushing against Alison's temple.
"Did Ben hurt you? He tried to-"
"Alison how do you know all this stuff you weren't even here?" Emily questioned as she sat up Alison following her. "Did someone tell you?"
"No, no one told me these things, Em I was there, I went back," Alison stressed grasping for Emily's hands.
Emily shook her head in confusion.
"I.. I don't know what to believe but you're freaking me out, Ali," Emily admitted.
"I know, I'm freaking myself out," Alison puzzled. "But it wasn't all bad we were really close after I convinced you to give us a real chance, which by the way was not easy, but it was great in its own innocent way."
Alison smiled fondly and Emily looked to their joined hands.
"I had a dream too," Emily admitted softly.
"You did?" Alison tilted her head.
Emily nodded.
"When I was in the dollhouse, I never slept well but I had a dream several actually over different nights or the same night I couldn't tell, but there was one I remembered really well."
"What happened in your dream, Em?" Alison begged, if it was anything like Spencer's dreams then that meant it was real at least in some ways right.
"It was my first time," Emily mumbled looking into Alison's desperate blue eyes. "But it was with you."
Alison's face split into a grin as she edged closer.
"And what did I say?" Alison begged.
"Lots of things, you were gentle and considerate and just wonderful," Emily smiled warmly.
Alison nodded entranced but she needed confirmation anything to ground these dreams in her reality.
"What did I say when you thought it was a one time thing?" Alison asked, that night forever burned into her brain whether it was real or not, it would always stay with her.
"Ali…"
"Please, Em what did I say?"
"That we'd get in lots of practise," Emily whispered.
"Cause now that I'd had you there was no way I was giving you up," Alison finished.
Emily pulled back sharply.
"How did you know that?" Emily questioned.
Alison slid closer.
"Your favourite movie is the nightmare before christmas and I burst into tears because I thought I was like Jack," Alison smiled.
Emily nodded.
"I told you you weren't and I promised you a happy ending," Emily finished with a light gasp.
Alison nodded.
"You did, you went back somehow and ended up in my dreams." Emily shook her head. "How is that possible?"
"I don't know, but I'm glad, it makes it more real then," Ali admitted with a grateful sigh.
"I can't.. how is.." Emily tried to wrap her brain around it all.
"I don't think you can explain it, Em," Alison sighed. "I don't think I want to anyway."
Alison pulled the stunned brunette gently to lay across the bed and snuggled up to her.
"Do you think the others remember?" Ali asked softly, her nail tracing patterns on Emily's chest again. "Spencer remembers some."
"I don't know, if Spencer remembers then probably yeah," Emily shrugged pulling her arms tightly around Ali.
"I'm so glad that we're ok you and me and that we found our way back but I still miss the others, Em," Alison lifted her head to peer into Emily's concerned brown eyes. "In my dream or past or whatever it was we were all really close, especially me and Hanna."
Emily nodded that she understood and moved a strand of Alison's hair carefully behind the blonde's ear.
"I remember being a jealous jerk," Emily groaned. "And then, wait… is Hanna really your sister?"
"I found Mrs Marin before we found you all and she told me the truth, my father is Hanna's father," Alison nodded.
"Weird," Emily breathed. "Are you going to tell Hanna?"
"If she'll listen to me," Alison shrugged.
"Do you need me to help?" Emily asked.
"You've already done more than enough," Alison smiled leaning up to kiss Emily softly. "I love you."
"I'll never get tired of that," Emily smiled smacking her lips playfully.
Alison pouted quirking an eyebrow.
"I love you too," Emily finally dutifully recited with a cheeky grin.
Alison shook her head but kissed her mermaid anyway, because she was an idiot who was in love with this idiot.
"I think I owe you something," Alison whispered against Emily's lips that quirked into a smile before Alison seized them in a desperate kiss.