I´m so sorry.
Me, and the Cullens walked towards my house, I walked a bit in front of the others, to show the way, or… mostly because I didn´t want them to see the expression on my face. The closer we got, the more nervous I got, my dad would be so angry. And though I knew my friends wouldn´t let him hurt me, I was afraid of what he might do. After just about fifteen minutes of walking, we were there. We waited for Carlisle to arrive, with the car just a couple of minutes, because he had been at the hospital, getting a first aid kit, somehow, he had felt like I would need that today.
"Could you just wait here outside for a minute," I said. "I´ll shout when you can come in." the others nodded, and I opened the door, and then stepped over the threshold, and then I closed the door behind me. I didn´t quite know why I had wanted the others to stay outside, but somehow, it felt like that was the best option. I walked into the kitchen at first, and started to warm some soup for mum, and then I knocked the door to the small room next to the kitchen, where dad used to be. I opened the door and immediately took a jump back. Because my dad was standing right behind it, angrier than I had ever seen him before.
"You… evil…. Little…. BRAT" he hissed. He hissed.
"Help," I almost whispered. But then dad took a step forward, he took a grip around my throat and lifted me up. I tried to scream after help, but I couldn´t breathe. I tried to kick, but dad was stronger than me.
I thought that my last minute had risen, when the door to the kitchen flew open. In the blink of an eye, Emmett had rushed over the floor, and made dad let go off me. I fell to my knees, and I coughed so hard, I thought I would throw up. The rest of the Cullens had rushed in as well. Edward and Jasper ran over to Emmett, that growled towards my dad, and Carlisle was the first one that came and squatted down next to me.
"He… he wanted to kill me…" I gasped, still trying to regain my breath. Carlisle patted my back a bit, but as usual, he stayed calm. Then he stood up, and helped Edward and Jasper, from trying to kill my dad.
"Emmett," Carlisle said calming. "I am gonna take Mr. Dylan to this place where I´ve ordered a place for him, you stay here, Edward, come with me and help me with this mister." He grabbed one of dad´s shoulders. Edward grabbed the other one and together they walked out of the house.
"You´re okay sweetheart?" Esme had squatted down next to me. I nodded, and moved away from her, when she tried to lay her hand on my shoulder.
"I´m fine." I stood up and took a bowl, spoon and a glass of water for mum. Then I jumped up to sit on the bench to wait for the soup to get warm enough. When it had, I jumped down from the bench again, and poured the soup, down in the bowl.
"I thought you ate before we left," Emmett said a bit confused.
"I did," I said. "This is for mum."
"Then why doesn´t she make her own food?"
"You´ll see." I walked through the kitchen, into the living room and upstairs, where I opened the door to mum´s room. I turned the light on, and walked over the floor, put the bowl and the glass on mum´s bedside table, raised the head on the bed, and sat down, took the bowl and the spoon, and started feeding her. Emmett and the others came into the room as well, and sat down on the floor by the wall. Esme came over to me, and reached out her hands.
"Please, let me do that for you." She said, but I shook my head.
"No thanks, I´d rather do it myself." Esme nodded slightly, and sat down by the foot of the bed. During the whole time I was feeding mum, nobody said a word, but soon we heard Edward and Carlisle, coming inside and then we heard them coming up the stairs, and they came into the room, just as I gave mum the last spoon of soup.
"Could you take these downstairs?" I asked Bella. "Just put them in the sink in the kitchen, I´ll do the dishes later."
"Okay," she stood up, took the dishes and walked out the room. I opened the door to the wardrobe and took out a T- shirt, a hoodie, and a pair of sweat pants.
"Boys!" I looked to Jasper, Carlisle, Edward and Emmett. "Get out for a minute." They nodded, Bella walked into the room again. "You others, stay to help me." The girls in the room nodded, and the boys walked out of the room. Esme and Rosalie helped me to make mum stand up, and I took of mum the pyjamas, and dressed her in the clothes I had picked out. Just as Esme and Rose let go of mum, she took a step back, and sat down on her bed again. Staring in front of her again, as if she didn´t know we were there. I sighed, and looked to the floor. I sat down on the edge of the bed, next to mum.
"I didn´t want it to end up this way mum!" I said. "I wanted to have a brother, I wanted us to be just a happy family. But things didn´t go as we wanted them to go. But then, after that happened. I wanted to make you wake up again, and I don´t know if you remember, but I tried so hard. I really did. It just didn´t work out. I´m sorry mum! I´m so sorry, I should have tried even harder, I should have made the doctors save Jordan, but I couldn´t, and now, you´re still in this position. Three years later mum, and I just can´t do it anymore, now, my friends, they´re gonna drive you somewhere, where you can get help. I don´t really know where, but there´s no need to be afraid. I´ll be all right, and we´ll meet again, and then, you´ll be better."
"And we´re gonna take care of Jamie for you." Esme took a step forward. "So you just concentrate on getting better." Mum still didn´t move, or even showed that she had heard. I stood up, took a grip of her hands, and tried to make mum stand up.
"Come on mum, you need to stand up and walk down the stairs." She didn´t move. "Come on mum." I pulled her arms, still no reaction. I sighed.
"It´s okay," Esme said, and lifted mum up, so easy it was like she weighed just a few pounds.
"I´ll… I´ll pack one bag for her, and one bag for dad." I said, and pulled out two suitcases from the big wardrobe. I placed one of them on mum´s bad, and started throwing in mum´s clothes and stuff. Then I walked downstairs, to the room by the kitchen, and packed a suitcase for my dad, I walked outside with them to the car, and then Carlisle drove away again. Emmett had done the dishes, because he was bored he said. So after that, I took a third suitcase, walked upstairs to my room. I threw down what I needed in the suitcase, there was clothes from the wardrobe, a few books and movies from the small bookcase, and asthma- meds from the drawers in the desk. I had an envelope with some pictures hidden in my pillow, I put it in my rucksack along with the school- stuff. I pulled my rucksack on, and pulled the shoulder strap of the suitcase over my head. Then I walked downstairs again. I let Emmett take the suitcase, and then I walked out of the door, closed it behind me, and turned the key in the lock. Then I turned around, and took my first to a one- known future.
Well, maybe you think it´s weird that I´ve written that Jamie keeps her meds in a drawer in the desk. Well, I´d know where you could keep your meds, because when I took my meds, I had them in the drawer under my desk. But, you know what? Since the last time I wrote a chapter, I´ve both celebrated one year without meds, and I´ve been to the drug- store, leaving my old meds there. "Happy- dance, happy- dance, happy- dance."