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Severus pulled Harry into the bedroom, Harry's bedroom to be specific, and dragged him over to the bed. Harry looked up to Severus with hope in his eyes and his heart was pounding with anticipation as they stopped at looked at each other. Severus stepped forward and took Harry's face in his hands before leaning down and giving him a searing kiss that then slowed to a sensual massage of lips and tongues. Harry's hands went to Severus's hips and he pulled their groins together so he could get some friction. He couldn't help but let a moan slip out at the feeling but then Severus pulled away to then whisper in his ear.
"Get undressed. Slowly." He purred and Harry shivered.
Harry looked up at him as the man took a step back and Harry, with slightly shaking hands went to his tee and he pulled it off over his head, letting it drop to the floor beside him. As he did this, Severus started to unbutton his white shirt and it was then that Harry realized he'd never actually seen the man completely naked. He suddenly became very excited to see the man without any clothes and he knew that he'd be disappointed if he stopped at just the shirt.
Harry, still maintaining eye contact with Severus went to the button and zipper on his jeans, and achingly slowly undid and unzipped them before slowly slipping the tight material down his thighs, past his knees and then shaking them off. He hadn't been wearing shoes this day so he was able to shake away his jeans and strip off his socks quickly before standing straight again, clad only in his boxers with a not so small tenting at the front.
Looking over at Severus the man was toeing off his shoes and ridding his socks before going to the waistband of his trousers. Harry's heart skipped a beat and he felt that it quite possibly lodged itself in his throat when he saw Severus's hands start undoing his trousers and he licked his lips subconsciously. He watched as Severus let his trousers fall to the floor and he stepped out of them before kicking them to the side, this left them both dressed in only their undergarments and Harry's eyes flicked down towards Severus's groin to see a bulge appearing and it was growing.
Suddenly Severus stepped forward and cupped Harry's cheek with his hand, looking into his eyes with honesty and seduction before he gave a chaste kiss and speaking.
"What are you feeling, Harry?" Severus said somewhat seriously and Harry frowned at him.
"Honesty remember? We haven't done this before, so I'm asking if you want to continue." Severus elaborated and Harry nodded in understanding.
"I feel… excited and frustrated."
"Frustrated?" Severus cocked an eyebrow and Harry smirked.
"Yeah, frustrated that you won't hurry up." Harry replied quickly and pushed his hips forward so he made contact with Severus although it wasn't much distance to cover, Harry's erection made sure of that.
"In that case, please do continue." Severus said playfully and took a small step back.
Harry's nerves then went through the roof and he swallowed before moving his hands to the waistband on his boxers. He hesitated, which didn't go unnoticed by Severus before he slipped them off and let them fall to the floor. He closed his eyes and could feel his face flaming with embarrassment as he stood in front of the man naked but forced himself to open his eyes. When he did he gasped at the naked Severus standing in front of him, obviously Severus had used that time he had his eyes closed to rid himself of his own briefs. Harry's eyes raked over Severus's body and he licked his lips again as he eyed the large erection standing proudly from the small amount of black curls. Harry followed the trail of hair up over his abdomen and over the light spattering of chest hair before finally making eye contact with the man.
"Enjoying the view?" Severus teased.
"Very much." Harry replied and dared himself to step forward, just enough for their erections to brush each other's stomachs and snaked his hands through the hair on the man's chest.
"Good, so am I." Severus said softly before leaning down and capturing Harry's lips in a sensual kiss.
They continued with this for a few minutes with Harry's hands running over Severus's chest and around his neck; Severus's hands exploring Harry's back and ghosting over his backside before gripping Harry's cheeks forcefully and pulling him up. Harry gasped at the motion and held onto the man's shoulders and neck for support as he was turned towards the bed and laid down carefully with Severus's body covering his own.
This was somewhat new territory for Harry, he'd never been naked with someone before and it was strangely exciting, not wanting the touching and the feelings to stop. However, it seemed that Severus wasn't about to stop and kept hold of his ass as he leaned down and kissed his way down Harry's jaw line and neck. Harry moaned and tried bucking his hips forward but found that he was stuck between Severus's hands and his body, which made him moan again but this time in frustration. He heard Severus chuckle at this as he continued down Harry's body, kissing and licking as he went until he was hovering over Harry's nipples and he took one between his teeth, gentle biting it and making Harry gasp.
Harry felt a hand sliding up between the sheets and his back as Severus hugged him close before flipping them over so Harry was on top. Harry didn't need to be told what to do and quickly leaned down to kiss the man on the lips before moving to his chin, his Adams apple and down towards his chest. Harry was beginning to think that he had an unusual obsession with the man's chest and felt like nuzzling his face into the spots of hair. He did do this before thinking better than to stay there and kissed his way back up towards Severus's collarbone and his neck; as he busied himself with this he hadn't noticed that Severus's hand was slowly making it's way towards the crack between his cheeks until it slipped downwards. Harry gasped when he felt Severus push on his tight puckered hole, tensing in the process and pulling away from Severus to look down at him.
"You okay?"
"I wasn't expecting it." Harry said not moving.
"You want me to stop?" Severus asked quietly making sure he could make eye contact with Harry.
"C-Could you do it again?" Harry mumbled and Severus nodded, one hand holding Harry's chest towards his own and the other making it's way between his ass cheeks towards its destination.
Harry didn't flinch this time when he felt Severus's finger rub over his hole, strangely enough he found it somewhat erotic and he involuntarily bucked his hips forward making their erections rub together.
"Does it make you uncomfortable?" Severus asked and Harry shook his head.
Severus nodded then leaned up to kiss him as way of reassurance and as he did this he felt Harry's muscles relax. He decided that he wouldn't push Harry further tonight; it was, after all Christmas and he knew that it meant something to him. With his mind set, Severus flipped them back over so Harry was laying on his back and he took back control of what was happening. He did this by grinding into Harry and he heard a low groan coming from Harry's mouth as he did so.
Harry was getting desperate for release by this stage, considering this was the third time Severus had made him ridiculously horny, so ignoring the fact Severus was creating havoc on his neck he grabbed his weeping cock with his hot hand and started to violently stroke himself off. With the weight and heat coming from Severus, Harry felt like he had a fever and it was getting sweaty and rough quickly. Harry was vaguely aware that Severus had stopped kissing him but he had his eyes closed to absorb the sensations that he was experiencing therefore missing the sight in front of him.
Severus had one hand on the bed just by Harry's head to support him and the other was pumping his own erection feverishly. He was watching the emotions flitting across Harry's face in fascination and it allowed him to see another side to Harry, one that was completely unguarded, unafraid and not caring. This fact warmed him and he felt another wall in his hard exterior crumbling away, but only, only for Harry.
Severus was drawn from his thoughts with Harry's voice reaching his ears and Severus focused on Harry's face as he exploded with pleasure and let the orgasm take him. Severus finally gave in himself as he watched Harry underneath him and almost growled with the intensity of his own orgasm. He had to stop himself from collapsing on top of Harry with exhaustion, twice in one day wasn't something he was used to and it took a lot of energy out of him.
Harry was panting raggedly as he came down from his high and his eyes were still closed, however he did feel the tingling sensation of a cleaning spell and it was enough for him to open his eyes and see the mess clearing away. He looked up to see Severus's face and he guessed that he had found his release as well if his flushed face was anything to go by, this thought made him smile even if it was a sleepy one.
Severus smiled softly down at Harry as he saw the drowsy look and the hooded eyes he was receiving and decided that he would put Harry to bed. He shifted them and Harry managed to get under the covers by himself; Severus on the other hand lay on the duvet and wrapped his arm around Harry's shoulders. Harry looked up at him with a questioning look and he knew what Harry was going to say, much like Harry was towards having sex, he had his reservations about sleeping in the same bed as someone. He realized though that they would have to at some point, he knew he couldn't not do this if they relationship continued like it was.
"Sleep, Harry." Severus said and kissed the top of his head.
"Are you going to stay with me?" Harry asked tiredly but looking up at him.
Severus sighed and hugged him tighter.
"I will stay. Go to sleep." He replied, if not slightly hesitantly and felt Harry shift.
Harry motioned for him to slip under the covers and he did so before speaking.
"Turn around."
Harry did so, laying on his side and felt Severus move behind him and arms coming round and resting on his chest so they were spooning. The warmth from the man behind him was calming to his already tired state and he could feel himself slipping into a deep sleep. Something about having arms around him, keeping him safe, made him feel something in his chest but he wasn't quite sure what it was.
"Goodnight, Severus." Harry mumbled snuggling down.
"Goodnight, Harry." Severus said softly and gave Harry a quick squeeze.
Harry smiled when he woke the next morning, his dreams that night had been filled with naughty romps with Severus in multiple locations and this had caused a morning hard on. He had been hoping that Severus could help him out with his problem but when he rolled over he found the other side of his bed empty and cold making him frown. Severus had said that he would stay so he had assumed that the man would have been there when he woke up. However he heard a door open and then close and he realized once he looked over at the time it was the time Severus usually had a shower so he didn't jump to conclusions on this one.
He moved his hand and felt the bangle on his wrist and then he remembered the present he had given the man and he smiled as he covered the bangle with his other hand.
Morning Severus.
Harry grinned and was giddy at the prospect of being able to talk to the man whenever he wanted during the day, especially when they went back to school in a couple of days time. His grin widened when he felt a tingle on his wrist and he held the bangle up to read it.
Good morning, Harry.
After reading this there was a knock at the door before it was opened and Severus appeared in the doorway, his crisp white shirt and dark pants making him look striking as ever.
"Hey." Harry said sitting up.
"Hey." Severus mimicked and came towards the bed and sitting on the edge.
"I see these work. Could be dangerous." Severus smirked as he held up his wrist and Harry smiled at him.
"Why do you think I gave them to you?" He teased and reached over to lay a hand on the man's thigh.
Severus placed his hand over top of Harry's and gave it a squeeze before making eye contact again and letting his thumb run over the top of Harry's hand.
"So, what are your plans for today?"
"Homework." Harry said making a face but at Severus's stern one he gave a fake smile to try and appease the man.
"Hmm, sounds thrilling." Severus said sarcastically and went to stand.
"You didn't stay the whole night did you?" Harry asked suddenly and Severus halted in his step. He got out of bed and stood next to Severus who was still facing the door.
"I… I didn't think you were ready for that." Severus said finally, he wasn't proud of lying to Harry.
"Why not?" Harry countered, a little confused as to why the man would say something like that. If he wasn't ready he would have said.
There was no reply for a few seconds and Severus stood stiffly. Clearing his throat he replied.
"You should shower, you have – "
"You made me feel safe." Harry interrupted and he saw Severus close his eyes.
"Finally I felt something that made me feel normal. Feel… I don't know! Like I have NEVER FELT BEFORE!" Harry was losing control and he was losing it quickly.
"Don't try and play this off, Severus. You have given me something worth fighting for now. You've given me… Purpose again and you make me happy." Harry continued forcefully not realizing that Severus had taken a step away from him and gripping tightly on to his wrist.
When Harry stopped and looked at the man's face he could see that he was in pain and he frowned, there was nothing…
"Oh no… I'm sorry. I – "
He stopped himself and took a few deep breaths before he took a large step to hug the man tightly as he tried to calm himself. He took the man's wrist and looked at the bangle to find a light red mark around his wrist, the same shape as the bangle and bit his lower lip.
"I'm so sorry. I forgot to say…" Harry trailed off as he looked into the man's eyes, there was no humor or happiness, no love or lust, only confusion and sadness and Harry decided he didn't like this look.
"What – "
"It's the bangle, when the other is in distress it burns up depending on how worked up the other is." Harry rushed out not taking a breath and looked up at Severus worriedly.
Severus's features softened a little at his words and seeing Harry getting worked up again he took Harry in his arms and held him tight, he could feel the bangle warming a little and he didn't want a repeat of what had just happened. Straight away he could tell that this feature in the bangles would be very useful and he had to smile at the thoughtfulness that Harry had gone to with his Christmas gift.
"It's alright, Harry. It's okay." Severus said soothingly and started making circular motions with his hand on Harry's back.
"I hurt you, I'm sorry." Harry mumbled in Severus's shirt.
"Apparently not as much as I hurt you." Severus said and took Harry's head in his hands to look into his eyes before he kissed him briefly.
They stayed in this embrace for a few minutes before Harry broke away and said he was going to have a shower. Severus seemed a little hesitant to let him go but nodded before following him out of the room and turning to walk down the stairs. As Harry disappeared into the bathroom be turned back and looked at Harry, then turned to walk down the stairs.
As he sat at the table eating breakfast he thought about his actions and Harry's actions as well. He felt like he was losing control, like his emotions were all scrambled and he didn't like it but he wasn't about to shut everything off just because he didn't know what was happening in his head. Harry had been right when he'd said he'd been given something worth fighting for, or at least feelings other than sadness and depression or even feeling lonely and now he didn't know if it had been the right thing to do. Not for Severus though, for Harry, because now things were happening that they shouldn't and he didn't want the boy to be let down again.
He sighed. It was too late to change the course of his actions, he was going to have to be careful and hope for the best because he had let Harry get under his skin, he felt something for the boy. Harry only had another year of school after this anyway, slow and steady, he thought but even as he thought it he knew that sooner or later they were going to progress, whether he liked it or not.
"Earth to Severus?" Harry said as he sat in front of the man who had his mug midway to his mouth.
"I'm sorry." Severus said suddenly and Harry dropped the piece of toast he'd just picked up looking at Severus in utter surprise.
Severus's eye refocused and he looked at Harry.
"You've been through enough." Severus continued and Harry reached across the table to take Severus's free hand but Severus pulled his hand away and went to stand.
Harry watched as he came around the table and with one hand on the edge of it leaned forward over Harry so their noses were almost touching. Harry could see a storm of emotions flashing through Severus's eyes and he could have very happily fallen into those chocolate eyes but he was drawn back to the present with a hand on his cheek.
"I mean it." Severus said.
"I know." Harry said in a whisper and tried a small smile.
"I'll be in my lab if you need me." Severus said and then gave Harry a peck on the lips before standing and walking over to the door for the lab.
Harry watched him go and he felt a warmth in his chest, just like he had felt that night when Severus was spooning him. He didn't know what it was but he was willing to have that feeling again. He smiled, even though Severus was a hard man, it seemed that he was capable of loving. Loving, Harry thought and narrowed his eyes at his plate. Loving is a strong word, he decided and took a bite of his now cold toast. Does Severus love me? It was a good question, but he doubted that love Severus felt was truly romantic, most likely love as in close friend or... Harry sighed, his life was never going to be easy, that much he knew for sure.
After Harry had finished breakfast he had gone to his room where he sat to do his homework. He had been working solidly for the whole morning and was interrupted when he felt his wrist tingling. Looking down at the bangle he read Severus's message.
What are you doing?
Harry smiled to himself and tried not to giggle, is he trying to be civil? He wondered and covered the bangle to send a message back.
Finishing my Charms essay. What are you doing?
Harry sat and waited a couple of seconds before his wrist tingled and he looked down.
Waiting for you in the kitchen.
Harry frowned and then looked at the time to find it was lunchtime and realized the man must have been sitting at the dining table. He thought this was weird because either Karsha came into the room or Severus would come and get him. Nether the less he stood up and left the room, heading downstairs and found Severus sitting at the dining table, leaning back into the chair and his leg crossed over his knee.
"Couldn't come and get me yourself?" Harry quipped coming to sit at the table and Severus put both forearms on the table to lean forward.
"Now why would I do that," He started and held up his wrist, "When we have these?"
Harry snorted, laziness, he thought but kept it to himself as lunch appeared in front of them. They sat in silence for a few minutes as they started on lunch before Severus spoke.
"How's that homework coming along?" He asked casually and Harry looked up.
"Just got Astronomy to finish then I'm done." Harry replied.
"Hmm." Severus said and then went back to his lunch.
Harry observed him for a few seconds and guessed there was something on his mind. He seemed like he was thinking something through rather intensely and he supposed it was concerning him a little, though he knew he shouldn't worry, Severus was a grown man.
Harry was right though, after breakfast when Severus had isolated himself in his lab it wasn't to brew anything in particular, it had been to think things through, give himself some space. Whilst seducing Harry had been fun and exciting, it wasn't until the last few days that he had really come to terms with the implications of what was happening. It didn't bother him exactly, it was more the idea that Harry could get hurt again. He had taken this time to think and to categorize his own feelings towards the situation and Harry, coming to the conclusion that he was going to try and open up with Harry because he cared about him. He knew the boy had basically bared all to him with every aspect of his life so it was only fair that Harry knew what he was getting himself into.
"Hello?" Harry said from across the table and Severus refocused and looked up.
"I fancy going for a walk after lunch, do you wish to join me?" Severus said suddenly and he saw Harry blink a little confused.
"Yeah… sure." Harry replied and gave the man a strange sort of smile before finishing off his plate of food.
Finishing the rest of lunch quickly, Severus stood and helped Harry up before they both departed upstairs and into the respective rooms. Harry slipped into his new coat and smiled as he looked at himself in the mirror, he really did like this coat and what's more it was Severus that had given it to him. He met Severus downstairs by the front door and the man looked at him hesitantly before opening the door and leading Harry out onto the street.
"So where are we going?" Harry asked falling into step with the man.
It felt really good to stretch his legs after what felt like days being cooped up in the house, even though it was winter and the air had an edge to it, it still felt nice and he looked down at the snowy ground as they walked down the street.
"No where in particular." Severus replied looking forwards before turning a corner.
They walked a little further and Harry could see a dense forest in the distance, he hadn't noticed this before and he hadn't realized that Severus lived so close to it. He was a little disappointed that he hadn't found this earlier because he knew that he would have had a field day running through the trees as Jade.
"I didn't realize you lived so close to the forest, Severus." Harry said as they walked closer.
"I don't really come here often, usually just to think." Severus replied almost distantly and Harry had to frown at the man's odd behaviour.
Someone who seemed so in control was lately turning into someone who was losing their head and it concerned him.
"You sure everything is alright, Severus?" Harry had to ask.
Severus looked at him sideways and gave him a small smile before nodding.
"Because, you know… Honesty and everything." Harry said trying to use the man's words against him.
It didn't work.
They stepped into the forest and Harry was a little surprised to feel that it was a lot warmer than outside the tree line. He didn't dwell on this however and followed Severus deeper into the trees.
Harry was looking around, taking in the beautiful scenery when he felt something warm brush against his hand and he looked down just as Severus took his hand in his own, intertwining their fingers and held it as they walked. Harry had to smile, this little action meant so much, he just knew it and he gave Severus's hand a little squeeze to let him know that he didn't mind this kind of contact.
They walked in silence for, how long Harry didn't know, and he didn't really care because he was with Severus. They did however come to a clearing, somewhere Harry got the feeling no one really came to and he felt oddly safe, like a bubble had been placed over the two of them. He looked up to Severus and he could see the man looking around them before he turned towards Harry and pulled him close and placing his hands on Harry's hips.
Harry reached up and placed his hands on Severus's chest and made eye contact with the man, there was something in his eyes and he felt something pooling in the bottom of his stomach the longer they locked eyes. Severus then moved a hand so he was cupping Harry's cheek and ran a thumb over his lower lip, Harry was going to say something but the thumb pressed into his lips effectively silencing him. Harry closed his eyes when he saw Severus move his head forward in anticipation of a kiss however it never came and he found that Severus had pressed his forehead against his own and was looking into his eyes like he'd never done before.
"I really care about you, Harry."
