Coming out of that OR and having to face Kurt and his parents was the hardest thing that Blaine ever had to do. Luckily, the attending who did Finn's surgery would actually break the news, but Blaine would be forced to watch Kurt's face crumble knowing that even though he tried his best, he couldn't save his brother. When Blaine and the attending reached the ER waiting room, he saw Kurt stand up from his seat and look directly at him. Blaine tried his hardest to keep a straight face, but he knew that Kurt already knew. He knew when Finn went into that surgery that he wouldn't make it. His amount of hope and denial just surpassed his amount of logic in this case.
"Mr. and Mrs. Hummel?" His attending asked. "I am so sorry. We truly did everything we could." Blaine watched as Carole, Kurt's stepmom and Finn's mother, crumpled as she fell back into the chair. Burt, Kurt's father, sat down next to her and held her as tears streamed from his eyes. Kurt sat completely still. No tears fell from his eyes. He was emotionless. Blaine went over and took a seat next to him.
"Honey, do you want to go somewhere and talk?" Blaine asked.
"No, I have too much to do." Kurt said not bothering to look at Blaine. "Look at them, do you think that they'll be able to plan the funeral. I'll have to do that."
"Kurt, you can take a minute to be sad and grieve." Blaine told him.
"I'm fine." Kurt replied. "We both know his diagnosis was a death sentence. I have to go and make some calls." he added before getting up from his chair and walking off. Blaine felt like he should go after him, but despite his better judgement, he let Kurt go. Maybe all he needed was some alone time.
As the funeral got closer and closer, Kurt got more and more stressed out. He was right about one thing. Burt and Carole were in no condition to handle anything to do with Finn's funeral. Blaine knew that Kurt needed him, so he went to talk to Cooper.
"Hey, can I ask you for a favor?" Blaine asked Cooper who was filling out paperwork."Can I please go with Kurt back to Lima for his brother's funeral? It'll only be one day, for me at least."
"Yeah, you can go." Cooper said. "I think he'll need you."
"Thank you." Blaine said before walking away. He had a lot to do.
"Blaine." Cooper said. "Give my regrets to Kurt and his family."
"I will." Blaine replied. "I promise." The next day, he got on a flight with Kurt back to Lima. Throughout the whole flight, Kurt was silent, like he had been for days since Finn had died. Blaine tried to hold Kurt's hand, but Kurt flinched away and crossed his arms over his chest. Blaine knew that Kurt didn't mean anything by it. This was just how he was grieving. Some people sobbed endlessly and others closed themselves of. In the end, Blaine was in no position to judge how someone dealt with a loss. When they reached Lima, Burt and Carole were there to meet them. Burt seemed to be holding it together, but Carole was a wreck. There were dark circles under her eyes and she looked thinner than she did a few days ago.
"Hey guys." Burt said as he enveloped his son and then extended a hand toward Blaine,w which Blaine shook gently. "Well, the car is parked right outside." Burt said as he led both of them out to his truck. The ride back to Kurt's house was quiet. Carole actually turned out to be much quieter with Kurt, which was surprising. Burt tried to make conversation, but it just wasn't working. When they got to Kurt's house, Burt showed them to Kurt's old room. Blaine watched as Kurt sadly stared into Finn's old bedroom. "There's dinner downstairs if you guys want some. The funeral starts at around 9 a.m tomorrow." Burt said.
"Thank you." Blaine said, seeing as Kurt had already laid down on his old bed and turned his back towards his father. Burt gave Blaine a small smile before leaving the two of them alone. Blaine gently laid down next to Kurt and ran his fingers up and down Kurt's back. "So, I take it you don't want any dinner?" Blaine asked.
"No." Kurt replied blatantly not moving his eyes from the wall he was staring at.
"Do you want me to lay with you?" Blaine asked.
"Sure." Kurt told him. Blaine nodded and moved closer to cradle Kurt in his arms. He hoped that Kurt would finally let go some of his feelings, but he was wrong. He just lay there, completely still. Eventually Blaine fell asleep and when he woke up, Kurt was no longer cuddled in his arms. Blaine sighed before standing up and pulling on the outfit he brought for the funeral. Then, he went downstairs and found Kurt sipping a cup of coffee. It was clear from his eyes that while Blaine had slept, Kurt hadn't.
"Hey honey." Blaine said sympathetically. Kurt looked up and gave him a small smile. Blaine grabbed a mug and took a seat next to Kurt. Once again they didn't talk. Blaine wanted this to be over. He wanted for Kurt not to be hurting anymore. And it might have been selfish, but Blaine wanted his Kurt back. He wanted the happy guy who could always make him smile back. A few minutes later, Burt and Carole came downstairs dressed in all black because it was time to leave. They drove to the funeral home where the viewing began. The viewing was awkward for Blaine. He didn't know anyone so he stayed close to Kurt's side throughout the whole thing. The funeral was hard. Everyone was crying. Blaine actually felt bad that he wasn't crying. Kurt gave Finn's obituary and Blaine could see just how hard he was trying not to cry. After the service, they drove the cemetery and Kurt and his family said their last goodbyes to Finn. Then, they returned to Kurt's house to get there thing together because their flight to New York left that night.
"You know, we can cancel out flight and leave tomorrow." Blaine offered. "I'm sure my brother would understand."
"I don't want to." Kurt said. "I don't want to stay here."
"Okay, honey." Blaine said. "We'll leave tonight if that's what you want." They finished packing and said goodbye and went to the airport. The flight back to New York was much like the flight to Lima, except for the fact that Kurt actually held Blaine's hand. They got back to their apartment after the plane landed and were both happy to see that Rachel was still at the hospital.
"I'm tired." Kurt said. "Can we go to bed?"
"Sure baby." Blaine said. Kurt led him into the bedroom and they changed into their pajamas before getting into bed. Kurt cuddled into Blaine's side instantly. Blaine was glad that Kurt was finally warming back up to him. Suddenly he felt Kurt begin to kiss his neck all over. This was a little too much warming for Blaine because he knew Kurt wasn't ready for this. "Kurt...no...not tonight." Blaine said.
"Please Blaine...I need you." Kurt replied tears running down his cheeks. "Please?" Kurt asked again. Blaine just shook his head and brought Kurt into his chest and held him as he sobbed. He was finally releasing his feelings. This was really for the best. Kurt had really needed to do this for days. As Kurt continued to sob, Blaine held him tightly and ran his hands soothingly up and down Kurt's back. It could only get better from this point. They had seen each other vulnerable and they were stronger for it. This was just another storm that they would have to conquer together.