A/N: Hello!

red wolf : Really? Are you surprised by that? Oliver has a bag of cats in his mind right now, and he doesn't want to let go of Magnus.

malecglitterfan: It's Oliver, he had to pull something like that to keep Mags with himself.

high warlock: After all his a villain here, he has to do bad.

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Guest 2: That's me, all cruel.

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This chapter is dedicated to Meish PV, 'cause today (Saturady) is her birthday! Happy Birthday!

Enjoy the new one.

Chapter XX

"To lust after another man (that's not your husband) is a sin"

Depression is a state that I was currently being in. At least that's how my family and friends described it. I was drinking once again lots and lots of alcohol. I avoided eating, showering and contacts with my family and friends. I closed myself from everyone again. I was in this state for a week already. Since that night. The night he told me those words.

' it's over. I don't want to be around you anymore. I don't want to be with you.'

To say that it hurt me a is an understatement. I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. Like my own worst nightmare was played once again. The most horrible one nightmare. I felt like dying. The moment he told those words to me I knew that I lost him forever that he won't ever get back to me, to our life.

It was over.

Our fairytale was over.

And it was a damn time to move on.

…

It turned out, that moving on was a hard job to do. Almost impossible. I just threw myself into working, taking as much cases as I could. But that didn't help. I tried my best being both parents, but that didn't turned out well too. Lily was asking non-stop about Magnus. And once I snapped at her, because of it.

"He's not coming back!" tears were streaking her face, her small body was shaking, as she was looking at me. "He's not coming back baby"

"Why? Doesn't daddy love us anymore?"

"He's not coming back to us baby" I took her in my arms, pressing to my chest, kissing her forehead. "We just need to move on. It's just you and me now Princess, you and me"

It was hard on both of us. I lost the love of my life, my daughter lost her father. But I tried my best to fulfill this absence for her, by trying to do everything for her. We were spending as much time as we could together. We've become really close through this time. She's the only one that I've got now.

But even my baby girl couldn't fill the loss I was having in my heart.

…

Lately, I've found that alcohol and bars have become my best friends. Since I was living mostly at my parents place, so Lily was under someone's care all the time, I was having a time to go out. I've never liked going to pubs or bars, before. It was always Magnus's thing. But the past week showed me that these are actually good places to get drunk, and forget about the shit that was right now in my life.

"What can I get for you tonight, honey?" A blonde, long-legged woman, in a really tight, white shirt, showing a bit too much, asked me, batting her eyelashes on me.

"Whisky, please" she poured the brown liquid to the glass, and drop three cubes of ice. She passed me the glass, smiling playfully to me.

"You're so handsome…what's your name?"

"Alec. And honey…I'm not playing for your team" for a second there was a frown on her face, maybe even disgust, but I decided to brush it off. After all those years, being with the walking rainbow, I was adjusted to people's reactions.

"Like always" she muttered, while she poured another drink for someone "The most hot guys are gays"

She prepared me another drink, and moved to other customers. I've been sipping it slowly, enjoying the rich taste of it. People around me were talking, screaming at some game in TV.

That's when I heard my name.

"Alec?" A male voice said behind my back. I turned my head around and saw him. He looked exactly as the day I met him, minus the ridiculous suit. Today he was wearing straight, light jeans, green shirt that matched his eyes. His black hair, shortened a bit, were put up with gel tonight. He looked quite good, even more. He looked handsome.

"Hey, Jake?" he nodded.

"I've never seen you here before" he came closer to me "Mind if I sit?"

"Go ahead" he smiled at me, making me smile as well. "So, what brings you tonight here?"

"I was supposed to meet this guy here, but apparently he stood me up. Not the first time" his voice was a bit hurt. As in on instinct I placed a hand over his hand, and slightly brushed it. "And you?"

"Drinking up my problems" there was a trace of embarrassment in my voice.

"I'm good at listening" he offered.

And that's how I poured my heart out to the guy I've met three weeks ago. I told him about everything, straight from the times when Magnus and I were still in high school, through my illness. How we went on our first trip together. How we got married. How we adopted Lily, how she changed us. How Magnus started to meeting with that motherfucker. About the accident, the memory loss. About how I tried to win his heart again. About how he told me it's over.

And Jake was listening me, comforting me, wiping my tears occasionally, when they fell.

It was strange, that I found myself being so naturally around him, that it was so easy to talk to him. I felt like we've been knowing each other's for years.

And since that night at the bar, we started to meeting more frequently.

We started with only going for some drinks, more talking. Then came the time, that I asked him out on a dinner. After my siblings told me that he's good for me, that it's nice that I'm not shutting myself from moving on with another man.

So that's how we ended up in a French restaurant, sipping red wine and eating oysters.

"It's disgusting" he said "So slippery"

"You've never ate it before?" Jake shook his head. "Perhaps you'd like it better with lemon. Like this"

I squeezed some juice from the lemon straight on the oyster, and handed it to him. When our hands brushed I couldn't not blush. When he put the edge of the oyster in his mouth and titled up his head to swallow it, I couldn't take my eyes off of him. His skin was a bit tanned, and it seemed to be soft in touch. Makes me want to touch it.

"Well…ok…you were right" he licked his lips in too sensual way "With lemon it's way better"

After our first dinner, date? Could I even call it a date? We started to go out even more. He was so great. In the past two weeks we meet like six times. Bars, dinners, hell, he even took me to the movies. Some action movie. I wasn't used to seeing such movies in the Cinema. Magnus always wanted to watch some romantic stuff, that in the end made him either in the mood or crying. And here with Jake, it was entirely different.

"Are you up for some classic?" he called me one day, while I was still in work, filling some papers

"Classic? What do you mean?"

"There's an under stars- classic movies display tonight, in the car-theater." Jake explained. "I thought we could go, if you want"

"Mr. Whitelaw, are you asking me on a romantic date?" there was a smile as well as slightly blush on my face, as I spoke through the phone, with a pen in my mouth.

"Yes" there was a short silence break between us, and I could hear his rapid breaths.

"With a pleasure" A sigh of relief came from his side

"I'll pick you up, from your parent's home, at seven?"

"Sounds good. I'll see you then"

Later in home, after the shower I was deciding what to wear. Something casual, wasn't an option. Inside my mind I wanted to impress Jake, to look nice for him. And that made me confused, because I haven't felt like that in years. There wasn't a person that I wanted to impress for a while now.

"Princess, what do you think? Which one shirt should I wear?" I was holding up two shirts, light blue and a denim shirt.

"Where are you going papa?" she was sitting on the middle of the bed in my old bedroom. Lately, we've been sharing it, since she refused to be away from me. I didn't really mind. It was good to have her close.

"Out, with a…friend"

"And me?" she inquired.

"You my Princess, are going to sleep. It's almost seven. Grandma will prepare you a bath" she was shaking her head at me with a frown on her face.

"I don't wanna. I wanna go with you" she whined, folding her arms on chest.

"Baby girl" I sat on the bed next to her "I promise you, that tomorrow, since it'll be Saturday, you and me, are going to spend all day together. We'll go to ZOO, ok? And for some ice creams?"

"And a chocolate cake?" she smiled widely at me.

"Deal, baby. I love you so much"

"I love you too papa! Have fun with your friend!"

When Jake picked me up, he went all gentleman on me. Opening the door for me, smiling at me. Complementing my attire. With every second I was more and more charmed by him.

There were many cars here, but we've managed to find a place to park the car and see the screen. And what car it was, a red Jaguar E-Type.

"It's a great car" there was a slight blush at his cheeks, when I said it.

"It belonged to my grandpa. He gave it to me before he died" a sad smile crept onto his face. Immediately, I took his hand in mine and caressed it. "I renovated it, and it's been waiting in my garage for the proper occasion. Like this one"

Now I was the one with red cheeks.

Some movie started to play, but honestly, I couldn't focus on it. I was more focused on Jake, as he had his eyes glued to the screen. The moonlight was falling on him, making him look truly beautiful. The sharp lines of his face were even more sharper in the light. His jade eyes were sparkling, not only from the light of the screen. He was sitting all relaxed, with his hands placed loosely on his knees. His black hair, today gelled up as well into small spikes, looked really great.

He looked simply beautiful.

…

With every next date, I was more and more attracted to Jake. It was crazy, because I thought that no one will ever attract me sexually, not after Magnus. And here, I was surprised, how much I've craved for Jake.

Ellie was telling me to let myself fall for this attraction. To give in to it. Isabelle was telling the same. Jace, my beloved brother, said that it's my choice, though he said, that it will be really ok, if I'll start with Jake now.

And I wanted, oh how I wanted it. He made me smile, laugh, free. Free from my problems, my shitty life.

He made me forget about how hurt I was…I am. Not entirely, but still.

He just…he helped me get over, as if I could. He helped me move on, even if only a little.

But even if my mind was ok with giving in to the sexual needs, to lust that I've felt for Jake. My heart wasn't really ok with it.

We were watching some movie at his place, some action movie, but I could care less. Sitting next to each other on his couch. Jake was laughing at something, and I couldn't stop admire this amazing laugh. Then, he seemed to catch me on watching him.

"Do I have something on my face?"

"No" my face felt warmer, when he was staring at me with those incredible green eyes.

"But I think you have something" he smiled playfully at me, before he moved his face closer to mine.

"Oh really? Where?" he grabbed my chin in his hand and moved his face even closer than before. We were almost touching by noses now.

"Just, right here"

He captured my lips with his, in, a slowly at first, kiss. It was strange how good our lips moved together, like in a sync. He was tasting like a whisky, that he drank not so long ago. Jake licked my upper lip, and before I realize it, he slipped his tongue inside my mouth. Now we were fighting for a dominance. In no time, I was laying on the couch, with Jake hovering me. One of his knee was between my legs, slowly rubbing the insides of my thighs. His one hand moved from my neck, down my chest, and underneath my shirt, sending shivers down my spine. I couldn't stop that moan in the back of my throat. He was trailing his hand all over my chest, when the other one moved to the buckle of my belt.

It felt great, but then. Then it happened.

I was into it so much, when Magnus's face popped in my mind. A moan with his name, almost escaped my mouth. Then I realized what am I doing.

And I froze underneath Jake. The said man pulled away from me, with a confusion on his face.

"Did I do something?" his voice full of insecurity.

"No, no, no" he moved away from me, and I sat up, fixing my shirt. "It's not you, it's me…or rather my husband. I'm so sorry…"

"It's ok…you're not ready, I get it" the smile on his face, was obviously faked. A hurt in his green eyes showed me his truly feelings. "You need more time…"

"I hate myself for it…I'm so sorry, really" I grabbed his hand in mine "I really enjoyed the kiss, and I wanted it. I swear that I wanted it, but…"

"But it's too soon" he finished it, and I nodded "I get it Alec. You loved him, you still love him. He's your husband. And from what I heard from you, this is a true love. Was a true love. You can recover from something like that so easily"

"Yeah…but still…I'm so sorry for how it turned…"

"You really need to stop apologizing" now a wide smile came up on his face. "One day you'll be ready, and for now…I'm happy with what we have…we don't have to jump to the bed so soon. I don't like you just because you have a hot body. I like you for you"

"I like you too"

"Let's watch another movie" he took the remote and played some other action movie, making me silently laugh at him.

Maybe one day I'll be ready to let go of Magnus and what we had, and then, maybe I'll open my heart for someone else.

A/N: Did you like it?

See? I gave Alec something nice in his life now. Isn't Jake great for him?

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