Hello my lovely readers. I'm still alive (silents) ok I guess no one cares lol. I'm so sorry it has taken me so long to post this chapter but I finally caved and bought a battery for my computer so I could finally finish this damn story. My next two chapters are kinda important, but they are mostly fillers. I want your help with something but I will mention it at the end of the story... anyways on to the chapter. Oh and thank you to all my new readers and my long time readers. Once i'm done with this story i'm actually considering writing another one (shorter of course) Love you guys!
Chapter 23
Its been about 4 weeks since Thanksgiving, December 24 Th to be exact. Happy Christmas eve! Hinata said she was going to have a serious talk with Naruto What have I done? I know she said she was ok with it but I cant help but think that she isn't. I know all I can do is sit and wait until she is ready to give naruto up, that is what I should a did in the first place! Why was I so tempted by his beautiful tan skin, or his gorgeous blond hair. Oh who am i kidding? I was sucked in by that infectious smile and hypnotic azure eyes. It was really and truly love at first sight. Or maybe it was lust at first sight and love at second sight... Who really knows how the heart an brain work? Clearly not be.
I cant help but feel like I have ruined everything for everyone. I don't even feel like I deserve naruto in the end of this. Why should I be so lucky as to ruin my friendship with Hinata as well as her relationship with naruto and yet somehow end up happy with naruto!? That doesn't exactly feel right in my option. Do I deserve this god like guy who I tempted away from his caring girlfriend who also happens to be my best friend. I don't think I do.
I was suddenly pulled outta my thoughts by the sound of my phone ringing, had it been anyone else I probably wouldn't have answered "Hello Nii-san".
"Hello to you stranger, I must say its been a while I must say. How is everything with you my dear brother."
"Everything is hell Itachi!" I sighted into the phone feeling on the verge of tears at this point
"Do you want to talk about it. I know we haven't really been the closest of brothers but you know if you need me I will be willing to help you all you have to do is call me and you know I don't live that far either." Itachi said in what seemed to be a calm voice.
"Its Naruto again isn't it? I don't understand why you haven't just given up on this crush already?" Itachi said before sighing lightly into the phone.
"Well its gone alittle further than just a kiss?" I said my nerves in my throat
"Exactly how far has it gone Sasuke?" I was scared to tel him at this point. Us Uchihas pride ourselves on being able to get what we want at any cost, as long as it wasn't at the cost of our dignity. "Have you slept with him? Be honest with me little brother?"
"Yes, I have slept with him, its actually gotten to the point of Hinata finding out about it. I felt horrible about it, at least at the time." I whispered the last part
"And how do you feel about it now?" How was I suppose to tell my brother that I would do anything to have Naruto's cock back in my ass at any means necessary, even at the risk of loosing both Hinata and him.
"I don't feel as bad but I do feel bad, she seemed rather hurt when she found out but than she seemed rather understanding, almost as if she knew from the beginning, almost like she had dated Naruto to give him to me, Does that seem right?" it had been a theory that I had thought over in the past few days. She had told me that my interest in Naruto had been evident from the moment he and I met, however I find it odd you would remain smashing let alone dating someone who liked dick more than your pussy.
"All I can do is remind you that Hinata has been your friend forever where as you just met naruto a year ago. If you feel that your life long friendship is worth risking for a potentially endless romance. That is your call. All I can tell you to do is listen to your heart and head. However I must get going. Are you still planning to come over for christmas dinner? Dei keeps asking when we are going to see you again." I smiled Deidara was like a second mother to me as apposed to a brother in law.
"Tell mama dei I will be there next week. I will see you than brother." I said getting ready to hang up the phone. Itachi laughed
"Okay, take care of yourself little brother, try not to get into too much trouble." Itachi said with humor lacing his voice.
"You too. And Itachi?" I said in a soft voice
"Yes?" he asked
"Thanks. I love you Nii-san." I said softly I heard a light chuckle.
"Love you too Otouto-chan" I hung up the phone feeling slightly better. What more could I do?
I've decided I needed a smoke. I sit next to a window and processed to smoke my cigarette deep in thought about what my next move would be. How would I ever face Hinata or Naruto? How will I ever be friends with either of them again. And if I am to actually be with naruto, although I got the approval of Hinata I still feel like crap. The christmas party was tonight and I don't know how I am going to deal with all this drama and stress. Maybe I should just go to the party and just get completely drunk, you know just enough to forget everything and than wake up in my car in front of the house, go home and sleep until my dinner with Itachi and dei later tomorrow night.
I could always call up gaara or neji and get drunk with them...No i'm pretty sure the two of them would have no problem housing me for the night, however I am pretty sure the happy couple are either going to spend the night showing the other how much they love one another (which is something I really don't need right now, or they themselves are planning to go to the christmas party and than go home and make love all night. I could feel myself rising at the idea of those two beautiful men together in bed... Mmmm, I wonder if there offer still stands about that 3 way. Oh who am I kidding I only want naruto now, hes truly the only man that has ever made me feel love without having is cock buried into me.
Maybe I shouldn't even go to the party at all and I should just call Itachi back and tell him to pick up some beer and plan to get piss drunk with me. Actually that doesn't sound like a bad idea. I look down at my appearance noticing my lack of dress, actually my complete disregard for my appearance in general. I've actually been locked in my house for about 3 days now, I haven't showered yet today so i'm starting to smell myself... yeah I know thats gross.
I go into my bathroom and process to take a shower, the only person on my mind at this point is naruto, how much I miss him and how much I wish he was with me at the moment. How I wish I had met him before Hinata. Would things really be so different? Can I honestly believe that he would have even given me a second chance had he not been smashing my best friend first? Why did I have to go after my best friend's boyfriend? I scrub harder at my head as I repeat my questions over and over again in my head as I continue onto cleaning my body.
Once done in the shower I tied a navy blue bath robe around myself and went to go smoke more of my stress away before I made my final decision on what to do about tonight and the Christmas party. I open up my pack and look in noticing I will probably have to get a new pack before tonight, maybe I could hit up someone to score some weed. I don't want to mentally be at a party where everyone is going to romantic, its like Valentine's day but alittle less intense. I lite the cigarette and took a deep inhale of the cigarette as I began to think everything over again, Should I see Itachi and Dei tonight; where I know I will be well taken care of as well as well fed, and be surrounded by family? Should I go see Neji and Gaara; where I would also be well taken care of and be surrounded by friends? Or should I go to the party; try to enjoy myself as well as possibly risk seeing Hinata and Naruto there, and be surrounded by complete and total drunken morons? Such a hard choice?
I just cant decide. Maybe I should just stay home by myself and than go to Itachi's tomorrow. Yes that sounds like a great idea! I run upstairs to get dressed so I could go buy some liquor to get wasted tonight. I quickly get dressed in a pair of black loose jeans and a turtle neck sweater and grab my blue jacket and head over to the door. Checking that all my windows were closed and all my cigarette butts were out I swing the door open, wallet in hand ready to head to the liquor store ready to get wasted already. "Hey! Did I catch you at a bad time" My eyes widened at the sight of the person at the door. I wish I could just walk back into the house and slam the door.
Cliffhanger! Who do you think is at the door.?... Who do you want to be at the door? (it's up to you! Vote on my page) I am so sorry again that I haven't been around recently... please don't hate me. I promise this story will be over soon, I have two or three more chapters planned. And i'm working on the next chapter as we speak.
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