How do I start this story? Maybe I should start with what my name is, I am Juliah, and I am 18 years of age, I've been here maybe 2 or 3 years?
Anyways, this story describes how I met my best friend and soul mate :)
Well, he was about 14, I was 16, and the way we met was kind of weird you know? I was just going through reviews on a kind of poorly written story, he was a troll when I met him and he was posting a hate review and me being the protagonist of all reviewers(XD LOL), I took iniciative and attacked him for what he had done. He called me a loser, I was pretty frustrated and flustered and stalked him around on a forum with the writer known as PuppyPaw, the writer had to divide us.
1 week later, I kind of realize how harsh I was for following him around, so I went to my inbox and sent him a message apologizing for my immature behavior.. He actually said sorry back, and you would not-no-could not imagine my shock when he said sorry, because I had seen so many jerks online who wouldn't dream of being defeated like that, but I did not consider that defeat.
So for several weeks we abided in each other's time, constantly chatting it up and finding out that we had tons in common with each other, I was actually starting to fall in love with him.
Weeks further in, he confessed that he wanted me as his girlfriend.. Now you have to see what I was thinking, too young! What could happen? No, no I wasn't going to risk it. DENIAL. He seemed to cooperate with it, but he tried to insist on it and it kind of broke my heart, I loved him. I LOVED him desperately, but I was so afraid of my actions. So we went on with each other as just best friends. It was kind of agonizing..
Further in, so around May of 2013 I met someone named Joseph Orlando on Google+, which is where I've had my best moments with my best friend, and he was in love with me. Is there a chance in life you've felt like you were in love but you weren't? That's what I felt. I was so excited! But at the same time.. I felt an intense overwhelming sensation of dread, it made me insanely suicidal, I almost OD'd on Benadryl, fashioned nooses, did anything to simulate the sensation of near death experiences. How did I not do it? Because my best friend kept telling me that it would get better, to keep holding on.
I remember his first girlfriend, she was really sweet, hell she still is! I love the girl, so did he. she broke his heart. I can remember exactly what he said to me when she broke up with him..
"Kill me.."
My heart shattered when he said that, but I continued to take care of him and try to keep him happy for as long as I could. My ex was really abusive and I failed to see it too. My best friend found yet ANOTHER girl, I knew this one was asking for trouble but I didn't say anything and I probably should've, she cheated on him and lied to him right through her teeth. You wanna know something funny? Both of his girlfriends were in the same state as me!
Okay, several months later, I confessed to having cheated on my ex ONCE, not again. NEVER AGAIN. He blew it, he tried to hurt me, told me I would be better off dead, said so many things that almost actually got me to my breaking point. I broke up with him several days later and I should've broken up with him sooner. I broke up with him on Dec 18th, 2014, one day after my birthday. I do not regret it one bit!
Under a week later, I asked my best friend out, he sounded so hyper and excited and usually he's all grumpy and serious. I mean don't get me wrong he's extremely sweet too :). Anyways, he was so happy that I asked and was all over the place when I asked him and I actually laughed cause I thought it was so cute, I actually felt like my heart was about to burst out of my chest. And on Sept 23rd, 2015, I will have been dating Carlos for 9 months straight! 3
I 3 Carlos!
This was for him, I wub oo wibwab 3