The bonfire was already a week ago. It was lovely. I became even better friends with the boys. But this week I kind of neglected them and spent a lot of time with Jack. He needed me just as much as I needed him. And I needed him a lot. And now I regretted it because Newt and Minho still weren't back from the maze and the doors were almost closing. I was pacing back and forth at one of the doors, then at one of the others. At each door I stood only a minute because I needed to make sure that they weren't arriving from another door when I was pacing here; What if something terrible happened? I thought about Gally. He was so stupid to go in the maze. I couldn't believe it. What was he doing there? Saving Minho and Newt? That wasn't anything like him. I heard shouting from the other side of the glade and ran there.

"What happened? What" I sprung to look over the boys but Jack came to me fast.

"It is Gally, the shuckface is back. Listen I need to look if he's okay. I will see you later" he said and walked away quickly. Everyone went to the side for Jack. A minute later he was back with Gally. He had Gally's arms and Clint and Jeff both had one leg. What happened to him? If he could read my thoughts, Alby stood next to me and answered my question:

"He's been stung by a griever. Probably run back immediately. I wonder why the griever didn't follow him. The doors are almost closing, maybe that's why. I hope Minho and Newt are back in time" and if his words were magic, I saw two shadows appearing at the doors at the other side of the glade. Even if I couldn't see them well, I knew who they were. Never had I run that fast. In a minute I was on the other side. I encouraged Minho. He was supporting Newt, who had hurt his feet some way. They still had two minutes. Enough time to get here. They came nearer and neared and I could see that they had cried. Oh, no, who died? Finally they were in the glade. Jack and Clint stood there ready to help while Jeff was with Gally.

"What happened? Is everything fine? Why did you cry? Is someone death. No, what, not possible. All the runners are here. Uhm... did you find a way out and are you crying because of happiness?" I asked hopeful.

"You should know" Minho said bluntly. He gave Newt to Jack and walked to the map room.

"Alby! Do you know what happened?" I asked him. I was confused. First Gally, now Newt.

"Nope, I'm going to Newt. Are you coming?" I nodded and followed him.

"Wait" I grabbed his arm and turned him around and gave him a hug. "Thank you"

"Why?" he asked confused but he hugged back. Why? Because he's a good friend.

"No reason" I answered. I let him go and we walked to homestead without saying another word. It was a peaceful silence.

Alby knocked on the door. "Newt? Can I come in?" Alby asked politely. The door opened and Clint came out. "Go. I have to go to Gally. He has it really bad." Alby entered and I followed. Newt sat on the bed. His whole right leg has been splinted and he had a bandage around his head. He would look cute if he didn't look so sad. I don't care, he is so cute, I sat down next to him and Alby went to sit at the other side of him.

"What actually happened?" I asked curious.

"I hate every second of every hour of every day in this shucking glade" he answered. First I didn't get his answer but then it dawned on me.

"Oh no, you didn't ... " I couldn't finish my question. I couldn't think about it. Newt began to cry and nodded. I was speechless. I didn't know how I felt. Angry, because he tried to commit suicide. Sad, because he wanted to leave me- us. Happy, because he was still alive. Alby also was silent but then he stood up, walked to the door, put his hand on the knob and said: "stupid shuckface that you are". Then he left.

"So... What was your plan? Am I - are we that horrible. That horrible that you want to I-don't-know-what? What was it actually? Did you want to jump of the cliff? Did you hang yourself and the rope broke? Did you want to throw yourself to the grievers?" My anger got the best of me. I was angry at him, because he left me. I needed him, he was my best friend. Maybe even more.

"The last" he said with a hoarse voice. I didn't expect an answer. That he could just answer me, like nothing happened, made me more angry.

"Oh, so you just leave us and throw yourself for the grievers. What happened to 'we need everyone'? That doesn't count for you or what? I almost did the same! But I'm still here! Because of you! For you! And now you're doing what YOU told me I couldn't do!" He began to cry even more. Just what I wanted! I was calm again, it was good to let everything out. Pity took over soon. I went to sit next to him. My hands were fists because I was still a bit angry.

"Just-just tell me what happened" you could feel the tension in the room.

"I w-was running and I thought about you a-and what you said. That we could never get out of here and then I looked *snif* around and thought; you're ri-right. So I climbed in the ivy and then I jumped *snif*"

"You didn't jump good enough" I said coldly.

"*snif* my foot got stuck *snif* and then I bumped my head against the wa-wall *snif*" and I was speechless, again. I stood back up.

"Maybe I should leave you alone" I left the room and homestead and walked to my apple tree.

I sat in it for half an hour and I only let a few tears fall. Then Minho came.

"Hey, sis, are you coming out? We need to talk" I let myself fall and Minho caught me.

"About?"

"Don't worry, not about Newt" a wave of relief came through me.

"About Gally" and there was the wave of contempt. "Now he's stung, Robert took over his keeper status but because of that a slopper, Ferdinand, is taking over Roberts job as a builder and because of that there's a place free with the sloppers and James asked if you want to do some chores for the sloppers."

"Because I'm a girl and that's what girls do."

"Exactly", Minho said.

"Fine" I said without thinking. I needed something to keep me distracted.

"What? Why do you just say yes? This is the part where you get your stick and hit James" he said disappointed.

"Do you want me to do that? Then I get again a day in the slammer."

"That's why" Minho grinned.