I opened my eyes, the whole Cullen family, including Leah and Jacob´s faces was staring down at me, and they all look worried. Oh, how I hated to know they were worried because of me. I turned my head, and then saw Carlisle, who had squatted down next to me.

"That´s embarrassing," I mumbled.

"Don´t worry about that," Carlisle answered me. "Most people either faint or puke." I nodded slightly. "Are you okay?.. does it hurt some place… did you hit your head…" Carlisle felt on the back of my head after bumps.

"Yes, no, no…. I´m fine." I pulled myself into sitting position, and couldn´t help but laugh when I could see Seth´s tale being visible, it seemed like he was hiding behind the sofa.

"He hid, so you wouldn´t faint again, the first thing you did." Emmett said.

"It´s all right," I stood up. "I´ll be more prepared now." Seth stood up, and walked over so he stood next to the couch. A weird, half smothered sound came from him. Almost sounded like he was laughing.

"It´s not funny Seth," Emmett said. Seth now stood, a couple of meters away, right in front of me. I took one step forward, reached out my hand, took another slow step, than another one, and one last until my hand reached Seth´s head. He gave out another sound, and lowered his head a little. I started scratching his head, between his ears, he gave out another sound, to let me know he liked it, and then he licked me in the face with his big tongue.

"Oh, SETH." I took a jump backwards and tried to wipe off the most of his spit with my shirt. "You´re a very bad boy," I joked, as if I was talking to a dog. "We don´t lick people in their faces… and you know that," I pretended to be talking strictly with him, I could hear the others laughing at me. Seth lowered his head, and then he laid down. I smiled slightly.

"I think we´ve made sure, that you´ve got no allergies for werewolves." Carlisle said. I stood up, and walked over to my bedroom. When I came back, my skates hung over one of my shoulders.

"I´m going to the skating hall for a while," I said. "I… I" I felt my pockets "…I forgot my MP3- player… and meds." I half ran back down the hall to my room, and got what I´d forgotten. Then I walked upstairs, out the door, I took my bike and cycled away to the skating hall. I put the music on in my earplugs, before I changed my trainers to my skates, and let the blades float over the ice. Took a jump, made a pirouette, after a couple of hours later, I sat down on one of the benches next to the ice. I put my elbows on my knees as usual.

I hadn´t cried… not once, since Jordan was born and died, almost three years ago. In the beginning, I had been able to hear mum crying in her room at night, but that was just for the first few weeks, I had seen dad cry as well, when he was drunk, his friends had gone home, and he was alone with a bottle of wine. But also that, was only for the first weeks.

But I… I hadn´t cried at all, not once since that day. Not once…

I sighed, where I sat, changed the skates to my trainers again, and hung the skates over my shoulder, then I started cycling back to the Cullens. I cycled slowly, with the skates hanging next to my right hand. When I was at the Cullens, I threw the bike at the ground. And walked into the house and downstairs to the cellar. Where the others were sitting in the sofas. Seth was back in his human body, Nessie was leaning against Jacob with arms around her knees. Emmett. Seth and Jasper were watching football on the TV, Carlisle was reading the newspaper, and Leah, Esme, Alice and Rosalie were talking about something.

None of them really looked up and talked to me when I came into the room, I sighed, and started turning around when Emmett called my name.

"Jamie?"

"Yeah," I turned around towards the sofa.

"Haven´t you got a cell or something, so we can reach you when you´re not at home,"

"Ehrm… let´s think for a sec…" I said ironic. "…. Hold on…. No"

"What about a warmer coat?" He looked down on my raincoat.

"No…"

"But you´ve got an MP3- player?"

"Yes, got it from some boys, switched it to three bags with beer."

"Jamie," Esme said.

"For that I got this, and one of the boys taught me how to download songs to it, for free."

"Jamie," Esme said, once again with that tone in her voice, as if I had done something wrong.

"Esme" I said back, with a bit of a rude tone in my voice.

"I really don´t lie that tone you´re using against us," both Carlisle and Esme now stood up in front of me, none of them looked happy.

"Oh, you don´t like my tone…" I fizzled, and gestured a lot with my hands while I was talking. "well, how about this, I don´t like that you come into my life, sneak into my private- life, and then pull me away from my home, and send my parents to rehabs like, a million miles away, to let them stay there for six months."

"We wanted to help you… we still do…. And if you were being a bit grateful that would be nice" Esme said.

"I was doing just fine. I don´t need your help."

"Jamie," Esme said. "I want you, to go to your room, and think through all this, and I don´t want you to come out again, when you can be nice to us."

"Go to my room… Oh, come on. I am not a child."

"You´re acting like one." I shook my head a little and took a step back.

"…Whatever?" I turned around and walked down the hall to my room, where I closed the door with a bang, threw the skates on the floor, and sat down on the bed with my back against the wall, and my arms around my knees.

Please review, it makes my day, and I´m spending the whole weekend alone in my house, so I could really need some cheering up