Lizzy sat motionless in the carriage, her face burning with guilt and tears dropping from her eyes.
Two months ago she swore her heart was broken but sitting in front of Longbourn now she felt that it was shattered for good.
She had been so foolish to believe Lady Catherine and Charlotte. She knew she should have trusted her love but her insecurities forced her to consider the lies.
How would Mr. Darcy ever forgive her and how could she ever get out of the carriage and face him now. Lizzy sat stunned, whipping her tears away with the corner of her wrap.
Then a solution came to her.
Jane! Lizzy knew that Jane would know what to do, but first she would have to tell Jane what had transpired over the last two months. Summoning her nerve Lizzy began to ready herself for the flight from the carriage. All the while Mr. Darcy words continued to haunt her.
"My good opinion once lost is lost for ever"
Mr. Darcy had said those words months ago at Netherfield, but would his stern resolve hold firm against Lizzy.
Darcy had left the carriage so quickly he was not positive if the last few thoughts had or had not escaped his lips.
After taking a few steps he realized quickly that indeed he had said that fateful last line, "I aimed to make you my mistress, not just of my bed, but of the whole of Pemberley."
Darcy could not believe he allowed himself to say it, and in turn allowed Miss Bennet to see into the depths of his heart and soul.
How he ached to have her, true as his wife, but also as his lover.
As Darcy continued on his way to the house he could feel his heart pounding. He was so angry with her for believing the lies from his Aunt but he could not help himself to feel attracted to her as he left the carriage. The look of regret on her face, coupled with her confession of love made it very difficult for Darcy to continue on his path.
He desperately wanted to return to the carriage and forgive her, but he knew it would have to be up to her to come seek him out. Darcy just hoped that it would not take her long to see the error she had made and build the trust back in his heart.
Ushered into the wedding celebration Mr. Darcy quickly joined the groom.
"Darcy where have you been?" Mr. Bingley quizzed his friend smiling. "No matter you're here now, come and greet the new Mrs. Bingley."
Darcy and Bingley passed by Miss Bingley on their way to Jane.
Darcy could not help looking back at Caroline who seemed to preoccupied with watching the front entrance to Longbourn.
Unbeknownst to anyone in the room, by the time Darcy and Bingley came to stand next to the new Mrs. Bingley, Caroline had already departed the parlour and was on her way down the front pathway to the waiting carriages.