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THERAPY

"Hello Rachel. My name is Dr. Kay Chase, but you can call me Dr. Kay, Dr. Chase, KC or whatever your comfortable with."

"Hi… Dr. Kay." Rachel said awkwardly as she sat playing with her fingers.

"How are you feeling, Rachel? I know this can be a little hard."

"I'm fine…"

"Why don't we talk about what happened today?"

"Ah they told you about that little incident, huh?" Rachel said nervously as she sat Indian style on the couch.

"Yes, they did." She said softly.

"I didn't… I'm not a violent person… I just… I got mad because she spilled that slushie crap on my shirt. I didn't even care if she threw it on anything else… but it was my moms and… I didn't mean to hurt anybody…"

"Rachel, do you want to talk about your mother and why you got so upset over that shirt?"

"Its just I don't understand… I don't understand why she would just leave me with them… It was all I had left of the good times with her… Well what little I can remember…. And I just want to know why would she leave me with those monsters. What was so wrong with me that I deserved that?"

"Rachel, anything that those men did to you was not your fault and neither was your mother leaving you with them. You didn't do anything to deserve this, okay?"

Rachel sighed and nodded. She knew partially that the Dr. was right but she also still blamed herself and she knew that she wasn't going to change her mind.

"I don't want to talk about this anymore…" Rachel said as she bit her nails.

"Okay Rachel why don't we talk about how it's going with Dr. Gray."

"It's nice there. Comfortable. I like it a lot actually." She said.

"And how are you sleeping?" She asked.

"I… I have night terrors. Lexie's been letting me sleep with her so they aren't so bad…" Rachel said playing with her hands.

"These terrors would you like to talk about them?"

"Its always the same. My dad comes and finds me and makes me watch when he kills my new family. Then blames me I always wake up before he kills me next."

"Rachel you know your family wont let anything happen to you right? And that none of this is your fault."

"Look I get it okay yes it was not my fault fine but they never caught my father. They don't know where he is and I was put with the Grey's for my safety and obviously because the douche wasn't a fit parent but I'm not going to sit here and say that I'm not to blame when he resurfaces and he comes after them. Are we done here? I don't want to talk about this anymore."

Dr. Kay nodded after checking the time. "Yes, were finished. Ill see you next meting." Rachel took a deep breath and grabbed her bag before fleeing out of the door.

"I'm done." Rachel said as she found Lexie reading over files in the lobby.

"Hey, how'd it go?"

"Wonderful." Rachel deadpanned.

"Okay…. Umm ice cream?" Lexie smiled awkwardly hoping it would cheer Rachel up. Rachel smiled laughing quietly nodding. She knew Lexie was trying. Shit, they all were trying and Rachel knew it but it was hard for her. Having someone around who cared was something Rachel was not used to and she wasn't one to trust easily because everyone she trusted broke her trust. But she wasn't going to let that get in the way. She was going to try because so far these people were nice to her and gave her no reason to not trust them. So she grabbed Lexie's had as they made there way towards the car.

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Later after dinner Rachel was relaxing on her bed doing some studying and singing along to her ipod when her phone buzzed.

Hey tiny I'm having a little sleep over with some of my girls and the gleeks & you're invited. Be at my place at 4ish? – Santana

Thanks Tana for that warm invitation. I'd love to come let me just ask Meredith. – Rachel

Cool. Let me know so I can text you my address. – Santana

Rachel jumped up grinning. She had never had many friends and certainly had never been to a sleepover of any kind. She was excited to have been invited. She went down to the kitchen where her parents were cleaning up. She cleared her throat and nervously made her way into the kitchen not sure if they would say yes.

"Hey guys…. Umm well Santana you see… this girl from glee she umm.. she wanted to know if I… well if.."

"Rachel chill just ask sweetie." Meredith said as she and Derek laughed at how cute and shy Rachel was being.

"She's having this glee girls sleep over tomorrow night and she was wondering if I could go. Can I?"

"Sure sweetie you can go. Just call us if you need anything or if anything and I mean anything is wrong okay?"

"Okay thanks." Rachel said grinning as she walked away. "There's umm just one problem…" Rachel said as she turned around before leaving the kitchen.

"What's up?" Derek asked giving her a warm smile.

"I've umm never actually been to a sleep over before I'm not quite sure what to do there."

"Sit and I shall explain." Meredith said before shouting for Lexie.

"And when the girl talk begins it is my time to go." Rachel laughed as she pulled out a phone and shot a text to Santana.

My parents said its cool so I shall be there tomorrow. By the way I heard you stuck up for me with that cheerleader today so thank you for that. I owe you one. – Rachel

Hey it was my pleasure Ray-bear just as long as I can cash in on that favor whenever I want and its whatever I want ;) – Santana

LOL. Good night Tana see you tomorrow :* - Rachel

Rachel, Lexie, Meredith stayed up eating junk for another two hours having a mini mock sleepover in the living room. Rachel had a blast and it was a great way to make Rachel more comfortable at home as well as get to know some of Meredith and Lexie's childhood stories. Rachel went to sleep happily with Lexie not having any nightmares at all.