A/N: Is it bad that when I started this story there was a different reigning Baseball champ (Not that I'm complaining about the current one at all… :D), and a different reigning Basketball and Hockey champ too. Doh!

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It was a beautiful day. The sky was a blue that Kim didn't think existed in nature. A blue that she even imagined she could taste and it tasted like a brand new apple, straight off the tree. Her world was perfect and she was happy.

A voice spoke from the doorway, "You look gorgeous."

Kim looked down at herself, "I look like the top of a wedding cake." And she did. It was an old fashioned wedding dress with a flowing skirt and lots and lots of lace around Kim's neck, "But, I can wear white you know..."

A laugh came from behind Kim, "Yes, yes, card carrying gold star-" Kerry leaned down and put her chin on Kim's shoulder. They both stared at the other in the mirror that sat in front of Kim, "-will you ever stop commenting on it?"

"Nope. But, as long as you stand there and say that there will never be another in your life, man, woman or-"

Kerry kissed Kim silent. "I will."

"Not will, do..."

Kim smirked and Kerry just shook her head. "You know this isn't real, right?"

Kim looked down again and the dress was gone, replaced by a patient's gown, one that seemed to have no back to it. "Wha-"

Kerry's voice went cold. "I could be dead, Roberta could be dead, this is all in your mind."

"Kimberly?"

Kim's head snapped up and around, it wasn't Kerry talking any more, but Kim's mother. "Mom?"

"So, are you gonna wake up or what my little one?"

Kim shook her head, "I don't want to. What if... I can't do it, not again. I can't survive when everyone else has died. I just can't Mom..." Tears ran down her face and she frowned as she could feel her mom wiping them away.

"You have survived until now."

Kim sighed, "Not really. I'm hiding in Dad's garage. I'm... I'm surprised that Roberta hasn't left me too."

Juliana Legaspi put a finger under Kim's chin and lifted it until her daughter stared right into her eyes, "Do not give up and turn off the game before you know the score my best daughter."

Kim closed her eyes as she responded how she always had when her mother had called her 'her best daughter', "I'm your only daughter."

She opened her eyes as Juliana responded, "But still the best. Kerry, she's not me Kimberly, she won't leave you."

"She already did." Kim closed her eyes again.

There was silence from Juliana, "Are you sure?"

"What?" Kim opened her eyes, but she was alone. She had always been alone.

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Kim gasped, her eyes flew open and it was as if the beginning of her dream had come to life. Sort of. Kerry leaned over her. She was saying something, but Kim's brain wasn't processing what it was.

Kim managed to croak, "Stop."

To her credit Kerry did and waited silently as Kim gathered her wits and asked her first question, "-Berta?"

Kerry nodded, "She's alive- yes…" Kerry trailed off, but Kim had always been amazing at reading her.

"And?"

Kerry looked away for a moment before she met Kim's eyes again and answered, "She's paralyzed. T8. I'm sorry."

Kim grabbed Kerry's hand, "You?"

Kerry smiled a small smile, "I'm fine, broken kneecap…"

"And the pl…"

Before Kim could finish her question Kerry shook her head, "They didn't make it."

Kim closed her eyes. As she opened them Kim squeezed Kerry's hand, "Real?"

Kerry nodded, "Yes. This is all real Kim. I… uh…" Kerry tried to take back her hand, but Kim wouldn't let her. "I should go get your neurologist."

"No. Stay, please." Kim met Kerry's eyes, "You can ask me the questions."

"Kim, I'm not a neurologist."

Kim looked down at the foot of the bed, then back to Kerry. "Please, just. I want quiet for one more moment."

Kerry frowned and sighed, but then asked, "Who's the President?"

"Barack Obama."

"Secretary of State?"

Kim frowned, "That's not a usual question."

Kerry's eyes crunched as if she were going to smile even as she kept a straight face, "Well, he's in his second term, so, you could be back in 2011."

"John Kerry."

"Good, good." Kerry paused, thinking, "Who are the reigning champs in the big four sports?"

Kim frowned, "Baseball, Football, Basketball and Hockey?" Kerry nodded, "Ah- Boston Red Sox, Seattle Seahawks, San Antonio Spurs, and…" She frowned just a little, "And the Los Angeles Kings. Have I passed?"

Kerry squeezed Kim's hand and extracted her own, "I need to find your neurologist Kim."

Kim slowly nodded, "Okay, but, please stay with me while they poke and prod, it's not like you haven't seen it all before."

Kerry shook her head, "Kim, no one's going to like that."

"I don't care. Do you?" Kerry didn't answer, just stared at Kim, "Please Ker- and also, we have to talk after-"

Kerry stood in the doorway and after a long minute she nodded, "Okay." She shook her head again, "The things I go through for you Kimberly Legaspi."

"Thank you."

Kim stared up at the ceiling while Kerry was gone. Still not quite sure if where she was was real. When she heard raised voices outside her room she realized that it probably was.

She looked up as Kerry slipped back in, closing the door behind her. "I didn't know that your brain was so pretty."

Kim frowned, "What?"

"He's on his way. Christy's out there and your family's coming back, do you want her to.."

"No…" Kim put a hand over her eyes, "I- I want to see Roberta."

Kerry nodded, "You will, I promise."

They both went silent, "I'm sorry-"

Kerry frowned, "For what?"

There was a knock on the door as Kim answered, "Your leg, probably screwing back up whatever life you've gotten for yourself." Kim sighed, "Basically for everything past and future."

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"I should be in there- she's my best friend and."

Kate cut Christy off, "Shut up, I beg you Christy. Just be quiet for once in your life."

Christy stared daggers at the closed door to Kim's room, "That woman broke her heart."

Kate shook her head, "Christy- so did you. If I recall you slept with a woman named, Lee, Lacy…"

"Leia… so? That was in the past."

Kate just shook her head as her phone rang, "Hello." She listened for a long few moment before she nodded, "Yes, yes, I'll be in. See you in fifteen." She hung up and stared at Christy, "Are you going to behave?" Christy didn't answer and Kate shook her head, "Fine. But don't call me when Kerry hands you your ass on a platter."

Christy gave a short chuckle, "She's on crutches Kate."

Kate inclined her head, "Yeah, you ever had a crutch up your ass then?" Kate shook her head and left Christy alone in the hall. Christy wasn't alone long. "Christy- hey, you okay?"

Christy gave Julian a hug, "I'm fine. I've just been banished by the witch. Probably she wants to pull Kim's plug."

"Ah…" Julian cleared his throat.

Christy turned. Kerry stood in Kim's doorway. Her lips were set in a line. She pushed by Christy, one of her crutches hitting Christy in the upper arm, "Excuse me."

Christy stared at Kerry's back for a moment before she went into Kim's room. Julian frowned but didn't follow her in. It didn't take him long to catch up with Kerry, "Christy just doesn't like competition."

"I know. I've been through- Christy before." Julian started to speak again, but Kerry cut him off, "And I'm not competition Julian. I have two kids, a high pressure job that takes up too much of my time. I don't have time for lesbian drama, or any other kind of drama." She met Julian's gaze and held it, "I promise."

Julian frowned again, "Time, schmime, whatever. That's not really the point, ya know. The point is, do you love her Doc?"

Kerry didn't get to answer as a dirty blonde haired woman appeared from out of nowhere and stuck her hand out, interrupting, "Doctor Weaver?"

Kerry frowned and tilted her head to one side as she shook the woman's hand, "Cameron right? Mercy?"

"I… ah, yes. I'm the new Chief. I just wanted to introduce myself properly."

Kerry raised an eyebrow, "So that I know that name of the person I'm cursing out when you close to traumas?"

Allison was silent for a moment, then a smile came to her face, "Yeah, something like that."

Kerry nodded, "Good to meet you, but…"

Allison nodded, "You're busy. Ah, have you seen a gorgeous cop somewhere around here?"

Julian snorted a chuckle, "Yeah, she was outside talking to someone or other I think." He paused, "I assume you're talking about Teresa?"

Allison blushed a little as she nodded, "Ah, yes, thank you…" And made her escape.

"And where are you off to?"

Kerry glanced down the hall, "If I knew what was good for me I'd just go home."

"Kerry…"

Kerry cut him off, "I'm going to Roberta's room to make sure that she's able to have visitors, because Kim will not do anything that any of the doctors want her to do until she sees that Roberta is alive with her own eyes."

"Oh… okay. I should…" Julian winced as a loud voice came from Kim's room. "Go in there."

Kerry put a hand on Julian's arm, "Julian. Could you try and keep Kim calm? Please. For her own good?"

Julian smirked, "Does that mean I have permission to tie Christy to a chair?"

Kerry blinked, "The exact same smirk… and exact same sense of humor as your sister. And, no."

"Fine then. I'll go split up the exes before they kill each other."

Kerry continued her journey down the hall, stopping for a moment in front of Roberta's room before pushing open the day. The eyes that met hers were bright for a minute, then they dimmed just a bit, "Hello." She picked up the chart and looked it over.

Roberta bristled a little, "That's all you're going to say?"

After she was finished reading it, she put it back and met Roberta's gaze again, "No. I'm going to say goodbye for a moment, then I'll be back soon with someone I have no doubt you wish to see quite a bit more than me."

Kerry was nearly to the door when Roberta spoke, "She never stopped loving you. And… she almost called you after her father died."

Kerry turned a bit, "I'm glad she didn't."

Roberta frowned, "Excuse me?"

"I was still dating Courtney Brown two years ago."

She left Roberta alone in her room, blinking in surprise, "Well damn," she mumbled, "maybe there is a chance."

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Kim put a hand to her head, "Please Christy, just… stop. Please? I'm fine, everything's f-" she paused, "almost everything's fine. I just want to get out of here, go home and rest." She moved her hands over her eyes, "God, I have to rebuild, and the insurance and…"

Julian smirked, "You could sic your bulldog on all that you know? Bet they'd be begging to give you money."

"Bulldog, that's a new one for Kate I have to say."

Julian blushed to the roots of his hair, "Sorry sis, I just meant…"

Kerry entered, catching the back and forth, "Speaking of paperwork, Julian do you know enough about your sister to fill out a bit of it that's at the admin desk?"

"Sure, ah, Christy, you coming?"

Christy looked between Kerry and Kim, "No. No I don't think I am." Julian sighed and with one last look, left the room. "You have no legal right to be here Weaver."

"Christy, she's…"

"Nothing to you. She's a little piece of…"

"STOP IT."

"Kim, calm down please. Your blood pressure."

Kim closed her eyes for a long, long moment of silence. When she opened them she pinned Christy with a look, "You've been there for me in so many ways Christy. But please, stop just… I am a grown woman, I've been a grown woman the entire time you've known me and I make my own decisions. Kerry isn't causing me to do anything, okay. Please. I'm okay. Go back to work, or wherever you need to go. Please Christy."

Christy stared at Kim and spoke as if Kerry wasn't there, "She hurt you so badly, I- I picked up the pieces. She destroyed you almost as badly as your father dying did." She pointed at Kerry, "She did that. You remember that Kim. You were broken. I…. we were there for you, we fixed you. She got a family, the perfect life, and you- you were destroyed."

Christy left and the room seemed to lose all its tension. Kim spoke, "I'm sorry."

Kerry shook her head, "Don't be. I didn't come here to woo you, I came here to take you to Roberta's room. It's also a double with only her in it at the moment, so, I'm here to move you there."

"You and what army?" Kim looked Kerry up and down.

Kerry raised an eyebrow, "My army." She stuck her head out the door, "Malik."

After a moment he appeared at the door, "You bellowed Chief?"

Kim watched as a wisp of a smile crossed Kerry's face, "I did, although, I'm going to pretend that you said 'called'. Kim was requesting an army to get her to her new room."

Malik stopped for a moment in a strong man pose and Kim laughed, "One man army at your service ma'am." As he pushed her down the hall he kept talking, "I hear you have a garage now. Just cars, or other stuff too?"

"If it has an engine I'll work on it. Of course, technically at the moment I think it has some holes in it..."

Malik nodded to himself, "I have these two four by fours, I have no idea what's wrong, but, they made this god awful noise the last time I rode them, and I don't want them to explode or kill us the next time we ride."

"Can you get them to Legaspi's Garage, or do you need me to pick them up?"

He pulled them into the bed spot next to Roberta with a smile, "Oh, I'll drop 'em off right after, you know, you have somewhere to fix 'em."

With that Malik and Kerry disappeared, leaving Roberta and Kim alone. Kim carefully got out of the bed and stood next to Roberta's. "I'm… I'm so sorry Roberta."

Roberta took a hold of Kim's chin and made the blonde look directly at her. "Young lady, you did not do this. You. Did Not. Do. This. Are you hearing me?" Kim nodded. "I want to hear you say it Kim."

"Yes. I hear you."

Roberta let her hand drop to the bed, "Do you believe me?"

Kim stared down at Roberta's lower body, "No. Not really." Kim cleared her throat, "I'll… you're in a walk up, and so am I… and… But I'll get on the garage stuff soon, I just…"

Roberta put her hand on top of Kim's, "Let Kate do it." Roberta smiled just a little, "If I know Kate, she's probably already started. Now. Get back in that bed and get your rest so that you can have enough energy to get your girl back."

Kim hurfed, "Roberta."

Roberta narrowed her eyes at Kim, "Tell me that she you don't still love her."

Kim's jaw worked, "Yes, I still love her."

Roberta put her hand to Kim's jaw, "Didn't you tell me way back that the first time around she had to convince you that the two of you should make a go of it?" Kim nodded, "Perhaps it's your turn?"

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Bridget frowned as her mother sat in the chair in their hotel room. "Mom… we have to try again. She's… Kerry's the only way."

Helen shook her head, "I'm fine honey. God will provide."

"Fuck god."

"Young lady."

Bridget sighed, "Sorry Mom. I didn't mean it, I just…" She took her mother's hands in her own, "I don't want to lose you Mom."

Helen squeezed Bridget's hands, "You won't Bridget. God will provide."

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Dave made a incomprehensible noise and stumbled backwards out of the On Call room. He winced, then paused, "Wait a second."

He pushed through the door. The two women inside were much more covered as he did. "What the hell. You two don't even work here."

Teresa held a hand up, then decided that it would be better to keep that hand on the shirt that was covering her upper body. "Ah, yes, well, you see…"

Dave glanced behind him, "Seriously. You know her, right Ortiz, Kerry's still here."

Teresa winced, "Right. So… ah…" she glanced over at Cameron, "What's your schedule look like tonight?"

Dave rolled his eyes as he walked out of the room again with a sigh, "And all I wanted was to actually get some sleep."

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Kerry stuck her head into Kim and Roberta's room. Both seemed to be sleeping. She nodded and was just about to leave when Kim spoke, "Ker- Kerry, we need to talk." Kerry looked over at the other bed. "Roberta's asleep."

Kerry crutched as quietly as she could into the room, "You should be too."

Kim gestured towards the chair by her bed, "Please Ker."

Kerry stared at Kim for a long moment, then closed the door and sat, putting her crutches to one side, "Okay. I'm here."

Kim seemed to be trying to figure out where to start. "Florina Lopez is your mother-in-law. So- you're married?"

Kerry frowned, "I told you that before the plane hit."

"I-" Kim shook her head, "I remember you being there, but, I don't remember anything concrete about right before everything went to hell."

Kerry opened and closed her mouth and sat there for a moment, "I- yes, I'm widowed."

That caused the conversation to grind to a halt, "Ah… oh… he was probably…"

Kerry cut Kim off, "A firefighter here in Chicago. Died in the line of duty." She paused, "And as I said in the garage, he wasn't a he. She died ten years ago." Kerry put a hand to her chest for a few beats of her heart before she went on, "I'm back at County. Chief of the ER."

Kim shook her head, "I heard Coburn got the Chief of Staff job, she got to you?"

"Nope, Judy Upton got to me."

Kim frowned, "Doctor Upton, the pathologist, crew cut, gravely voice? What does she have to do with the ER?" Kerry sat there with a frown etched onto her face for so long that Kim spoke again, "What? I don't see the connection."

"They're both gay Kim. I thought you knew. They're a couple, have been for, what, fifteen years by now." Kerry quirked an eyebrow, "On our second date I wasn't lying when I said I had gay friends."

That comment got a half a smile from Kim, "I thought it wasn't a date?"

Kerry shook her head, "I'm bad, very bad at dating. That's one thing I've found out over the past few years. I get advice from my ten year old son about dating. Of course, I think he gets his advice from his Uncle so…"

Kim frowned, "You're a Mom. Of…"

"Henry and Leonora, also something I told you before we got hit by the plane." Kim went pale as it came together, and as perhaps a bit of a memory from just before the crash came back to her. Kerry stood, supporting herself on the bed. "What's wrong?"

"You're H and L's Mom."

Kerry didn't blink. "Yes."

Kim frowned, "And you don't seem surprised- you knew that I was…"

Kerry quickly shook her head, "No, no…" She paused, "Not at first. I figured it out and when I-"

Kim snorted out a laugh, then glanced over at Roberta, "When we got hit by a plane I forgot all about it," Kerry went to sit again, but Kim caught her hand. "You saved me KEr."

Kerry quickly shook her head, "No- the doctors here did that."

Kim glanced down at Kerry's knee brace, "No, you don't understand. I don't remember a lot, but, I do remember seeing something metal- coming right for my head and then you were there between me and it, or- your knee was at least."

Kerry was silent, "Kim, everything was-"

"-chaos."

Kerry shook her head, "I'm not even sure I was conscious Kim. I'm not a hero."

Kim squeezed Kerry's hand, "You're my hero."

"Well, then I did a bad job if I got hurt too."

Kim chuckled, then winced, "You're still the same Kerry Ker." She paused, "So, how have you been otherwise. Is Florina doing okay?"

Kerry studied Kim, "We're just going to…"

"Pretend for a moment that we're normal human beings and have a boring normal conversation? Yes."

"Florina's okay, I've been alright I guess."

Kim smiled one of her cheekiest smiles, but Kerry wondered if the blonde knew that the smile didn't quite meet her eyes. "Hot dates?"

"No. You?"

"Nope. You were a hard act for anyone to follow."

"Kim- I wasn't…"

Kim let go of Kerry's hand and touched her cheek, "You're beautiful and smart and tough and you love with everything you are. No one could ever come close." She dropped her hand and looked away, "I'm sorry. I think it's my psych training biting me in the ass, I will never be able to have a normal conversation."

Silence reigned for a minute or two before Kim spoke, "Roberta thinks that I should pursue you. That it's my turn."

"I did sorta hound you the last time around didn't I?" Kim turned her head and blinked when she found herself eye to eye with Kerry. The red head put a hand behind Kim's head and pulled the blonde into a kiss much like the one that they'd shared almost fourteen years prior. Kerry finally pulled away and sank back into the chair. "Damn." She put her fingers to her lips and looked up at Kim who also looked a little flushed. "So- I guess we have a decision to make."

"Just like that. We, what, weigh the pros and cons. Do you ever just listen to your heart Kerry?"

Kerry folded her hands in her lap, "Look, Kim, last time was…"

Kim cut Kerry off, sitting up in bed, "I love you Ker, you are the love of my life, and you… you are treating this like a- like a damn decision between low fat or low salt chips. Just-" Kim sagged back into her pillow and closed her eyes, "I need to get some sleep."

Kerry was silent for a moment, not moving, but then she stood and nodded, getting her crutches under her and leaving.

Kim blew out a breath and a voice came from the other bed, "Kimberly."

Kim practically growled in response, "Go back to sleep Roberta."

Roberta wasn't done though. "Not everyone jumps into love off a diving board my dear, some, some need to climb in via the ladder."

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Judy Upton didn't even look up from her microscope as Kerry entered her realm, "WHo are you hiding from tonight Kerry?"

Kerry sat down at the end of the lab table and leaned her crutches against it. "Myself? I thought-" Kerry slapped her open hand against the table, "Damnit, I'm not a cold bitch. People love me- people who don't have to love me, love me."

Judy smirked, "Some more than others, especially when you interrupt their work. But… I thought you were leaning towards no relationship."

"Oh, do shut up."

Judy chuckled, "It's because she was your first."

"No. It's not. IT's not. She- she is the most caring person I've ever met, even after what I did to her, even after what she's gone through she tries to smile and she's funny and gorgeous and… and…" Kerry's voice hitched.

Judy stripped off her gloves and came over to Kerry, putting an arm around her, "You love her."

"I love her. I love Kim."

Judy kissed the side of Kerry's head, "Honey, you know I'm the wrong one to say that to."

Kerry looked up, "I- I know what I have to do." She gathered her crutches and was out of the room like lightning.

Judy took out her phone and hit the first number on her home screen, "Love. Yeah, either something amazing is about to happen, or something that will go very, very badly."