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Chapter XXI
"Sick love"
Lately, I've been feeling like I'm watching movies non-stop. Movies that I'm playing the main role in.
'Welcome to Magnus's Bane show. Starring Magnus Bane'
But this show wasn't the funny kind. No, it was tragic.
More and more memories were coming back to me on daily basis. Making me more confused and like myself on the same time. The memories were mostly about Alec and Lily. I remember right how Alec got sick, how he almost died. My heart was clutching in a pain at this memory I remember our very first date, times when he was tutoring me my mom's home I found an album with photos of me and Alec from high school and a few years further, photos from my 19 birthday, from mom and Michael's wedding.
We looked so happy. So in love. And I missed that so much, missed him so much.
...
A week after that call, Alec stopped calling me. I admit it hurt me. I had hoped believed that he won't give up on me. But on the other hand I was the one that demanded to be left alone. I couldn't let myself being dragged into this hell again. It was entirely strange. I didn't remember a single time that Alec hit me. I remembered shouts, glares, bruises on my body, but not hits. whenever i thought about it just didn't seem right. I didn't know what to think, but somewhere inside of me, all of it seemed wrong, like a lie. Of course Oliver explained that I don't remember hits because they were too dramatic and my brain refuses to remember it. I wasn't fully convinced to it. I felt that something is really not right here.
And with that I decided to finally discover it on my own.
...
"So what did you tell him so he let you come here?" Ragnor was bouncing Drew on his knee, the little boy was giggling.
"I'm on shopping..." there was a lot of shame in my voice. Lately Oliver was keeping me, literally, away from my friends. He never let me go, repeating that Alec may be somewhere there, waiting for me. And that I'm safe with him.
Ragnor just shook his head at me
"So what are you doing here?"
"I need you to tell me the truth" he raised an eyebrow at me "Please... I feel that I'm not living my life... that this isn't right..."
"Sure it isn't" he interrupted "Mom! Can you take Drew outside?" soon a blonde haired, middle-aged woman came inside the living room and took the boy out. Ragnor sat down on the couch again, staring at Magnus. "Tell me, what did he tell you? When I saw Alec two weeks ago, when he came to his dad...he wasn't good. He said it's over, that you told him that, and that you remember..."
"He abused me!" Ragnor cut off himself and stared in a shock at me, blinking repeatedly. He opened his mouth to speak but none word came out from him "Alec abused…"
"That son of a bitch! I can't believe it!" he got up from the couch, throwing his arms in the air angrily "What a fucking liar! A psychopath! Son of a bitch!"
"Ragnor!"
"Fuck! I knew that he's crazy" he exclaimed "But this…this is beyond anything!" I opened my mouth to speak, but Ragnor was first "He told you that Alec abused you?" A nod from me "This is sick, Magnus! Oliver was the one that abused you!"
"What?!"
"Since we were sophomores, and you got together with him" he was saying "He abused you, for a few months that you were with him"
"A few months?" a small whisper escaped my lips.
"You honestly believe that you are for all those years with Oliver?" once again I was confused as hell "It's been too long. I still don't get it, why Alec put up with this farce for so long. He was so afraid that something will happen to you again. But I have enough of this shit! I'm finishing it before it'll get worse" he didn't let me say a word again "You're not Oliver for ten years. You're married to Alec for four years"
All of it seemed as an unreal story, yet familiar.
"Just wait" he opened a cabinet and took out an album with photos. He opened it in the middle and shoved to my hands. There was a photo of me and Alec in suits, holding hands, kissing. The place we were in was beautifully decorated.
'Magnus Bane will you do me the honor and marry me?'
'I will marry you. Of course I will marry you'
'And I promise to love you with every single beat of my heart till death do us part'
'And I pronounce you Mr. and Mr. Lightwood'
"He's my husband…" a realization struck me, followed by a single tear. The next I saw our wedding night, and many more.
"You have a seven years old daughter…"
"Lily…"
"Yes, Lily Evelyn 'Bane' Lightwood. Yours and Alec's adopted daughter"
"I remember her…" I sighed with a pain in my voice. As it on a cue my mind filled with memories about her and me, and Alec. Making my heart more hurt.
"Yeah, she missed you like crazy…"
"I need to see my baby…" he smiled ghostly at me, as I got up and moved to the door "I have to go back to my family!"
"Magnus wait! I have to…" the rest of it I didn't hear, as I raced out of his place.
I needed to get back my precious family.
…
Anger, even more, rage was the feeling that consumed my body, mind and heart, after I left Ragnor's place. It was pulsing through my veins, blood was boiling inside of me. I couldn't believe how stupid I was to believe Oliver in every word, when I felt in my heart that it's not real. My heart was telling me the truth, but my mind was blinded by the fake reality, fake…or maybe real feelings of Oliver. God knows, maybe he loves me in his own way, but that doesn't change the fact that he was lying to me all the time.
There weren't even words to describe how I felt, when the memories came back to me. My heart was almost burning with the pain I felt. My heart was aching, at every small thing from my life that hit me. Things in my old room, at my parents' home, were flying as I threw them, screaming at the top of my lungs. I wanted to destroy things now, to destroy everything around me. Everything that reminded me of Oliver.
"Where have you been?" his voice interrupted me. As it on a cue, my eyes burned with hatred. I could feel that my body is on fire now from all those feelings. I watched him with loathness in my eyes. "Who normal is talking so long at shopping…"
"I hate you!" he narrowed his eyebrows and looked at me warily. "I hate you so much!"
"Wha…"
"You ruined my life!" my voice was never this loud and full of hate and hurt. "I remember! I remember everything!"
"Do you?"
"How could you do this to me?! You manipulated me! You took everything from me!" he titled his head to the right then left. "I hate you so fucking much!"
"Shut the fuck up!" he came closer to me, his eyes darkened with anger as well, his breath hitched. "You take those words back! You love me! You love me!"
"I have NEVER EVER loved you!" I spit every word with as much rage as I could "And I never will!"
"I told you to shut up!" He hit me with so much force, that I fell to the floor, hitting slightly my head on the floor. Blood was trailing down my chin from the broken lip. "You love me!"
"No! I hate you!" I got up, and hit him as well. I was no longer this afraid little boy. "I'm not afraid of you! You can hit me as much as you want! I will fight back!"
He wiped the blood from his lips, smiling to me in a sick devilish way. I've never seen him like that. I admit it scared me, but I was too much angry at the same time.
"You took everything from me! You took me away from my family! I will never, ever forgive you this! I hate you!" he wasn't even taking my words to himself. It's like I was talking to myself. "How I could be ever so stupid to fall in love with you, all those years ago?! You're nothing more than a fucking liar, that uses peop…" another hit on my burning cheek.
"I love you! I loved you for all those years!" he spoke through his teeth "No one will ever love you the way I do!"
"I don't care! I hate you! I love Alec and only him!" he grabbed my throat, and pushed me to the wall "I love…Alec…and I will love him…for…ever…"
"Shut up! You don't love him! You love me! Me!" he was shaking his head, gripping my throat even tighter than a second before " You love me! And I love you!"
"N…No!" I've managed to breathe out "I love Alec! Alec! Alec! and I'll…I'll…be with…him…only…him…"
"No!" there must have been bruises on my throat by now, as he was choking me "You belong with me! With me! He will never love you like I do! You belong with me!"
"I belong with…with…with Alec…"
A moment, second passed, and there was a cold metal on my throat, pressing into my skin. I couldn't even recall how, when did he took this metal, this blade. And most importantly, from where he took it? Oliver was pressing it to my throat, muttering something to himself, something that sounded like.
'you love me, you love me, you love me. He loves me! You're wrong, he loves me, he loves me. Maggie loves me, he always had, Maggie loves me'
It's almost like he has been talking to himself, or with someone in his mind.
In that second I understood. I understood that his illness turned worse.
'I'm afraid you may be a victim of his attack' Alec's voice played in my mind. How very fitting it was to this situation.
I remained still, as Oliver was fighting with his own thoughts, being afraid to make even some noise. My breath was hitched, my heart was hammering.
"I love you" he stated firmly "And you will stay with me, forever!"
"Then kill me" it came out from my mouth "Because I rather die, than be with you!"
Something wet rolled down my neck, as he drew the blade away. It turned out that it was scissors from my desk. I still couldn't understand how did he get them in the first place.
"I would never hurt you" his voice now was softer. His hazel eyes gleamed, as there were tears building up in them. "I love you Magnus, love you so much"
"Stop it…I don't love you!" I spat out, wiping the bloody drop from my neck "You hurt me beyond anything! You've manipulated me into thinking that I'm with you! That I love you! You drew me away from the people I love the most! From people that loves me! You manipulated me! You used me! And for that I hate you, I hate you so much!"
"Please…" tears were running down his cheeks, making me hate him even more. "I only did it to keep you with me! I love you so much! I know you love me too! Not him! Me, you love me!"
"No! Get that to your sick mind! I love only Alexander, and I will always love him!" there was a sound of closing door, following by footsteps "I love Alexander, and I'll be with him"
"What if he won't take you back?" he took one step closer to me, as I moved to the door more. We were almost dancing. One step closer, one step back. Me closer to the door. "Thought about it? He won't take you back now, because you are mine! Only mine!"
"Then I'll be alone, but I won't be with you for sure! Never again! And I swear if you try to come close to me…"
"Maybe I should take care of him first…and your daug…"
"Touch them and I'll kill you!" those were words that shouted at him, before I punched him the hardest I could. He landed on the floor, hitting his head. But soon he recovered. When he looked at me again, his eyes were full of confusion, he was shaking his head, muttering nonstop.
"I love you Maggie…please don't leave me…I can't live without you" and just then he did something that I've never expected. He grabbed the scissors once again in a swift move, and slit both of his wrists. That made me stiff and shocked. "Please don't leave me…I love you…"
Blood was dripping fast from his wrists straight on my white carpet, as he was looking at me with plea in his hazel eyes. Tears streaking down his cheeks.
"I love you Maggie, I love you…tell me you love me…"
"What the…" in this very moment, Michael and my mom barged to my old bedroom, with fear and shock written all over their faces. "Fuck…"
"I love you Maggie, please…please…don't leave me…I love you…" more and more blood were dripping from his wrists, before he faltered and dropped down to the floor. Michael rushed to his side, pressing a sheet to his opened wounds. Oliver's eyes were rolling, as his head was shaking. It scared me, truly scared me. "You belong to me! You belong to me!"
"Call 911!" Michael shouted to my mom. She immediately rushed downstairs.
"You are mine! You are mine Magnus!" he pushed Michael away, dropping the sheet to the floor. He didn't have any strength to get up, so he crawled a bit "You're always going to be mine, and mine only. You're mine forever!"
"I hope you will rot in a hell for what you've done to me! You're dead to me!" those were my last words towards him, before I rushed outside my mom's home, not caring what will happen with Oliver.
Finally I was free.
And it was about time I go back to my family.
…
My hands, my whole body trembled, as I stood in front of the door of my own home. Tears were building up in my eyes, at thoughts of what I can hear in seconds.
What will Alec do?
What will he say?
Will he take me back?
With a hammering heart I raised my fist to knock.
He opened after a minute. His hair were ruffled, shirt opened with three buttons. His beautiful blue eyes filled with confusion as he looked me in the eye.
There was a long silence between us for a while. Lots of thoughts were flying through my mind. A strange muffled sounds came from our home.
A small smile crept onto my lips, before I spoke
"I remember…"
A/N: Did you like it?
A small explanation: I'm leaving an open ending for Oliver. It's up to you to decide on your own, if Oliver got to the hospital on the time, if they saved him, took him to some mental hospital or if he died. You can decide on your own what he deserves. I'm not going to write in the epilogue what in my mind happened with him, so all of us could be satisfied. If you want, you can kill him in your minds. I think this is the best solution.
As well, it won't be in a story anymore, but I thought about it as a One-shot. To show you what was going on with Oliver during this chapter, and why did he act the way he did. But that only if you want. I have ideas for it, but I want to know if you're interested in seeing Oliver's pov on this.
Ah! The next one is the LAST one. Probably Thursday or so. This week for sure!
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Lots of love
Intoxic