Hello, so well, I have been so bad with updating lately so I've decided on doing something where I update all of my stories at the same time.

Oh, and I wrote a one- shot as a birthday present for ActressCeCe, it's on my profile if you want to read it, it's called say something (I'm giving up on you)

In the afternoon that day I sat with my homework again when Carlisle knocked on the door and came into my room, the others still being out hunting I knew from the start that it was him even before I saw him come in and sat down on the foot of my bed before looking around the bed.

"Did you want something Carlisle?" I asked. "Because I'm kind of doing homework and I've just managed to get some concentration I don't want to lose it again." Carlisle smiled and stood up, clapping my shoulder slightly as he walked towards the door and held it open walking out but turning to me.

"Come and get me when you're done okay?" He said with a soft smile. "I need to talk to you about something." I nodded and turned back to my homework, but too late, my concentration had gone with Carlisle coming into the room and I couldn't bring it back.

"UGH" I shouted and threw my books closed as hard as I could before standing up and jogging up to Carlisle's office, hearing a low "come in" from the other side of the door I opened the door and jumped up to sit on the bunk Indian style as Carlisle put his book down and then looked up at me before he started talking.

"I was thinking about the medicines I was talking about earlier. Because if you want to try them I think that I can get a prescription and if they've got some at the pharmacy then we could have them at Thursday or Friday. Or maybe you want to wait a bit and start from Monday, or a bit later." I bit my lip and wondered for a bit, then shrugged. "Come on Jamie, I can't make a decision for you. You need to tell me I only want to help."

"Well… I'm almost done with the homework I have and then both this week and next week is quite cool as all the teachers have some conference or something Wednesday and Thursday. Then…the week after that I have tests and stuff like every day, so maybe if I'm going to take them we could start like next Friday, then I'll kind of have gotten started with them on Monday when all that test and things start and I'll have them during the weekend when I need to do the studying."

"Sounds like a good plan." Carlisle answered me. "I'll need to run some tests now. check blood pressure and pulse because there's a risk that'll go higher with the side effects. He grabbed a stethoscope and a blood pressure cuff from his bag and came over. I'm not meaning you shouldn't take them because I think they can help you. But as the doctor who gives them to you I need to tell you about possible side effects."

"Ritalin- which I think are the best option for you of these kind of medicines- have got relatively many side effects but mostly people who takes them either get just a few or none at all. Common side effects are high blood pressure, high pulse, loss of appetite, nausea, stomachache, dizziness, depression, nervousity and panic attacks. There are quite a lot of others as well but they're not as common. Just tell me if you get any side effects at all. If I have to I'll give you something for that too."

I raised an eyebrow and looked confused to Carlisle- so I would first get one kind of meds, maybe get side effects, so then I might have to take more meds toe ease the side effects, and then another one to ease the side effects of those- well- why wouldn't it happen?

I sighed- well wasn't it worth a try at least?

I heard the door open upstairs. "HELLO GUYS." Emmett's deep voice echoed through the house and in the blink of an eye Emmett stood there. "The others will be back soon. I got the post from your house Jame and dad here are the bills and Jame here's a letter for you." I took the envelope he reached me, it was quite thick- but not too thick and I opened it and unfolded the paper with two photos falling out.

The first photo was of a blonde, pretty girl hugging a teddy bear towards her cheek, and the other one of the same girl, dressed in the linen and shorts I had helped officer Mason to pick out for his daughter for Christmas. I held the paper and read it.

Hello, my name is Nikki Mason and my dad told me that you had helped him pick out Christmas gifts. I was going to send these earlier but I never got it done. I just wanted to say thank you for helping my dad. If you hadn't then I probably would have ended up with a pair of rabbit- slippers and a morning gown three sizes too small Haha. So thank you Jamie, love from Nikki.
P.s. Dad says thank you too.

I sighed and jumped down from the bunk and then walked back into my room where I sat down with homework again. I just had to force myself to get on with it, I was almost finished and after all- math was my best subject- I just had to do three more numbers and then I would be done so I forced myself to stare down on the paper and write without losing concentration again.

When I was done- finally because I kept on losing concentration all the time, then I was finally done with all my homework for this time and laid down on my back on my bed even though I knew I wouldn't be able to keep still with these restless legs. I tried everything that had helped before, tensing all the muscles in the legs and then relaxing several times, kick and stretching but nothing helped- I just needed to move.

"Carlisle?" I stood up and walked upstairs and into his office almost jumping where I stood. "Is it too early for me to go jogging or can I go?" I was jumping from one foot to the other while Carlisle sighed and stroke his chin. "Please say yes, please say yes, please say yes… restless legs… I'm going to die if I don't get to move soon." Carlisle sighed again and opened his mouth to speak.

"Okay then, but easily- no sprinting and walk or stop when you get short of breath. And half an hour at the most and if you get any chest pains or something like that when you're done you need to come straight to me okay?" I nodded and then jumped around and ran down the stairs. "HEY I SAID NO SPRINTING." I slowed down towards my room, tucked my inhaler, phone and mp3 player in my pockets and the earplugs in my ear after putting music, switched the T- shirt to a big hoodie and pulled my old sneakers on after jogging down the hallway, up the stairs and out in the cold February air.

I jogged slowly down the driveway and out of sight from the house before I slowed down to walking, suddenly hearing footsteps fast getting closer behind me and then someone grabbing me I couldn't help not to shout at the top of my lungs. "Hey it's okay." Joel Carlyle jumped past me clapping my shoulder while my pulse slowly went back to normal. "I didn't mean to scare you. Want some?" He held a can of Dr. Pepper towards me but I shook my head trying to take deep breaths to calm down again.

"Okie dokie." He took a sip from the can himself. "So what are you doing?" I first thought it was a weird question to ask- wasn't it obvious? But when I realized he had a guitar hanging on his back, glasses on, upon that black jeans, and an opened leather jacket over a printed T- shirt and red basketball shoes I realized that it didn't really was. "Well… since you're not answering I can tell that I've been away to play music at an old people's home." I nodded, but didn't get why he told me it- or why he seemed to think we were friends- and I was quite tired of him.

"Look." I turned to him. "You and I aren't friends so I don't know why you seem to think so and seem to stalk me or something. So please just go where the heck you're going now and leave me alone okay?" I had said it all almost all in one breath and didn't realize what I had said until I saw the hurt look in Joel's eyes before he spun around and hurried up the road towards a big mansion at the top of the hill.

For a moment I felt bad for saying that to him, after all he was one of the few- actually the only one of the students in school who made an attempt to show that he actually wanted to be my friend. And with how much all the bullies already were on Joel, if he would be friends with me I just knew that some of the ones that were on me- and I knew which ones- what's going to be on him too so why did he even try?

I wasn't prettier

Smarter

Wiser

I didn't have better grades

Nicer clothes

Or a better body

Or anything

Than anyone else

And even speaking to me would kind of get Joel in trouble

So why me?

Why me?

I shook the thoughts of, turned around and jogged down a side road, if I just made my way down this road down the hill, and around the trees in front of me I would get up on the road that led up to the driveway at the Cullen's. I switched between light jogging the whole way, it helped towards the tickling under the skin in my legs but it was still doing what Carlisle had told me with not jogging too fast or getting short of breath.

When I came home again Emmett and Jasper sat by the kitchen table, I couldn't hear them talking but I had a feeling they were talking anyway but too fast for me to hear it. When I walked by Emmett looked up from the laptop and turned it away from me even though I hadn't even been looking at it "Hey Jame" I sighed.

I hated that stupid nickname he had given me- and was starting to wonder when on earth who would just let the freaking nickname go. But I didn't mind scolding him for it this time either and shook my head and kept on walking, wondering for only a split second why it was that Emmett had turned the laptop so I couldn't see the screen.

But I should have known they were up to something

And I should have known that whatever they were doing involved me

"Jame" When I came out in the living room at Thursday afternoon Emmett sat there with Jasper, but they paused their game when I came out. "I've ordered something for you, it came in the post today." He reached me a quite big, soft parcel and I sat down in the sofa and pulled off the tape to open it before I pulled out two white T- shirt and red the prints.

The first T- shirt red "If life gives you melons you might have Dyslexia" and the second one had a picture of a squirrel and read "I've been told that I have ADHD but I don't think I… Hey! Look a squirrel." I sighed and felt anger boiling up inside of me without really knowing why. And when Emmett asked what I thought about them before Jasper had the time to warn him about what I felt I just couldn't lie to him.

"Seriously Emmett?" I glared at him. "I've been hiding the fact that I have ADHD and Dyslexia from you as long as I could for a reason believe it or not. I don't want anyone to know about it because when someone did I ended up hurt and in trouble. Haven't you got that yet?" I grabbed the T- shirts and stood up. "And if you've gotten me these then why don't you just shout it out to the whole town? And as well- my name is Jamie."

I turned around to go back into my room, and I would have continued doing so if it wasn't for Esme speaking up. "It's not fair of you to react like that Jamie. They're only trying to be nice. That's what we're all trying to do." When Esme said that I felt something inside of me break. Suddenly I was all calm.

"Jasper stop messing with my feelings" I fizzled, he nodded and then all the feelings was back worse than ever. "Help… I was doing great until you turned into the picture wasn't I?" My Scottish accent was starting to be heard again and it only got stronger as I continued talking. "I would have continued doing great if you hadn't started to mind in business that wasn't yours to mind about. And for every single time you try to help something have gotten a lot worse than it was before."

"Jamie don't…" Esme began but I didn't listen to her. I had lost count of how long I had been just swallowing everything, and I was actually holding back to keep myself from exploding like a bomb.

"Yeah and you can't really tell me what to and what not to do can you?"

"Jamie I…"

And by the next thing I said I already when I started saying it regretted it so badly I wish that I could just have it unsaid and sink through the floor not to see the hurt look in Esme's eyes.

"You're NOT my mum"

This is the second chapter I finish for my update- all- of- my- stories- at- the- same- time- project. YAY.

And Carlisle's going to be so mad, and Esme so sad…. But well… you'll have to wait to see what happens to the next chapter.

Just one more thing before I end this, a fact I found out about this chapter is that the day Jamie and Carlisle are talking about Ritalin and when Jamie should start and everything, it's February the seventh- February the seventh was the day I quit Ritalin.