Asami,
It wasn't supposed to be like this; not supposed to be this hard. The people I go to school with keep saying I should give up, that our relationship won't work because we're so far apart. They say a long distance relationship can't possibly work. And the saddest part is that I believed them for awhile. I was listening to these people that had no clue about you and I. And what even sadder is the fact that I've never felt this way for anyone and I was letting them decided my relationship. But then you surprised me! You appeared on my doorstep one night, like a magic wish. I had been thinking about you all day long, not even a minuet earlier I had been thining about the taste of your lips and then bam! There you were in arms reach.
You were standing there smiling with your bag in hand. I think you must have kissed me because I was frozen at the sight of you. After that its all a blur because all I remember was getting you into my room. I don't think I even said hello! Did I offer you anything to eat or drink? Besides me that is? ;) Its crazy because all I can bring up about that moment was the feeling of you on my skin, the taste of your mouth on mine, your hands trailing fire across my body. It crazy to think that I was thinking that it was to complicated to make things work, because once you were there it was like no time had passed. My body remembered your touch, it remembered where you liked to be next to it. How could I have ever considered this hard?
I talk to my mom the next morning while you were still sleeping; I figured you could use it after all the stuff we did the night before. I asked her if she thought I was being navie thinking you and I could make this long distance thing work. She told me she didn't raise and fool so to stop acting like one. That's all it took for me to wake up, she told me I would be a fool and she was right! That's when it hit me that I was asking all these people about something they could never understand. I was asking people whether or not our love was strong enough, but in the end the only people that can answer that question is you and mean. And babe you are worth everything to me! All the pain of separation is worth it if at the end of it all you're waiting in my bed.
That sounded a lot less corny in my head, but I don't regret writing it because I can see you right now reading the letter and laughing with tears collecting….Anyway. I know you've been worried, and I know I've been distant and far off. But that's because I didn't want you to know how pathetic I was being. I'll understand if your pissed, I would be too; but I'm not letting you go even if you are pissed. But know that I love you. I love ouy more than the moon and the stars. I love you more than my moms cooking, I love you so much that I'm pretty sure you are my heart.
Now look outside on the doorstep, I have a great surprise for you!
Love Korra
P.S. I hope you have clean sheets because after tonight you'll need them! :P
Korra,
I totally understand what you were feeling and thinking. I have had the same thoguhts, and I've wondered the same thing. I asked people too, I figured they would be an unbiased opinion; unlike I who is emotionally invested in you completely. I got all the same responses you did, people told me the exact same thing. They told me that it wasn't possible and that we were kidding ourselves. They went on and on about the statistics of long distance relationship and how well they work out. That's why I was on your doorstep that night, I needed to see you.
I wanted to touch you and kiss you and remind myself that you are everything to me.I wanted to talk to you and have you hold me. By the way no you didn't offer me anything to eat or drink, but you were all I wanted right then. When you opened that door and your face lit up there wasn't a doubt in my mind that you were worth the separation. You are worth the lonely nights at home and the awkward nights on the town. You are worth the late night dates over skype and the huge phone bill from talking to you all the time. You are worth more to me than any heart break or separation.
Your letter had me so nervous! When I first read it I thought you were leaving me. You could have opened it a little more tactfully. I thought you had decided that you and I weren't worth it, that you couldn't handle be so far apart. But then I finished it and sighed in relief, I thought I was going to have to kill you ;). Then you said to go to the door and I thought maybe you'd sent flowers or chocolates or some other cheesy gift ;). I'm afraid I didn't read the P.S. till I had the door open and you were staring at me.
You'd called only second before to ask about the letter and then there you were standing there for me. I hope I didn't hurt you when I threw myself at you, but to be fair you seemed quite happy as you ran your hands all over my body. I think we freaked the neighbors out a little bit, they've never seen me with anyone other than Mako. Plus I don't think there are to many lesbians on my block if you catch me drift. The neighbors don't look at me the same way anymore, but it is totally worth it after having you there.
I hadn't slept that good in weeks! Your body next to mine was exactly what the doctor ordered. I know you thought I would be mad, and maybe if I had time to dwell on the letter I might have been, but things happened so fast I didn't have time. One second I was reading your letter, and smelling the paper; yes I do that but its because it smells like you! And the next I was in your arms smelling you in person and feeling your warmth.
That, by the way, is the only place I want to be. I want to be in your arms and surrounded by your warmth for forever. I want to be with you all the time, I want to wake up in your arms and fall asleep against your body. I love you more than you will ever know.
Asami
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Oooooooooooooooo
That's for later ;)
P.S.
I will be in town for business in a few weeks so keep the bed warm for me! ;)