I Do Not Own Inuyasha

Chapter 17

The silence, it was all she could think about as she sat there looking at the drizzling rain. How was it there was always rain here? She loved the rain, had even missed it when she was captive because Hakudoshi did not let her out of the house unless she was under his or Magatsuhi's terrorist guardianship. When she was honest with herself she knew they were the root of so many of her fears but she also had her stepfather to blame as well. He had been the one to sell her to the Onigumos. And as always Sesshomaru was the one to save her.

Rin looked down at her lap and sighed as her bare feet dangled over the edge of the porch. Sesshomaru would always come to save her, even when the cops couldn't he would come for her. He had proven this to her when she had been eight, it hadn't been pretty and he was a most dangerous opponent when pissed off. She looked up when Kagome walked out onto the porch with her. She tried to smile at the older woman but couldn't. Rin would've thought it odd that she could no longer smile but it wasn't, she could smile at Sesshomaru because he made her happy in ways she could never explain. And Hakudoshi had long since destroyed her smile.

"Hi Rin," Kagome greeted. "Mind if I sit with you?"

Rin shook her head.

Kagome sat carefully.

I forgive you, Rin scribbled on her whiteboard then handed it to Kagome. She could see what Kagome desired and knew it would be best to let her elder know that she had been forgiven. Rin didn't hold grudges on her past life because living with the Onigumos had been a true form of hell which she could only know what true evil was. As a child she knew Kagome and Inuyasha and their friends had hated her, she knew they had tormented her but it meant nothing in the grand scheme of things because for it to matter would mean that her past life had been hell. In fact when she had been with the Onigumos she had almost craved Kagome and Inuyasha's cruelty to her because it would've been a kindness in comparison. Not that she would tell Kagome that.

Kagome bit her lip, Rin saw a few tears slip down the older woman's face then.

"Thank you Rin," Kagome murmured softly. Rin shrugged.

"You know, two years ago when Sesshomaru came home he was in a coma, the doctors; myself included didn't have high hopes of him pulling through. Not after everything…" Kagome's large blue eyes looked sad then but she continued. "He woke, six months after having returned and the first thing he asked was where you were. Years of not speaking or seeing him and the first thing he does is ask where you were when he woke. I felt horrible then, I hadn't thought about you since you left because he deployed shortly before you left and eight years of not seeing him or thinking about you that's what he asked. I felt like some sort of monster then, and when I told him I didn't know he just turned away to look out the window.

"Anyway, he didn't speak much to me or Inuyasha. He ended his engagement to Sara Asano and moved here. He became a recluse and I couldn't help but think that if I had…If I had paid more attention, been kinder, reached out to you then he wouldn't be so hurt. I don't understand him, never did, and I can't tell you three things about what happened in that warzone other than it was bad. According to Inuyasha he can barely stand going into the city. Well after he moved out here InuTaisho ganged up on him, I don't know the particulars but I know Inuyasha and InuTaisho came to blows and Sesshomaru didn't care about any of it Rin. I'm sorry I hurt you so badly as a child, I wish…I wish things had been different. I know if you had been here when he came home he wouldn't be what he is now."

Rin just reached out and held Kagome's hand because there was really nothing to say. And even if she had had something to say she probably couldn't because of her missing voice.

"He loves you Rin, he loves you very much," Kagome murmured then. Rin smiled slightly and squeezed Kagome's hand. Both women remained silent then because there was nothing more to say. Of course Sesshomaru loved her, she was his Rin. And of course she loved him, she would always love him. Through thick and thin, through the good and the bad, through heaven and hell she would love him because he was her Sesshomaru. Her love was not something he would lose because she was gone, because even in the depths of her hell she had loved him.

Sesshomaru stared at Rin and Kagome both of them just sitting there on the porch and it appeared Kagome was being comforted by Rin. He wondered how she had it in her to forgive Kagome when he couldn't. When he had awoken in that hospital he had needed to see Rin, yes it was a need, and it was a need he couldn't even begin to explain because he could barely comprehend it. Then Kagome had sent his already crumpling world to the pits of hell.

No one knew where his Rin was, and yes it was his Rin who was missing. She was his, she should be there but she wasn't. his anger wasn't directed at Rin but rather at his father, Inuyasha and Kagome for having let his Rin be taken away by her stepfather because her stepfather was the most unstable being ever and there would be no way in hell he'd entrust Rin to a man like him. But Rin had been gone.

Now she was back.

Sesshomaru smiled a bit, Rin was back where she belonged despite everything she was back with him. And she still loved him, the knowledge was what was keeping him sane at the moment as he dealt with his pain in the ass brother.

Yesterday was so fun and relaxing! Seriously, I don't think I've had that much fun for a while. Anyways...

That's all for now folks!

Enjoy Rain for Tears! =)