I Do Not Own Inuyasha

Chapter 11

Inuyasha wasn't truly worried about what was possibly coming because in the grand scheme of things he was certain he and Sesshomaru could handle whatever came. What he did worry about was Rin and Sesshomaru and Kagome. Though Sesshomaru was still cold and indifferent he had a feeling something was changing within his brother. Though how or what this would mean he did not know. But Inuyasha was not about to pry into his brother, especially not after what their father had done.

In Inuyasha's mind their father was lucky to be alive because he had been tempted to kill their father for what he had been spewing about at Sesshomaru and Sesshomaru had just taken it. Granted Sesshomaru had sort of been a kicked dog in a sense but the fact that his too proud, too stubborn, to arrogant brother had just taken that had infuriated and worried him. Sesshomaru had never taken shit from anyone, and for that reason alone he had always envied and admired his brother. Even as a pup Inuyasha had always admired Sesshomaru, and why not? Sesshomaru was the embodiment of cool in his mind, cool in attitude and indifferent to the world; even with the little girly girl Rin following him Sesshomaru had been tough too. And Inuyasha had always envied and hated his brother because Sesshomaru was a pure bred Inu Daiyōkai and he was nothing more than a hanyō.

And even though he hadn't been fond of Sesshomaru he had been extremely envious when the little servant's girl got his brother's affections. He'd admit that he had, at one brief moment in his puphood, sought his brother's affections because he wanted to be like Sesshomaru. But Sesshomaru had always brushed him off. Then there had been that little girl with messy black hair, big brown eyes and always carrying around some fluffy white dog Sesshomaru had given her. Yes, looking back on those memories Inuyasha would admit he was envious of Rin.

But now he stared at the young woman the girl had grown into and only wished he had tried a little harder, tried to be a little different, tried to welcome her into his pack because now she sat on the porch, asleep with a book in her laps as the rain fell down and his brother stood there looking at her.

It hurt in a way knowing that neither of them knew how to be happy anymore when the little girl smiled all the time and the pup his brother had been had always seemed a bit more content with the girl around him. Yeah, it hurt a lot. Inuyasha shoved his hands into the pockets of his pants as he walked through the house his brother graciously allowed him and Kagome to stay in and wondered how they'd deal with his. His phone began buzzing so he dragged it out of his pocket then groaned at the number, if he ignored it now he'd get forty more calls within the hour. Sighing in defeat he answered.

"Father…"

Sesshomaru slowly sat down beside the small sleeping woman and studied her face intently, committing every curve, every plane, every line, every mark, and every color to his memory. She looked the same, she looked different. She was still Rin, heavy black hair, messy bangs, large brown eyes, and a face which belonged to an angel. But she was different, her face was fuller, more lavished for a woman, her lips were full, and her chin pert, her nose was slightly crooked but charming and there was a sadness in her expression which always hurt him. When she was alone, or she thought she was alone and she let her guard down her face became so sad it broke what was left of his heart. She was not supposed to look like that.

The Rin he knew, the Rin he loved as a pup, had always smiled and laughed and seemed content with life. The Rin he was meeting now, the Rin he still loved, always looked sad, a little lost and a lot of broken and it was breaking what remained of his heart. Gently he reached out and stroked her cheek with his hand, she murmured incoherently before she nuzzled against his touch. The gesture startled him and then made his smile slightly, she still reacted the same way to his touch. The knowledge was slightly relieving because he had feared her screaming and running from him just as everyone else would have. But at least this bit, this small bit, of the Rin he had once known remained.

He pressed his lips to her brow before he left her.

She was having a pleasant dream at this moment. Sesshomaru was with her, she was safe, he was touching her cheek and then he had kissed her brow. Yes, she liked this dream a lot more than the nightmares plaguing her. She didn't want to wake up to reality and find herself again trapped with the Onigumos, she wanted to stay in her dreams with Sesshomaru.

Thunder had her jolting out of her sleep.

Blinking she looked wildly around her settings, Taisho Manor, Sesshomaru's home. Without thinking about what she was doing and feeling slightly childish as she did so she slammed her book shut before running into the house to find Sesshomaru. She raced through every room, yanking open doors in search of him. Oh please don't let this be her nightmare, she pleaded as she came to the last door and ripped it open. Her heart leapt for joy and her lips curled into a smile of relief before thunder had her running for him.

Before Sesshomaru could ask what was wrong, or even react to her she had hurled herself into his lap, wrapped her arms around his neck and clung to him as she shook from the fears of waking and the old, irrational fear of thunder she still had. Hesitently she felt his arm come around her as she trembled. The tears fell down her cheeks as she hung onto him and shook, the tears wouldn't stop now that they were flowing.

She sobbed.

He just held her.

The storm raged on mercilessly outside of the mansion.

Hey, it's been a while and for that I'm sorry but shit happens and life blows up on you and then snowballs and before you know it you're crashing down a mountain, over a cliff and hanging on for dear life. That sums up my life for the last month but mostly the last weeks have been hard on me. I'm trying to catch up though so I came home and wrote a chapter of this and now I'm going to bed to get up at O'Dawn-Thirty to start writing again and then run my errands, write some more, run a few other errands, write some more, watch or read something or draw; I've enjoyed drawing again; and then write some more before going to bed to go to work the next day. I'm just going to start writing like a fiend and enjoy myself while I'm at it. I have several personal works to work on, a story on taskey I'm testing out, fanfics, and a few more personal works. Yeah, I know, I write a lot but hey! It's easy to write when you have 0 life.

But back to the important stuff:

This is a daily piece, it'll be rotated every other day with Healing Pain. Never Be the Same will be updated daily no matter what since that is the constant, but this is going to start getting updates rather frequently so... =) ... I'm so happy I'm going to have time to write again! Oh and draw, yeah, I'm going to enjoy this!

That's all for now folks!

Sorry about the delays!

Enjoy Rain for Tears! =)