Soda-
I woke to the silence of Darry's room. It had been four days since the accident, and it was officially the worst birthday in the history of birthday, It was second birthday i'd without Mama and Daddy, but this is the first I've had without a brother.
I laid awaken on my cot just thinking about what if Mama and Daddy didn't tell. I would have graduate high school and be possibly married to Sandy. Darry would be in collage playing football and maybe would have meet a pretty girl. Pony would be home safe and getting ready to graduate high school.
Maybe Mama would have adopted Johnny, Steve and Dallas as here own. Dally and Johnny wouldn't have died so young. Daddy would own his own roofing business and be happily in love with Mama. Pony wouldn't be in foster care, I wouldn't be alone and Darry wouldn't have gotten in an accident.
Unfortunately, i can't turn back time and change everything. There are no what ifs or only ifs. Because life happened, life is a powerful force.
I felt alone while my older brother slept and my younger brother slept in a bed that wasn't his. It hurt so bad that i couldn't fix any of this. I love help the people i love the most. But i can't fix Darry's legs and i can't turn back time for Pony. It hurt so bad that for once in my life i couldn't fix it.
I filled out mounds of paperwork delivered to me early this morning. I was eighteen and on a mission to reunite my brothers. I knew i could do one thing and that was bring my brothers home again.
I drove home in Darry's truck. I fought the tears as i pulled into the empty house. I had work to do. I needed to fix up the house. It could use a coat of paint, the yard needs mowing and the inside needs a little paint. I needed to built a ramp for Darry. Weather my brother wanted to admit it or not he would need a wheel chair.
I set out to work but mowing the yard. I was nearly finished when I heard Two-bit call out.
"What a hand Curtis?", Two-bit asks
"Sure", I call back
Pony-
I awoke hoping it was all dream and i would wake up with Darry yelling to get out of bed. I hoped i would wake in my brother's warm arms back home. Sadly it wasn't a dream and i woke in a strange place that wasn't home. This would never be my home. I was just a vistor, passing throw. I would back home soon.
I got up and locked my door. I quickly go dressed, i found a old shirt that was Soda's. I grabbed a hoodie that smelled like Darry it was calming. I miss them so much , i would give anything to be back home.
I combed my hair and greased it back. I quickly slipped on my shoes. I was dressed by seven thirty, and i unlocked my door. I made my bed before sitting in the window seat reading.
I heard the knock on my door which was a sign breakfast was ready. I grabbed my back bag before grabbing my breakfast. Alice handed me a packed lunch and off to school i went. We didn't live far from the school. I could walk there and back.
I followed the older boy and the three youngers. We arrived at school ,i went to class i ran into Two-bit on the way to my locker. We talked briefly before i went to class. I was frustrated because everyone knew about my brothers and i's situation even the teachers.
It was annoying, i wanted to scream and cry but i couldn't. I tried to stay strong but i couldn't. It was one comment that made me snap.
"Curtis, looks like some hero you brother turned out to be. What a same the star QB who won state championship is some crippled guy in a wheelchair. It's shame he never had a change to play collage ball, then again he didn't have what it took you need a spine for that", he says
I couldn't take it anymore, I just ran and ran. I ran all the way to the reeds' , i couldn't take. I unlocked the door and meet Alice in the kitchen.
"Pony, what are you doing here?", Alice asks
"I couldn't take it anymore", I say with a sob
"Please sit down and tell me", Alice says
"I explained to her what happened at school. She called the school and I wasn't in any kind of trouble thanks to Alice. Alice was really nice and all but i wish i had Soda right now. I needed my brother right now and i couldn't even call him.
Alice let me go to my room to be by myself, i climbed in bed with my Peter Pan book. I found it ironic that Darry gave me a new copy of Peter Pan, he grew up so quickly. He was barley nineteen when Mama and Daddy died. He was just a kid and had to grow up too fast. He looks older than twenty on somedays but on others he looks younger.
I was glad i got out of there. How is it everyone knows things that isn't even about them? That boy had no right to talk about Darry like that. He was talking about my older brother who i may not see again. It hurt badly but i could't let it bother me. Right, now i had to be strong.
Darry-
Soda had left to keep himself business so he won't worry all the time. Pony was godknows where and in the hands of strangers. I was frustrated by the fact i couldn't feel the pen when the doctor pokes me. I was able to wiggle my toe but i still don't have feeling below the waist.
I was put into the wheelchair and taken to physical therapist, Andy just stretched my legs out while i sat propped up at an angle trying move with Andy's help. Nothing at all, no feeling = zero movement.
I didn't want to be crippled , i had seen the way people looked at a man in a wheelchair. They looked at him as weak and helpless. I was either, i was strong and independent. I was unsure if i would ever walk again and it hurt.
Right, now everything is a waiting game. Just a bunch of what ifs or if you get lucky. I hated every waking moment of being in the hospital, i was on a lot of pain meds and i couldn't think straight. My margins were worse and even crippling the upper part of my body.
I hate this and i wished Pony was at home safely. I worry about him a lot because he's younger. Soda can take care of himself for the most part. But Pony needs his older brothers to support and love him. Soda and Pony are very different.