AN: Hello Pretty Little Readers! Hope everyone had a great week! I sure did!

I'm sad to announce that nobody guessed right...Everyone put their money on Aria, Hanna, Melissa and even Delfina, who haven't been in the picture in years lol but it wasn't any of them.

Thanks for participating anyways.

I'm not very happy with this chapter, I feel that is poorly written and some parts didn't come out the way I want but I hope you don't hate it.

Chapter 8: He Loves Me...She Loves Me Not.

"What do you think about this one?" Hanna asked to no one in particular, looking at a wedding dress picture from one of the many bridal magazines she had bought for Spencer.

"It's pretty, but I like this one better." Replied Aria, pointing at another dress from the magazine she had in her hands. "It's more Spencer." She added with excitement in her voice. "What do you think, Spence?"

The petite girl got no answer.

"Spencer?" Emily called, noticing her brunette friend had completely zoned out. "Earth to Spencer!" She waved a hand in front of her face, finally getting her friend's attention.

The mocha-eyed brunette blinked several times rapidly as if she was suddenly aware of the other girls' presence. "Mmm… Yeah that's fine." She responded, not knowing what her friends were talking about. The last thing she remembered hearing them say was something about the engagement party for which she hadn't set a date yet. Spencer was pretty sure that that conversation ended several minutes ago but it's not like she cared. Her mind was somewhere else, somewhere only she knew.

The four best friends were spending the weekend together at Aria's and Jason's new house in Rosewood. Hanna, Emily and Aria were very happy for their friend and truly excited about the engagement, but they knew that once Spencer and Wren got married things would start to change. "It's the end of an Era." Aria had said when she got the idea of one last sleepover before all the wedding planning become overwhelming and they had no time to do it. So there were they, in the little town that saw them grow up, like in the good old days.

"I want my wedding to be at the beach, with the sound of the crashing waves in the background. I already have everything planned; it's going to be perfect." Hanna said to Aria with such a spark in her eyes that made her look more beautiful that she already was.

"All you need is the groom." Aria laughed causing Hanna to hit her in the arm.

The two girls were so focused in their own little chat that didn't notice Spencer's strange behavior. The tall brunette wasn't acting like herself, she wasn't being overly obsessed with planning what it was suppose to be the best day of her life, and she wasn't excited at the least. On the contrary, the girl was completely distracted, she looked sad; like she was trapped in a prison and had no way out. Gladly, Emily did notice her friend's state. Of all the girls she was the most perceptive, she always seemed to know when something was wrong, and that's what made her so special.

"Penny for your thoughts?" The athlete asked, sitting next to Spencer on the window seat from Aria's bedroom. "You are not acting like the bridezilla we all thought you would be." Emily touched Spencer's knee smiling a little.

The brunette half smiled, she was hoping nobody would notice but she knew Emily would be the first to ask. Still, she wasn't ready to talk about it yet. "Nothing. I guess I'm just not that kind of bride." She lied.

"Are you sure? Because you look sad, Spence." Of course Emily wasn't going to believe her.

"Yes. I'm actually very happy." She said posing her best fake smile. She had been faking smiles so much lately that probably they looked real by now, but Emily knew better, it was impossible to fool her like that.

"Really?" She asked again trying to give Spencer one last chance to open up with her, but she didn't get an answer. "Look at them." Emily pointed at Aria and Hanna who were on the bed looking at bunch of magazines and laughing. "You are the one who is getting married to the love of your life but everyone in this rooms looks happier than you."

"If you call Aria and Hanna everyone…" Spencer mumbled not sure of what to answer. Luckily for her, Hanna and Aria interrupted the conversation.

"We are starving." Hanna declared. "We are going to get some take out. Is there anything special you want girls?"

"Whatever you choose is fine." Emily responded, hoping that Spencer would talk having Hanna and Aria out of the room. Once the two girls left, she spoke again. "So, you are going to tell me what's going on?"

"Nothing is going on, Emily." The brunette grumbled.

Emily realized that she was starting to annoy Spencer, so she stood up and laid on the floor on her stomach. She took her phone from her back pocket and started to play Angry Birds with the loudest volume her iPhone could handle. The dark-haired girl thought that maybe, if she was annoying enough, Spencer would surrender.

Twenty three minutes passed and the two girls remained silent, only the background noise of the game could be heard and it was starting to annoy Emily.

"It was a mistake." Spencer whispered, but Emily did hear it.

She wasn't sure if Spencer was talking to her or just to herself but with no hesitation turned off her game and took a sit next to her friend. "What was a mistake? The slumber party?"

"No. Saying yes, that was the mistake." Spencer sighted, looking at her engagement ring. Somehow it wasn't as beautiful as it was the first time she saw it. "And I don't want to make the mistake of saying 'I do' "

Emily wasn't expecting that kind of answer, she thought it would be something minor like a fight with her parents or even with Wren but what Spencer had just confessed was huge. "Why did you say yes then?" the tanned girl questioned, trying to understand.

"I couldn't say no, there were too many people watching and he looked so happy when he proposed, there was so much hope in Wren's eyes, like if being with me forever was his ultimate goal." Tears escaped her eyes as she spoke. It's sad but she was getting used to crying, it was pretty much all she had doing for weeks. "I didn't want to hurt him." She sobbed and Emily instinctively wrapped her arms around Spencer.

"Are you not in love with Wren anymore?" Emily asked, still not understanding. She always thought Spencer and Wren were happy together, for her their relationship was what everyone would aspire to have.

"I do love him, very much. It's just…" Spencer sobbed uncontrolled in Emily's arms for a few minutes before speaking again "I cheated on him." She whispered.

"What?" Emily jumped in shock. "With who?"

Spencer sighted. She had promised to keep her encounter with Toby a secret; in fact, she had made Toby promise it. But she needed to get it out, everything was getting too big for her to handle it on her own, she needed a friend.

"Did you know Toby is in love with me?" She asked Emily ignoring her question but giving the answer away with her own question.

"I've known for years."

She was ready for her first class of the day. She had her laptop, her books, her essay; everything she needed for her last day of college before finals was in her bag. She had promised herself not to cry that day, she had done too much of that and she wasn't going to let herself ruin the day she had waited for so long.

Spencer opened up the apartment door to leave and enjoy her last day as a UPenn student, and that's when she saw him sitting on the floor next to her door.

"Toby?" She asked confused, "why are you here? what's wrong?"

The handsome man with blue eyes stood up when he heard her voice. He looked like he hadn't slept in days; his eyes were swollen like he had been crying. "Don't get married." His usual soft voice sounded sharp when he let those words out of his mouth.

"Excuse me?" The mocha-eyed girl asked, that was the last thing she expected to hear.

"You heard me." Toby walked closer to her, almost cornering her between the door and the wall.

"Why are you doing this to me?" Spencer demanded. "What happened with you wanting me to be happy?"

"I'm doing this because I can see you are not happy, but you could be." He explained getting closer to her.

"Happy with you?" she let a small laugh out, as if what he was saying was ridiculous.

"Yes, with me." He caressed her cheek and was surprised that she let him. "I love you, Spencer. I've always have." He whispered so low that if it wasn't for the proximity of their bodies she wouldn't have heard it.

Spencer's heart paralyzed for a second. Did he actually say that? She wasn't sure of what she was supposed to say, she had lost her ability to think, she couldn't even look at him "We spent one night together, Toby. It meant nothing" The words came out as if her mouth had a mind of its own. She never meant to say those words because that night meant everything.

"Say that again but this time look at me in the eyes when you say it." Toby lifted up her chin with his finger forcing her to meet his gaze. Her dark eyes were watery like she was trying to hold back tears.

A few seconds passed and all Toby could hear was her silence. She didn't even try to say it meant nothing. Toby smiled, getting dangerously close to her, the tip of their noses were touching slightly. "You are not even trying to say it." He whispered cupping her face with both of his hands.

Her heart rate was accelerated; she felt goosebumps all over her skin, her stomach was filled with thousand of flying butterflies. "Tob-"she tried to say something but her words were cut off by the collision of his lips on hers.

He kissed her slowly at first, knowing that he was risking himself to be pushed away but it didn't happen. Before he knew it her arms were wrapped around his neck and she was pulling him closer to her eliminating once and for all the little amount of space left between them. It was an intense kiss, filled with fire and passion. This kiss wasn't like any of the others they had shared before, it was a desperate kiss, something they both were longing and needed hungrily. It carried so many emotions.

"See? You have this feelings too." Toby breathed heavily, trying to regain composure.

"I'm sorry. I can't do this." Was all Spencer could respond walking away from him.

"You mean to tell me you are in love with my sister?" Jason questioned Toby surprised after hearing the whole story.

"Yep." Toby took a long sip of his beer. "But it doesn't matter, she doesn't love me. "

"Of course she does" Caleb and Jason exclaimed in unison.

After being kicked out of his own house because of the girls' slumber party, Jason went to a bar in Philly to meet up with Caleb and Toby. After a few beers, Toby found himself talking about his feelings for Spencer and telling his friends the story. He knew it wasn't right to tell the guys, he had promised Spencer he was going to pretend the night they made love never happened but he was in need of advice.

"If she does love me, then why is she going to marry Wren?"

Jason hit Toby in the head as his own personal way to tell him to stop being stupid. "You know Spencer better than anyone. You know she is stubborn, she is not the kind of girl who accept her feelings that easily and change her entire life just like that. You need to give her time to realize what she feels on her own." He ordered another round of beers for the table to a pretty blonde waitress and continued. "I shouldn't be advising you because Wren is my best friend but Spencer is my sister and I can tell she isn't happy. Last week we had dinner with her parents and there was so much sadness in her eyes, my heart broke just at looking at her."

"I can't still fucking believe you slept with her." Caleb, who was a little tipsy began saying. "I bet she looks hotter naked."

"Dude!" Jason punched Caleb in the arm hard. "That's my sister; we are not going to talk about her being naked."

Toby laughed hysterically, he never in a million years imagined he would be having that kind of conversation about Spencer. He never thought he would dare to tell her how he felt and being rejected by her.

"What do I now?" Toby questioned his friends, who, being honest were a bit useless.

"You keep fighting. If she kissed you back is because she does love you, she is just scared." Declared Jason giving Toby something he had lost. Hope.

"Wow." Emily was stunned, she wasn't expecting Spencer to be dealing with all that. She could tell her friend was confused, torn between two lovers and trapped in a spider web that she had created for herself. "I don't know what to say." And it was true, the story Spencer had told her had taken away all her words.

"But that's not it, Em." The brunette let a waterfall of tears drench her face. "There's something else."

What's the something else?

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