A/N : Hey guys !
This chapter is a little shorter than usual because this week I have not had much time to writeI wanted published today.
Here it's chapter four, I hope you like it.
Chapter four.
Elena's POV.
I wake up by the sound of my daughter jumping on the bed. I stir and smile when she kiss me on my nose. She places her head in the crook on my neck and I kiss her hair. "Mama I miss you yesterday night and when I wake up you weren't in your room" she tells me with anxiety in her voice.
"I know I'm sorry sweetie, I was busy but I'm here now and I don't go anywhere" I tickled her and she laughs and laughs and I see me with my mom when I was a little girl. "Mama stop, please"
"Maybe I don't want to" I whisper in her ear and I start over again and she giggles even more.
"Mama !" she yells with tears in her eyes.
"Ok I stop" I say to her and I get out of bed. "Auntie Care is here, baby girl ?"
"Yeah, yeah. She prepares pancakes for you because I already eat breakfast. Uncle Nik did his special breakfast just for me and Em because Auntie Care was still sleeping" she told me.
"What is his special breakfast, sweetie ?" I asks her and place a wick of hair behind her ear.
"Uhu I can't tell you, it's a secret between us and we promised we won't tell anyone" she says and I can tell that she is proud of her because she smiles with all the confidence she has in herself to keep a huge secret like this.
"Ok but I'm your mother so maybe you can tell me" I tell her playfully.
"Mama, I can't. A secret is a secret." I smile and caress her cheek before she disappears in Emily's room. I change in Caroline's dress which is on the desk. She had to put it this morning before Ella came to see me.
I come down stairs and smell pancakes. I remember that last night, I didn't eat because Stefan and I talked all night and fall asleep in his arms ! I'm an idiot falling asleep in the arms of my ex boyfriend and the love of my life too. Yeah I'm really an idiot !
"Hey Lena !" Care tells me and smiles widely at me.
"Hey, thank you for keeping Ella yesterday" I smile and kiss her cheek.
"I hope you it went well with Stefan" she says and gives me pancakes with maple sirup.
I tell her everything about last night the moment he arrived until the moment I fall asleep in his arms just like years ago. I tell her about he was pissed off of me when I told him about Ella. The moment Katherine called him and he defends me against her.
"Wow Lena !" Caroline says to me when we wash the breakfast dishes. "He left you a letter" she smiles and she tends it to me.
"I don't want to it, Care" I say grumpy.
"Of course you want it. It scares you but you need to read it and-"
"But he hates me because I take away from him our daughter" I say with tears in my eyes.
"No, he doesn't I know him and you know him better than me but he will never hates you. He needs to understand that you did that to protect him." she tells me and wipes my tears away.
"Read it" she orders me because I know she is right I have to read it to see what I want to tell me.
"Mama, Mama ! Someone is on your phone.. He wants to talk to you" Ella runs towards me and hands me the phone then runs in Emily's room.
"Hello ?" I ask anxious.
"Hello, Elena." My heart stops when I hear his voice. Care look at me with worried eyes when she sees that I became pale.
"Stefan.." I whisper with a lump in my throat.
"I call you last night" He begins and I hear that he takes a deep breathe before continuing, he always does that when he is nervous. "Because Katherine tells me everything and we have to talk about it"
"Stefan, I can't now but maybe we can see each other next week ?" I ask because I can't see him today or tomorrow I have to prepare myself. I think he wants to see our daughter and I don't know how he will react when he will see her for the first time.
"Yeah of course I understand. Our daughter has a beautiful voice just like her mother" he told me and I fell that he has a smile on his face and I smile with tears in my eyes.
"Thank you. I will read your letter in a few minutes" I say.
"Ok. And may not be angry against Bonnie because she is the one who give me your number.."
"Of course not, it only could be her anyways. Thank you for everything, Bye"
"Bye, I love- .. kiss Ella for me." he says and hang up.
He almost told me that I love me, maybe I have dreamed because I want that maybe he loves me again after everything that happened between us. He can't love me, I destroy our life together, I push him away when I needed him the most and it's all my fault. I wanted to protect him from my mistake because I forgot my control pill.
"Elena, you Ok ?" Care asks me when she sees that I'm lost in my thoughts.
"Yeah, sorry" I say and I finish my coffee which is cold now.
"It's a beautiful day, maybe we can go to the beach ? No don't say that we have to go to work. I call Liv and she totally understands that you have the right to have day off. She comes to diner tonight." she explains happily.
"Ok, thank you Care. I prepare the girls and you make a picnic ?" I suggest.
"Yep. Go, they are going to be excited" she says smiling and slides sweet words in my ear "You made an important step by letting yourself open up to him, I'm proud of you and I love you" She told me and I gave her a hug and told her that I love her too.
"Girls, we go to the beach, pick up your swimsuit" I say and smiling when they run toward me and kiss my cheeks.
"But Mama, I don't have any here" Ella told me, "I know but maybe Em can lend you one, what do you think, Em ?" I ask and turn around to look at her.
"Yeah, I can Auntie Lena" she tells me and I look for another one in her wardrobe.
I leave them alone and prepare our stuff to Caroline and I and fall on Stefan's letter. My hands are trembling when I open it.
Elena,
I know it's late and maybe you don't want to read it. I remember when you receive letters from publisher, you don't want to open them because you were afraid that they said that your book is not worth enough to be published.
I wanted to tell you so much in this letter but I can't find words who describes how much I'm hurt that you didn't tell me about Ella but I understand what you did this, or at least I try to understand your decision.
I hope I will see you soon with our beautiful daughter.
Stefan.
I cry because he is right, of course he is right. He can't understand why I did that even if Katherine told him why I left. I have to explain to him but I'm scared, so scared that he will never forgive me to taking his little girl away from him.
Stefan's POV.
I almost told her that I love her ! What is going on in my head ?! I can't love her, not anymore. I'm so lost in my thoughts that I don't hear my door office. I look up and see Katherine. She wears a black tight dress with high heels.
"What are you doing here ?" I snap at her.
"I'm here to talk to you obviously" she responds coldly and approaches my desk.
"I don't have time for you, today Katherine." I say and I head to the door. "Now, leave please".
"I don't leave, Stefan we need to talk about what happened yesterday night.."
"Yes, you leave. I don't want to talk to you. This is unforgivable." I tell her.
"We have to, Stefan. You can't deny the attraction between us, babe" Katherine approaches me slowly and touch my arms. She begins to unbutton my shirt and I block her arms before she continues.
"Don't touch me again like that. There is nothing between us anymore, you are disgusting. How can you thinking about sex when you lied to me openly during three years ?!" I ask her and see that her expression changes between to lust from anger.
"Normally, we have sex three time a day and now nothing ! I miss you and I know you miss me"
"I can't look at you and don't think about Elena. I have no pleasure to see you or talk to you, Katherine why you don't understand ?!"
"Because I love you ! And I don't want her near you, she is toxic !" she yells at me.
"You're crazy ! She would never hurt me and now we would have a child together !" I yell because she doesn't know that she keeps Ella.
"I know you want a child with me and not her, this is why I did that." she explains proudly and smiles mischievously.
"I wanted child with you one day but after what you did to her, I can't have them with you because I already have one."
"What ?! What are you talking about ?" she ask and turns pale.
"She never has miscarried ! You haven't win Katherine." I say smiling because I'm so proud of my little girl. I remember her little voice when she answered my phone this morning.
"Why are you lying ? I have proof she aborted ! I did followed her when she left for LA during three weeks. Her belly has never grows, I was sure that she lost it.."
"You're wrong, we have a beautiful little daughter together" I smile when I say the word daughter. "She looks so much like her mother"
"Stop ! Stop ! I broke her by separating her from you !" she yells with furry in her voice.
"You don't broke her far from it actually !" I yell "Now leave, I lost too much time with you today. I don't go home before a week and when I when I get home from my business trip you will be left !"
"You can't leave me, Stefan ! I can't live without you, you are my life !" she cries but it makes me nothing that she cries.
"My little girl is my life now ! You can not say or do anything that will change that. You go alone or Taylor will force you out." I say calmly.
"I leave but you have to believe me when I told you that I love you." she says and leave the room without another word.
I take a deep breath and run my hand through my hair. My phone rings, it's Damon.
"Hey baby bro ! How are you today ?" he asks cheerfully.
"I'm fine, Damon. You do not have to call me every five minutes I'm not a child." I say angrily.
"You will always be a child for me, baby Bro. I'm worried about you because of what happened last night. You never cried since mom died and.." he begins
"Damon stops. I don't want to talk about mom, I leave in a few hours for France, I have a lot thing to do. We'll talk when I get home. Kiss Bonnie for me, bye." I hang up before he can reply.
Caroline's POV.
We return to the beach exhausted. Ella and Emily are asleep in the car and I drive slowly when a car crashes into us, I lost control of the car and everything become black.
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Bisous Angélique :)