They say that there's no one that can be called as true love.
But, the most unexpected thing is, a totally jerk man, has prove it.
Aomine Daiki, the infamous jerk of Toou Gakuen, sacrifing his own happiness for his loved one
.
No, he's not doing something as cheesy as in soap operas Satsuki watch. As we recall, he is one jerk that cold towards anyone's kindness and kind acts. Actually, he's not like that , just being (fail) tsundere.
He break up with his lover, when cannot bring himself imagining his crying lover over his death.
He deeply in love that it hurts him internally, broke him more than any terminal disease out there.
When the doctor broke the news , he felt that a small little world of his shattered into pieces .
" My apologize to broke this news ,especially to a bright-future youngster like you, Aomine-kun. My son used to chat about his former teammate and how talented you are in basketball. But, medical test cannot lies... you diagnosed on suffering a nasal or sinus cancer. You're nosebleed had turn mutated genetically and develop into a form of tumor. And caused by the late discovery,it has reached the cronic stage. Still, you can have some medical treatments, to held it developed faster, but i can't guarantee that you'll heal. I'm deeply apologize..."
Oh, how longing he is to laugh in irony of that.
What did he done that deserve such a fate ? As he recall, he didn't knocked up and dumb a girl, heck– he even ever made love with someone and that someone is his current date– a male.
Ah, maybe that's why.
This is punishment for him.
To denying law of nature. Yin and Yang. Men and women.
As if his love is not enough, as of he didn't prove enough that he's serious being with his beloved.
So, what he must to do know ? Broke the news ? No no nooo, Kagami will be freak out or maybe bursting like the one in soap opera does. Nah, maybe not. He's not that sissy.
... what did he do now ?
Watching his beloved cook for him, chat with him, watch a hell of action-packed movie with him, cuddling to him, is a pure torture.
It's like he played with his heart and leave for good. Guilty eaten him. Even a smile seems fake for him.
He know that Kagami felt something off about him. Yet, he kept their usual banter, lovely sparks, and their daily comments like nothing happened at all. Now, he felt anger , too himself, for being selfish.
They about reaching the door step when Kagamiblured out,
" Naa, if is there something bothering you, you could just ask ... –"
Stop it, bakagami ...
" – there's no need to bottled up your struggling, uh .. maybe that's not the right words ... well–"
Stop being cute ,bakagami. Your being clueless make me sinner like i can't get more sinner.
" – aren't we .. lovers ?"
That's it.
He shut the red spurt before blabbering more heartbreaking ( too aomine case) words with his lips.
They kept savoring their lips in bliss. Oh, how much sinful he can get for deserving this plum lips ?, Aomine bantered with himself. He broke the kiss for a good five minutes with loving yet sad eyes. Kagami blinked his eyes,being sinfully cute.
" ... yeah "
Kagami bruised his finger into his cheek, and he grapsed his lover's hands and snuggling it. Kissing the hands.
" .. Kagami .."
" Yes ? Aomine ? ..."
He decided. He would protect this innocent face of his lover, even it would meant for him to leave .
For good.
He took a deep breath. God, he would regret this.
" .. doesn't matter what will happen to us, don't forget that i love you, and there's nothing compared my feelings to you. Doesn't matter what i'd say in near future, but i'll always laid my eyes on you..."
" –huh ? What are you talking about , Aomine ? Are you sick ? Do you need a medicine ?"
I'm sick, Bakagami... I'm sick ... why can't u see that ?
Please save me. want to yell like that to his adorable tiger, but his inner side begged not to.
It's needed.
Just for tonight, he want being selfish–for himself. Before he gone.
Before he gone.
Just left him savoured his last remaining times with his tiger for the last time.
They had a precious time together. Heck, he even didn't remember about his illness 'cause he's too absorbed to his consuming time with Kagami. They spend time together more frequently, even lust seems more tense for both of them.
When he played PS3 in Kagami's house, he is too absorbed to the game that he didn't realize that blood pouring from his nose .
It's Kagami that freak out and grab a nearby tissue to clean it out.
" Geez, stop fantasizing something pervert when we played a f*ckin' PS3 ,Aho ! " , he bruised it with thin laugh–being clueless or blind to the world.
Like being slapped right into the face, he clapsed his palm into his mouth.
Shit, he had forgotten what must he do last week !
He stared at Kagami, his adorable majitenshi. Beside the spurt's perfect toned build and wild-manly features, he's a heck of embodiment of delicate hearts. Maybe he was hardworker (or maybe stubborn) ,fierce basketball player in the court, but as human being, he's too softy.
And he need to broke it. Wiped that pure happiness face with sorrow–for good.
" .. yeah. "
Nah, maybe today is his last day with his angel.
Please, let him savoured this remaing ti–
" ughhh..."
A sound of dashing on the floor broke his dazed. And he can't found the spurt in front of him. He glance around and spotted Kagami, pouring out his last meal into the wastafel.
It has been three weeks, before the hospital discovery. It hurts looking at his bakagami being sick every morning.
Bu-but wait !
... th-three weeks ...
Is it what he is thinking about ?
No way ...
Kagami back to his side, picking his stick and back to game. He snudge a little to his side, eyes keep glued on the screen . His face is pale, but a loving face still radiating,though looked dull.
But, he didn't realize that the man he's leaning with is frozen. Stupified with more heartbreaking realization.
For the first time in his life, he thinks that he's not enough jerk to get an award before, and today he exceed the title.
He felt messed up.
I hurt him.
He fuckin' hurt him.
Seeing his angel lost one of his wings and cannot fly back to heaven torn his heart.
He loves Kagami. And yet he failed him.
He cannot protect him anymore, is there any point of relationship if he would gone for God-know-when ?
But, the most thing he afraid of is, not being in his beloved side ,witnessing the birth of their fruit of love.
Yes. Kagami is pregnant. And he cannot allowed that.
No no noo. Its not like he hate being father of his child, especially with his Kagami. He's beyond overjoyed. But he know that he's not allowed to felt that way.
The kid need two parents. A normal family. It's weird enough having two father in family, but it's crueler remembering one of the said father would leaving them one day. Bakagami can marry, after the kid born, giving them a proper family, a family consist on a father and a female mother.
They don't need a father that cannot protect them from harm's things, to hug them when they cried in his arms, to rustling their headwith proud when they achieve something . They don't need a father that only lies in the earth, when his child need him.
He cried silently.
The waiter giving him a weird look. Another costumer just ignore him, knowing that he need time alone is his misery.
He sipped a glass of water, trying to calm himself down.
And he spotted red. On the side of his glass. He raised his thin eyebrows. Wha–
" .. Aomine-kun ?"
He jerked.
" What the hell ,Tetsu !?"
" ...i see Kagami-kun is dashing off just now. What happened to both of you?"
" Shut up, tetsu ..."
" By the way, Aomine-kun .."
" Whatt ?"
" Nosebleed. It's pouring heavily "
Aomine shocked, reaching for his bag, bringing out a box of tissue and some medicine . He wiped his nose clean and shut it with twirled tissue. He reached the medicine, open the container, and take a big gulp of two tablets . Suddenly, he felt his head spinning for a while, and then his nose fibrated in a painful way, like he would pour more blood than before. Tetsu ,who's still standing beside him keep staring with incredulous eyes, and widened when he spotted the label of the medicine.
" Aomine-kun, don't tell me you –"
" Tetsu, .. i know .. i used to be a jerk .. to you ... but, please ... just this once–"
" –Aomine-kun ..?"
" – .. please keep this from Kagami ... i beg you ..–"
And before completing his words, a darkness surrrounded him,with a yelp of his names and footsteps.
His palms felt numb. And weird pipe stuck on his nose . He can heard some grumblings and a utensils being removed . Where is he ?
It's hard to open his eyes. Yet, he forced it open, a white surrounding welcoming his sense.
... is he in hospital now ?, he wondered.
He glanced arround, trying to notice his surroundings. He felt a hard stare beside him. And he schocked.
The rest of Generation of Miracle, even Kagami's brother and Kuroko were there,minus Kagami. It relieved him somehow ,not wanting to see a sad eyes of his lover–no, ex-lover.
That Himuro guy is calm to his liking. But he can recognized the look of anger, pity, a tiny bit of concern, and confusion.
Akashi just having a chat with the nurse, and dissapeared.
Midorima sit on the chair besode the window the left side of his hospital bed. Papers in his hands. He wondered if its his medical paper.
Murasakibara still muching on his maiubo. Didn't care of world. But his eyes is in the middle of soft and hard ,like his partner.
Momoi is the most bombastic hyperbolized than others. She cried with all of she got and clenching his blanket, Kuroko calming her with rubbing her back . There's no way he would do far, remembering what would the Emperor do if he caught his lover in a very- convincing pose with the pink haired beauty (that fallen hard to baby blue lad too).
His heart clenched at the sight of his childhood friend. He didn't intend to blabbering his state no anyone, less not-to- outsider like Himuro. It's not like he's not jerk enough to break more heart for his pathetic state.
"Minna ...", he whispered
Momoi is the one that speak, " AHOmine ! Why didn't you say anything ?"
He gritted his teeth.
" ... Silly. I–"
SLAP
His eyes widened. He brushed his achin' cheek. Shit, it hurts.
Dark blue met baby blue.
The lighter haired man still hang his hands, as if he want to do a round two of the bitch-slap.
He grutted his teeth, " Did you know what did you do to Kagami-kun ?"
Never in billion years he would imagine how angered his bestfriend is . The famous pokerface cracked, revealing a burning passion to beat him up into a pulp. He hissed, didn't affect at his ex-partner's expression. He kept looking at the window, absorving the scent of medicine. Really, he want to puke.
His tanned hands cleched into fist. He closed his eyes.
A glimpse of red passing his thoughts.
" ...I'm sorry, guys ..but, please ... it–it's complicate–"
SLAP
And this time is from his ex-lover's adopted brother.
Murasakibara stop his munching, take it a bug gulp and staring at his lover with the same widened eyes as everyone. No one expected that Himuro would burst to. He look like a loving and kind type. Well, he is overprotective brother anyway, aside from the ring incident.
Pure anger radiating his eyes, " DO YOU KNOW WHAT PAIN TAIGA ENDURED WHEN YOU LAY OUT HERE, DIDN'T FRIGGIN' DOING ANYTHING ? HE'S DAMN PREGNAT, YOU JERK ! HE CRIED ! AND WHEN YOU HAVE A TIME TO FIX EVERYTHING OUT, YOU DUMP HIM ? WHAT THE HELL IS YOU PROBLEM ?" , he barked.
Aomine titled his head, and everyone in his hospital room is shocked.
They silenced all together.
" ... i don't care what do you think of me. But it need to be done."
" But–"
" No buts. I've decided. I won't engaged in any contacts with Kagami. And all of you would keep my real condition in secret ."
" Are you crazy, Ahomine ? You–"
" Do you think that i'd leave him ? Really ... how long did i knew u guys ? All of you ought to know better . Figure it out."
" ... "
" ... Aomine-kun, i just to ask you two things ..."
" ... what ?"
" Do you .. love him ?"
" ... you didn't know how much i head over heels to him ..."
" Then why ..?"
" ... It needed to be–"
" You–"
" Cut it out, Emo-guy. I don't care and didn't bother you to get involved into this. I'm okay enough you're there because you're Kagami's beloved brother.."
" So wh–"
" – That's why, all of you need to help me out . To protect him when i can't "
" ... I'm sorry, Aomine-kun, but what do you mean by 'protect' ?"
He glanced to his green-haired fellow, and the said carrot nodded (if u knew who i talkin about)
" Male pregnancy is a delicate case, remembering the rarity of the occurence. It's not just a usual pregnancy case, added some facts that Kagami is still in his adolescene age, his reproductional organs makes its possible to conceive, but just a single contraction, all of disadvantage will bided to him." , he said as he fixed his glasses nervously.
All of them in that room is silenced.
For another looong awkwad five minutes,Kuroko break the silence,
" So .. If in any case Aomine-kun left earlier before Kagami-kun's birth
.. the child will ? "
" Not only the child. Kagami will die due too much stress , both in his inside and outside ."
The room silenced for another grieve atmosphere. Akashi that since-when-entering tapping his feet on the floor. Midorima back to his papers, kept concentrate. Murasakibara lose his appetite, comforting his raven boyfriend. As the said boyfriend is sulking and grieving, some possible (bad) scenario rolling in his head about his dear brother.
He gave up.
" So, we just need to kept Taiga in dark ? And he and the child will be safe ?"
" Hi-himuro-san–"
"Are you sure ?"
" No matter Aomine said, i don't think that we can keep silence forever from Kagami !"
Some (noisy) Kiseki no Sedai kept protesting, begging Himuro to tell Aomine to give up and tell the truth to Kagami. But the raven just stood still, shutting his eyes and trying to calm himself. He didn't know what to do. It's a truth that he loves his brother that he want his Taiga to be happy, but, is this revealation would bring happiness to Taiga ? If only he know this would happen, he'd try his best to prevent the tanned Toou ace to dating his brother. And things won't be complicate like this.
He opened his eyes, determination and surrender flaming in those pair of eyes.
" It's final then . Me and Atsushi will keep this matter out from Taiga. But, please, if you by any chance meeting him somewhere, please don't ignore him. I know that it's hard for you, and by acting that way, it's look like you're giving him false hope,but just– hust give him a simple smile and walk away. It' hard for him too ,bearing your child without your assisstance, believing that you dumped him badly. Please, just this ... " , he clenched his fist, and hiding his watering silver eyes with his bangs. Murasakibara approaching him and patting his back, trying to calm his boyfriend.
Aomine nodded.
" So, what about you guys ? "
Silence
" I don't know when i'll gone, so .. just grant this selfish wish of me ."
If only he can given more time to rewind everything, maybe he made like he never met Taiga. But is it the best ? Nah, he will turn back time totime if he could met him, if it just a second.
He didn't regret this. It's a personal obligation of his now.
And a day after that, A Kagami Taiga went back to America. Without knowing anything and left anything behind for sixteen years.
To Be Continued
Note : Man, i reallllyy need beta reader ...