The way the sun shone down on him, like it was kissing every inch of his body. The way his eyes soaked me up like air, made me want to sow my mouth closed. I wanted to stitch every part of my lips together so that only he could open them with his gentle touch. I didn't want to say anything, but, the only sanity in me, the only human part that I had left, begged me too. I had danced around the issue for so long and now the simple, darkness of my mind had unleashed my unspoken thoughts. Golden silk, the tenderness of his stare, soften even more and I want to faint, melt into him once more. My skin craved his touch and it cursed me for moving away from him.
Be still heart, I know he could hear, heck I could even hear it pounding inside my own ears.
My lips purse as if the words, desperately, wanted to climb down from my mind and push their way out of my lips. He waited patiently for me to continue my statement, to explain to him my inner insecurities. This is what had caused my last ex to leave me. I had let my guard down and he had done like I had already known he would do. He left, because leaving me was easy. I didn't want to fall for Edward Cullen, in fact, he was the last person I ever wanted to fall for. I had seen what he had done to Bella, she was an empty vessel of a person now. I'd be damned if he did that to me as well.
"Leah," he says my name softly, too soft, his voice a whimsical sensation. His eyes darkening like the percussion of a tango, I want to dance into him. "You didn't finish your statement," he reminds me.
Of course, I know that I didn't Edward! Maybe if you'd stop starring at me like that… as if you're undressing me with your eyes.
I run my hands through my hair, without even noticing that I had done the gesture. I move backwards into the shadows and he follows me in swift movements. Maybe if the sun didn't shine so perfectly on him, maybe I could think straighter. I sit on the grass and he does the same next to me. "You're upset with me," he questions. I bite my lower lip and shake my head.
"No, Edward I'm just confused. This is all happening so fast and…"
"I apologize," he says nodding his head. "You make it quite hard to stay away from you," he does that crooked smile of his and I want to lean over and taste those lips once more. I cannot help myself, I'm placing all the blame on him which isn't fair. It's my fault too, I hurt people with my own free will.
I played with fire expecting to not get burnt.
I softly place my hand on the side of his face. The cold welcomes me and I can tell he welcomes the warmth. I can't understand how he lived in a world where he never felt the heat of day. I couldn't imagine having a frozen body never feeling the sensations of the sun. I was his sun, however, melting the cold iciness of his exterior.
"I didn't want you to stay away from me remember," I coo and he nods his head. "I just," I swallow hard and his eyes dig into me once more. "I don't want you to hurt me and I don't want to hurt you." Edward takes my hand, which was rested on his face, and holds it gently inside his hands. He studies the lines incrusted inside the inside of my palms. He studies my fingers and I expect him to say that something looks amiss, un-human even,
"Did you know that some people use to believe that the lines on hands could predict the future?" I look oddly at him my eye brows crinkle together in confusion,
"and you believed them?" He brings my hand up to his lips and kisses the top part of my hand. I shudder at the simplest, most untainted gesture.
"I use to believe in visions, predetermined destinies, until I truly sought you out. Now, I don't believe in them. I have to believe in you." I think about the first time we meet and how he had been so cold, so mean to me. He had told me numerous times about my destiny and what I would do, as if he had seen it himself. This would be the perfect time to ask him.
"Why did you hate me when you first saw me?" He still stares at my hand in front of him, he holds it delicately,
"As if these hands could cause so much chaos." He murmurs to himself and I know for a moment I have lost him. He is lost inside the darkness of his thoughts. I must be his lighthouse guiding him home from the dark sea of his memories.
"Edward, talk to me." I want to get lost inside his thoughts, dig into the deepest part of his mind. Just like he had done to me. He had seen my fears, it's as if he understood them, as if we had the same fears and would fight them together.
Together, it sounded so nice to think of us as a pair. A two part body forming into one complete whole.
"A few nights before you arrived Alice had a vision." He begins his voice incredibly soft.
"Alice can do that?" Edward nods,
"Each of us has special gifts. Alice can see into the future."
"Well, what did she see?" I ask.
Edward is silent for a moment as he stares down at my hand. He finally looks up at me and there is something different about his stare now. His eyes seem foggy, yet, trusting as if what he's about to say hurts him to do so.
"She saw me on the ground, ripped to shreds, with you being the one who had killed me."
I rip my hand from his hand shaking my head jumping up and pushing myself against him. He is strong like a boulder so he doesn't fully budge. I am crying against him, how could I ever do something like that to him? Everything had made sense, why he hated me so, why Alice didn't care for me. How could they believe that I would hurt the one thing that made sense in my life, the one thing that brought me happiness? I hold onto him pressing my face alongside his chest shaking my head as the tears prickle his lean flesh.
"I would…never…hurt you." I annunciate every word. I mean every single word that I say to him. He rubs the top of my head, I cannot see his face, but I can feel the love, the earnest trust, from his mere touch.
"And I don't want to hurt you…" I peek back to stare at him tears still falling from my eyes.
"That is why I tried to stay away from you." He whispers, "but curiosity got the best of me, you didn't seem like a killer. You didn't seem like you wanted to rip me to shreds, well least not my body, my clothes maybe." He does an ostentatious grin and I cannot help but smile along with him. "I trust you Leah, the only destiny I believe in is the one that I feel when I'm with you." He wipes the wet tears from my face.
"Edward," I say embracing him. I ball my fists into the lean muscle of his skin. I kiss the side of his neck, he shutters underneath my lips. I want to kiss every inch of him to let him know I'd never hurt him. I trail upwards, like the installation of stars, as I press my lips against his cold skin. I make to his ear and I trail my tongue along his ear lobe, he slightly moans in response. He had let me in, told me his darkest fear, expecting me to not hurt him in the process. I had unleashed him and for a moment I believe that he feels as free as he has ever been.
It's my turn.
"I love you," I whisper to him inside his ear. He pulls me back and stares at me. I feel vulnerable, like a circus act having millions of people laugh and judge me. However, the way he stares at me, with such meaning, makes those uneasy feelings vanish.
"And so the lion has fallen in love with a wolf." I smirk. He teases me by moving his finger against the lower part of my swollen lip.
"What a silly wolf," I say eyeing his lips only craving more.
"And what a sick masochistic lion," I silence him by leaning in closer about to touch his lips once more. Before I can he murmurs,
"I love you more than you know, Leah," I smile softly.
"I think I'm beginning to understanding how much you do. I promise you, I'll never break your heart…or your limbs, or anything that entails." He laughs, we both do, it sounds so sweet to my ears, as he ushers me closer. We seal that promise, whole-heartedly, with a kiss.
I feel as if this chapter is short... thought it took me like foreverrrr to write it! I truly hope you all like it! It makes sense to me, however, comment if you have any questions. I still have a soft spot in my heart for these two. Remember every saturday I will be updating this story! Keep the comments coming. I seriously read every one and take into consideration what you all like as well. ENJOY!