Hearts Afraid Of Breaking Chapter 33: Don't Want To Miss A Thing (Bess-George), a tudors fanfic

A/N:GreenField's who absolutely loves this song, and it's another one that reminds her of Elizabeth and George's relationship. ELIZABETH'S POV. Song is Don't Wanna Miss a Thing by Aerosmith.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I never dreamed that I would ever fall in love with someone who loves me so deeply in return. When I was four years of age I fell in love with George, and I thought that he would always think of me as a child, his little sister, almost, for our whole lives. Even when I decided that I would make him love me, I never thought that it would work. And now here we are.

He sleeps beside me, a smile on his lips, his arm around me. I wonder if it is me that he thinks of, day in, day out, every day, like I do with him. I wonder if it is my face that haunts his dream, my laugh that rings in his ears. I love him, I could never have it any other way.

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I look at him, reach out to brush my fingers lightly through his dark curly hair, stroke my fingertips over his smiling lips, his strong jaw, his firm brow, his palely bruised eyelids. I remember everything that has passed between us, how we have spent evenings dancing together, how we do everything that a man and wife do and more. Even when I close my eyes I see his laughing face imprinted on the inside of my eyelids.

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I twist my fingers gently through the dark, sparse curls on his muscular chest, feel the throbbing of his heart under my palm. I kiss him, very gently, my lips catching a little on his before I pull away. He stirs and moves closer to me before falling back to sleep. I could never, never leave him.

But now I do not know how long we have left. It is the most terrible thing I have ever had to contemplate, but one day maybe I will only see George in my dreams, maybe our love will be confined to a world of make-believe and memories in my head. I cannot miss one moment with him, not now that things are so uncertain, when he could be exiled and separated from me while I am trapped here by my husband, unable to join him. When worse things could happen to him.

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

I think about his smile – his teeth, shiny and white and just that tiny bit crooked. He has different smiles – he has his polite court smile and he has his smile reserved only for me. He smiles when he writes poetry for me, and when he sees me walk into a room. He smiles when he is giving me gifts, and when I say something to make him laugh. He smiles when we dance together, and he smiles especially when he can see that I am dancing for him and only for him. I think about his kisses, too, and how sometimes he will kiss me with love and compassion and other times with such a fierce and burning passion. I think about how I rarely am able to sleep unless I am wrapped in his arms, with the feel of his warm body pressed against me and his strong arms draped over my shoulders or around my waist. I think about other things, too, other times, other memories that sometimes make me blush with embarrassment at some of the things I am prepared to do for him.

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

I will not lose him, I will not lose what we have. We have built a life for ourselves that should be impossible in this day and age, a small haven of true love and family in a world where those things are often dictated by others. If we can manage that , then we can manage to stay together.

George stirs, opens one eye lazily.

"You still awake?" he asks, sleepily disbelieving, reaching out to stroke my hair and pull it gently through his fingers. I nod, suddenly sleepy myself.

"Get some sleep" he suggest gently, smiling dopily at me. I laugh, and it turns into a yawn. He closes his eyes once more.

Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

Even as I fight to keep my eyes open, not wanting to lose this, they start to slowly close, until I too am asleep, and our hearts beat to the same slow, gentle rhythm, and I smile and dream of him.