Author's note:
This chapter makes a lot more sense if you've seen the Thor movie. ^_~
For those who haven't, I hope that it'll still be comprehensible.
Two years ago.
The Bifröst is collapsing in on itself and he is falling with it.
Swirls of multi-coloured energy are whirling and twisting, tearing, merging, throwing him wildy around until he loses all sense of direction.
There will be patches of exploding light which shake him like a ragdoll and send him off shooting into space, there will be holes of nothingness where he is almost swallowed by the darkness, only to be picked up once more by stray shoots of rainbow.
The Bifröst is breaking, shattering, dissolving and once the last vestiges of energy have disappeared into oblivion, he will be left in the neverending void between the stars.
Will be left to die.
He welcomes it.
It is a fitting end for someone whose whole life has been nothing but an empty lie.
Everything he ever believed in, fought for...would have laid his life down to protect...it was nothing but smoke and mirrors.
All his dreams, his hopes...they were never real to begin with.
For the last few days, he has so desperately tried to hold on, has tried to find a way to hold on to the only life he knew, despite his whole world crumbling around him...has done things that make his insides churn if he dwells on them too long….all for the sake of having a chance...and it was all for naught.
He was doomed to fail from the start.
Odin should have left him to die when he found him as a babe, abandoned in that temple on Jotunheim.
It would have been more merciful.
The only thing he has left is death, to put him out of his misery, to end the crushing ache that has taken the place of his heart, leaving him shattered, the fragments of his self piercing and cutting him from the inside out, like fragments of broken bone lacerating the flesh and skin surrounding them.
He is bleeding to death inside, mortally wounded by the loss of his heart, his family, his past and his future.
He'd thought Odin's love real...Frigga's...Thor's...
It was the only thing that made it bearabel to live at a court where he was always the odd one out.
Always on the outside, looking in.
Trying so hard to be worthy, and eternally failing.
But it he'd never stood a chance, had he?
It had all been a sham.
He'd NEVER BEEN beloved, either as a son or a brother.
All he'd been was a convenient political game piece.
He'd never truly been Asgardian.
They'd hidden it behind pretty lies….but in truth, he'd been Jotun. Hated enemy.
How they must have laughed behind his back.
In retrospect, his desperate scramble to prove his worth, his loyalty, once he'd discovered his true parentage…it must have seemed droll in its' facetious futility.
He had killed his own father-by-blood to prove his dedication.
To make testament of his devotion to the realm of Asgard.
….Only to be shunned by those he had thought to please.
Oh….how they must be laughing now.
In one fell swoop, they had gotten rid of an age-old enemy…and of the changeling they'd never wanted.
All without dirtying their own hands.
He should hate them for it.
Given time, he probably would.
But here and now, all he wants is for the pain to stop.
For life to stop.
To die.
Soundtrack for this chapter:
"Oceans" by Evanescence
For sunnygirl 13
*hugs*
Nice to have you here in the Avengers fandom too!
I had planned to be writing on "Owned by Fire" actually…but then I watched Avengers and kinda fell down the rabbit hole.
I'm increndibly happy that you like this story as much as you like "Owned". Both of them have a special place in my heart!
For runeaglerun
The next few chapters will reveal where this is headed, though I'll strive to add some twists and turns. Hope you'll like it!
For The-Dancing-Fox
*beams*
Thank you very, very much for the first review of Trickster's Gambit.
I'm guessing there hadn't been that many reviews yet when you posted because the story was practically brand-new when you reviewed. As you can see, it's garnered two more since then, which, frankly, tickles me pink.
There are going some plot-developments in the next few chapters and if they still manage to be your head-cannon, then that'll have me grinning like the Cheshire Cat!