I Do Not Own Inuyasha

Chapter 21

Rin woke wrapped up securely in a strong arm and mokomoko with his breath caressing her neck as he slept. She didn't move, she couldn't even if she wanted to; no that she wanted to, as she blushed remembering last night. She couldn't believe that she had willingly jumped into bed with Sesshomaru, any male really, after her past. But something about being with him just felt…right. Yes, this felt right and unlike the time Hakudoshi attacked her Sesshomaru hadn't hurt her.

Instead he had made it feel amazing to have him in her. Never in her life had she guessed that it was possible to feel pleasure when joined with another. But Sesshomaru had sent her to nirvana several times last night. She smiled a bit remembering the night and felt the blush gracing her cheeks as she rolled over in Sesshomaru's arm. He was still sleeping, and he looked…exhausted. Never in all her life had her Sesshomaru looked tired or emotionally drained or exhausted but ever since she had been kidnapped by him he had only ever looked…exhausted. It wasn't a look she liked on him but was certain had more to do with his emotional state rather than his physical state. Aside from the scares she had traced on his back, chest, arm, abdomen and legs he was rather healthy physically. A perfect specimen of the male species if you asked her.

But it broke her heart knowing he was pained and knowing there was nothing she could do for him other than hold him, comfort him, and simply be there for him. It wasn't like she knew how to help those who were hurting, she herself could barely cope with her pain so she didn't know how to heal him. But no matter what she'd let him feel her love, feel her support and feel her patience for him because he deserved all of it. He had always deserved more than he got and as a child she had tried to give him everything she knew he didn't have.

Rin would always love him unconditionally, always, and she would always be there for him. She would love him in sickness, in parting, in death, in sorrow, in pain and in crisises because it was when you loved someone in those moments that you learned what love was. And she had always loved him in every moment of her life, with every fiber of her being and with every beat of her heart. She knew she did because she had loved him through the worst of the worst as a child and was certain that as an adult she could continue to love him through everything to come.

Gently she reached out to stroke his cheek when his eyes snapped open. She was reflected in those golden pools and just lost in emotion as she smile at him. His arm pulled her closer then as he rested his brow on hers and let out a silent sigh. Perhaps he had been having a nightmare, she thought as she continued to stroke his cheek. He growled then he kissed her, hard, passionately and stole her breath from her as he pulled her atop him.

Seshomaru had figured out quickly that if he wanted to have Rin she couldn't feel trapped, and despite his instincts and desires to be atop her he would rather have her than scare her. So instincts be damned as he let her ride him, the pleasure was intense and satisfying for a change as he sat up to kiss her. She gave a silent groan at his actions but he didn't stop as he continued to move in her and kiss her.

It was several hours later, after he had fed his human that he found himself sitting at his desk pondering his next moves. He should leave, vanish without a trace and take Rin with him while he was at it. There was little doubt in his mind that the Onigumos would come after her and she had been settled her for some months already. But eventually they'd find her if she stayed here, or in country for that matter. But any time Sesshomaru thought to leave the country fear would overtake him and bring to surface old memories he'd rather forget and avoid than think about. Still, he needed to think about what was best for Rin and at this moment he didn't know what to do.

She was quietly standing in the rain again as he pondered their future. He wouldn't give up his new lover, or mate, or whatever she was to anyone. He wasn't certain what exactly Rin was to him but he was certain that she was very important to him in ways he couldn't even begin to describe. She had always been important, but to what extent he hadn't known until she was gone.

Sesshomaru frowned as he began planning what was to come next. Rin did need to leave, but he didn't know if he could. No matter where they went he couldn't go to the city, any city really, and small towns weren't something he could tolerate either. He wanted cold and wet and open spaces, nothing like the dry, merciless desert dwellings of his past. Wherever they went he'd have to make certain that she was in a defendable location because he would not be ambushed again and he would not lose the last person who mattered to him.

Sesshomaru sighed as he rubbed his hand over his face. The main problem wouldn't be keeping Rin with him but rather him getting out of here. It was the simple truth and as horrid as it sounded it was terrifying to him to leave this area. He was a coward and he knew it and for some reason this only irritated him even more than the impending danger to come. Face danger head on didn't bother him, but leaving, actually having to leave this place again, it terrified him. It was something similar to his fear of losing Rin, it wasn't a rational fear but it was a huge fear all the same.

Hey, long time no update...sorry about that but I've been trying to finish up a few things and if I wasn't such a procrastinator I'd have finished them already...

That's all for now folks!

Enjoy Rain for Tears! =)