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G is for Goodbye
I wasn't given a chance to say goodbye to my brother. I don't know what I would have said if I had been afforded the opportunity. He could have survived the first hit. I felt that he was hurt but they weren't deadly injuries. He could have been saved.
His murderer just backed over him again though. I'd never get to tell him goodbye.
There are so many things that I never said to him. I never thanked him for helping me cut class so I could go sit in on the lectures at the college or for trying to help me when I needed it. I never told him that I admired him for being so friendly and was jealous that he made friends so easily. I never got a chance to tell him how much I loved him.
That was one thing I know he knew though. I never hid it when he touched my mind. He knew my secret. That I was really very vulnerable beneath it all.
And that I really despise goodbyes.
All too soon all I have to say two goodbyes. Once I find my brother and bring him home so his spirit can be at peace and rest it'll be goodbye for real. As long as I'm searching I can put it off. It's not real till I have his body. It's not goodbye till I see it with my own two eyes.
Then I'll have to say goodbye to Mai. That's the one I truly dread. She's brought life back into focus for me. I can't imagine how hard it'll be to walk away from the girl I love. Gene was my other half but Mai..Mai is my heart.
I wonder if she'll cry or be glad that her jerk boss is gone. I wonder if she'll kiss me goodbye.
For now I can put off my goodbyes. I'll continue my search, and until I find my brother I'll enjoy what little happiness I can here in Japan.
I push away the thoughts of goodbye and sadness and focus on what's before me.
"Mai, Hot tea."