I awake in a fit of screams that piece the night air as I lift up from my sleeping position. I have been sweating quite profusely and my breathing is quite heavy. I pull my hair so far back that I feel I will rip it from my scalp. The slight trickles of sweat trickle down my forehead towards my chin.
Jacob bursts into the room, a snarl on his lips, he mumbles something under his breath and if I focused harder I'm sure I could've heard it.
He looks around the room with his nose up in the air as if he's trying to find some scent or trail. I began tearing up and slowly the sobs begin to form. Jacob crosses over towards me and places his hand on my shoulder.
"Leah, what's wrong?" He voice is soft, softer than I have ever heard him be. I shake my head and remove my head to place it on his neck. He wraps his rather large arms around me.
"Jacob, I had the worse dream." I sniff.
"They're only dreams Leah," I shake my head. I back away from him and I know he can see the pure terror reflecting in my doe eyes.
"This seemed real. So real," I lean in my voice trembling, "I killed someone." At my own words coming out of my mouth another tear rolls down my cheek. Jacob takes both my hands into his and squeezes them rather tightly.
"I promise it was only a dream. You'd never hurt anyone."
"I don't understand what these dreams mean," I mumble.
"Nothing," Jacob's voice is final and flat.
I want to know why he's being so guarded with me. I already have enough problems trying to figure out the mystery that is Edward Cullen, I didn't need him, the one person I fully trusted, to be guarded as well.
Jacob lets my hands go and walks back towards my bedroom door. "Try and get some sleep," he says before completely leaving my room all together.
I fall back into my bed with a sigh. Sleep is the last thing that I could have ever wanted.
I push my hands through my hair as I think about Edward. He had been so close to me today, I felt as if I was slowly getting through to him. That brick wall that was separating us was slowly beginning to fall apart. I think about his eyes dancing over mine, his dazzling smile that creates such beauty in the world. I place my pillow over my head and sigh rather loudly.
Throwing the pillow off my face I lay on my side allowing Edward Cullen to guide me to sleep.
I lay in bed mostly all day, I feel so lethargic, as if all the blood has been drained from my body leaving a broken vessel behind. I have seen the sun vibrantly shine through my open window and then slowly begin to fade in its place. I cannot even bring myself to read, even though a book is arms length away.
Jacob comes in to check on me from time to time but I only mumble short lived answers. He's annoyed with me, I can tell, and leaves with a slamming of my bedroom door. I don't care honestly. He doesn't understand what I'm feeling.
For the third time today Jacob bursts into my room. My back is facing him and I don't even blink when he races towards me throwing me a shirt and pants.
"Get up now," I sigh.
"Go away Jake," he snarls at me and it causes my eyes to grow wider.
"We need to leave now. Bella is Missing."
We look for hours on end for Bella. We start with places we believed she would go to finally looking through the woods of La Push. My heart sank as my dream weighed heavy in my thoughts. My carnal senses take over and I begin to sniff around using my touch, and bond with nature, hoping to somehow find her. Jacob seems to be taking everything quite hard. He's been silent through most of the search. I try to give him a kind smile but he doesn't return the favor. I feel so bad for Jacob, I know Bella is much more important to him then he lets on.
At nightfall word comes to us that they found Bella bunched together on the ground sobbing. There were leaves and rain spilling all over her. She looked quite distraught. Jacob's face spoke his words for him. He clenched his hands into fists and raced towards her house. Like an idiot, I follow pursuit.
We get to Bella's house and we are greeted by a man with a bushy mustache and graying brown hair. Jacob, under his breath, say's his name is Charlie Swan and that he is her father. The resemblance is definitely there, I notice the same weird shaped eyes. He is also quite fair and I believe that there had never been a hope that Bella would've been tan.
He smiles as he sees Jacob and looks cautiously at me. Jacob places his hand on my shoulder,
"Hello Mr. Swan, how is she?" He nods his head softly.
"She's okay Jacob, she's a little shaken up but…I'm guessing she'll be alright. I tell you, once I get my hands on that Edward guy, I'm going to kill him."
"Why?" I blurt out and both Jacob and Charlie's eyes dart towards me. I can read Charlie's face he's basically saying
Who the hell are you?
Jacob is the one to speak,
"This is my cousin Leah, she's friends with Bella." Charlie nods softly running his hand through his hair.
"Good to know Bella has such good friends." Jacob nods his head he peaks behind Charlie's shoulders and says,
"So can I see her?" Charlie crosses his arms around his chest. He's wearing a police get up and I assume that he's some cop.
"Yeah, just be gentle with her. She's still kinda fragile. I actually got called into work because of some animal attack problem. I think she'd like having some company around."
"You know I'll always be here for Bella sir." Jacob says without any type of hesitation inside his raspy voice. Charlie nods placing his hand on Jacob's shoulder.
"I know Jacob, I never worry about her with you."
Charlie leaves and Jacob darts into the house. I stand in the arch of the front door and try and calm myself down. Charlie has spoken about some type of animal attack. My throat becomes parched at the thought.
It was only a dream Leah and nothing more…Just a dream.
I close my eyes and bite my lip. After reasoning with myself I walk into Bella's house listening to the small chatter which leads me to her room. Bella is lying on her back she looks paler than usual. The grayness of the room doesn't help to aid any color to her already fading face. There are dark circles under her eyes and her hair is matted, as if she hasn't brushed it in awhile.
Jacob is knelling next to her bed with his hand in hers. I cannot imagine what has caused her so much pain. I feel so bad for her I wish I could help her with whatever seems to be troubling her so much. I come over towards her slowly not sure if she even wants me in the room. She looks up at me briefly but doesn't say one word as her eyes diverge back toward Jacob.
"Tell me who did this to you." Jacob says angrily.
Bella pats the top of his head softly trying to soothe him. I wonder when Edward will run through the door trying to soothe his beloved girlfriend. A sour taste develops inside my mouth. When he does come I'll have to leave. I don't think I can stomach seeing them together.
"Edward," she murmurs.
I believe she is calling his name so I turn around to see if he is there. He isn't, in fact, no one is standing behind me. Jacob stands running towards Bella's wall and punches it. To my surprise a huge chunk of the wall indents in. I look at him with utter fear on my face. He turns around with rage boiling in his eyes.
"I'm going to find him! I'm going to kill him!" Bella shakes her head tears filling her eyes.
"He's gone now Jake, gone forever."
I leave the house myself without saying good-bye. I decide to give Bella and Jacob the alone time they both desperately seemed to have wanted. A part of me is happy when I walk outside and take a huge breath of air. There tension is less stressful out here. I can actually hear myself think which is nice.
I sit down on Bella's porch thinking about everything that has occurred. Edward had broken up with Bella. To her description they had gotten into an argument and he kissed her head before saying that he would never return.
I shudder at the thought of never seeing Edward Cullen again. My life would be easier that's for sure. I place my hands on the side of my face sighing. I still can't believe Bella is so upset over him leaving her, I mean sure, break-ups are hard. But, everyone goes through them. You eat a carton of ice cream, cry a little, and then get over it. Bella is different though I could literally see the hurt throbbing through her eyes as if she had just lost a loved one. A part of me is angered by her. She has worried my cousin so much over nothing.
Maybe it's a good thing Edward is gone. Maybe Jacob could finally have the chance of dating Bella that's what he's always wanted.
Maybe I could also have the peace of knowing that he wouldn't burden my mind any longer.
I get up from my sitting position and begin to walk back home.
I look up at the stars that are now brightly shinning down on me. I cannot help it, I wonder if Edward is looking at those same stars.
Thank you all so much for the comments! I know this chapter is short, but, it still has pivotal information! Please comment and continue to read on! I go back to college tomorrow, but, I'm still going to finish and work on this story! This can be like a late night therapy session for me. ENJOY!