I am SOOOO sorry. This chapter is almost a week late. I had to go to a convention touhgh, and had to work on my cosplay. This chapter isn't as long as I had hoped it would be either, although it is longer than the others. Chapter 4 will probably be a bit late too, since I have to catch up on my summer homework. Again I'm sorry! And please, PLEASE review! I beg of you!
Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK. What have I done?
Despite his inner turmoil, Eren couldn't bring himself to turn away. The pair of lips he had pressed his own to were soft and warm, and Eren found himself gently nibbling on Levi's lower lip. He pulled away gently only to rotate his head and press his lips back to Levi's at a different angle. Levi was neither rejecting the kiss nor returning it, so Eren continued. He placed his hand on the back of Levi's head to draw him in closer while entangling his fingers into soft black hair.
Mmn...
Eren was kissing him more deeply now, completely shoving away his inner conscious that told him that this was wrong.
What the FUCK? What the hell does he think he's doing?
Hah...
Levi felt himself let out a small breath against Eren's warm lips. He was in such shock at the action that he just sat completely still, instead of pushing him away like some small part of him in the back of his head wanted him to.
He's good...Levi thought. Fuck fuck fuck fuck FUCK.
He wanted Eren to do more, he wanted Eren to push him down, and press his warmth against him. He wanted to feel Eren's tongue in his mouth. He wanted Eren to kiss his skin against his collar bone and guide his long fingers down his chest. He wanted MORE.
Ngh...
"No!" Levi shoved Eren away as his consciousness flooded over, bringing him back to reality.
He could never love again. He'd told himself a thousand times before that he could never again lust for another human being's warmth. He wouldn't allow it. The best thing he could do now was to act as if he was never fazed by it. He focused his ruthless gaze upon Eren's bright and yet seemingly disappointed face.
"Damn brat. Who gave you the right to do such a thing? The epitome of disrespect." Levi spat, clicking his tongue. "I should extend your punishment. Unfortunately, I am too disgusted by your loathsome face to want to stay anywhere near you, so just get out."
Eren was shocked to say the least. Not that he was expecting a different reaction from the young teacher, but he was shocked with himself for hoping for a different reaction.
Eren bit his lip as he felt his lower lip begin to tremble with disapointment. He wasn't sure why these words affected him so much, but they did. The glare coming from the older male intensified.
"NOW."
Eren felt obliged to make some sort of response, so he bobbed his head, and made to leave the room, slamming the sliding door shut behind him.
What WAS that?
Eren reached to grasp his chest in a meager attempt to hide his racing heart that felt like it would burst as any moment. He leaned against the closed door, and slid down until he was sitting on the floor. Eren was confused. By his own actions, and by Levi's. He didn't understand why he had kissed him in the first place. Never before had he felt longing for a male, and he was unsure of why it had to be now. But as much as he wished to shove the desire out of his core, he couldn't do it. Eren also couldn't help wondering why Levi's reaction was so severe.
It wasn't that bad, was it? It's not as if I had tongued him or anything.
Eren recalled the glare Levi shot him. It was one full of malice and contempt, as if Eren had over stepped his boundaries and trudged up bad memories for the young teacher. Eren felt pained by this thought.
"...Eren?"
Eren looked up, surprised to hear someone calling his name.
"Why, may I ask, are you sitting on the floor?" asked Mikasa.
"Um..." was Eren's reply. Eren stood up. "No reason."
"Are you sure? You look kind of distressed. And you're sitting right outside Mr. Ackerman's classroom. Did he say something to you?" Mikasa asked worriedly with a hint of irritation in her voice.
Eren was shocked that she could deduct that so quickly. He masked his surprise and said "No, not at all!" He smiled. "Besides. You know me. If I couldn't handle one measly teacher, then I wouldn't be Eren Jaeger, now would I?"
"So what you're saying is that he did do something to you then."
"No! Just a scolding for being disrespectful during class."
"If you're sure..." Mikasa casted a glance towards the door of the classroom. "If he does do something, tell me, I'll kick his ass."
"Mikasa! Why do you insist that he did something to me? Geez. You're being overprotective again. And you actually think you could kick his ass? Get real."
"Well...he was looking at you lustfully in class today." She looked down.
"What?! Really?" Eren couldn't help the glee from showing in his voice.
"No." said a third voice. The two of them turned their heads toward Armin. "There is no way that could be considered lustful. If you had to describe it, a better word would be...murderous? Or maybe hateful." Armin said.
"What? No! That's just because he has a permanent scowl on his face." Eren replied.
"A permanent scowl? He probably can't relax the muscles in his face after having them tensed up for so long." Armin said.
"Well...anyways." Eren said, attempting to change the topic. There was no way he could tell them what actually happened. "We should go check out the dorms, and meet our new roomies."
"Yeah! Good idea. Let's go!" Armin took the bait, and began dragging Eren by his wrist down the hall.
Mikasa was not convinced, and turned to look at the closed classroom door. She was sure something had happened, but she wasn't sure what.
"You coming?" Armin called from down the hall.
"Yeah! Wait up." Mikasa ran to catch up to the two of them. Whatever had occurred between Eren and Mr. Ackerman, she would find out, and there would be hell to pay.
The three young teenagers studied the board with dorm rooming lists.
"Looks like...I'm in a room with someone named Marco." Eren said after scanning for his name and finding it underroom number 201.
"I'm in the room right next to yours! But ugh...I'm with that Jean guy." Armin moaned.
"Hey! What was that supposed to mean?!" Jean sauntered up behind them. Armin grunted and looked away.
"I'm in a room with a girl named Annie..." Mikasa said.
They glanced at the map leading to the dorms.
"Why does the girl's dorm have to be on the opposite side of the school from the boy's?" Jean whined.
"So that creeps like you don't try anything funny." Eren replied.
"Humph."
Mikasa split with the boys and headed to the girl's dorm while the boys left to find their rooms.
"Oh, here it is, 201." Eren said. He turned to Jean and Armin who were heading into 202.
"See you guys at dinner then."
He opened the door, not sure if he should've knocked but decided against it seeing as it was his room too. He walked in to see a cream colored room with a single window across from the door. There were two beds, one couch, and a TV setup in front of the couch. There was a door on the side of the room, which Eren assumed was the bathroom. At the foot of each bed was a dark wooden dresser. Eren noticed a boy sitting on the couch with a game controller in his hands, staring at the TV.
"You must Eren," the boy said without looking up.
"Yes, and you must be Marco. It's nice to meet you." Eren replied.
"Yeah. Same to you." Marco paused his game to look towards Eren and offer his hand. They shook hands, and Marco asked "Do you play Call of Duty?"
"Not really. All my friends do though."
"Huh. So what brings you to ROA?" Marco asked, in an attempt to make conversation. He seemed friendly enough, so Eren went along with it.
"You've heard of Erwin, right?" Eren asked.
"Yeah. Who hasn't?"
"The doofus in the dorm room next door. But anyways, are you aware that he attended this school?"
"Oh, yeah. I've heard rumors of that, although I wasn't sure if they were true or not." Marco replied. "And by doofus, you wouldn't be referring to Jean Kirstein, would you?"
"Exactly! How did you know?" Eren exclaimed.
"Well, he's my best friend. But don't feel bad about calling him a doofus, it's a pretty accurate statement." Marco said with a laugh. "Sorry to interrupt you though, continue."
"It's fine. But it isn't a rumor, Erwin did attend this school. That's why I'm here. Ever since Erwin Smith entered the war as commander, I've been his fan. He's my hero in a sense. I look up to him as the greatest man humankind will ever know. I aspire to be just as great, and to do so, I felt I had to attend this school." Eren glanced at Marco to see his reaction, or if the boy was even paying attention.
"Wow. That was deep. My reasons for coming here were simply due to the fact that my parents made me, and it'll get me into the college I want to go to." Marco said.
"Hmm." Eren replied. Suddenly, they heard a bell chiming.
"Would that be the dinner bell?" Eren asked, glancing at the clock to see that it was six.
"Yeah, probably. Let's head down together."
The two slipped on their indoor shoes and headed into the hallway, walking down the corridor and into the commons. They entered a large room with several tables and a line of students leading up to a counter where food was being served. They spotted Armin, Jean, Mikasa, and a small blonde girl sitting at a table. They walked over to the table and greeted each other.
"I already introduced her to Jean and Armin, but this is Annie." Mikasa said, gesturing to the small but fierce looking blonde.
"Nice to meet you." Eren said, offering his hand. Annie huffed, and turned away.
"Anyways," Mikasa said, slightly irritated at Annie for treating her Eren in such a way, "let's head to the line. I'm starving." They all agreed, and got in line.
They were having a conversation about one of the teachers while waiting, and Eren began tuning out. He glanced over at the teacher's lounge area where teachers ate, and met eyes with Levi. Levi looked annoyed as always, and turned back towards his fellow teachers. Eren couldn't help but continue staring though, especially when he noticed all of the female teachers being overly friendly with Levi. There was one woman in particular who was sitting right next to Levi, practically cuddling with him. She had short light brown hair, and big eyes. She was definitely pretty, she might have even been Eren's type if she wasn't being so flirtatious with his Levi.
Eren sighed, realizing how unnecessary it was for him to be jealous in this situation.
Levi is a guy...I can't actually be falling for a guy, can I?
"Eren...? Earth to Eren..." Mikasa said, waving a hand in front of his face.
Eren looked back towards his friends, and realized that they were all grabbing plates, so he followed suit.
"Anything wrong?" Mikasa asked, slightly worried.
"No...nothing." Eren replied, thinking the exact opposite. If he was falling for the guy, everything was wrong.
Mikasa, who was still worried, glanced over to where Eren had been staring. She caught sight of their Battle Strategies teacher, and frowned. She sent a death glare towards the back of Levi, and turned on her heels in a huff.
He's staring at me...Levi thought nervously. Stay calm, Levi. Act normally, like you never made eye contact.
Levi sat forward, reaching for his plate of salad, while the teacher next to him kept squishing closer to him, to the point that he was corned on one side of the long couch they were sitting on.
"So... Mr. Ackerman? Or should I call you Levi?" She giggled.
Is he still staring? Oh god, what does he think of this flirtatious bitch next to me?
"You can call me Petra." The woman said, clinging to Levi's arm.
"Ms. Ral, I would appreciate it if you let go of me." Levi said turning to unleash a deadly glare on the young woman.
"Yessir." She let go of his arm and scooted away from him in fear. By this time, Levi had noticed that Eren was no longer staring at him, and hadn't noticed Levi brushing the woman off.
It's fine like this...I can't fall in love again. I couldn't bare to go through that again...But I should apologize for being rude earlier.
Levi made a mental note to apologize to Eren later, before he began eating his salad.
Eren and Marco headed back into their room, to get ready for bed.
"You can take a shower first. I'm going to play another round of zombies." Marco said as he sat down on the couch.
"Okay."
Eren walked into the bathroom with a towel and a pair of pajamas. While he was showering, Eren couldn't take his mind off of Levi. He couldn't deny anymore that he was attracted to the guy. But what he couldn't figure out was why. Why Levi? Sure, he was pretty attractive as a man, but that didn't change the fact that he was the only man that Eren felt any attraction to in his life. Despite his inability to understand where the feeling had come from, he had to deal with it somehow.
What should I do? Eren thought. I could confess, and then get rejected. That way I would have no choice but to give up on him. No! I don't want to be rejected. But...but why? Perhaps...I'm really in love with Levi?
Eren couldn't stand the thought, and decided to think about other things while he finished his shower. He walked out of the bathroom in a fresh pair of pajamas to see Marco texting someone.
"Oh hey. Jean just got the new COD Ghosts, so I'm going over to his room to play it. Wanna come?" Marco asked.
Eren tossed the thought around before replying. "Nah, I'm tired. I'm just going to go to sleep." He didn't think being around Jean would help his mood out either.
"Alright. Well, good night." Marco stood and left the room. Eren flopped onto his bed, and no sooner had his head hit the pillow, he had fallen asleep.
"Mnh...Ah! Eren!" Levi moaned.
Eren was licking at the pink stubs on Levi's bare and pale chest, nibbling and sucking the hardening nipples. Eren's hand was slipping farther down Levi's chest, stopping to tease his belly button before sliding into Levi's boxers.
"Ahn! Eren...th-...ah!"
Eren began stroking Levi's erection, teasing his hardening member at the tip with his thumb. He began to lick at Levi's neck, leaving small kiss marks all over the smaller man's collar bone.
"Mmm."
Eren then began licking at Levi's ear, nibbling at it, and laughing as he watched it turn red along with the blush that was spreading across Levi's face.
"Levi..." Eren mumbled with hot breath against the older man's ear.
"Hnhh?" Levi grunted, still trying to keep his composure.
"I...I love you." Eren whispered.
Eren awoke to the sound of knocking at the door. He sat up, not fully aware of the situation, until he noticed his growing erection.
Great...this can't actually be happening. I've only just met him...is this what they call 'love at first sight'? But I'm not in love with him. Definitely not. I just...
Eren heard more knocking at the door, louder this time.
Eren glanced at the clock to see that he had only been sleeping for half an hour. He heard more knocking, which delivered the undoubted irritation the person at the door was feeling, and Eren figured Marco had accidentally locked himself out when he went to Jean's and Armin's room. Eren stumbled out of bed, hoping Marco wouldn't notice the bulge in his pajama pants as he unlocked and opened the door. But instead of seeing his teenage roommate, he saw his older male teacher standing in the door way.
"Um...hey..." Levi said, somewhat nervously.
Eren couldn't believe it. Of all the people who could've been knocking on the door, it was the man who was the focus of the erotic dream Eren had just had, and the cause of the bulge in his pants.
"Uh..." was all Eren could muster in reply.
"Look, you're probably angry with me for what I said to you earlier. I came to apologize. What you did was definitely wrong...but it wasn't right for me to say such harsh things. Sorry." Levi said.
Eren took in this information, but was quickly reminded of the uncomfortable feeling in his nether regions.
"It's fine. Sorry for forcing a kiss on you. Good night." Eren attempted to close the door quickly, but Levi stuck his foot in to prevent it from closing.
"Are you really still that angry?" Levi asked.
"No, I'm not angry, now move your foot." Eren continued trying to pull the door closed, Levi yanked it wide open again.
"Hey now. I'm your teacher, be more respectful. " he demanded.
"Yes sir." Eren gulped. He wasn't sure how much longer he could take having the aim of his affections standing right in front of him with his erection continuing to grow. Levi squinted at the boy.
"Are you okay? Your face is red." Levi leaned closer and placed his palm on Eren's head. This caused Eren to grab at his erection, due to the unexpected touch of Levi.
"I'm fine!" Eren shouted.
"No need to yell..." Levi looked down to see what Eren had done with his hand when his eyes grew slightly wider than they were before, barely showing that he was even slightly shocked.
"You..." Levi growled. Eren gulped. Had Levi found out?
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