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Five weeks has passed since I have moved in with Eric. I found out shortly after moving in that we were also legally married. One could only imagine my expression which was a mixture of anger and shock, when he told me the consent form was also our legal document for marriage. It wasn't like I fantasized about my wedding growing up, I just thought that I would marry for love. Not to be married because of some sick twisted experiment.
We are still at early stages in our emrelationship/em as a couple if you can call it that. So for the most part as of lately I fill my time with reading books. There are many to choose from, Eric has a vast collection but I have found interest in the only topic that is more relevant in my situation and it's about the stages of pregnancy.
I was pulled out of my thoughts when I heard the front door to now "our" apartment slam open and shut. I turned my head to the left to see Eric leaning against the wall.
Having a bad day my 'dearest husband'? My voice laced with sarcasm as I roll my eyes. I turn back to my book before he can even speak.
"I wanted to see if there was anything that you needed. However, if your going to have that attitude with me I guess I won't tell you the good news."
"What could possibly be 'good news'?"I watched as he strolled over to the couch and sat rather close to me as I still wasn't comfortable with our current situation. He took my hand in his and intertwined our fingers. He noticed the look of shock on my face and smirked.
"Dr. Pedrad called into my office today and she said that you are ready for the first phase of treatments to start. We have an appointment at 9am tomorrow."
I knew this moment was coming but this is even sooner then I expected. "Well, that is news." I couldn't come to actually say good news yet because every part of this is being forced upon me. One of my fears is being out of control, and every bit of this terrifies me.
"Tris, you need to start realizing that this is happening and we BOTH need to start settling into our roll and embrace the fact that we are creating a child."
The cogs in my head are turning as he said 'we are creating a child' emyeah right/em. Doctors are the one impregnating me. I must have taken longer then he expected to reply before I knew it he pulled me onto his lap. This act alone started to freak me out. I knew I had to start 'playing along' so I leaned my head on his shoulder as I looked up to his face.
"I know you don't like this, but for what it's worth I wouldn't want to do this with anyone else but you." I could tell he was being sincere as his eyes were calm. I half smiled in response before he kissed my temple. That act alone sent a shiver down my spine.
"Eric, did you have any involvement with the selection process?" I know this was a rather blunt question but I needed answers. His expression changed and I couldn't quite place what it was.
"To answer your question in all honesty, no I did not. I was tested like any other male here, my genes just happen to be what the Erudites were looking for." His voice was soft so I didn't press the matter.
"Doesn't it bother you that they are wanting to experiment on emour/em child after its born?" I cringed when I said our because the idea was so foreign to me to think that we will create a life.
"It's only a few tests."
This starts to make my blood boil. I clenched my fists until my buckles turn white outraged that he could care less. I'm not even a mother yet and I already don't want my child poked and prodded. I'm also scared that Erudite will test for Divergence.
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The next morning we both get ready for my doctors appointment. Since I'm in bed rest Eric thought he'd be charming and he picked me up bridal style and carried me out of the apartment. As we crossed the pit it fell silent. I could tell all eyes were on me. I wasn't really wanting the attention so I turned and buried my face into his chest. I heard a light chuckle as a response to my actions.
"You think this is funny?" I barely whisper so he is the only one to hear me.
"You need to get over yourself. Your Dauntless now, start acting like it. Be proud."
"Well I am Dauntless! I belong here, this is home." As I said those last few words realization struck me. I am at home with all the chaos that is around me. I look up to Eric, giving him a quizzical expression not sure how to ask my next question. He notices that my expression has changed by raising his pierced eye brow.
"Just say it already Stiff!" Clearly annoyed as he repositioned his hands around my torso to get a better grip as we walked on to the infirmary.
I just sighed and remained silent. This wasn't a topic that I particularly wanted to talk about in the open because one would never now who would be actually listening in on. So I just shook my head and inhaled his scent to try to calm my nerves. It was strange even for me to admit that woods smell relaxed me. It brought back memories of the training room, how I was in control of my body while building up my muscles.
Lucky enough we made it and Eric signed us in at the nurses station. We didn't have to wait more then a few moments before we were ushered into a small white room with a medical table in the center. Eric actually placed me gently down as he stood next to me.
The nurse came in and gave me a hospital gown to put on. Then she took my vitals and wrote them in my file, then scurried out the door.
We heard a knock on the door, before we could respond Dr. Pedrad came in.
"Hello Tris, Eric. I'm glad you were able to come in on such short notice. I first want to let you know that this appointment will take longer then the others. We are going to be impregnating you Tris. I need you to lay down for me and put your legs in the stirrups."
I looked over to Eric who just gave me a nod as I complied with her request. Fear of what I was going to experience next bubbled inside of me. Involuntary I grabbed Eric's hand and squeezed it. I shut my eyes and Dr. Pedrad started the procedure. Paid shot threw my lower extremities as she opened my cervix to place the fertilized embryo inside my uterus. Once the procedure was done she spoke again.
"Well Tris I do have some good news that I hope you will like hearing."
"What is that doctor?" I half mumble trying to think straight.
"I am taking you off bed rest. You are free to do daily activities just keep an eye out if you notice blood, that is extremely urgent to come see us."
I was a mixture of joy of being off bed rest but I also had an uneasy feeling settle in as well. Eric spoke up for me, "Thank you Dr. Pedrad, we will see you in four weeks for our follow up appointment." She also gave me three home pregnancy tests And just like that she left.
I changed into back into my skinny jeans and tank top. I mean I have lived with Eric this long already, it's not like he doesn't know what my body looks like.
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Eric left me down in the pit. He told me he had to go to work, something about a leaders meeting. I tuned him out more or less, I was just excited to explore now that my 'house arrest' is over.
I wondered through the various shops until I felt a rumble in my stomach. I looked at my watch and noticed it was getting close to lunch time. I crossed the hallway, through the double doors leading into the cafeteria. I scanned the room unsure of where to sit.
I noticed the leaders table was empty so I figured they were still in this unknown meeting.
I spotted Uriah at a table in the far corner and instantly made my way over there. Unsure if they would even speak to me I let up my pace as I was a few feet from the table. All eyes set on me once more as I met Uriah, Marlene, Lynn, Christina and Will. Uriah genuinely smiled and nodded a yes to the space next to him and I found myself smiling.
Conversation quickly picked up as we ate and I was willed in on how initiation was going. Apparently finally rankings were being posted tonight as well as their job ceremony tomorrow.
I was glad that no one asked me about the experiment. I'm not sure I'm even ready to talk about it yet with them. It just felt right that I had friends who understood why I didn't bring up the topic either.
As lunch was coming to an end we all gathered our trash and threw it away. They slowly departed back to their dormitory while I was left unsure of what to do.
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I knew I had more questions then answers left in my mind. So I walked towards the pire to the leaderships office. I came up to Eric's door and knocked twice. I waited a few moments but I didn't hear any sort of response. Being curious I opened the door to discover an empty room with a wooden desk in the middle with various sizes filing cabinets around the room. I took a seat behind the desk and started to glance at the paperwork that was left out.
I heard the knob of the door turn and I placed the papers down in there original spots. I was met with stormy grey eyes. He half smiled at my presence in his office before he cleared his throat.
"Uh, what are you doing in here?" Clearly he was curious.
"Your Erudite is showing." I paused. "I want to have a civil conversation with you. You are my husband after all." I was trying to 'play' the roll here to lighten up the heavy atmosphere that surrounded us. If I wanted answers I knew I had to play my cards right.