A/N : Hey guys !
This chapter is rating M, for some reasons. If you are not comfortable, don't read it.
Chapter eighteen.
Stefan's POV.
I have to tell her why I asked her to marry me because she has to know so she can move on from this. I take her hand and sit next to her on our bed.
"You're sure ?" I ask again because I don't her to regret that.
"I have to, Stefan." she whispers and looks at me.
"When this afternoon after I leave my office, I was looking for you. It's been what three or four hours since I saw in our bed. I exhausted you this morning by making love to you plenty time. I was sure that you will be sleeping because you were tired all the time. Now, I know that it's because we were pregnant with our beautiful little girl. So, I came in your room and you weren't there, I look for you everywhere in our apartment because you weren't there. I called everyone who could have know where you were because anybody know and certainly not Caroline and Klaus.
"I even call Katherine and my mom. Katherine lied to me when she told me that she didn't know, this bitch. I spent months alone in your study with all your books and my piano, playing our song. My nightmares return worse than even before because you were always in them dying. Then, Damon forced me to go to work because I had to sign paper from my company. Damon was there for me and I will always thanks him for that because he saved me, he brings me back to life during the day anyway. The night, I was alone again thinking of every second of every minute because you get under my skin since the first time I laid my eyes on you in Paris.
"Katherine was there, too. At first, she just talked to me about her job in design, asking me how my business was doing and more time passed more I needed her. She looked a little like you and she remembered you at me. I needed her to help me forget you even if deep down I didn't want to forget you. We begins to 'dating' but nothing sexually because I couldn't even after one year. You were always in the back of my mind and I was worried about you if you were fine, if you eat enough, if something bad happened to you. But, she was here, always trying to comfort me and one day I succumbed to her charm. Because I missed you so much, that the pain never leave my heart it feels like my heart was broken even when she was with me. I remember the day when we had sex for the first time after being with you." I watch Elena crying her eyes out because of what I told her and I wrap my arms around her to comfort her even if I know that it's me who hurt her by being with Katherine again.
"You want me to stop ?" I ask worried because stress is not good for the babies. She shakes her head and kisses me on the lips.
"No. I just want you to know that I love you despite everything that has happened." She says through her tears.
"I love you too, baby so much." I murmur and kiss her one last time.
"I remember this day like it was yesterday because it was December 1st 2012. I didn't know, at that time that you were giving birth to Ella but I drank all day. When she find me, I was in your office like always when I came home. She came to me, drunk as well and we head up together in my bed, drinking and one thing leads to another we slept together. I thought it was you during this time. Don't look at me like that, it's true. I don't remember anything about that night.
"I don't remember how she moves in with me. But I know that I was always with me your engagement ring. She made allusions about wedding during months almost one year and it was like I was forced to propose to her. My parents write me a letter about she will be a good mother for my children. Damon told that it was a bad idea even Nik told me that but I wanted to be with her like I was with you, you know. I wanted to feel something for her and thought it was a good idea even if deep down I knew that my heart was with you because he is yours.
"She wanted to marry me as soon as possible but I wasn't ready because all I saw in front of my eyes it was you, laughing. It's the most beautiful sound in the world and of course Ella's. At first, I stayed as late as possible in the office and didn't want to feel her against me when all I wanted was to feel you, baby. She always talks about wedding stuff with anyone who wanted to listen to her. At the end, I stopped talking to her except when I was forced. But you have to know that I love you. Even before I come to LA, I knew that it was the end of our 'relationship."
I watch her, gauging her reaction but I can't read her emotions. "Baby ?"
"Humm, yeah. I'm here." she says and caresses my chin.
"What are you thinking ?" I ask and kiss her temple.
"That I want to kill her because we've been through so much because of her." she says and wraps her arms around my neck. I feel her breath on my neck and I pull the blankets over us because I know that she will falling asleep like this.
Elena's POV.
I remember the first time I sleep like this against him, the love of my life.
February 25, 2009.
Tonight, it's the day I lose my virginity with Stefan. I'm nervous like hell, biting my lip every five seconds. He walks towards me and kisses me. He has a way of kissing me that make it impossible to form a coherent thought. No one should be able to do this.
He slid my purse from my shoulder and tossed it onto the couch with his jacket. Once, we get to the stairs he picked me up and carry me upstairs. When we get to his room he set me down, pushing open the door before pulling me back to him again.
My stomach was going insane and my heart felt like it was trying to literally beat out of my chest. How he doesn't hear it ?
I look around his room, it is nice and huge. The bed alone had to have been a king, the headboard matching the dressers on the opposite side of the room. There are two others doors, one for the closet and one for the bathroom.
"Are you comfortable ?" he asks and trail a finger over my cheek before kissing me again.
"Yes."
"Don't be nervous, baby." he says and before moving his hands to the back of my dress, sliding the zipper down, moving his hands so the fabric pooled at my feet.
I kick off my shoes, looking down at them to avoid looking at him. Standing in front of him in just a bra and panties.I feel vulnerable and he looks at me like I'm his prey.
"Humm, the red looks very good on you." he groans and kisses effortlessly sliding his tongue into my mouth to stroke mine. I move my arms around his neck, pulling him closer, before he unclasps my bra.
He moved his hands to my waist, pushing me back slightly so his eyes could travel over my body. "You're skin is so beautiful when you blush." he says placing, kisses over my breast. My breath caught in my throat when he says things like this.
"Lay back on the bed, baby." he says and kiss my nose softly.
I watch him as he kicks off his shoes and socks, and then take off his shirt. It isn't fair for him to look so good. He slid out of his pants, leaving him in only boxer briefs and holy shit he has a big bulge.
He sits onto the bed, settling himself next to me and tilting my face to kiss me. "Are you wet, baby ?"
I gasp when his finger traces the outside of my panties. "Y.. Yes."
"I think, I have to taste you again." he says and I feel his hands pulling them down my legs.
Still the memory of Elena's first time by Stefan's POV.
My dick twitch at the sight of her, naked and slightly breathless in front of me. I can't remember a time when a woman had gotten this sort of reaction out of me.
I place soft kiss along the inside of her thighs. She is moving slightly and moves her hands on my head and pulls my hair. I can feel her eyes on me as I move my hands to her ass, pulling her closer to my face, before slowly moving my tongue to her pussy.
She moans, bucking her hips up, as I continue my slow assault, still avoiding her clit. "Stefan." she groans and her hands fist in the sheets.
I smile, finally flicking my tongue across her clit and earning an even louder moan from her. I don't stop and gently sucking and biting her clit. I chuckle, moving my hands to her hips from moving, which only make her moan louder and fuck she tastes so good.
"Stefan, please." she gasps, tugging my hair in an attempt to get me to stop but there is no way that is happening. I feel her legs start to shake and I know she is close, so I slid one finger into her incredibly tight pussy. She clenches around me immediately, her back arches as she come.
After her spasms had stopped I kiss my way up her stomach to her lips. "You are not on birth control ?"
She blushes and says "I am actually, since I am seventeen."
"Oh thank fuck for that." I groan capturing her lips in another kiss. Obviously, I would've use a condom but by some miracle she already is on birth control.
I hear her breath hitch as I settle between her legs, my dick brushing the inside of her thigh, just inches away from where I want to be.
"Are you sure ?" I ask forcing myself to focus on her because I don't want her to regret this. I know that I will never regret this because she will be mine completely after that and I can't stay away from her.
"Yes." she says and her eyes meet mine, "I'm sure."
I nod and then slowly push inside her. She feels fucking amazing and I restrain myself for pushing all the way inside her. Her eyes are close and she holds her breath.
"You okay ?" I ask and don't move, let her adjusting my size. She nods and I see tears in her eyes.
"Go, Stefan." she whispers and I push inside her ripping her virginity. She bites her lips and I ease the rest of the way inside her.
I pull out slowly, moving back in at the same pace, before stopping a moment and then repeating the process a few times. Before I know it, she is moaning softly, and I take that as my cue to continue, not stopping this time but still maintaining the same steady pace.
Her hips begin meeting my thrusts and I pick up my pace, enjoying the louder moans escaping her hips. She wraps her legs around my waist and her hands are grip the sheets so hard that her knuckles are turning white and her eyes are close. I nudge her nose with mine and she opens her eyes with lust and love in it like mine.
I kiss her and capture her hand in mine placing them over her head before leaning down to whisper in her ear, "I love you, baby."
Her breath hitch and she looks at me, "I love you, too." she says and squeezes my hands in her and before she starts clenching around my dick. I move my angle and hit just the right spot and seconds later she is coming screaming my name. She is so tight that I don't last long after her.
We are both breathless as I roll off her and I look at her. "You okay ?"
"Yes, Stefan. Thank you." she murmurs and I see tears rolling down her cheeks.
"Why are you crying, baby ?" I ask and wipe her tears away.
"Because I never thought that a man could love me like you do and I could trust someone so much after a little time together. You did so much for me already even when we weren't together."
"Baby, you are it for me, I love you so much, I know I only told you today but I'm in with you. It's scare me to death but I want to take the risk for you, for us in the future. I want you to live here with me. I know that you live with Care but you spend all your night here in this last three months and I can't sleep without your hot body next to me."
"You are in love with me ?" she asks and I nod. "That's all you have retained ?" I chuckle and kiss her neck softly.
"How can you be in love with me, Stefan ?" she asks worried.
"Because I love you, I want to spend every minute with you, you're in my thought every second of every day, and if one day you don't want me I will leave you because I just want you to be happy." I know deep down that if one day it happens I will be destroyed but she have to be happy.
"I'm in love with you too, baby." she says and I get up to go to the bathroom cleaning me up and bring back a warm towel to clean her. When she sees me approaching her, she blushes slightly.
"I can do that, Stefan." she says without looking at me. I lift her chin and look at her, "I want to take care of you." I say and clean her.
After that, I lie down next to her and she faces me, she kisses my neck, my jawline, my collarbone. I roll on top of me and we are lost in each other again, I can't get enough of her.
After round three or four she falls asleep next to me with my arms wrapping her around her tightly.
"Stefan ?" Elena asks and I jump when I feel her hand on my arms.
"Sorry, baby. Why you are not in bed ?" I ask and turn around from the window in her room.
"Because when I wake up you weren't there and I miss your hot body against mine." she says and wraps her arms around my neck. I feel the kicks of our children on my stomach and rub her belly.
"I was in my thought and I couldn't sleep." I respond and kiss her lips.
"You thought about what babe ?" she asks and puts her head on my shoulder watching the starry sky.
"Us, our first time together. In our apartment after I take you out, at first I wanted to take you to my boat but Damon was there." I smile and kiss her forehead slowly.
"Really ? You wanted to take me on your boat ?" she asks incredulous. "Of course, I want to share everything with you."
"I love you but can we go to bed, please ?" she asks and I take her hand in mine.
"Sleep baby, it's already four in the morning." I say and kiss her neck before falling asleep against the love of my life.
A/N : Any mistakes are all mine.
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