Tony waited until the twins had gone to bed before he opened the box. He didn't even get it from the car until Noah reluctantly put down his tablet and went upstairs and Holly came down to tell him good night. He still wasn't ready for the twins to know about his desire to date again or anything that Kate may say to him. He knew that Kate had been a strict Catholic from the day she was born until the day that she died. He had been Catholic when his mother was alive and when Senior thought it would look good to attend church. He hadn't stepped in a church from the last service Senior made him attend at sixteen years old. Until the first time Kate drug him into a sanctuary when he twenty-two years old. He attended church every Sunday that he could because of the promise he had made to Kate but he was far from a religious scholar. What he did know was that strict Catholics were very against remarrying. He feared that Kate was telling him that if he dated again, he was violating her religion and she would forever hate him if he moved on from her. He pushed away the bad thoughts and then carefully lifted the lid off of the box. He slowly emptied the contents of the box on to the coffee table. He found an old photo album from when Kate was a child, several stray photos of him, Kate, and the twins, a necklace and pocket watch that had belonged to Kate's grandparents, he was to give to the twins on their eighteenth birthday. As well as a few random items he suspected were for the twins. The final contents were three video-tapes one for Holly, one for Noah, and one for himself. He put the pictures, mementos, and heirlooms back in the box and replaced the lid. He set the tapes on the table by the front door. Praying that McGee still had his machine that converted VHS's to DVD's and that wasn't among the things he sold when he had to make his town-house more accessible to Delilah and Julia. He wished that he hadn't thrown out their VCR when he purchased the new Blu-Ray player. He studied the tapes that lay on the small table and felt completely defeated. Kate had left these beautiful messages and his desire for the new and cutting edge had cost his family hearing her words one last time. Until he remembered the old kiddie TV the twins had, had in their playroom when they were growing up. It came with a built in VCR and DVD player. They had declared it babyish years ago and he had given them the old TV from his room when he replaced the living room TV. If he was remembering correctly the old TV was still in the closet of the spare bedroom. He walked upstairs and into the spare bedroom. To his disappointment that TV was gone. Until he remembered that Holly he had set it up in Holly's room when she was recovering from a strep-throat that summer. When she got better he had put the TV in her closet. He tip-toed across the hall into his daughter's room and quietly opened her closet. He quickly spotted the TV, thanking God that is daughter had inherited her mother's tidiness. If it were in Noah's room he would probably be crushed by a pile of junk right about now. He lifted the TV off the shelf and started to step back. In doing so he accidentally stepped on the bottom of Holly's rolling desk chair and started to fall. He managed to hang on to the TV but couldn't avoid falling on his butt with a heavy thud.

"Shit!" Tony cursed louder than he intended too.

"Dad what are you doing in here?" Holly asked.

"I needed your old TV." Tony explained.

"Why? We have three TV"s already set-up." Holly asked.

"I need a VHS player for something." Tony replied.

"What for?" Holly asked.

"Just something, go back to sleep." Tony replied.

"Your being weird." Holly sighed putting her head back on her pillow.

Tony took the TV downstairs and plugged it in. He was just using it for the VHS player so he didn't need to be near a cable or do much work to set it up. He just turned the TV on and put his tape in the VHS slot. He wished that he had a remote but Noah had spilled juice on that years ago. So he was stuck working the TV manually. It took about five minutes of messing around with the device before he manged to get the VHS to work. He smiled when he saw Kate sitting in the arm chair in the living room of the apartment they had before the twins were born and when they were tiny babies. His smile only grew when Kate sat back and he saw her large, pregnant belly. She must have been six months along with the twins when she made this. For a long time she just sat there nervously playing with her hands, she took a deep breath. Before finally starting to speak.

"Tony if you are watching this either I am dead or you are just snooping around in my stuff again. Let's get this out of the way. If you are just snooping I want you to eject the tape, and put it back NOW!. Seriously why would you invade my privacy like that?! This is serious."

Tony couldn't help but laugh at the way Kate was chastising him as if he were a small child. She had always been such mom. Which exactly what he needed and what he wished that the twins had, had for more than just under three years. His laughter stopped when he saw Gibbs step into the shot.

"You heard her, DiNozzo! Eject the tape! Ya know what lean in close to the TV."

Gibbs waited for a few seconds before raising his hand and making a slap motion. Tony erupted into laughter but quickly shut-up. Both Kate and Gibbs got serious looks on their faces. Gibbs raised his hand to his face and quickly stepped back out of the frame. Kate sat back in the chair and nervously ran her hand through her long brown-hair, God he missed her.

"OK you are still watching after I yelled at you and Gibbs slapped you. Then I must really be gone. I just want you to know I made this video when I was six and a half months pregnant with our twin boys. Sweet little Kellen and Noah. I hope and pray that I at least got to see them grow-up. I will have instructions for that later on but first up. You are a smart, handsome, and athletic cop. I am sure that you will be fighting women off but you will also want to start dating again at some point. I can't stop you from falling in love again. You are only human and it's not like I can come back. Please just at least promise me that you will wait until you are sure that you are in love again and please make sure that you put the twins and any other children we may have first. Make sure you get a woman who will treat you and our babies right. You are a good man Tony DiNozzo and you deserve to be loved. Just know that I love you and I love the twins and again any other babies we have. Please Tony just know that I love you and I want you to be happy. I am sure that any girl you meet after me will be special and amazing. Just promise me that if you date again, if you remarry, if you have children with another woman. Please all you have to do for me is never forget me and make sure that Kellen and Noah and any other children we share never forget me and know that they are loved by me and I am always watching over all of you."

Tony turned off the TV and then just sat on the living room floor, alone, in the dark. He had gotten Kate's blessing to move on and she had told him the same things that Gibbs and Vance had told him. He was happy to have her blessing but it still broke his heart. The fact that Kate thought that he would ever be able to forget her. Almost ten years later and he still dreamt about her. It was mostly nightmares about the last moments he saw her alive but he also regularly dreamt about the happier times and sometimes just of her face. He always felt her around him: whenever he had a close call in the field, when the twins reached milestones, and at least once on the average day.

"It took ten years but I finally met her Kate. Her name is Miss. Ziva David and she is the twins teacher. I fought for so long to never love again but something about her is amazing. She already loves the twins and I am so glad to have your blessing. Because just being around her is the happiest I have been since that day on the roof-top. As for my promise to you. I will never forget you and neither will Holly or Noah.

A/N: Just a reminder that Tony and Kate originally thought the twins were both boys and Holly's gender was a huge shock. Anyway what did you think of Kate's tape? Will Tony finally have the confidence to ask Ziva out? New chapter will be up soon. Please review and thanks for reading.