Bunnypop: Okay, for the first about those marks- I have barely been using those before, as I haven't been able to place them right. Now I am trying to teach myself how to use them and please respect that it's going to take some while before I can place them all right and that I'm doing my best. For the second- something I have said many times before, English is not my first language- it's not even my second so I will be making mistakes and please respect that I am doing my best but I will be making mistakes anyway. Thanks for pointing it out and I will try to do it better from now on.

Okay, here we are. There was a reason I wanted to get it up today, and why is in the bottom A/N

"I can't feel anything yet." I told Carlisle when I, twenty minutes later came up to the children. "And I need to get to school now. Don't even say it Carlisle I know if something happens I've got your number, and to remember everything that seem wrong so I can tell you about it. I really got to go now."

I was standing by my locker the first time it happened, standing with to books on my arm and pulling out three others and suddenly my arms just twitched and I dropped- almost threw everything away. I couldn't really place what the twitch felt like suddenly it just felt like a bolt of electricity had gone through my arms and made them move, but it was gone again before I had had the chance to react.

I pushed down the books and papers I would need in my back and threw my locker closed with the thoughts spinning in my head. Had there actually been something I felt like my whole body trembled for just a split second or had I just imagined it? And if I had then what was it? Was it a side effect fro the medicines? Would it happen again?

For a little while I was going to call up Carlisle and ask him about if it was a possible side effect from the meds. But so I remembered I had taken a paper from the medicine can and put it in my bag just in case I would need it so I quickly ran into the bathroom where I would get to be alone and got it up and unfolded it.

"Tics, tics, tics…" I searched down the list of possible side effects whispering to myself. "Tics! Oh wow!" It turned out that tics and muscle twitching was a quite rare side effect- I couldn't be getting one of those right? At least not yet. It would have to take a while, at least a couple of days before I felt the side effects form the Ritalin… wouldn't it?

"Sorry I'm late." Almost ten minutes too late I ran into Miss Mallory's classroom and the geography lesson. "There was something I had to… WHOA." I suddenly felt one of those… electricity whatever going through my legs and stumbled, the second after it was in my arms again and I dropped everything I was carrying.

"Jamie… Jamie…" Miss Mallory came running over while I felt my face go as red as my hair. "Are you alright? Did someone push you or trip you?" I tried to say something, but the sound of my voice drowned in the sound of everyone else's laughing and at last I just rudely pushed Miss Mallory away, grabbed my things and blinded by tears of anger I stormed out of the classroom.

I spent the rest of the first class in the hallway, sitting in a corner of a hallway that was empty usually even during breaks. Sitting so still I could feel my whole body go from barely moving at all until it was shaking- it was mostly my hands and when I held one hand up I could see it was shaking in front of me.

And upon that every once in a while I'd feel those things that made it feel like electricity were going through my body. It wasn't that it hurt or anything but the feeling that I didn't have any control over my body was scary. Even if it so only lasted for a split second.

"Are you alright Jamie?" Emmett asked when we bumped into each other on the break. "Are you alright? You look a bit pale. You're not getting ill again are you? Or is it those medicines that…."

"SCH!" I shushed him quite rudely. "Not so loud." Emmett nodded and pretended to zip his lips together. While I turned in the other direction and pretended that I needed to go into a classroom in that direction not to have to face Emmett- or any of the other Cullen's anymore right now at least, because I really didn't want to… Oh damn it!

"Are you alright?" The next one to come up to me was Jasper and he leaned closer and talked again. "Getting close to you I feel depressed and quite angry. And right in this part of the school we're the only ones so... Is it your fault that I suddenly feel so annoyed? Do you want me to do something about it because you know I can?"

"Why won't you guys just leave me alone?" I turned in the other direction but Jasper followed. "UGH seriously? Why can't you guys.."

"Why do I feel nauseas? Are you alright?"

The thing was I was feeling nauseas all of a sudden. I didn't want to care about it and only continue towards my next class but with both being nauseas and then dizzy upon that I didn't actually have much to say about it.

"Hey, c'm'ere." Jasper I knew wasn't always the one for touching and coming close. But this with the Cullen's and little human me seem to make everyone like that and Jasper laid an arm around my shoulders and forced me close while he was rubbing my back.

"I gotta get to class." Almost immediately I pulled away again and pulled my bag higher up on my shoulder. "I really need to…" I didn't finish the sentence as another wave of nausea hit me and not to have Jasper follow me again I ran into the bathroom and into a stall.

The nausea had been quite bad, but standing in there it could not have been taking me half a minute at all before the nausea quickly eased again and I could run out of the bathroom and up to my next classroom just as the class were starting to walk into the classroom which was good because Miss Mallory was alright- Mrs. Green I did not want to see after I would have been late or skipped class.

I did notice something during math class, usually I would tell myself to concentrate, make up my mind that I would and then anyway zone away from the work. Today, if it was because of the meds, I sat looking down in the books for several minutes at the time and didn't even seem to notice how time went by.

I just wasn't so sure what I thought of it. Sure it could be annoying never to be able to concentrate but I had learned how to live with it and I knew for certain there were people who would feel better when they could concentrate better and I guess it was good only- it wasn't me!

"Hey, Dylan." Kiana shouted my last name as usual when we were walking out of class, I wasn't ready and jumped and turned to her. "What is with you? You seem so jumpy today!" It would have been easy to think that she was nice but I knew her and something was coming. "Or more jumpy than usual at least, with the difference that usually you're not jumpy just jumpy as in hyper and you don't seem like that today…" I didn't wait for Kiana's usual punch line to come and instead turned in the other direction.

Could it be possible… Because what she said almost had me thinking it. Barely anyone knew about the fact that I had ADHD, it was the Cullen's, mum and dad. I had never told anyone else. But was it actually possible that with what Kiana said right now that she was hinting that she knew about it all along.

Kiana couldn't know, she just couldn't! And if she could then my life was so over!

Coming into the cafeteria I looked around for the Cullen's. I would never have to buy food, they had to buy for themselves to pretend to be eating so they'd buy what they knew I liked the most and then I could get it instead of them- even if it was a lot more than I could eat at least everything wouldn't end up in some dumpster.

I just wasn't so sure about today, that stupid nausea had been getting worse and worse throughout the forenoon, to completely disappear for a while and then come back even worse than the last time. And if there was something I didn't really feel like doing it was eating.

"You feel more nauseas than before!" Jasper stated just as I sat down next to him. "And you're still… oh!" He silent when I glared at him- if only glares could kill a vampire! "You know Jamie, feeling like this would be excuse enough to go home." I glared at him again. "I'm meaning it Jame! You shouldn't be at school feeling like this… have you been…"

"Fine!" I pushed away the tray someone had reached me, stood up and grabbed my bag. "But I'm only doing it to shut you up and if I have tons of homework later I will blame you okay?"

"That's alright." Jasper shouted after me as I hurried out of the cafeteria. "At least I guess you can do homework without constantly losing… oh" I turned around and glared at him. "Sorry Jamie, I wasn't thinking about it."

"Hello." I swore quietly in my head when I heard Carlisle greet me as I came inside. "Who's… oh… What are you doing home so early? Are you ill again? Are you ill? Is it those meds?"

"GOD" I almost shouted at last. "It would go better if you actually let me speak. No I'm not ill but you could have mentioned how nauseas those medicines make you because Jasper noticed it and at last I went home to shut him up. So if you want to blame anyone for the fact that you aren't getting the day on your own blame him."

"I wasn't going to blame anyone." I had hoped that running down the stairs I would shake Carlisle off but he followed. "Nauseas you say? Oh well I heard that the medicines might give problems with the appetite but if you're nauseas from them I think that would go down after taking them for a few days."

"I am not taking them for a few days Carlisle!" I turned to him in the middle of the stairs- almost falling because I trembled once again. "And now I cannot stop shaking…" I continued down the stairs and threw myself to half lie down in the sofa, both my legs and my hands had started shaking worse than ever and it wouldn't stop this time.

"Are you alright?" Carlisle kneeled and reached for my wrist.. Even though, as a vampire, he barely had to touch it to feel my pulse. "A hundred and fifteen beats a minute… that is way too high. It could too be because of the meds or it most likely is but… Does that one bother you?" I shook my head. "Then I think it should be just fine to just wait it out. What is it?"

I hesitated, but kind of knew that I couldn't keep this from Carlisle anyway so I decided to just say it all and held up a hand to silent Carlisle until I had finished.

"I've been feeling nauseas on and off all day and it's only been getting worse and worse. I'm also shaking and although it's not so bad it bothers me most of the time I keep on getting these tics that makes it feel like electricity is shooting through the muscles and… if it's in my legs I stumble and if it's in my arms it looks like I throw what I'm holding away. It doesn't hurt, I barely have the time to react before it's over each time but it's so annoying and…" I suddenly felt something weird- almost like a heave that caused my tongue to move. "And I just had it in my tongue. Ugh!" I threw myself back towards the cushions.

"Have you been eating anything today Jamie?" Carlisle asked calmly. And right now the question really annoyed me. What did it matter if I had eaten or not? "I'm asking because a colleague of mine who's got a daughter who takes this kind of medicines told me that her daughter says that the side effects when you've got low blood sugar. And that even the nausea is at its worse when you haven't been eating. So have you been eating?"

"No" Carlisle seemed to remember something and felt his pockets and sat up fully on his way to stand up.

"Vanilla, chocolate or strawberry?" I raised an eyebrow. "I will be back in just a little while and you'll understand then. Now please just answer my questions?"

"Vanilla." I sighed, and pulled away when Carlisle slightly patted my shoulder passing by and then he was gone in the blink of an eye. I leaned forward and grabbed the remote control, but ended up just sitting and zapping in between the channels. Nothing seemed interesting at all. And I for sure knew why.

"Here." Carlisle made me jump when he suddenly was standing by my side holding a plastic cup with a huge milkshake or whatever in it. "Sorry I didn't mean to scare you. Take it, my colleague told me her daughter says it's easier to eat with the side effects when you don't have to chew. It's worth a try isn't it?" I shrugged. "Come on darling."

I took the plastic cup and slowly drank from the straw. I would never want to admit it but I could feel almost right away that whoever girl Carlisle was talking about she had been right about that the side effects were at their worse with low blood sugar.

Carlisle had sat down a bit away from me on the sofa, and was silently watching the TV which I had at last put on some bad soap. And the next half an hour the only words spoken were actually the ones on the TV since Carlisle didn't say anything, and I kept on going through in my head what I wanted to say and how I was going to say it."

"Carlisle I don't want to do this!" I said at last, all at once- like ripping a band aid off. "I really don't!"

"If the side effects are…"

"No I don't mean the side effects only I meant… I meant it all okay! The medicines and everything… this whole day has just been a disaster and the thing is… I know for sure there are people who needs these meds and of course I think that they should take them then but… I am not one of those people alright?"

"I think the side effects usually fade away more and more the first few days until you should barely have any…"

"Carlisle. You're not listening. I don't want meds! Not what they're supposed to do, not what they aren't supposed to do but do anyway or anything else with those pills! Do you get what I'm saying?" Carlisle finally nodded. "Can I flush the rest of the pills down the toilet?"

"That would be against the rules!"

"Can't I do it anyway?" Carlisle hesitated, but so he smiled kind of mischievously.

"Only if I can help!"

So… the reason I wanted to get this up today was actually that today is February the seventh (Maybe not in your area but in my area it's just after two in the morning so it is)- February the seventh three years ago was the day I quit Ritalin. So YAY, three years without meds. And yes, all of those side effects was the reason I quit, and yes- I used the side effects I used to get for the ones that Jamie had. This doesn't mean that I think everyone who takes Ritalin should quit because I don't, some people need it- and if you need it you should continue taking them. It was only that, I didn't, and Jamie didn't either. And also like Carlisle says that the side effects are usually bad the first few days and then they fade to barely anything… I guess what I am trying to say is, I don't want anyone to have read this chapter and think that they should quit or not start taking Ritalin when they might need it. Well, bye, bye. See you next time!