A/N: Hi there!

red wolf: Well, he will at some point get his memories back. And Alec will tell Lily.

high warlock: Ayanna and Michael are working now as 'cockblockers'. And let's say that Alec will try to get Magnus back.

Sophia: Not yet.

malecglitterfan: Indeed Lily needs her daddy.

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All characters belongs to Cassie, except for Lily and Ellie. They're mine.

This chapter is dedicated to AngelWithASeraphBlade because today is her b-day. Happy birthday dear, may your all wishes come true!

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Chapter XIV

"Get a grip on yourself!"

The 'trying to start a new life without Magnus' didn't go really well for me. I've managed to pull this fake behavior for three days. No tears, no whining, no wallowing myself in a pity.

But it only lasted for three days.

Unfortunately, my mind, as much as tried to change my heart, it wasn't an easy job. My mind couldn't trick my heart to not miss Magnus.

Every little thing reminded me of him. Mornings, when I prepare a breakfast for myself and my baby girl. In a habit I made two coffees, placed two plates with scrambled eggs. Even if I was in my parents' house, I acted like Magnus was there with us.

I couldn't sleep at night. The bed wasn't the same without him, even if it was my old bed. My body couldn't find a perfect…hell a comfortable position to sleep, because it missed Magnus's body next to it. So at nights I was observing my daughter as she slept, silently crying from my helplessness.

Looking at Lily, I tried to be strong, to not show her how much of a broken heart I have now. But it was a hell hard job to do.

Because I missed Magnus like crazy.

…

There he was, sitting in the coffee shop that he liked so much, with him. The sun was lighting his face in a beautiful way, showing his perfect cheekbones now covered with some foundation. At least something was familiar in this. His make-up. His golden-green cat-like eyes were sparkling when the other man was holding his hand, on the small round table. Magnus was smiling in his adorable way. He used to say that I'm adorable when I'm smiling, but dear lord, he was smiling so cute. Not smirking, but actually smiling. He pulled out that smile whenever I complimented him right from the bottom of my heart.

Today he was wearing his white skinny jeans, bought last year. I could recognize them everywhere. And cherry red shirt. Ayanna asked me to bring him some clothes from home, so it would look more 'naturally' that he still lives with Ayanna and Michael.

I was walking down the pavement, when Oliver caught my eyes. He smirked at me, before he kissed Magnus on the mouth.

Truth to be told, I thought that after another time it won't hurt me so much. But I was wrong.

It hurt like hell.

It was like my heart was breaking once again. And I was sure that it gave the satisfaction to that son of a bitch.

My eyes filled with tears as Magnus was willingly kissing him back. There was nothing more that I wanted to do than go there and punch Oliver in the face and scream at Magnus for doing such a thing. But I couldn't. Because Magnus wouldn't believe me anyway.

Oliver was too much of a good manipulator. He fed Magnus on lies, and my husband easily believed him.

The view was too much for me, so soon I turned on my heel and almost run away from there. Straight to our home.

Tears were streaking down my cheeks as my mind couldn't stop picture me the view of Magnus and Oliver kissing. It haunted me making me sick.

…

Glass from frames was shattered around the floor. Some pictures were ripped into tiny pieces. Colorful clothes scattered on the floor. Make-up stuff broken into two laying here and there in the bedroom. Turned upside down chairs in the living room.

And in the middle of that mess was me, sitting on the floor, with knees up to my chest. Face covered with dry tears. I didn't even have an ounce of strength to cry more. My eyes, they must have been bloody red now. My lips dry. My throat was in pain from all screaming into the air.

Around me there were many empty, or half empty glass bottles of alcohol.

I wasn't even sure how much I've drunk lately.

There was a loud banging on the door and some muffled screams coming from outside my apartment. But I could care less. My phone was ringing somewhere in the house, but again I didn't care.

Soon the three of them barged into my apartment.

"Told you that it's a bad smelling case" The blonde one said.

"Literally. Reeking" The red head woman popped in "God Alec you stink. When was the last time you took a shower?"

"What the fuck a…re you…doing here" They looked at me with a pity, anger and expectations in their eyes.

"Well" Isabelle started, sitting down on the couch next to Jace and Ellie "Mom said to us that you're off to work outside the city, for a week. But guess what. Peter, your boss, called mom's home…and you should be lucky that I was there and picked up. And he told us that you haven't showed up in work for a week. He asked if you're sick, because you don't answer your fucking phone"

"He didn't use word fucking, did he? He's too good for cursing" they didn't smile on my words.

"Alec what the hell is going on?" Jace asked, kneeling in front of me. He moved bottles to the wall, and took the one that I was holding.

"Jace, maybe you forgot…but my life is a shit now…"

"It's about Magnus?" Ellie sat down next to me, placing a hand over my knee. Isabelle kneeled next to me as well. "What happened?"

"I just can't take it anymore…he's there…fooling around with that fucker…and I…and I have to watch" new tears came to my eyes, but only two rolled down my cheeks. "I don't know what to do…"

"Well…as much as shitty situation is" My murderous glare turned at Jace as he spoke "The alcohol and wallowing yourself in a pity isn't a solution"

"And what better have I to do?"

"Not that" Ellie and Isabelle stated.

"I don't have anything else beside him. he's my everything" a whisper came out of my mouth, barely hearable.

"Let me remind you" Isabelle interrupted sharply "There's a little, seven years old girl, who's looking up to you. For whom you are the most important person. So don't fucking say that you don't have anything else. You have Lily. And you have us. And you can get Magnus back"

"Izzy's right. Just get a grip on yourself Alec, and stop this pity party"

"Is this some kind of intervention?" they all rolled their eyes on me.

"Sure is" Jace moved his hair from his eyes "If you can't collect yourself, than we have to shake your stupid head for it brother"

"Great" I mused.

"Look Alec" Ellie turned my head towards her, so now we were looking into each other's eyes "It's not a lost cause"

"How so, huh? Magnus believes he's with Oliver. He's with him. So tell me El, how's that not a lost cause?" She just shook a head on me "For me it's obvious"

"For once. Magnus's memories may come back anytime. And I believe it. Two, just because he doesn't remember you that it doesn't mean that you have to give up"

"But he doesn't know me!" I threw my arms in the air in an anger "He doesn't know me"

"He knows you, he just…his mind doesn't remember you" Ellie tapped my chest in a place where my heart was beating "But his heart knows you"

"Exactly" Jace pointed out "No matter how of a great liar this Oliver is, he can't trick Magnus's heart. And as much as I don't really like him, I know that Magnus loves you truly. He's like your glittery-rainbow-sparkly other half, brother"

"Oliver doesn't know him the way you do, Alec" Isabelle caressed my cheek "You know him better"

"So what?" the hopelessness in my voice was clearly hearable.

"You stupid man" Ellie sighed "If he fell in love with you once, he can do it again. Just make him fall in love with you Alec, once again"

That wasn't actually a bad idea. It could work. I could try to make Magnus fall in love with me again. After all he fell in love with me once, though I still don't know what had made him then, all those years ago. Now I had an advantage. I know Magnus better than anyone else. Maybe if he would fall in love with me again, we could be back together. Be a family again. It could be like before.

It was worth of try.

"You think I can do it?"

"Of course" they all smiled at me, nodding.

I will make Magnus fall in love with me again.

…

It took me two days to finally gather myself together.

No more drinking up my problems.

No more wallowing myself in a pity.

No more crying.

It's time to get my husband back.

But before that I had one person to apologize and talk to.

Lily was watching cartoons with Max and his girlfriend when I stepped into the living room of my parents' home. Christina was braiding her hair. When Lily spotted me, she jumped off the couch, letting her hair get loosely, as she sprinted towards me. She jumped straight into my arms.

"Papa!"

"Hey baby girl. I missed you so much" She placed a kiss over my lips.

"Me too! Did you bring me something from your trip?"

"Not this time baby" she pouted at me, making me silently laugh. She learned that from Magnus. It always works on me. "But I promise to make up to you for my absence by taking you for ice creams tomorrow?"

"Yay!"

"Now baby, let's go upstairs. I have to tell you something"

She was settled in the bed, me in front of her. She looked so beautiful there. My little princess. I just hoped that what I'm going to tell her won't break her little heart. But I couldn't hide it anymore from her.

"Sweetie. It's about your daddy"

"Is he finally coming home? He can get out of the hospital?"

"Baby…daddy isn't in the hospital anymore" she titled her head to the right in confusion, as she was blinking at me.

"So why didn't he come home to us? Where is daddy?"

"You need to hear me good honey. Daddy…" I took a brief pause, trying to explain it the easiest way to her, so she could actually understand what was going on. "Do you remember when daddy was sleeping long?"

"Yes"

"You see…when daddy woke up…some of his memories…he didn't remember them" she remained silent, so I spoke further "When daddy woke up, he thought that he's younger. That he is still in school. That he is fifteen"

"Like uncle Max?"

"Exactly" she nodded, tapping her finger on chin "But we told daddy how old is he for real. But the age…it wasn't the only thing that daddy forgot"

"What else?" she asked.

"Daddy also forgot me…" here it comes. I swallowed hard, before I said those words "He forgot us baby. You and me"

There was a long silence, filled with my racing heart, before I heard her melodic small voice.

"So if daddy doesn't remember us, is he still my daddy?"

"Of course princess. Magnus will always be your daddy. That will never change" I reassured her, by taking her into my arms, and kissing her on the top of her head. "He's always going to be your daddy. No matter he remembers that or not."

"Papa?" Lily asked as I tucked her in the bed, and lay next to her stroking her hair "Will daddy ever come back to us?"

"Baby girl…I promise you. I promise you that I'll do everything I can so daddy come back home to us" before she closed her eyes I whispered "I promise you Lily. I'll bring daddy back home"

I will make him love me again, and I will bring him back home.

I will do it.

I just need a good plan for it.

A/N: Did you like it?

See? Alec won't give up. He just needs to come up with a plan how to get Magnus back.

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