It has become very clear that Edward Cullen was never going to return. At the mere notion of that I believed that it would be a good thing, I mean, he only caused me irritation and painful headaches right? Least, that is what I told myself to feel better.

I recall Bella saying that he was gone for good and for a moment I didn't believe her. They had just broken up, she was upset, and there are loads of reasons why she would exaggerate. Besides, when you first break up with someone you truly believe you will NEVER see them again. At least, that is what you want. I remember when I broke up with Evan, the last thing I wanted to do was see his face. It was the memory that hurt the most, the painful thoughts that maybe I was the one who wasn't good enough. That's when I decided to cut him out all together, remove him like a band-aid, he couldn't hurt me anymore then.

Bella on the other hand didn't want that at all. She cried for Edward every single day to the point that even Jacob became frustrated. He tried his hardest to shelter her, to let her know that he was there, he had always been there for her, but her grief for Edward shadowed her hope for moving on. Edward had been a plague, Bella his victim, he had left her with permanent scars that wouldn't ever fade away.

I remember looking at her one day. She looked as if she hadn't seen the sun in weeks her skin taking on a grayish translucent tone. Her hair, which once was alive and thriving, now looked matted and dead. It's vibrant hue slowly subsiding to a dark earthy color which seemed to clash against the death that is her skin color. Small dark circles had also planted themselves along the eyelids of her face. She seemed to never smile. So when she did try and smile it seemed forced and rather odd looking. Her lips would tremble at the odd gesture and would resort with her shielding her face underneath her hands in tears. She felt guilty for being happy without Edward. She felt guilty for moving on.

I sit outside with Jacob one summer day, it's been ten days sense Edward has left. I know, shame on me for counting. The sun is shining down heavily onto his muscular body. It seems to extenuate all the crevices and bulges along his arms and torso. Jacob has his hands covering his face as he hugs his legs up to his chest. He's tired, and I assume he's fallen asleep because of the deep ripples that echo from his chest. He had been up all night consoling Bella telling her that everything would be alright. I find it funny that she couldn't love Jacob because they seemed more like a couple than Edward and she ever did. Jacob is always there, constantly around her, but Bella doesn't seem to notice she just expects him to always be there. Jacob is like her breathing it comes naturally and will never depart. While Edward is like the wind constantly around but never seen. You could live without the wind, constantly smacking its nonsense in your face, but you couldn't live without breathing.

If only Bella could see that. If only she could get herself together and understand that small concept. I knew better than anyone that sometimes the most obvious things were hard to understand. That's why I liked reading my books. I could see inside each character's mind, read their thoughts and perceptions, if only I had mind powers. Maybe then I could understand why Bella took everything so hard.

A part of me hates her. I mean truly hates her for putting Jacob through this, and then I remind myself Jacob doesn't have to stay. He could leave like Edward.

Edward…

That name sinks into my mind for a moment. I hadn't thought about him, I mean really thought, in quite some time. After he left a part of that sensation that he had over me disappeared. It is true I still feel this attachment to him, in which I don't understand, but I didn't need him around. I was a big girl and could make it on my own. However, I have to admit I still find myself thinking about him, wondering where he's run off too. I twirl my hair along my fingers as I look down at the grass swaying along my pants.

Jacob snores rather loud and I nudge him with my shoulder. He looks up and shakes his head, almost in a daze and looks at me oddly. I smirk at him as he wipes his sleepy eyes with the back of his hand.

"How long have I been out?" I shrug, my tiny shoulders lifting up all the way towards my chin.

"Not too long, if you're sleepy you could go to bed." He shakes his head turning to face me. Some of Bella's looks were rubbing off on him. She is like a disease bringing everyone down in her path. If she isn't happy there isn't any chance in hell Jacob could be happy. I wish I could tell him this, but, a part of me fears he'll pick Bella even over me. Even though I was on HIS side. I wanted what was best for him and honestly, I don't think Bella is the best choice.

"I couldn't leave you alone. What kind of cool cousin would I be? I'm supposed to be showing you around, giving you a good summer, not sleeping."

"it's okay Jake," I deflect placing my hand on his shoulder. He smiles at the simple gesture. "It's only one day. Besides," I say stretching my arms up to the sun, which shines very brightly down onto me, "I may get some reading done anyways."

"Always lost inside the pages of a book huh," Jacob teases as he lifts himself up from the grass. I nod.

"What can I say, I find someone else's life more fascinating than my own." Jacob crosses his arms.

"If only you know how fascinating life could be." Before I ask him to please explain he trudges off in the direction of his house. I sigh blowing a loose piece of hair out of my face. I'd go out and explore, maybe he's right, maybe life COULD be more interesting.

I walk through the La Push forest discovering new things that I truly haven't noticed before. I swear my vision is slowly becoming better. I can see things in new ways, like the spiders that cling to the silver of their webs. Or the faint echo of the wind as it hits against the leaves of a tree. I had always found a love for nature, but this feeling, like everything around me breathed is too much to bare.

I come to a small creek and I take off my moccasins dipping my rather warm feet into the icy water. At the first touch I wince, it's quite cold, but slowly I dip my foot in and out letting my body settle. I place my head back sighing. This is nice. If I could do this for the rest of the summer I'd be happy.

I hear a rumble in the thicket and I turn around immediately looking to see what has caused this sound. There is nothing to be seen and it makes a slight tingle climb up my spine. I remember the last time I was alone in the woods and it brings a bad taste to my mouth. My exploring must have taken quite some time because I notice that the sun is slowly setting.

I lift myself up and turn around beginning to walk home. I freeze in my footsteps as I see him, the dark menace that tried to attack me once before. Only this time his eyes burn with a fiery passion.

I back away my hands balled into fists at my sides. He licks his lips as he etches closer to me. I can feel the pulse at my neck quicken and he seems to notice this. His eyes immediately twist towards the small beating by my neck. I am backed up against a tree and I place my hands protectively in front of me.

"Stay back, I'm warning you!" I scream, my small voice echoing through the forest. The man comes closer, I remember what Edward said only days before. He had called this man Laurent, and for some reason I find myself pleading with him. "Please Laurent, I don't want any trouble." My voice is shaking. I try to persuade some type of human emotion inside of him. Maybe if I could reach that part of him, stir some pity inside of him, he wouldn't hurt me.

His lips twitch into a snarl and I believe that I see two sharp, I mean razor sharp, teeth peek through the dark color of his gums. I have to be dreaming…this cannot be happening again!

"You're friend isn't here to rescue you now. He's gone far away, his scent away from you." I look at him with confusion. I want to say something back but the fact of the matter hits me hard. Edward is gone, and as much as I hated admitting it, I needed him more now than ever. A large lump assembles in my throat. I try to swallow but it burns and hurts to do so.

Laurent paces towards me and thrusts his rather strong hands against my throat choking me. I can feel my pulse weaken and my vision become more blurred. He sniffs the side of my face grinning "You ooze the smell of fear. It's so overwhelming, so tantalizing." He opens his mouth more and I am quite sure of what I see. There are in fact sharp teeth at the sides of his lips the lips which twitch because they want to taste…

Me.

I swallow very hard trying to catch my mouth I'm choking… I feel as if I am drowning in a sea of my own thought. I think of Edward but that thought slowly fades towards Jacob and my family. I manage, with all my might to choke out,

"Whha…what are…you?" He does a devious grin as he leans in closer.

"I am your worst nightmare." He dives in just inches above the flesh of my neck.

He is suddenly thrown off of me by a very large animal. All I can see is the caramel color of its fur. I shriek in shock as I run for the only place I know to run, Jacob's house.

I wanna say that I am so so so sorry I haven't updated this in awhile. I actually had written this earlier, however, school hasn't permitted me to upload in time. I know, I felt so sad, but as promised here is another chapter! I hope to update really soon too! I love how everyone loves this story! Your constant comments makes me want to continue and write faster:]

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