The A-Z of SPR

by Jc1009

A collection of interconnected oneshots from SPR. They go A-Z and will highlight different parts of our favorite ghost hunter's thoughts, feelings and exciting adventures. Mostly fluffy but may have adult language and situations later.

23. v

((was having some trouble getting these to post for some reason, but here you are, Also, thoughts on my starting a different type of Ouran fic?))

V is for Void

For so long there was a void left in me. For so long I only had one last little bit of blood family to fill it. Sure there was people who cared about me, I suppose but it's not the same. It's not the same as being with someone linked to you by blood. Then the one person who I thought would always be there for me had to die.

It's been so hard for me since they died. Losing that last little bit of family I had. For so many years it was just the two of us. I knew that I'd always have someone.

Then?

Then they have the nerve to just up and die on me. Now I'm holding the bag. Yeah, there are some people who care enough about me to indulge me, but it's not the same.

It's not the same as having a family. Someone who might not like you, but will always love you.

This void has been here since the moment I knew they had died.. The last of our small family.

Everyone has these expectations of me now. They all look at me and expect to see someone else. Have me be someone else.

I can't be that. I couldn't even fill this void that I had in me.

Well, that is until I met someone. They might not fill the void, but it's not as hard as it used to be.

I have someone now who cares for me, in their own roundabout way. Someone now that I truly love.

I'll always love Naru for that. And so much more.